~CovetedPeacock

TL;DR: Your local prettykitty doesn’t know what to write, and more troubling: she is really wound up. h e l p m e ? ? ?

Feel like the best way to consolidate my thoughts is to cover the two big topics on my mind: 1) the smut, and 2) my, uh, being very down bad since I started going into storm prep.

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First thing’s first: uh, thank you for all the love towards my first piece of smut????? I kinda just wrote it on a whim after talking in F-Chat about how I missed writing and getting a push from  Phen to actually give it a shot. The storm knocking out my internet connection combined with my cellular service in my apartment was the key to getting it accomplished so quickly, and I’m kinda really proud of what I made! Thanks again to Phen for being so encouraging, and to  MoonlitMoff for similarly being thrilled by the idea and being so supportive of what I made! ❤️

I’ve had the thought lingering since posting it, of trying to write a second thing. I’m still kinda racking my brain for ideas but at this point I’m 90% certain I wanna go for another story, probably with a different focus to it. Still likely to be functionally solo content for now while I feel out my writing style - don’t wanna fold in someone else’s character and mess up their behavior, and I don’t exactly have a second non-Pokémon character to fold into any of this (yet, anyways :3).

Something important that’s already come up with private circles: I’m not planning on doing writing commissions for the time being. On the one hand, I am unemployed and disabled so having some form of revenue stream I actually enjoy would be so fucking cool. On the other, I’ve tried doing writing comms before and it ended with my executive dysfunction getting in the way and never getting the pieces I’d been hired for done (fortunately money never exchanged hands, so I spared myself at least some embarrassment).

So, I’ll write another thing. Maybe. Hopefully. Suggestions would be much appreciated, even if they don’t end up being written immediately. :3

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Alright, now for the elephant in the room:
ya girl is not okay.

Probably oversharing, but like, I don’t think I’ve ever been this wound up before in my life, and this shit is lasting far longer than I thought it would. At first I thought “wow, look at me letting myself get a little indulgent and loosen up!”

Folks, this is more than just loosening up, this is full-on slut mode.

Like, any elements of me being flirty or horny in the past? They feel like me pretending to have any energy for this stuff.

Now? I finally have a freak for folks to match. I’m actually properly riled up and sociable and flirty and it’s really surreal. I’d heard friends say this is a common side effect of HRT but uhhhh… I’m not in a state where doing so is really possible, so this is just my brain at its base functions.

I am frightened. I am awakened.

I don’t know what to do with myself.

What a way to end this, right?

Milton has come and gone. I’m safe, no damage to worry about here thankfully, though I imagine it’ll be a bit before things are truly back to normal around here (folks are already asking about going to the card shop today, I am too fucking eepy to be on board x3)

As things settle, I do have something in the works that I channeled all my wound-up energy towards while my internet was out… we’ll see how it comes together. In the proofreading stage for now. ;3

https://youtu.be/O5WbFb_Hi3E

So, Hurricane Milton's on its way. The outer bands of the storm started hitting as I woke up today, and it'll get real tonight.

I'm honestly not too worried about most of the storm itself. My apartment complex is at a relatively safe elevation so flood risk is minimal, my mom and I have done what we can to have food and water ready in case we lose power as well as a tub filled in case the water shuts off. My biggest concern's that the concrete slabs beneath the building soak up water and cause a mold infestation, but that's a "months from now" problem I have no control over so there's no point in fretting. I am worried, but primarily for friends and family in other parts of the state - I really hope they'll all be okay. <3

Right now the biggest hurdle is just not going stir-crazy. My brain has decided to be kind (a lie) and overclock my social battery now of all times, when my power or internet could go out and leave me unable to keep in touch with folks at a moment's notice; and even with power up right now, I just kinda wanna chat with folks.

Wish me luck with getting on the other side of all this. And maybe shoot me a message here or on Discord while I still have the ability to interact and respond? ;w;

Okay, most of the way through uploading my art of my cat fursona! Gotta poke a couple friends about sourcing stuff from artists, but otherwise that should be it?

I'll get around to uploading stuff of my pokesonas in due time, but I figure it's probably best to give it a little bit of a rest (and also give myself time to source those pieces before uploading them rather than scrambling for sources mid-image-dump), so for now I hope you like what you see of my fursona!

Feel like I’m kinda bad at using social media stuff - hardly use Bluesky beyond lurking and liking things, same’s true here and Itaku. Part of it’s a result of not having a ton of stuff to post, part of it’s that it’s not like I’m an artist with comms to advertise, part of it’s that anxiety sucks and it’s hard to push myself to actively try and bring myself into communities

well, regardless of it all,
I’ll probably, maybe, hopefully be trying to start uploading some of the art I’ve commissioned and been gifted to my gallery,
maybe