~CrazedBlizzard

I'm slowly going to try coming back. I got a new job and I sure do love it. I'm also trying to get myself to draw more so purchasing an iPad has helped. I am on other sites and kinda more active as for new art-trades are mutuals only. Sorry I just don't have the time all. I hope to open commissions someday when I feel myself getting back on track. Anywho for those Who do read this I hope you all will be there as I try to overcome Art block and draw once more. :)

I am going to be streaming here in a bit. Here is the link:
https://picarto.tv/CrazedBlizzard
I am just setting everything up X3

So after like 2 years ha ha I have finally returned to FA XD. I am so long overdue and I am deeply sorry but I have officially left Deviantart after being on there for 8 years lmao, I grew out of it.

ANYWAY New plans for here!

I am first going to clean out my entire gallery bc all I see is trash cringy trash .n.
Upload new artwork and try to get back into drawing, reupload my commission prices and stuff.

BUT

I am excited to restart my new FA journey! Anywho bare with me people lol

If anyone want to see my artwork I tend to be more active on my devaintart account.
There are some art on there that I do not upload here, but I wanted to let everyone know lol.
I am sorry I am not active on this site :/
I got it for a friend and since they aren't active as much I kinda vanished a bit .n.

Anywho more art on da that I don't upload here, such as commissions and art trades/request and all that stuff.
However I will still upload things on here, just not everything sooo yaaa :3

I am like I will draw something right now! Someday! in a year....never?
I have a few drawings that I worked on but the motivation to finish them is like zero, nada, zlich, I got nothing man, nunnnn.
My motivation is dead right now.
I have like none and every time I draw it looks worst then a stick figure.
Yet it is that bad which is a bit sad to me lol.
I was able to draw that thing I uploaded a minute ago but after that I was back to no motivation.
It went to zlich so fast I couldn't even sulk about it.

NEHhhhhh, I have so many sketches on my computer that I am like not wanting to finish.
My motivation is like dead right now, nehh me need some help.
Now for motivation didn't I say it was like idk zilch nun zero nada all them words.
So who knows when I will finish this goody goody bullshit!

Anywho me go now I have some dramatical murder to play
<3 Noiz is love Noiz is life <3
<3 Ren is love Ren is life <3

So I started college Monday and I wanted to let everyone know that art will be uploaded when I have the time, bc I am also getting a job here hopefully. So with having to work in the morning and classes in the evening I will barely have any time to sit down and draw. I however will try to get some art in bc I do have an art class at my college which we draw in and ya know lol. So more than likely I will be uploading traditional artwork and if I have some time on weekends I will be drawing digitally and try my best to squeeze some of that in. I have professional colored pencils so Ima try and get some coloring in! I need all the luck bc y'll know that I don't like coloring, but shading is my best friend XD. Anywho a small quick update for everyone and now I return to my homework yay lol.

Sorry guys like the whole time I was trying to log back into my account on DA bc they blocked my ip address. I finally got my ip address to change but in the meantime I have been moving a lot of stuff. I got new furniture for the living room so all I have been doing is moving things this weekend. My body hurts so much I can barely move DX I am trying to get back into drawing but it hurts every time I move, but I am a bit better now so Ima try doing some digital artwork tomorrow. Hopefully my body stops hurting soon and I can get some artwork down for everyone :3

So my birthday is tomorrow and already it will be a horrible day. I get to be home alone from 8 to 6 all day tomorrow this will totally be the best birthday ever ugh. Well this will give me time to get some drawings in for my art accounts. So more than likely a shit ton of artwork will be coming in tomorrow.

So I decided to catch you guys up on my life, well as you see I have been busy as hell. I need to find a place to live and a good job, not to mention college shit. I had a huge family problem which I won't go into details bc it was that bad. I have shit tone of artwork to do over on my deviantart account. Oh and I've been very depressed and irritated lately, my birthday is coming up and I am starting to dislike my birthday. So ya a lot of bad shit has happen, nothing good at all woo...

HOLY SHIT I CAN'T BELIEVE I PASSED!! I WAS A NERVOUS WRECK AND MY NERVES WERE SHOT LIKE OMG! I am so happy though now I don't have to stay home anymore and I can go and do things now. Bruh my heart is going crazy and I am so happy I got the nice lady. Luckily I didn't have to parallel park, I had to park backwards which was nice. ksjefbczoiabxwuiesbfd!! NOTHING CAN EXPRESS HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW!!!

So like somehow my laptop got a crack in it and I had to take it in! So like digital artwork will be on hold unless I use my older laptop which sucks btw D:. It will take them some weeks to fix it up and I am hoping it is soon bc I just bought a mic for it. This sucks right when I was going to get back into making more digital work why karma whyyyy!!!

Ello guys :3 nothing much has been happening. Besides all my friends talking about gf/bf and I am like like, nehhhh asexual nehhh. I usually just zone them out because relationship makes me think of a certain one I had and I am like no depression!! WELLL actually It doesn't make me depressed though more of emotionless bc nehh I don't feel anything. More likely I feel bad idk I am rambling. Other news my art won't art for meh like my hand is like fuck you I quit. Like those sketchbook drawings took me two class periods bc I couldn't draw D:. UMM itunes is a bitch and deleted all 486 of my songs off of my ipod, itunes is a bitch nugget. It took me forever to download them all again. I get my licence next monday and I am never staying home. Its nice having my own car bc I can go places and yay, this weekend I will be purchasing materials for yarn tails and plushies. Along with that I will be making a paypal account to start doing money commissions.

UM I do not have anything else to say as for now I am waiting for my buddy to text meh back, I have a feeling she forgot about me. NEHHH I am so bored and I need entertainment. Neh. Neh. Neh...nehhhh..

btw Slade Wilson from arrow is bae <3<3<3

I am sorry guys but I just got a puppy and all my time has been getting her potty trained and all this! So art has been slowed down but no worries this weekend I should be finishing up some artwork. I just have been hell of a busy and holy shit I haven't had a relaxing day in like weeks I swear. Anywho I got a new puppy her name is peaches she is a golden retriever mix with a lab, and she is so sweet. I love her and she sleeps next to me on her doggy bed, but Saturday drawings will come in! I promise.

So Idk I am bored so I decided to explain why I made my cute little pokesona MOMO! and also why he is a guy! As you all know I am female yadda yadda but I have a male fursona the reason is well...their is a lot!!!
Firstly.
I was tired of a female fursona (blizzard), she was my main fursona for so long. Not counting her pokemon stage she was many different animals, wolf, ferret and I believe a cat idk.
Secondly.
Would you believe me if I said Momo's was just going to be a well trial male pokesona??? That is indeed true I am not lying! He was actually just going to be a test run, something simple not well me.
Thirdly.
However I grew to love drawing that cute little glaceon on everything I could. He was replacing many characters, Blizzard, Dusk, Arai and many more I have made.
UHH...Fourthly???
Like I said I was tired of having a female fursona, so Momo became male, I really had no intention to make him well basically me. Hell I should of known I gave him my personal nickname when I first made him.
UMM...Fifthly???
Male. Yes he is a guy. He has a dick! As you may know I am a female, and so you would think my pokesona should be female, welllll you can suck a dick bc it isn't! This does not mean I am ya know transexual or anything like that! I am happy with who I am a girllll ya know yadda yadda. Yet Momo became a boy anyway and I absolutely love it, me being a tomboy and pervert and get along so well with my guy friends it was perfect. I slowly started to see myself in that cute little black fluff of a pokemon.
*gave up* SIXTHLY!!!.
As you see Momo is homosexual, totally not my obsession with yaoiiii lol ok I would be lying if I said that. Even though I am asexual, I will not make Momo's orientation to be asexual that is more of Blizzard. Even if she isn't my main self anymore she still has her characteristics. Momo will stay homosexual bc i fucking can make him that! ya! lol.
Seventhly.
Trying to remember is giving me a headache!!! Ummm, Momo is basically me just not as a female! He has the same likes, dislikes, same height, age,and well piercings (snakebites)! He is a pervert and open minded like I am! Momo is me and will always be me. I just love my cute little fluff ball of a glaceon :3 I want to say so much more but I got a headache from thinking to far back. He was created in 2013 man that was so long ago, so maybe I'll explain more in the future who knows lol. Oh ya! He did go through many changes before he became a glaceon! He went through 3 pokemon stages Vulpix, Houndour, and Zorua! However glaceon won me over! He's a glaceon well bc at the time I was very heartless and never cared about anyone, so ya know ice type and my ice heart seemed perfect. Even if I am not like that to this day, he will always be my cute glaceon!

I really do not do much on FA, its all because I am so use to Deviantart. I am trying to be on Fa more but it is hard and all. I want to upload more mature art which will be going on here. I am working on trying to master the anatomy of male and females and maybe animals a bit more. I want to challenge myself so I can become a better artist I was to surpass what my style is now. I feel like I can do it but it might take some time, but I can wait forever. I want to become better with my art,shading and everything bc I am sure I can do so much more than I am doing now. Hopefully I come to a style that I will absolutely love and maybe others will also, but right now I am not happy with it and I hope some day I will be proud of whatever style I choose.

So I got myself my own car and a brand new laptop! So you are for sure I will be making a whole shit ton of livestreams! That is the main reason why I have not been doing any on my old laptop! It sucked ass! Besides that I fucking love my car! Its amazing and awesome and superlicious! I love driving it so smooth and everything is perfect on it. Man these past two days have been fucking amazing! I love my brother and step brother so much right now!

Most annoying pet peeve that irks the shit out of me is when you are trying to help someone and they just don't fucking listen. It drives me utterly insane and all I do is keep helping but they don't want to fucking listen and keep thinking negative. I hate that so much and it makes it pointless for me to continue to help someone but I do bc I am a caring friend. I have went through the same shit so why won't they freaking listen to me. I have experienced everything they have went through and when I try to help, nothing but bs in the end. I am not lying when I am trying to help but I just wish they would listen some more.

other news
Besides that annoying thing I have nowhere to go for Thanksgiving bc my sister is a child. So my plans I was going to do got screwed over so I get to stay home alone tomorrow, yay me.

So I have a feeling I am getting a fever bc I feel it. For halloween I stayed the whole weekend at my friend place we watched movies it was amazing. At the moment I feel like I am going to pass out bc I feel so light headed. Um me and my friend keep having silly arguments and its so much fun. She wants to drag me to south korea and im like nooo lol, but I have no say I swear. Its nice speaking with her again shes all cool and short . I have no idea why she likes calling me a child when im older than her :3. I really do hope i don't get sick bc i really do not need to deal with that, I have to much stuff this week to do.

So i never say anything on here. All my ranting and stuff go on my da and copying the same journal and posting it here seems pointless. So ill update a little bit on my life.

For starters i havent been much happy lately ive been really depressed for a week maybe more days. I can act very well bc i dont want my friends to worry, and i really dont have a main reason why i am depressed. Drama is everywhere in my school and i am tired of it. I keep getting dragged into the middle of it somehow and idk. People in general is annoying me when i want to be alone that's the main problems. I have been drawing a lot in my sketchbook and friend requests. All this and crap and its stressing me out so badly its making my nerves go crazy which sucks. I just hope something can turn my day around tomorrow i really need something to brighten my day.

So tomorrow is my friend's birthday party (her birthday is Tuesday) and i got invited to go to the beach with her. However rain is being a little bitch and wont stoppppp! Like seriously where i live is bi polar as fuck, make up your mind weather. Well i hope it does stop raining tomorrow so we can go. I also have a bday drawing for her and a ring i found in my room i know she'll like. Its a snake ring and she loves all types of reptiles. I actually can't wait and when i come home ill probably draw some more. I have some ideas of what to draw like im kinda in the mood to try and draw venom. I have a feeling i'll fail but i wont give up i know someday ill be good enough to draw people someday. I mean if i can draw furries and not people which is strange. So half this summer i am going to be practicing. Anywho like i said ill be having a blast tomorrow if i can go, and the rain stops. Sadly i have to wake up early and im not use to that anymore lol. Well time to draw some tattoo designs for me and my sister since we are getting a shared tattoo on my bday. I can't wait!

Also sometime this week i made a new tumblr but never added the link to here. So if anyone wants they can go follow me on tumblr. Here is the link
http://crazedblizzard.tumblr.com/

I've notice i never write a journal on here bc well all my bs goes on DA. Anywho ill catch some people up on whats going on bc i can lol. Anywho umm for starters i may have to get my wisdom teeth taken out bc last weekend on a Saturday my mouth was bleeding badly. Which sucked bc i woke up with blood in my mouth and i hated it. Turns out one of my teeth got forced back bc i have to many teeth in my mouth apparently. Its like seriously bugging the hell out of me for one bc its on of my bottom teeth in the front, and two it may make me get braces. So my dentist will not see a happy person tomorrow i may snap at them. In other news i have a date next saturday and im a bit nervous about it like by a lot. However i have a feeling i can do it right now i need to go to the store and buy them something. I am thinking of a stuff animal or a rose but unsure if i cant ill just draw them something and explain. School has been a bitch like im on complete shut down and dont even care anymore about school. It sure does suck i am only a junior bc i want to graduate and get this over with and fast.I also got some new piercings they are rainbow colored and spikes and since i have some weird friends, they like to poke it and get hurt. Sometimes i believe i will never understand their weirdness of touching my snakebites. Also i am getting a ironman 3d case for my ipod bc it looks so cuteeeee i wish they had deadpool though. I saw one at the mall but it was for iphone i believe i am not sure though. Well not much has happen in my life besides that freaking tooth problem. Now that it is Sunday its time to relax and watch anime bc i aint doing shittttt lol.

So finally i decided to make one of these bc i tended to forget. ANYWHO this is for all the Pokemon players out their and i need some friend codes for the safari. I would love anyone to please either message me or comment below their code. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU GIVE ME YOUR FRIEND CODE!

My code is: 0877-0712-1892
Name: Blizzard or Momo
Friend Safari: Bug UNFORTUNATELY >.<'

So my wisdom teeth are a pain in the ass at the moment. It turns out one is starting to push the other and just ow ow ow! On top of that my tonsils started to hurt just not my day ugh.

School is approaching faster than I have expected. Meaning ill have to delay drawing until the weekends or the time off. It sucks but only 2 more years than I am done with it completely! When I do find a great scheduled time to draw I will. Just gonna have to wait until I figure something out. I am only going half days so it'll be much harder. Not to mention I have honour classes which will need my full attention. Best bet weekends or the times off from the hell hole we call school will be drawing times. Unsure yet ill have to figure something out before my two last days of freedoms are up. Gosh i wish I was homeschool.

I expected this summer to be better than last but it isn't. Just another day going by and I am just tired like usual. This weekend will be fun however get to go to Ohio! Also I will be getting a job so lack in drawing maybe. Also next month I will be getting older! Gosh i am so old its not even funny lol. I'm starting to remember the good ol' days. Anywayyyyyy, I hope to draw before this summer becomes more hectic. Snowball is also a main reason I get distracted. She is just so darn cute!