~Mirri

The purple hamster was in hiding again.
The flu I caught at Eurofurence turned out to be Covid, which was annoying but rather mild. Had to stay home for a week and all was okay again.
But somehow, during that one week, my mind dropped into a depression again. I haven't been very stable this whole year, so it's no big surprise but after a few weeks it turned into the real thing. =/
Mood swings, sadness, no energy to get out of bed at all... at least the self-harm/suicidal tendencies weren't as severe, which is a good thing.
It's no help that things are getting busy at work, now that Christmas is coming up. I still need more time to relax and calm my nerves than I'm used to and there are still days I can't manage to get things done at all. But at least there are days that I'm able to work on art related things. As long as people tell me what to draw, I can do that, but my own creativity is more or less dead right now and I can't wait for this to change!

Anyways... enough of the negative things!
I just uploaded this year's advent calendar and I'm really looking foreward to working on it! Seeing how happy people are about their little gifts makes me happy in return and I could use some happiness right now! =3

Next thing on my list will be NordicFuzzCon. I got a spot in the Dealer's Den, so I'd like to get some new prints and merch done until then.
Also I'll start taking pre-orders for themed badge commissions once the first samples are done.

There are more things I'm planning but for now I'll have to take little hamster steps until my mind is more stable again.

The hamster is back home and had a great time at Eurofurence.
It was an exhausting time but in a positive way. Looks like I got a flu as an extra gift but it was worth it!

Seeing all you guys again was great and I'm so grateful for all the positive feedback I got. You all are too kind ><
Thanks to everyone who bought merch from my table or bid on my art show pictures! <3
These conventions are a lot of work but I'm happy about it and it strenghtens my mental health, so I'm thinking about adding one or two more to my annual schedule.

Next one will be Nordic Fuzz Con in February. I hope to get a table in the dealer's den, so fingers crossed!

For now, I'll take a few days to rest and recover a bit and then it's finally time to get back to my regualr work and a few upcoming projects.
Soon it will be time for my Advent Calendar again, because I'd like to get most of it done before Christmas season starts at work.. ><
Also I'm working on a comic project with the amazing  kaynkayn I don't want to say too much about it before it's done but it will include sexy space porn and hot werewolf sex ;)

That's it for now, so have a great day!

Less than a week to go until this year's Eurofurence and I can't wait! Last year I had a lot of fun and I bet this year's going to be awesome too.
I got two small panels in the Art Show (one SFW and one NSFW) and it's nice to come up with some traditional art again.

I'll spend most of my time in the Dealer's Den, having my table next to some of my besties <3
 Keksfrosch - Loves frogs and has some lovely plushies in the Art Show!
 Dolphiana - Visit her for the most adorable animals and colorful art!
 Isuna - Looking for some sexy anthros? Have a look at her art!
 Kaynkayn - Go buy her super fluffy and pretty tails! Also she has super cool space stuff! =3

I got some new stuff with me, like opossum charms, postcards, even more stickers, rat bags and more! As always, I'll be open for sketch and badge commissions at the con, so come early to get a slot ;)

If you want to make sure that you get a badge, feel free to contact me to pre-order a badge for pick up at the con.
Here's some more info about them:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57906080/

Feel free to visit me in the Dealer's Den to browse my wares or just for a little chat.
Hope to see you there!

I'm more or less back...
My vacation was nice in concept but very bad in execution, because I got sick on my first day off. Yays....
So I spent all week sleeping and drawing Art Fight stuff. Sounds kinda nice but with coughing, sneezing and all that it was rather exhausting >_<

Today was my first day at work and after about one hour, I realised that I'm still too sick to do anything... which annoys me beyond words!

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that I'm back but I'll be a bit slow, at least this week. Hope to be able to work on some commissions but it depends on my concentration.

*sneezing hamster hugs*

Just a quick journal to let you all know that the hamster is taking a week off!
I spent the first week of my vacation, doing some commission work but since my mind is a clusterfuck, I couldn't relax like that.
So I'm officially on a break until next week!

Trying to switch off my busy mind, sleeping, reading, spoiling my rats and drawing Art Fight stuff!

See you in a week! <3

I'm taking some artistic freedom commissions, besides the regular ones.

Portrait: 50€ per slot
Full Body: 80€ per slot

Additional info:
!Artistic Freedom! - You can give me an expression/mood/idea for the picture but the pose and details are up to me
- no wips; done in one step

Further information can be found here: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Just leave a comment or send a note if you're interested

- Payment via paypal or bank transfer
- Any species is possible.

Here are some samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48945648/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48969891/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55752786/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45888014/

Slot 1:  Sekinar - full body - DONE
Slot 2:  Lengus - full body
Slot 3:  Rajak - full body - DONE
Slot 4:  Ghostbear2k - full body - DONE
Slot 5:  DilandauKale full body
Slot 6:  Garuo - full body

Hiyas!

Quick little update from the tired hamster.
I'm happy to announce that I got a table in the dealer's den at Eurofurence this year. Some of my very close friends are going to join me, so I'm really looking foreward to it! I'm trying to get a panel in the art show as well to offer some new originals but that's not final.

Besides that, a lot of my time will be going into finishing a NSFW manga for a small anthology and there'll be a little break for the Art Fight.

Currently I'm recovering from another mental breakdown. I'm taking more meds again, building up my resilience and trying to get my life back on track.
It always starts to crumble at the edge and then I lose my grip completely... *sigh*
I'm not fine at the moment but a bit more stable than I was over the past three months, so I guess that's a good thing.

*hamster hugs*
-Mirri

I really need to get back into regular commissions so...

I'm taking some artistic freedom portrait commissions, 50€ per slot

A small (1000x1400pixel) portrait/bust of one character with a simple nature background. The amount of detail and shading depends on the character's design.

Additional info:
!Artistic Freedom! - You can give me an expression/mood/idea for the picture but the pose and details are up to me
- no wips; done in one step


Just leave a comment or send a note if you're interested

- Payment via paypal or bank transfer
- Any species is possible.

Here are some samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48945648/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48969891/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43826345/

Slot 1:  kier_ish - DONE
Slot 2:  Kianyx - *reserved*
Slot 3:  Mizuki-Akemi - DONE
Slot 4:  Schattenfenris - DONE
Slot 5: OPEN
Slot 6: OPEN
Slot 7: OPEN

As I mentioned, I'll be at NFC this week and I'm really looking foreward to it!
I didn't get a table in the Dealer's Den BUT I'll be in the Artist Alley (which is located in Valhalla)
I'll be offering commissions (badges and sketches) and I'll bring some prints, stickers and other merch.
If you have any special requests or questions, you can reach me via telegram during the con (https://t.me/Dragonmirri)

So feel free to say hi! :D

Can't wait to see you guys again!

Hiyas!

Hope you all had a good start into 2024!

I spent the first two weeks taking a break from the busy Christmas time at work and to cure a pretty annoying bronchitis.
Now I'm starting to get back into my artistic workflow... or at least I'm trying ;)

Last year was pretty meh, when it comes to artistic work and I really want to change that in 2024. Some things that are already planned for this year:

Starting to offer commissions again
I rarely took any commissions at all last year, due to some mental health issues but I want to start taking new ones soon. Still have some things to finish but then I'll open some slots.

Conventions
So far I can confirm that I'll be attending Nordicfuzzcon next month but only in the artist alley because I didn't get a table in the dealer's den. But I'll be there!
Dokomi and Eurofurence are also planned, so let's hope the best! =3

Comic project
I was asked if I wanted to draw something for a comic anthology that's going to be published, so of course I couldn't resist. I won't go into details yet but it's going to be a gay vampire/werewolf story ;)

One sketch a day
Did this challenge a few years ago and decided to do it again this year. It's a themed sketchbook again and this year it's "Nocturne" our Vampire the Masquerade chronicle. If you're interested, feel free to follow me on instagram because that's where I'm sharing them - www.instagram.com/dragonmirri/

These are some of my planned things for the new year.

Big hamster hugs for all of you!
-Mirri

October and Halloween are coming and I'd really like to do one or two little themed commissions or YCHs.
You all know that decisions are very hard, so I'd like to ask you which of the following things would be interesting for you to see:

Option A:
Halloween themed art - Something cute, something funny or mildly spooky. I alsow have some old sketches of potential Halloween adopts lying around....

Option B:
Gortetober - I won't have the time to do the whole challende but I was thinking about offering some prompts as commissions

Option C:
Kinktober - Same as with the Goretober, I don't have enough time but doing some prompt commissions could be fun

Option D:
Rattober - Since drawing ratties is fun I was thinking about doing some rat-themed commissions like turning your character into a chaos potato or YCHs with added rats

I'll come up with something but I'm very curious where your interests lie.
Thanks for yout time! <3

I'm still struggeling with... life in general but I keep trying to get back on track.
Currently I'm still insecure, when it comes to full illustrations, so I'd like to take another small step.

I'm taking two artistic freedom portrait commissions, 50€ per slot

A small (1000x1400pixel) portrait/bust of one character with a simple nature background. The amount of detail and shading depends on the character's design.

Additional info:
!Artistic Freedom! - You can give me an expression/mood/idea for the picture but the pose and details are up to me
- no wips; done in one step


Just leave a comment or send a note if you're interested

- Payment via paypal or bank transfer
- Any species is possible.

Here are some samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48945648/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48969891/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43826345/

Slots:
1.  Scow2
2.  Lengus

Feel free to ask if you have any questions

Hi guys!

Some of you may have noticed that since last September, things kinda went downhill for me. I fell into a very long and exhausting depression and simply stopped caring about anything.
Everything felt pointless, especially putting any effort in my art. I felt tired and worthless.
I started taking my medication again and since late Januray, at least my anxiety got better. Still, I didn't care about anything.

In February I attended NFC, my first con since 2020 and I went there without any expectations and without preparation. It turned out to be a great time! (Ignoring the fact that I got Covid afterwards :P)
I met some cool artists, people I haven't met in years and had a wonderful time with my friends.
Thanks to everybody who stopped at my table in the dealer's den to buy something or just to be nice! You really cheered me up a lot!

After all these months of thinking about how to motivate myself and to start doing things again, I came to the point where I decided that things had to change.
I'm turning 40 in a few weeks and most of my life I tried to please others, setting back my own needs because of what others may think.
I don't want this anymore, at least when it comes to my creativity.
So I'm in the process of changing things.

My goal is to start over in May.

- I'm planning to update my Patreon and to upload more art there
- I'll change my commission process in general
- My fursona will change a bit

I'm aware that some of these changes might cost me followers and stuff but I realised that I simply don't want to care about weird numbers on the internet. I'd like to have some fun and do things that make me happy.

Thanks for reading!

So here's an update on why I wasn't around much lately:

A lot of sad and stressful things happened in my life last month and I didn't have a lot of things that kept me going.
My day job is currently a dumpster fire and the weeks before Christmas are never fun, working retail!
I mentioned in my last journal that my rats needed to have surgery and sadly Fluse passed away later that day. Fee is still recovering and had to deal with some complications, so we had to visit the vet a lot lately. It's getting better but she still needs treatment.
Last week my grandpa passed away. It wasn't unexpected but it's still sad.

I needed a while to find a way to deal with those things. I'm still not fully done with it but I feel like I have found a rough way to go from here.

Quick info about commissions:
The advent calendar commissions are all done and since my mind is calmer now, I'm picking up where I left, finishing the remaining ones.

Thanks for your patience and support! <3

Let's have some good news first: I think it's rather safe to say that my recent depression has passed. Yays!

Sadly there are a few other things I'm not so happy about.
What stresses me most is the fact that two of my rats need to have surgery tomorrow. They're both two years old and one of them had to have surgery before, so I know that she has a problem with anesthetics. That's enough reason for me to be worried... =/
There are some other things too and that combined pile of problems causes additional stress too...

All I want to say is:
I'm working on my commission/Patreon/raffle stuff but in a rather weird and unorganized way... ><
I'm pretty sure that it's going to take a while for me to get back on track, so please bear with me.
I haven't forgotten about you, I'm just slow. ^^;

Hey guys!

Thank you very much for all your comments on my raffle! Those who answered my little question gave some very helpful feedback and motiviation to finish some things I never finished because I thought that nobody would want to see them.

I asked a random number generator to pick the winners for me and here they are:

First winner:
 zippuzzle (character drawing, detailed shading and background)

Second winner:
 DilandauKale (character drawing, simple shading and background)

Third winner:
 Specterdragon (character drawing, simple shading, no bg)

https://www.dropbox.com/s/ymke7kq2z.....nners.jpg?dl=0

Thank you very much for your support!

I just wanted to let you know that I'm stuck in a depressive phase again. It's been about a week now and I'm still not quite sure about how long and severe it's going to be.
At home my anxiety is annoying but I can manage it but as soon as I leave the house it goes through the roof... This means that I'll have to take my sedative drugs to be able to go to work aaand this means that I'll be even more tired than I already am.

My mood keeps changing every day, my mind is all over the place and I feel unable to maintain any personal contacts. Answering comments and commission related stuff still works at the moment.

It's the same stupid shit all over again. Nothing I do is good enough, I don't deserve happiness, I'm a disappointment.....
I know that those thoughts aren't helpful and I know they aren't true... but at the moment it feels like they are.

This phase will end, I just have to hold out... but at the moment it just sucks!

I know that this isn't a very interesting journal but sometimes it helps me a bit to write it all down and in case it gets worse and my anxiety fully forces me to isolate myself again, you know why.

Okies... I'm currently a bit burned out when it comes to full illustration commissions and so I'm thinking about doing some more simple/themed ones for a while.
Since October is coming up, I was thinking about offering some spooky themed commissions.
Maybe a tamer and shorter version of Goretober or a little Spooktober.... A list with prompts and you guys can pick which one you'd like to have....

So far it's just a thought but if you'd be interested in it, I could come up with something.

Let me know what you think about it. ^^

I'm currently updating my commission types and prices and to see how long it takes to finish a certain type, I'm going through them by drawing some new samples.

Now it's time for my artistic freedom portraits, so I'm offering a few slots.
These will be the last ones, going for the old price of

30€ per slot

- Payment via paypal or bank transfer
- Any species is possible.

Here are some samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45304574/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40760395/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40757910/

Slots:
1.  ProudLioness - DONE
2.  Norua - DONE
3.  Tygon - DONE
4.  Rishary - DONE
5.  sukiedog - DONE

Feel free to ask if you have any questions

Time for some new commissions! :D

Prices can be found here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46569619/
Additional info: https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/mirri/

Since I still have some other things to work on, I'll just take three for now, maybe a fourth, depending on complexity.

Slots available:
1.  Athalean - DONE
2.  Scow2 - DONE
3.  Lengus - DONE

The Art Fight is over and I'm back to my regular schedule.

The past month was so much busier than I expected and I didn't draw as much as I wanted.
At work, we're still terribly understaffed and it's starting to affect my mental stability. I'm pretty annoyed because I've been doing quite well over the past months. Now I had my first little breakdown and anxiety is starting to creep in when I'm trying to fall asleep.... ><

On the positive side, I'm pretty busy preparing the final details for our LARP event next month.
Wrote a lot of info about the characters, the story and other things, bought all the stuff for my costume and made some decorative elements and items for the plot.
After a very long pause, I finally got the chance to play some DnD and Cthulhu again, which also helps me to forget the real life stress for a while.

So that's a quick summary of what's been going on.

For those who are interested in getting a commission slot, I'm updating my to-do list today, so I should be able to put up a journal for new ones tomorrow.

I just finished my last regular commission today, just in time for the Art Fight.
Just like last year, I'm taking a break from commissions during this month because it really helped my mental health to have this artistic vacation before the busy time of the year begins.
You can find me here:
https://artfight.net/~Mirri


I'll be working on some Patreon related commissions/rewards but outside of that I'll take new ones on August 1st.
There'll be two more exceptions:

1.Since I won't be at Eurofurence this year, I'd love to offer some badge commissions in advance, simply because I miss drawing those! I'll post a notice with all the information soon.

2. I'm still offering one fullbody illustration with hard shading for the Naturama project!
For more information, please have a look at this link:
http://naturama-projekt.org/en/naturama.php

Thanks for all your messages.

Taken slots:
1.  Aarron

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For those of you who are interested in supporting a good cause, please have a look at the Naturama project!
http://naturama-projekt.org/en/naturama.php

Me and a lot of other artists are offering commissions there to support various animal related charities!

Just wanted to let you know that I might take a step back this week.
I'm still working on commissions but I'm currently not as fast as I'd like to be.

After just feeling sad yesterday, I slipped into full anxiety today. Yay!
Took me about two hours to find the courage to go outside to buy groceries.
My head's full of negative thoughts, making me feel bad when I try to do things for myself and undermining my fragile self-esteem.
I start feeling like a disappointment and a burden to everyone again.
I know it's the depression speaking but that knowledge doesn't make the thoughts and emotions go away.... and that's frustrating!
I want to feel better! I want to be happy!

So just in case, I'll try to focus a bit more on keeping those thoughts in check this week. I really don't want to risk falling into another depressive episode after just getting out of the last one!

I'm still around, I'm still working on stuff but I may take a while longer to answer notes and things like that.

Sad Mirr is pretty sad today, so I'm offering some rough sketches to distract myself from the things in my head.

I don't know how many I'll do but if you want, feel free to post a character reference.