~Blazing_Maniac

Yeah, super quick journal. I got one over there too as Twatter is getting kinda retarded.

https://bsky.app/profile/palarax.bsky.social

Looking for another update? Uhh... Yeah, a lot's happened but it's too long to put here. I'm decent and hope you're all doing well too.

A day late but Merry Christmas and happy holidays everyone!

Honestly, I have a bunch of stuff needing uploading so look out for that in the coming days and, well, kind of an update on myself as well.
A lot of stuff has happened this year, moving back into my parent's house, my grandma passing away and the roller coaster that is life keeps on chugging, but things have been generally positive.

On that front, I've... Really come to notice and learn that living with my grandma had made me very, very depressed. Leaving her house was hard, but after a few weeks it felt very liberating. That and my poor cousin who took over caring for my grandma after me made me feel better since he didn't realize how much of a burden it was till he was alone with her so... There's that. Kinda nice knowing I wasn't alone in that regard. That and parts of my extended family realizing another part are batshit insane is also really nice. It's... Odd, but pleasant seeing them have genuine apologies after finally witnessing it first hand, being at the wrong end of the stick and not being able to just excuse it for once in 20 years... There's a lot there but I'm not gonna go into details. I'm doing better, feeling better, and my family's better than it has been in years so I'll take it.

That said, I might be trying to get better work soon so possibly more stuff in the future? It's all kinda iffy right now but enough about me. Enjoy your holidays and enjoy time with your family, friends, etc. Be safe and be kind.

That's literally every day for me so... I'll go for seconds~

Just realized I broke 600 watchers, so thanks everyone for that!
I want to get some more commissions in the future and draw, but I'll admit, that I'm dealing with currently so I've been suck in a bad head space and admittedly just been burying myself into video games and some close friends to just try and escape. Clearly it's not helping, but my issues are about as sticky as super glue... I'm working on trying to better myself, but it sucks when my issues keep knocking me back down and I'm trying not to give up on myself. Please bear with me.

Hope you're all doing well and being safe with recent events. Hopefully we'll come out better after all this.

I've decided to be a little more public about where you can find me, seeing as some peon, no life, shit bag keeps DDOS'ing CLoudfare, so my Steam, Discord, etc, is now on my page.

I know I'm not a very social derg and perhaps enjoy my solitude a bit too much, thanks to drama and issues in the past, I'm hoping to overcome that and perhaps try and be a bit more outgoing. Please don't take offense if I don't reply in a timely manner and such, as I do tend to get distracted with games, irl responsibilities and my job so I can only be in so many places at once. It's nothing personal, I assure you.

Ya'll got ate!
*Belches proudly.* Hope you don't mind sticking around for a while as every day is a vore day for me~

That said, yes, I'm alive, I have work coming up again soon so I'll be able to afford stuff once more! Internet seems to be functioning so I might try streaming again and, what most of you people are here for, I do have a bunch of pictures ready to upload. I normally wait for the artist to post before I do but some are kinda old so... Yeah, I'll just post them when my stomach shrinks to a more manageable size so... Sit tight~ ;3

Post 8/8

So... Small update... I think I have a couple more but there's a few I no longer am comfortable with posting so... Sorry. Something's really weighing on my emotionally and I really don't want to... Let it boil over, shall we say? I'm sorry. I really don't have a good way to go about this without spilling out an emotional trainwreck that I'm honestly trying to avoid.

Whatever it is you celebrate or however you may feel about this season, I hope you all have a wonderful and lovely holiday!
Or else I'll eat you~ >;3

Unless that's what you want then I won't stop you. I love a filling Christmas dinner~

And those here who only watch me for the art, I have some in the pipes, I just have been lazy about posting them. Sorry.

I know I'm not exactly the most social butterfly out there but, I suppose I should update my page and actually post where you guys can find me, if you feel so inclined. I want to make a self deprecating joke here, but no one wants to hear it. For those who are reading, thanks! For those who just deleted this journal, I honestly don't blame you xD

So yeah, here's where you can find me:
Discord is Palarax#4998 and is where I am pretty much at all times
Telegram should be Palarax (if not Palarax Steelwing)
No one uses Skype anymore as I logged on after a number of years and the only message I have is pretty much from the skype team so... I'm there technically, but not really...
Twitch is Firedrake_Alpha if anyone wants to watch me be bad at games and an boring derp.

And I think that's pretty much it... If I don't reply, I'm probably working or dealing with my family cause they certainly love their impeccable timing and lack of patience to wait for me to get to a good point to leave so... There's that.
I dunno what else to add here, but I guess I hope you all have a great rest of the year and that things go well for you. See you around!

So, where have I been, I hear no one asking? Well I've been working and mostly keeping to myself, as usual. ._. But! I'm off of work for the summer so I'll be around more often, or at least try to be. >.>

Anyways, since I have more free time now, I'm gonna try my hand at getting back into art as well as getting into streaming possibly. While I'm pretty sure it's gonna go nowhere fast, I'm gonna try and set up a schedule for it all and stick with it. Not sure how well that's gonna go since my family doesn't give a flying shit about my schedule for anything and they seem persistent on having me help with everything and work on not just my house but theirs as well so... We'll see what happens. <.<
Also got some art I need to post, but I need to make sure I have it all together as well cx I like to keep series of pictures together so it's easier to find, even if I do link them together. Yeah, I'm weird... :/

So! Here's my current Twitch channel, https://www.twitch.tv/firedrake_alpha and for Discord you're gonna have to PM me please. I've posted my Discord publicly elsewhere so it's not impossible to find, but even so, very little to no traffic overall so... Yay...?

That said, I hope you all have a great summer and see you around!

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Please give it a look at the very least, and share it around. Every donation helps and also makes Indominous fatter! What's not to like!

And man I feel pretty stupid for not having replied to some of them... Most being years old that I never got around to, probably from work or something. I can't remember, but sheesh, part of me feels pretty stupid for having not gotten back to people... Bleh...

A couple weeks ago I got new job and so far it's been going very well for me, and having something to do has significantly improved my mood, and soon enough, my wallet so I'm not going to be broke all the time, hopefully. So with a source of income now, I'll be able to pick up more commissions again and other stuff. cx

I'll be busy Monday to Thursday from 6 AM to about 4 PM MST if anyone wants to know. Other than that, I'll probably me free or doing chores or something. As always, feel free to message me and I'll try to answer back when I can.

I wanna say there's more to add here, but It's slipped my mind at this time. So... Yeah. xD

Haven't done one of these in a long time and I need to try and be more social here so let's give this another try. Why not? Ask away!

Or something like that. I don't have much love or care for this holiday cause... Well let's just leave it at reasons. Hope everyone else's holiday goes well and everyone stays safe.

Cause why not? I'm bored, snowed in, and have nothing better to do. Throw me some questions and I'll answer them as best as I can.

So finished moving in with my grandma and internet has been setup! Everything's more or less in order so I can return to... Well being a silent stalker on here and stuff. Yay?

Anyways, I'm feeling a lot better now as well and the braces are... There. I'm still getting used to them, but the only real issue I have with them is being unable to eat some foods and feeling hungry almost constantly. It's not enjoyable, to say the least. So yeah, I'm back. Not sure anyone's really going to read or care enough to, either way. I'm back.

So I'm moving in with my grandmother today cause she needs someone to help her around the house, and how my family likes to run things, it falls on my shoulders cause no one else wants to. It's not terrible, sometimes, just gets really old. Fast. Like asking me to do everything everyone else doesn't want to do. Bleh. But getting back to the point, I'm moving and won't have internet for an indeterminate amount of time. I'll still have my phone for skype, telegram and such, but won't have access to my computer during this time.

. . .

Oh yeah. Also getting my "Christmas present" tomorrow. Braces... Don't know why my mother thought braces would be a great freaking present... My teeth aren't even that bad, that's the real kicker here. *Sighs.* Oh well... I guess I'll just go with it for the time being.

So yeah, that's all. I'll see you guys around, I guess. More or less.

Damn I'm antisocial.

EDIT: So I'm getting my braces Wednesday. That means I get one more day of being able to eat solid food! Yay! *Flops.*

Even if it is just Christmas Eve and whatnot. But still, Happy Hanuka! Merry Kwanzaa! Whatever your holiday is, I hope it's an enjoyable one. c:

If I really want to eat a lot of people? Any volunteers? My belly's not gonna feed itself~ owo And don't worry, I don't bite~! *Opens his maw expectantly.*

Just found a handful of pictures I forgot to upload... I'll get to them later. It's late and I'm tired :c

Edit: Got a birthday picture from  xanfire a while back too and have been holding off posting it till next year. Would anyone care if I posted it now or should I wait till my birthday again?

What have you done?

I made another one for you. Where's my cookie?

And so I did.

















































































































Are you happy now?

So getting to the point; Is it wrong or bad of me to get a little irked that when a person asks to do a roleplay, but they always ask for alterations for my character to be something else entirely? Like take your character, and then throw out like 60%-90% of it, if not more, and then we'll talk sorta deal. To me, I don't really like it. Like why ask for me if you want something roughly based off of me? Setting preferences on subject material aside, is it something I should be bothered by? I don't mind small changes, but when you're asking for pretty much a whole new character, I feel a bit displeased...

To be honest, my mood's been a hurricane with events as of late and so I've been very quiet and trying to keep low in order to try and get better, which kinda worked. Not as much as it used to though, personally. I honestly want to hear your guys opinion on this, see what your thoughts are on the matter.

Move along.








Yep. Empty journal is empty to boot out the old one.