2018 in review, and 2019 resolutions
Posted 6 years agoLike I mentioned in my last journal I put up a second ago about my experience with NaNo, 2018 was a giant blur for me. I was going to do my year in review and resolutions for 2019 in that journal but it got really long š
So! Something I accomplished in 2018: I successfully paid off my credit card! The 2017-2018 holiday season and just 2018 in general put my financial balls in a vice to the tune of a couple thousand dollars. In August, I finished paying all of that off by working like a goddamn dog. Six days a week, 11 hour non-stop shift on Saturdays...I busted ass yāall. Which ended up working out nicely, because shortly after, I found this podcast called Listen Money Matters which features two guys closer to my age than Dave Ramsey, the more popular personal finance podcaster, and for that reason, Iāve really clicked with their content. For anyone curious, hereās my two favorite episodes from them:
https://www.listenmoneymatters.com/.....k-to-paycheck/
https://www.listenmoneymatters.com/.....-pay-off-debt/
In listening to these guys, Iāve learned a lot about personal finance, and have made myself a couple of financial-based goals that Iāll elaborate on later.
Another thing I accomplished this year: I ran a very successful charity car show! I didnāt really talk about this much last winter because I was dealing with it and a few other things, but I had a friend take their own life in December 2017. I have a little experience putting together small car show events, and his friends and I ended up making it the most successful show Iāve ever run. A bittersweet goal, but one Iām really proud of.
And, the only other thing I accomplished this year that I can remember...I beat Fallout 4 on Survival Mode, completionist style, including all of the DLCs. Which really isnāt that monumental sounding, but when you spend 2 years total, all spare time trying to get it done...damn did it feel good to put it down. Still, not really that important š
So, in all, didnāt really accomplish this much, probably because I was so focused on paying off that debt and generally getting my finances recovered and out of the gutter.
Some things that happened to me that wasnāt so good...to give a complete 180 from the credit card thing - there was a guy we hired that was a recovering drug addict. Long story short, I put some money into his life to help him get back on his feet...and then he just disappeared lol. Bosses told me he wasnāt coming back, he never answered my messages, but I know heās doing fine, so. Out more than a few hundred bucks there, lesson learned. š¤·āāļø
Only other bad thing...my parents told me and my siblings that theyāre going through a trial separation. š This could possibly lead to their divorce, and deep down I hope they work it out, but theyāve been married 26 years, and theyāre much different people now than when they married, and the two people they are now just arenāt that compatible anymore. Iām really disappointed, because I always thought they were a great example of how they were able to work out their differences despite the high divorce rate in this country, but...ah well. Hopefully this all works out :/
So, me and life been trading punches all year, and Iām tired as a result. Thatās without acknowledging the dumpster fire that is the political and social situation in America. Ugh.
Despite that, Iām encouraged going into 2019. Iām learning just how much work I can take on, what I can and canāt accomplish, and how to better utilize my time in a day. To that end, Iāve come up with some...not quite lofty? Not easily reachable, but achievable goals with this year coming up. And here they are!
-First and foremost, I want to write more. A minimum of 50 words a day of original content, towards material I can actually post and show others.
-I want to read more! Five pages a day, minimum.
-I want to start journaling, assuming something happened in my day worth journaling!
-I want to improve my cardiovascular performance, to the point that I can handle a full weekās work, four days of weightlifting and 7 days of cardio. Which means working on cardio every day! A five minute walk, at least.
-Start meditating every day!
-Pay off all of my student loans before the end of the year
-Move out of my parents house into my own apartment before the end of the year
-Upgrade my life in general.
-I want to build my own computer
-Get a new guitar and work on my music playing
-And I want finally build my Jeep - lift kit, tires, bumpers, LIGHTS. The whole shebang!
-Lastly...maybe a steady girlfriend? š The dating scene around hereās kinda lame lmao
-Improve my mental health. Including seeing a mental health expert.
-More to that point - be a better friend. I get stressed out at work and itās damaging my relationships
-Also, donāt let work stress me out so much!
-Lastly, take longer and more frequent vacations. I did not take off enough time this year, and I need to relax more.
Lots of goals, lots to do! To help me out with all of this, Iām going to use this app I was shown called Habitica, an RPG-based habit tracker and to-do list! https://habitica.com/ Check it out if youāre curious, itās really neat.
2018 was a battle, but Iām looking forward to taking on 2019. But thatās all I got! How was your 2018? And what are your resolutions?
So! Something I accomplished in 2018: I successfully paid off my credit card! The 2017-2018 holiday season and just 2018 in general put my financial balls in a vice to the tune of a couple thousand dollars. In August, I finished paying all of that off by working like a goddamn dog. Six days a week, 11 hour non-stop shift on Saturdays...I busted ass yāall. Which ended up working out nicely, because shortly after, I found this podcast called Listen Money Matters which features two guys closer to my age than Dave Ramsey, the more popular personal finance podcaster, and for that reason, Iāve really clicked with their content. For anyone curious, hereās my two favorite episodes from them:
https://www.listenmoneymatters.com/.....k-to-paycheck/
https://www.listenmoneymatters.com/.....-pay-off-debt/
In listening to these guys, Iāve learned a lot about personal finance, and have made myself a couple of financial-based goals that Iāll elaborate on later.
Another thing I accomplished this year: I ran a very successful charity car show! I didnāt really talk about this much last winter because I was dealing with it and a few other things, but I had a friend take their own life in December 2017. I have a little experience putting together small car show events, and his friends and I ended up making it the most successful show Iāve ever run. A bittersweet goal, but one Iām really proud of.
And, the only other thing I accomplished this year that I can remember...I beat Fallout 4 on Survival Mode, completionist style, including all of the DLCs. Which really isnāt that monumental sounding, but when you spend 2 years total, all spare time trying to get it done...damn did it feel good to put it down. Still, not really that important š
So, in all, didnāt really accomplish this much, probably because I was so focused on paying off that debt and generally getting my finances recovered and out of the gutter.
Some things that happened to me that wasnāt so good...to give a complete 180 from the credit card thing - there was a guy we hired that was a recovering drug addict. Long story short, I put some money into his life to help him get back on his feet...and then he just disappeared lol. Bosses told me he wasnāt coming back, he never answered my messages, but I know heās doing fine, so. Out more than a few hundred bucks there, lesson learned. š¤·āāļø
Only other bad thing...my parents told me and my siblings that theyāre going through a trial separation. š This could possibly lead to their divorce, and deep down I hope they work it out, but theyāve been married 26 years, and theyāre much different people now than when they married, and the two people they are now just arenāt that compatible anymore. Iām really disappointed, because I always thought they were a great example of how they were able to work out their differences despite the high divorce rate in this country, but...ah well. Hopefully this all works out :/
So, me and life been trading punches all year, and Iām tired as a result. Thatās without acknowledging the dumpster fire that is the political and social situation in America. Ugh.
Despite that, Iām encouraged going into 2019. Iām learning just how much work I can take on, what I can and canāt accomplish, and how to better utilize my time in a day. To that end, Iāve come up with some...not quite lofty? Not easily reachable, but achievable goals with this year coming up. And here they are!
-First and foremost, I want to write more. A minimum of 50 words a day of original content, towards material I can actually post and show others.
-I want to read more! Five pages a day, minimum.
-I want to start journaling, assuming something happened in my day worth journaling!
-I want to improve my cardiovascular performance, to the point that I can handle a full weekās work, four days of weightlifting and 7 days of cardio. Which means working on cardio every day! A five minute walk, at least.
-Start meditating every day!
-Pay off all of my student loans before the end of the year
-Move out of my parents house into my own apartment before the end of the year
-Upgrade my life in general.
-I want to build my own computer
-Get a new guitar and work on my music playing
-And I want finally build my Jeep - lift kit, tires, bumpers, LIGHTS. The whole shebang!
-Lastly...maybe a steady girlfriend? š The dating scene around hereās kinda lame lmao
-Improve my mental health. Including seeing a mental health expert.
-More to that point - be a better friend. I get stressed out at work and itās damaging my relationships
-Also, donāt let work stress me out so much!
-Lastly, take longer and more frequent vacations. I did not take off enough time this year, and I need to relax more.
Lots of goals, lots to do! To help me out with all of this, Iām going to use this app I was shown called Habitica, an RPG-based habit tracker and to-do list! https://habitica.com/ Check it out if youāre curious, itās really neat.
2018 was a battle, but Iām looking forward to taking on 2019. But thatās all I got! How was your 2018? And what are your resolutions?
I failed National Novel Writing Month
Posted 6 years agoOof. What a year. I feel like it went by like a shot out of a cannon, but secretly it was a year long? Like...did anyone else remember we had a winter olympics this year? Yeesh. Speaking of things going by in a blur, I originally intended this to be a small journaling about my experience with NaNo this year, but the holidays happened and now itās the end of the year š So here we are!
So. Iām sure Iām not the only one that will have admitted this, but I tried undertaking NaNoWriMo last month and...well, I fell short.
By like five thousand words.
WELP.
I was so close!! It STILL bugs the shit out of me two weeks later hahaha. I would have loved to have come here, thumping my chest saying HAHA, LOOK AT ME, I DID IT. And then Iād ask myself āBut Jack, how did you do it?ā
And then Iād say: I cheated!
My plan was to rewrite my original 2008ish NaNo attempt, Black Sunshine, an old-by-now piece that was in sore need of an update. The original piece as it sits in my gallery adds up to around 20-25k words, so I basically took a section of the original novel, and wrote it again, but with more of my style as it is now vs when I was younger. Once I reached the end of the what Iād already written, Iād use the āmomentumā to propel me through the other 25k. So it wouldnāt be a wholly original, off-the-top-of-my-head novel, but a novel Iād already started with an āeasyā section to start, which is kinda cheaty in my book.
I thought it was a good plan! And I learned quite a bit taking on this challenge.
My main problem as a writer is keeping consistent focus on the material Iām writing. I get very easily distracted, and if I encounter the slightest bit of friction in my creative process, I āgive myself a breakā by going to my phone to check Twitter, Facebook, etc, only to end up on YouTube watching a 20 minute video of some sort. Iād realize I wasnāt doing any work, get back to it, bump into the same friction, rinse repeat. No wonder I didnāt get anything done.
But! Of late, I found this guy named Thomas Frank on YouTube who runs a really neat channel thatās branded as a college student aid guide, but his content surrounds productivity, studying, and being able to work with intense focus - all topics I needed a LOT of help in. And through his content, I picked up quite a few tools that I started practicing, namely the Pomodoro Technique.
This method has helped me focus a LOT. I got so used to it that I actually had a moment during my NaNo writing where I wasnāt sure how to proceed with a scene or a bit of dialogue, I went reaching for my phone and immediately caught myself and said nonono, I am in the middle of a Pomodoro, I am going to finish this out! And went back to my problem, moved past it, and continued writing.
As for the writing itself...blech. Another thing I learned about NaNo is the pace you have to write at. Using the website, in order to write a 50,000 word novel, you have to write 1,667 words a day. I work 9 hours or more on a typical day, so after taking care of chores and such, it would leave an average of 2-3 hours, depending on the weekday. On the extreme end, I had 15 minutes to write before bed, only to fall short and be forced to make up the word count the next day. I also fondly remember crushing 1667 words in thirty minutes, going off of previously written text, and PHEW were my forearms sore after that. I was typing at the top end of my words-per-minute count for stretches of writing, and with that speed came a lot of spelling mistakes and another valuable lesson from NaNo.
Donāt go back to fix your mistakes, and donāt go back to rewrite what you already wrote. I have a problem with perfectionism, in that if I canāt produce the final draft from the first time I laid word to paper, then I wouldnāt write it. Which, obviously, is an impossible way to write lmao, so I committed to the lesson, and what feels like half of the document is just...lit up with red underscores. I also capitalized on this teaching to just write whatever I wanted. Iād use the start of the writing session as a stream-of-consciousness journaling time, to collect my thoughts, what I was feeling about the novel at the time, and also to complain about how bad my old writing was :U Sometimes Iād even just stop in the middle of a sentence to write a random thought and keep going.
Speaking of differences between my writing then and now: OOF was there a massive difference lmao. I had a huuuuuge problem with run-on sentences back in the day, to the point that entire paragraphs were whole sentences. On style, I focused a little too intensely on details that didnāt matter (talking about how loud a car was as a way to convey how fast said car was moving instead of...writing a detail about how fast the car was moving, heh), and just...ugh. š¤¢ It disgusts me to even think about it now, but there was some really, really edgy, pseudo-tough-guy stuff that just falls hilariously flat when I go back and read it. There was even a few jokes that Iām really not too proud of, and suffice it to say, I canāt take the old chapters down fast enough.
As I approached the end of the material I had written originally, I had a feeling the real test of NaNo would come when I hit the end of the stuff Iād already written. I did what I could, laying out a detailed outline before I reached the end of the original novel, but even then, my word count absolutely tanked after I reached 20k. I made significant strides in being able to produce a word count in the first place, but it still wasnāt quite enough to hit the pace I needed to meet my NaNo goals. When I came to that realization, I started throwing in what I called āside writingā - which is anything I wrote with my good friend and editor
, which resulted in a much needed boost, but in the last day of November, with a little under 5,000 words left to write..I knew it wasnāt gonna happen.
But hey, thatās what I get for cheating. š¤·āāļø
Some bonus Thomas Frank content, my personal favorite video of his.
And some really fast speed rap that helped me through my writing sessions where I needed to crank!
Alright, that last oneās less speed, but damn does it bang š¤
Did you take on NaNo? How did you make out?
So. Iām sure Iām not the only one that will have admitted this, but I tried undertaking NaNoWriMo last month and...well, I fell short.
By like five thousand words.
WELP.
I was so close!! It STILL bugs the shit out of me two weeks later hahaha. I would have loved to have come here, thumping my chest saying HAHA, LOOK AT ME, I DID IT. And then Iād ask myself āBut Jack, how did you do it?ā
And then Iād say: I cheated!
My plan was to rewrite my original 2008ish NaNo attempt, Black Sunshine, an old-by-now piece that was in sore need of an update. The original piece as it sits in my gallery adds up to around 20-25k words, so I basically took a section of the original novel, and wrote it again, but with more of my style as it is now vs when I was younger. Once I reached the end of the what Iād already written, Iād use the āmomentumā to propel me through the other 25k. So it wouldnāt be a wholly original, off-the-top-of-my-head novel, but a novel Iād already started with an āeasyā section to start, which is kinda cheaty in my book.
I thought it was a good plan! And I learned quite a bit taking on this challenge.
My main problem as a writer is keeping consistent focus on the material Iām writing. I get very easily distracted, and if I encounter the slightest bit of friction in my creative process, I āgive myself a breakā by going to my phone to check Twitter, Facebook, etc, only to end up on YouTube watching a 20 minute video of some sort. Iād realize I wasnāt doing any work, get back to it, bump into the same friction, rinse repeat. No wonder I didnāt get anything done.
But! Of late, I found this guy named Thomas Frank on YouTube who runs a really neat channel thatās branded as a college student aid guide, but his content surrounds productivity, studying, and being able to work with intense focus - all topics I needed a LOT of help in. And through his content, I picked up quite a few tools that I started practicing, namely the Pomodoro Technique.
This method has helped me focus a LOT. I got so used to it that I actually had a moment during my NaNo writing where I wasnāt sure how to proceed with a scene or a bit of dialogue, I went reaching for my phone and immediately caught myself and said nonono, I am in the middle of a Pomodoro, I am going to finish this out! And went back to my problem, moved past it, and continued writing.
As for the writing itself...blech. Another thing I learned about NaNo is the pace you have to write at. Using the website, in order to write a 50,000 word novel, you have to write 1,667 words a day. I work 9 hours or more on a typical day, so after taking care of chores and such, it would leave an average of 2-3 hours, depending on the weekday. On the extreme end, I had 15 minutes to write before bed, only to fall short and be forced to make up the word count the next day. I also fondly remember crushing 1667 words in thirty minutes, going off of previously written text, and PHEW were my forearms sore after that. I was typing at the top end of my words-per-minute count for stretches of writing, and with that speed came a lot of spelling mistakes and another valuable lesson from NaNo.
Donāt go back to fix your mistakes, and donāt go back to rewrite what you already wrote. I have a problem with perfectionism, in that if I canāt produce the final draft from the first time I laid word to paper, then I wouldnāt write it. Which, obviously, is an impossible way to write lmao, so I committed to the lesson, and what feels like half of the document is just...lit up with red underscores. I also capitalized on this teaching to just write whatever I wanted. Iād use the start of the writing session as a stream-of-consciousness journaling time, to collect my thoughts, what I was feeling about the novel at the time, and also to complain about how bad my old writing was :U Sometimes Iād even just stop in the middle of a sentence to write a random thought and keep going.
Speaking of differences between my writing then and now: OOF was there a massive difference lmao. I had a huuuuuge problem with run-on sentences back in the day, to the point that entire paragraphs were whole sentences. On style, I focused a little too intensely on details that didnāt matter (talking about how loud a car was as a way to convey how fast said car was moving instead of...writing a detail about how fast the car was moving, heh), and just...ugh. š¤¢ It disgusts me to even think about it now, but there was some really, really edgy, pseudo-tough-guy stuff that just falls hilariously flat when I go back and read it. There was even a few jokes that Iām really not too proud of, and suffice it to say, I canāt take the old chapters down fast enough.
As I approached the end of the material I had written originally, I had a feeling the real test of NaNo would come when I hit the end of the stuff Iād already written. I did what I could, laying out a detailed outline before I reached the end of the original novel, but even then, my word count absolutely tanked after I reached 20k. I made significant strides in being able to produce a word count in the first place, but it still wasnāt quite enough to hit the pace I needed to meet my NaNo goals. When I came to that realization, I started throwing in what I called āside writingā - which is anything I wrote with my good friend and editor
, which resulted in a much needed boost, but in the last day of November, with a little under 5,000 words left to write..I knew it wasnāt gonna happen.But hey, thatās what I get for cheating. š¤·āāļø
Some bonus Thomas Frank content, my personal favorite video of his.
And some really fast speed rap that helped me through my writing sessions where I needed to crank!
Alright, that last oneās less speed, but damn does it bang š¤
Did you take on NaNo? How did you make out?
Life update!
Posted 8 years agoHey all, long time no see!
Life's been keeping me busy these past couple years, so much so that it perpetually gets to the point where I just forget to be social and let everyone know I'm alive, aheh, so here I am to say hi and let everybody know what's going on with me!
I'm about a year and a half into my career path as an automotive technician, currently just a lube tech for the time being, and it's probably 90% of the reason I'm absent, because I'm in the ballpark of nearly 50 hours a week :Y My job isn't exactly the most relaxing thing ever, (it actually sucks tremendous ass) so that 50 hours feels like all week x_x I've learned a lot though! And despite how frustrating it can be some days, I'm really hoping the time I spent with my nose to the grindstone will pay off later in life.
It's definitely paid off in the short term! I started the job neck-deep in debt, but all that time is starting to turn back the tide and I'm pretty okay with that :3
My second home has been the gym! I've been powerlifting for a couple years now and neglected to mention it here, I think? Oops lmao. My first competition is coming up at the end of this month, and I'll be competing in the 183lbs weightclass. Wish me luck!
On the few days that I'm not working, or not working out, or both, I'm home either a) passed out asleep, b) sitting on my butt and playing video games, or c) writing when I can!
I'm perpetually embarrassed that it takes me so long to put out any consistent work, but now that I've settled in a career path, with a set schedule, and I'm not freaking out over numbers in my bank accounts, I can hopefully start dedicating more time to writing consistently. I've set aside every Tuesday night to write, and so far it's yielded results!
Remember that last story I posted, a little diddy called Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf? The second chapter has a rough draft finish ;] I'm slowly whittling away at a first draft, and I've had a little art commissioned for it too!
On a more serious note, I'd like to take a second and talk about my attempts at joining the Air Guard, something I've been trying to do since I got out of highschool. I think it's fair to say, in nearly six or seven years of trying to get into some branch of the military, that they don't really want me. I've got a history of mental health dating back to as early as freshman in college, and my local base is full to the brim. That, and given our, uh...recent change in Presidents, I'm not too keen on joining at this point in my life, aheh.
Never say never, though! I'll always consider the possibility. But for now, it's probably a smarter move to continue grinding out my career as a mechanic. Life is a fickle thing, you never know what'll happen haha.
So, that's what I've been up to! Busy busy busy. I'd like to write more, and commission more art for these characters I've been cooking up lately, and hopefully that'll happen soon. Thanks for reading if you made it this far, and I hope you're all doing well out there <3
Life's been keeping me busy these past couple years, so much so that it perpetually gets to the point where I just forget to be social and let everyone know I'm alive, aheh, so here I am to say hi and let everybody know what's going on with me!
I'm about a year and a half into my career path as an automotive technician, currently just a lube tech for the time being, and it's probably 90% of the reason I'm absent, because I'm in the ballpark of nearly 50 hours a week :Y My job isn't exactly the most relaxing thing ever, (it actually sucks tremendous ass) so that 50 hours feels like all week x_x I've learned a lot though! And despite how frustrating it can be some days, I'm really hoping the time I spent with my nose to the grindstone will pay off later in life.
It's definitely paid off in the short term! I started the job neck-deep in debt, but all that time is starting to turn back the tide and I'm pretty okay with that :3
My second home has been the gym! I've been powerlifting for a couple years now and neglected to mention it here, I think? Oops lmao. My first competition is coming up at the end of this month, and I'll be competing in the 183lbs weightclass. Wish me luck!
On the few days that I'm not working, or not working out, or both, I'm home either a) passed out asleep, b) sitting on my butt and playing video games, or c) writing when I can!
I'm perpetually embarrassed that it takes me so long to put out any consistent work, but now that I've settled in a career path, with a set schedule, and I'm not freaking out over numbers in my bank accounts, I can hopefully start dedicating more time to writing consistently. I've set aside every Tuesday night to write, and so far it's yielded results!
Remember that last story I posted, a little diddy called Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf? The second chapter has a rough draft finish ;] I'm slowly whittling away at a first draft, and I've had a little art commissioned for it too!
On a more serious note, I'd like to take a second and talk about my attempts at joining the Air Guard, something I've been trying to do since I got out of highschool. I think it's fair to say, in nearly six or seven years of trying to get into some branch of the military, that they don't really want me. I've got a history of mental health dating back to as early as freshman in college, and my local base is full to the brim. That, and given our, uh...recent change in Presidents, I'm not too keen on joining at this point in my life, aheh.
Never say never, though! I'll always consider the possibility. But for now, it's probably a smarter move to continue grinding out my career as a mechanic. Life is a fickle thing, you never know what'll happen haha.
So, that's what I've been up to! Busy busy busy. I'd like to write more, and commission more art for these characters I've been cooking up lately, and hopefully that'll happen soon. Thanks for reading if you made it this far, and I hope you're all doing well out there <3
I'm tryna join the Air National Guard! 50/50 shot!
Posted 9 years agoJust gonna x-post from my faceobook :3
So some of you have heard me talk about this, and it's never been a sure thing, but I figure since I've started pursuing it again, I may as well say it here.
I'm looking to join the Air National Guard and be in basic training before the year is out. I spoke with a recruiter on Monday, and as it stands, I've got a 50/50 shot of getting in. I have a documented history of ADHD and depression during my middle and highschool years, and that's what's keeping me from joining for sure.
Being in the military's something that's always appealed to me, and I figured I may as well chase a piece of the dream while I'm young and able. Right now I'm looking for various medical documents and transcripts and such for recruitment, but it's a little difficult between two jobs and time spent at the gym.
If I get in, it'll help me fulfill some various and miscellaneous notions of patriotism and self-validation, as well as help me further my automotive training. And if not, hey, at least I tried.
For those of you interested, I'll keep you posted on what's going on right here on Facebook as best I can. And if you're the praying sort, I'd appreciate them, and if not, well wishes are appreciated all the same haha.
Wish me luck guys <3 Here's to 50/50!
And that's basically it! Outside of just letting everyone know what's going on here in furryland, this means I'm gonna have to put writing on a hiatus for a little bit while I do the aforementioned document hunting and such.
And instead of Facebook, you guys can hit me up on MountainManJB!
<3 u fuzzy peeps, wish me luck!
So some of you have heard me talk about this, and it's never been a sure thing, but I figure since I've started pursuing it again, I may as well say it here.
I'm looking to join the Air National Guard and be in basic training before the year is out. I spoke with a recruiter on Monday, and as it stands, I've got a 50/50 shot of getting in. I have a documented history of ADHD and depression during my middle and highschool years, and that's what's keeping me from joining for sure.
Being in the military's something that's always appealed to me, and I figured I may as well chase a piece of the dream while I'm young and able. Right now I'm looking for various medical documents and transcripts and such for recruitment, but it's a little difficult between two jobs and time spent at the gym.
If I get in, it'll help me fulfill some various and miscellaneous notions of patriotism and self-validation, as well as help me further my automotive training. And if not, hey, at least I tried.
For those of you interested, I'll keep you posted on what's going on right here on Facebook as best I can. And if you're the praying sort, I'd appreciate them, and if not, well wishes are appreciated all the same haha.
Wish me luck guys <3 Here's to 50/50!
And that's basically it! Outside of just letting everyone know what's going on here in furryland, this means I'm gonna have to put writing on a hiatus for a little bit while I do the aforementioned document hunting and such.
And instead of Facebook, you guys can hit me up on MountainManJB!
<3 u fuzzy peeps, wish me luck!
Streaming! Still Human: Knight Takes Pawns
Posted 9 years agoHooray for chess terms yaaaay!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
Come on in and check it out :D
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
Come on in and check it out :D
Streams are resuming! Part 2 of Pick A Fight is underway!
Posted 9 years agoAWWWWWWWWW SHIT SON.
It's been a few years since I posted this little gem: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8597476/ and quite a few of you guys have been asking me if I plan on making it a series, and the answer has always been yes! You guys asked, now I plan on delivering :3
I've started working on the sequel of Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf, and it's high time I started getting streams going again - they were massive amounts of fun when I had multiple opinions flying around, and I really wanna get that started back up!
Unfortunately my work schedule is jam packed between two jobs and the gym, so the only nights I'm available to REALLY focus on a stream is Monday nights, and I plan on making a regular streaming session on that night for anyone interested!
https://twitter.com/MountainManJB
I'll be posting notifications on my twitter if something gets canceled, and as always I'll posting the link up here too :3
I've already got the doc queued up, so come on in and watch some magic happen! https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
It's been a few years since I posted this little gem: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8597476/ and quite a few of you guys have been asking me if I plan on making it a series, and the answer has always been yes! You guys asked, now I plan on delivering :3
I've started working on the sequel of Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf, and it's high time I started getting streams going again - they were massive amounts of fun when I had multiple opinions flying around, and I really wanna get that started back up!
Unfortunately my work schedule is jam packed between two jobs and the gym, so the only nights I'm available to REALLY focus on a stream is Monday nights, and I plan on making a regular streaming session on that night for anyone interested!
https://twitter.com/MountainManJB
I'll be posting notifications on my twitter if something gets canceled, and as always I'll posting the link up here too :3
I've already got the doc queued up, so come on in and watch some magic happen! https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
The greatest video about furries that has ever been
Posted 9 years agoIT'S FUNNY CAUSE IT'S TRUE 8D
Also, have a sequel!
I'M ALIVE looking to commission??
Posted 10 years agoHI FURRIES!
I'm so sorry I haven't been around or made a peep on here in about... -checks- A YEAR but I promise I'm alive!
There's a lot of stuff in my life that's changed since last year, namely that I'm now a college graduate with my Associates in Automotive Technology and am currently saving up some money to go join the military! I'll make a journal later to further explain the goings-on, but for now, I just wanted to poke my head in and say hi!
So hiiiiiii!
I'm on Twitter MountainManJB and my AIM SN is IHateColdPizza aaaand Skype is jackxblue if anyone's looking to keep in touch :3 Miss you duders!
I'm so sorry I haven't been around or made a peep on here in about... -checks- A YEAR but I promise I'm alive!
There's a lot of stuff in my life that's changed since last year, namely that I'm now a college graduate with my Associates in Automotive Technology and am currently saving up some money to go join the military! I'll make a journal later to further explain the goings-on, but for now, I just wanted to poke my head in and say hi!
So hiiiiiii!
I'm on Twitter MountainManJB and my AIM SN is IHateColdPizza aaaand Skype is jackxblue if anyone's looking to keep in touch :3 Miss you duders!
R.I.P. Paul Walker
Posted 11 years agoI can't even begin to describe the depth of my sadness right now.
The Fast N Furious movies were the REASON I started writing action stuff. Paul Walker was and continues to be the inspiration for Apollo's character, and I just...
Fuck, guys :[ This one hurts so much...
Besides just the movies, Paul Walker was an amazing person. Charities, humanitarian work, and...I just can't put words together.
Holy shit guys :'[ I literally feel like a piece of me has died.
The Fast N Furious movies were the REASON I started writing action stuff. Paul Walker was and continues to be the inspiration for Apollo's character, and I just...
Fuck, guys :[ This one hurts so much...
Besides just the movies, Paul Walker was an amazing person. Charities, humanitarian work, and...I just can't put words together.
Holy shit guys :'[ I literally feel like a piece of me has died.
One of them that thur hiatus journals
Posted 11 years agotldr: Taking a break from furry until summer brbs <3
BOMB DIGGITY.
So yeah, in reference to my last journal, the streaming and writing until school started didn't pan out obviously lmfao.
School's started up. I'm also working ~5 days a week and hitting the gym three days a week so HAAAAA there goes my free time :'D On top of that, I'm now the president of my college's autocross club (YEAH BUDDY) which includes being part of student senate.
I'm trying to cram some writing time in here and there, but things competing with that time include, A) sleep, B) games on the weekend, C) writing music and D) hang time with buddies.
SO, I'm just putting this journal up to say hey, furry's being put on the back burner for now. I'm gonna be scarce on AIM and Skype too, but I may be updating Twitter once in a while. When I come back during the summer, I might even have a new fursona! Who knows? It's all kind of a pipe dream right now haha.
Yeah. Stuff and things goin' awwwwn~
P.S. ADTR's new record is kinda good!
BOMB DIGGITY.
So yeah, in reference to my last journal, the streaming and writing until school started didn't pan out obviously lmfao.
School's started up. I'm also working ~5 days a week and hitting the gym three days a week so HAAAAA there goes my free time :'D On top of that, I'm now the president of my college's autocross club (YEAH BUDDY) which includes being part of student senate.
I'm trying to cram some writing time in here and there, but things competing with that time include, A) sleep, B) games on the weekend, C) writing music and D) hang time with buddies.
SO, I'm just putting this journal up to say hey, furry's being put on the back burner for now. I'm gonna be scarce on AIM and Skype too, but I may be updating Twitter once in a while. When I come back during the summer, I might even have a new fursona! Who knows? It's all kind of a pipe dream right now haha.
Yeah. Stuff and things goin' awwwwn~
P.S. ADTR's new record is kinda good!
Black Sunshine Ch2 stream NIGHT 3 YEAHHH
Posted 11 years agoBlack Sunshine Ch2 stream NIGHT 2 READYSETGO
Posted 11 years agoWHERE THE HECK HAVE YOU BEEN?! (Also, streaming :3)
Posted 11 years agoJEEEEEEEEEZ.
Hey guys! So obviously I've been off the FA radar for uh...two months is it? Almost three? All I can say is that this summer's been biz-aaaayyyy but also tons of fun! I have:
-Gone camping
-Gone offroading
-Jumped off of numerous things into a variety of bodies of water
-Worked a ton!
-Been in perpetual debt
-Gone to the gym and lost weight
-Been to the beach for the first time in like three years
-Caught and beat Lyme disease. Yes, LYME disease!
-Gone to quite a few local music shows (one of which we tore down the wall of the basement MOSHMOSH)
-Tried to get my own band started. I've got two in the works!
-Learned how to drive stick
So basically, (minus the Lyme and the debt) this has been the best summer in a loooong time, as I've spent more time out of the house than in (which is really good for me!) and the only time I've been in the house, I've been watching TV or just sleeping xD
WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS, I'm sorry I haven't been writing too much :C Compared to last summer, there's been literally no content or streaming coming from me, and for that, I am sorry <33 School starts again for me September 3rd, which means I've got one week and a weekend left of summer starting tomorrow.
So, in that last week, I'm gonna try and stream and write as much as I can and hopefully, HOPEFULLY, put out some part of Chapter 2 for Black Sunshine (four years overdue amirite).
Thusly, STREAM LINK AHHHHH
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Hey guys! So obviously I've been off the FA radar for uh...two months is it? Almost three? All I can say is that this summer's been biz-aaaayyyy but also tons of fun! I have:
-Gone camping
-Gone offroading
-Jumped off of numerous things into a variety of bodies of water
-Worked a ton!
-Been in perpetual debt
-Gone to the gym and lost weight
-Been to the beach for the first time in like three years
-Caught and beat Lyme disease. Yes, LYME disease!
-Gone to quite a few local music shows (one of which we tore down the wall of the basement MOSHMOSH)
-Tried to get my own band started. I've got two in the works!
-Learned how to drive stick
So basically, (minus the Lyme and the debt) this has been the best summer in a loooong time, as I've spent more time out of the house than in (which is really good for me!) and the only time I've been in the house, I've been watching TV or just sleeping xD
WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS, I'm sorry I haven't been writing too much :C Compared to last summer, there's been literally no content or streaming coming from me, and for that, I am sorry <33 School starts again for me September 3rd, which means I've got one week and a weekend left of summer starting tomorrow.
So, in that last week, I'm gonna try and stream and write as much as I can and hopefully, HOPEFULLY, put out some part of Chapter 2 for Black Sunshine (four years overdue amirite).
Thusly, STREAM LINK AHHHHH
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Sony <3
Posted 11 years agoIf you haven't seen this yet, you have now:
http://24.media.tumblr.com/4b406857.....go1_r2_500.gif
Sony completely shit on Microsoft. And while it kinda sucks to see an American gaming company go off the deep end, it's going to be nice to return to my gaming roots with Sony. PS2 was my favorite system before the 360, and unless Microsoft pulls a solid gold statue out of their ass for gamers, I won't even touch the Xbox One.
Also, FUCKING KINGDOM HEARTS 3. FINALLY. AGHHHHH.
take my money <333
http://24.media.tumblr.com/4b406857.....go1_r2_500.gif
Sony completely shit on Microsoft. And while it kinda sucks to see an American gaming company go off the deep end, it's going to be nice to return to my gaming roots with Sony. PS2 was my favorite system before the 360, and unless Microsoft pulls a solid gold statue out of their ass for gamers, I won't even touch the Xbox One.
Also, FUCKING KINGDOM HEARTS 3. FINALLY. AGHHHHH.
take my money <333
Reviews?
Posted 11 years agoSo I've been kinda doing sort of informal reviews here and there with movies, games, music albums, what-have-you and I'm kinda curious if you guys might be interested in me...I dunno, doing em as full on, legitimate reviews?
I've been watching The Angry Joe Show (found on youtube!) a lot and I'd probably run things like that. Talk about the good things, the bad things, compare the reviewed thing to something similar, talk about my bias and how it might affect my score and just score the item out of 10.
Just gauging interest, watchu think? :v
I've been watching The Angry Joe Show (found on youtube!) a lot and I'd probably run things like that. Talk about the good things, the bad things, compare the reviewed thing to something similar, talk about my bias and how it might affect my score and just score the item out of 10.
Just gauging interest, watchu think? :v
Boston
Posted 11 years agoThere are only a few times in my life where I can say I've felt such a huge, crushing and profound sadness that I feel right now. I live in Nashua, about 40 minutes away from Boston and I love that gorgeous city, it's like a second home to me. I want to move there in the future, and I still do.
But...I don't even know how to put this into words. One of the victims who died today was an 8-year-old girl. She was running for the Sandy Hook victims. That's what gets me. Some of you might remember my post about Connecticut and how New England is like one big family - what happens to one affects us all. And Boston's the heart of that family. Of all places and events to attack, a marathon is just...I don't know what to say, except that those responsible are found and answer for their crimes.
I don't follow a particular religion, as I practice agnosticism, but all the same...I'll be praying for Boston. Love you guys <3
But...I don't even know how to put this into words. One of the victims who died today was an 8-year-old girl. She was running for the Sandy Hook victims. That's what gets me. Some of you might remember my post about Connecticut and how New England is like one big family - what happens to one affects us all. And Boston's the heart of that family. Of all places and events to attack, a marathon is just...I don't know what to say, except that those responsible are found and answer for their crimes.
I don't follow a particular religion, as I practice agnosticism, but all the same...I'll be praying for Boston. Love you guys <3
Hey it's my birthday! Also, art pimpage!
Posted 11 years agoYUUUUUUUUUUUUP BIG 21. Which is a frankly useless age since I don't drink HAHAAAAAAAAAA. Does my insurance go down or something? I dunno lmfao. In either case, my odd years tend to be better to me than my even years, so I'm excited ;3
In the meantime!
My good friend
is looking for some art business! :D Right now she's open for $5 real-media head/bust sketches and she'll have slots open until Friday. I totally dig this girl's art and I'll be taking her up on the offer myself!
A few examples of her art for those of you who are curious!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9486336/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9232369/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9901508/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9268488/
Any questions, go hit her up! Thanks guys <3
In the meantime!
My good friend
is looking for some art business! :D Right now she's open for $5 real-media head/bust sketches and she'll have slots open until Friday. I totally dig this girl's art and I'll be taking her up on the offer myself!A few examples of her art for those of you who are curious!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9486336/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9232369/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9901508/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9268488/
Any questions, go hit her up! Thanks guys <3
Secrets meme!
Posted 11 years ago1. What is your natural hair color?
I was blonde as a kid but my hair slowly turned brown over time
2. Where was your ID pic taken?
On my license, the DMV haha
3. What's your middle name?
Clarence!Ā
4. Your current relationship status?
Single and looking :3
5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
Probably not haha
6. What is your current mood?
Blank, melancholy. It's been a very hard, very trying couple of weeks.
7. What's the color of your underwear?
Right now? Some kind of...blackish greyish color?
8. What is one thing that makes you happy?
Friends
9. Who was the last person you cuddled with?
I can't remember ;~; /lonely
10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be?
Certain small, embarrassing things I've said or done when I lacked self control haha. Also, I'd start working out sooner.
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day?
A DOG, DUH.
12. Ever had a near death experience?
Plenty! Both inside a car and out :3
13. Something you do a lot?
Worry and work.
14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE, CAUSE IT'S GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO BREATH.Ā
I blame
:U15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
!16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Quentin Tarantino, Nathan Fillion and Mariah Carey!
17. When was the last time you cried?
All this weekend. I had a friend pass away this Friday and I'm still dealing with it :c
18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Multiple times! By myself as a kid once (didn't go over well), with a band (better) and in a play (more better) :3
19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
I think super strength is always really cool. Invulnerability is bomb also...maybe flight? Just let me be Superman and we're good ;3
20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face! Sometimes the body first.
21. What's your biggest secret?
I'm gonna hug you >:U
22. What's your favorite color?
Royal Blue!
23. When was the last time you lied?
Eh. I suck at lying lol.
24. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
I'M ALL ABOUT THAT KIDDY SHOW GAME. Yeah, I watch a lot of Young Justice (before it got canceled :l Stupid) and I've recently been watching old cartoons from my childhood, like Atlantis :D
25. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Air :U
26. What's your favorite smell?
Air that's heavy with moisture after a good rainfall <3
27. If you could describe life in one word what would it be?
Tough.Ā
28. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
I hugged friends this weekend.Ā
29. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Not yet!
30. What are you thinking about right now?
My homework, how my friends are doing
31. What should you be doing?
Homework haha.
32. What was the last thing that made you upset?
My buddy passing away.
33. Do you like working in the yard?
Sure.
34. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
I like my last name :]
35. Name 5 things in your closet:
Clothes, assorted junk, not much else haha
36. Do you act different around your crush?
A leeetle.
37. When was the last time you slept with a stuffed animal?
Long time ago!
38. How many times do you take a shower a week?
At least daily.
39. Do you brush your teeth everyday?
DUHHH.
40. Have you ever said something stupid in front of your crush?
If I did, I've forcefully forgotten it because it was so embarrassing xD
41. Have you ever watched a hockey game?
BRUINSSSSSS. I'm going to a game tomorrow for my birthday :3
42. Do you lie about your age?
That's stupid lmfao
43. Ever been jealous about something stupid?
Always. It's my main foil.
44. Do you pick your nose?
Shhhh~
45. What's the one food you hate?
Anything cold and squishy. Fridged pizza, quiche, cold pasta, just blehhhh.
46. What's the one junk food you cant live without?
Chinese food <3
47. How old were you when you found out Santa was fake?
I never really found out at any particular time. I kinda just...gradually grew out of it.
48. Have you ever blown your nose and looked inside the napkin?
Nah haha.
49. Describe your favourite underwear you have?
Favourite? Don't you mean favorite? YOU COMMIE.Ā
Nah just kidding. Any briefs that dont PUT MY NUTS IN A VICE >8Y
50. Did you lie in any of these questions?
Nah.
Religion and Music
Posted 12 years agoOH SHIT he's opening that can of worms.
STAND BACK EVERYONE.
Why does every fucking deathcore song have to be anti-religious? The Plot In You, Suffokate, Bring Me The Horizon, Within The Ruins, Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza, like holy shit.
FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO SCREAM ABOUT gaaawd. I feel like it's always the same. Deathcore band finds lyricist. Lyricist writes anti-religious lyrics. Whole band thinks they're the first to do it or just doesn't care. Band plays shows. Atheist's huddle together to condemn all religion based on past experience with Christianity, which is one (1) religion. Band is hailed as lyrical revolutionaries. Band gets signed. Band gets music videos. Religious debates on youtube occur. Wash rinse repeat.
I'm sick of these bands getting signed. I'm sick of going onto youtube and finding the same religious debates about the same mundane shit. And I'm ESPECIALLY sick of sitting through awful fucking lyrics about "you're living a lie" and "your god isn't real" just to hear some wicked riffs, nasty breakdowns and bomb sound production.
Part of the reason is that (I feel like) it's everywhere is because of the culture. Hardcore kids, all about shock value right? "WHOA LOOK AT ME I'VE GOT TATTOOS AND PIERCINGS AND I'M AN ATHEIST AHMAHGAD." - Mallcore Kid #29308432432.2 It's a trend. Atheism is a trend. Kids doing everything they can to piss of and rebel against their parents and society. Wanna know why I think it's a trend? I always ask atheists: "Why are you an atheist?" The usual answer? "Unno." Sometimes I get "Cause Christianity's for pussies." And then I ask "Well what about Islam? Buddhism? Judaism?" And then they stare at me like I have a dick growing out of my forehead hahahaha. CHRISTIANITY'S NOT THE ONLY RELIGION, SUPREEEZ.
Lemme just stop here to make one thing abundantly clear. I don't practice a particular religion. Yes, I've been baptized and given a cross (I lost it though, sorry Jesus :x), yes my grandparents were Catholic, but no, my parents weren't especially Christian and they didn't expect me to practice. I'm agnostic, which means that I don't necessarily believe but I'm open to evidence. Sort of an in-between atheism and theism.
And don't get me wrong, I know about religious wars. I know about the Protestant Reformation and the Crusades and there's probably a million other wars started because of religion, but that's just focusing on the bad. I've known people who's entire lives have been turned around or at least influenced because they believed in something and practiced it. How many charities do you know of that aren't funded by a churchly organization? How many orphanages do you know of that aren't almost always run by a priest? How many homeless shelters, etc etc etc? (Not as many as the government/state/city runs, I'm sure, but still.)
I just think religion is important. Besides the material value, it provides spiritual guidance, salvation for some, very good lifestyle choices for others and overall, for all the bad it's done, I think it's done just as much good.
But the worst part? It just really gets under my skin to hear people talking down to someone because they believe. "HAHA JESUS IS UR IMAGINARY FRIEND". So fucking what? It's better to believe in something, put the issue aside and live your life how you want to than building what LOOKS like your entire identity around this concept that you've spent maybe five minutes thinking of. Religion, whether you believe or not, is your journey with whatever deity you believe or don't believe in, and you should never let anyone, not music, not me, not your parents or your society, ever influence what you actually believe in.
/soapbox
Lmfao. Okay. Now that I got all that out: If you are an atheist and you truly do none of these annoying things and you're respectful of other people's beliefs, awesome! Let's be friends. (No really!) This intent of this journal was to poke my head in to let people know I'm not dead, rant, and to exercise my thoughts on a topic that's been building up for a little while now. I do not ever intend to offend anyone, and if it happened, sorry. They're just words though ;3 I'm just sick of hearing people thinking they're superior because of one choice in beliefs than another.
Now, if there are some holes in my argument (always are!), feel free to point them out. I love a good, respectable debate, and I always appreciate the differing points of view. For now, I'm going to bed though haha.
STAND BACK EVERYONE.
Why does every fucking deathcore song have to be anti-religious? The Plot In You, Suffokate, Bring Me The Horizon, Within The Ruins, Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza, like holy shit.
FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO SCREAM ABOUT gaaawd. I feel like it's always the same. Deathcore band finds lyricist. Lyricist writes anti-religious lyrics. Whole band thinks they're the first to do it or just doesn't care. Band plays shows. Atheist's huddle together to condemn all religion based on past experience with Christianity, which is one (1) religion. Band is hailed as lyrical revolutionaries. Band gets signed. Band gets music videos. Religious debates on youtube occur. Wash rinse repeat.
I'm sick of these bands getting signed. I'm sick of going onto youtube and finding the same religious debates about the same mundane shit. And I'm ESPECIALLY sick of sitting through awful fucking lyrics about "you're living a lie" and "your god isn't real" just to hear some wicked riffs, nasty breakdowns and bomb sound production.
Part of the reason is that (I feel like) it's everywhere is because of the culture. Hardcore kids, all about shock value right? "WHOA LOOK AT ME I'VE GOT TATTOOS AND PIERCINGS AND I'M AN ATHEIST AHMAHGAD." - Mallcore Kid #29308432432.2 It's a trend. Atheism is a trend. Kids doing everything they can to piss of and rebel against their parents and society. Wanna know why I think it's a trend? I always ask atheists: "Why are you an atheist?" The usual answer? "Unno." Sometimes I get "Cause Christianity's for pussies." And then I ask "Well what about Islam? Buddhism? Judaism?" And then they stare at me like I have a dick growing out of my forehead hahahaha. CHRISTIANITY'S NOT THE ONLY RELIGION, SUPREEEZ.
Lemme just stop here to make one thing abundantly clear. I don't practice a particular religion. Yes, I've been baptized and given a cross (I lost it though, sorry Jesus :x), yes my grandparents were Catholic, but no, my parents weren't especially Christian and they didn't expect me to practice. I'm agnostic, which means that I don't necessarily believe but I'm open to evidence. Sort of an in-between atheism and theism.
And don't get me wrong, I know about religious wars. I know about the Protestant Reformation and the Crusades and there's probably a million other wars started because of religion, but that's just focusing on the bad. I've known people who's entire lives have been turned around or at least influenced because they believed in something and practiced it. How many charities do you know of that aren't funded by a churchly organization? How many orphanages do you know of that aren't almost always run by a priest? How many homeless shelters, etc etc etc? (Not as many as the government/state/city runs, I'm sure, but still.)
I just think religion is important. Besides the material value, it provides spiritual guidance, salvation for some, very good lifestyle choices for others and overall, for all the bad it's done, I think it's done just as much good.
But the worst part? It just really gets under my skin to hear people talking down to someone because they believe. "HAHA JESUS IS UR IMAGINARY FRIEND". So fucking what? It's better to believe in something, put the issue aside and live your life how you want to than building what LOOKS like your entire identity around this concept that you've spent maybe five minutes thinking of. Religion, whether you believe or not, is your journey with whatever deity you believe or don't believe in, and you should never let anyone, not music, not me, not your parents or your society, ever influence what you actually believe in.
/soapbox
Lmfao. Okay. Now that I got all that out: If you are an atheist and you truly do none of these annoying things and you're respectful of other people's beliefs, awesome! Let's be friends. (No really!) This intent of this journal was to poke my head in to let people know I'm not dead, rant, and to exercise my thoughts on a topic that's been building up for a little while now. I do not ever intend to offend anyone, and if it happened, sorry. They're just words though ;3 I'm just sick of hearing people thinking they're superior because of one choice in beliefs than another.
Now, if there are some holes in my argument (always are!), feel free to point them out. I love a good, respectable debate, and I always appreciate the differing points of view. For now, I'm going to bed though haha.
JJ Abrams is going to direct the next Star Wars
Posted 12 years agoI'm kinda stoked :3
Streaming some Cowboy Bebop fanfiction
Posted 12 years agoA look back at 2012, and the shape of things to come
Posted 12 years agoIf I had to put a word or two to 2012...the first I would use would be "successful" :D
My 2012 resolutions were:
-To lose 40 pounds. I've lost 20, which is a lot more than I thought I would lose. It would've been 30, maybe even 40 if I hadn't injured my leg while running. I am unbelievably eager to get back into the gym. Maybe I'll even see a six pack this year? :D
-Pass all my classes, B or better. In my first semester of college, I got...one c, two Ds and an F. I've NEVER done that bad in any of my classes, throughout highschool or any other academic endeavors, and I vowed to do better. This year? A's and B's. And one C lmfao. I'll take it, close enough ;3
-Write. I did that! I even put out a story! :D And you all read it! Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf, my youngest story in the gallery, one of the most popular. Thanks guys <3 I'm stoked to put out some more material before winter break ends in January, I'm just waiting for work to calm down so I can find the time to scribble some lines out.
-Exercise. See above!
-Play more guitar. Diiiiidn't really happen lmao. Just gonna roll that over to next year~
But more than that, I learned about hard work. I learned about giving up what you want to go after what you need. I also learned about dropping negative influences in your life. And I'm really tired so this is probably sounding kinda cheesy. Anyway!
This year, I want to reach my weight loss goal, and maybe even surpass it. I want to feel comfortable with my body, y'know? SIX PAAAACK.
I want to get better playing my instruments. My guitar playing always need more work, I've had it for...three years now and I still suck at it haha. I've been working on my singing and screaming in my car, and now I even have a drumset! It's a Ludwig and it needs some work, but hey, it's a start and that's all I need! Maybe you guys will see some music from, in addition to some more writing? :D We'll see!
I wanna get out of being a bagger in a grocery store and into the field of automotive technology. There are plenty of shops around here that can do what I know and I'm eager to get looking for a new job.
But most of all? I want a relationship. I've been single for literal years and now that I'm more comfortable with myself, I think I'm ready to get out there and mingle a little bit. I've done enough me-building, it's time to live a little bit ;3
I'm genuinely excited for 2013. My even years have been kinda eh, but the odd years are ALWAYS bomb, so I'm stoked!
Have a Happy New Years guys!
My 2012 resolutions were:
-To lose 40 pounds. I've lost 20, which is a lot more than I thought I would lose. It would've been 30, maybe even 40 if I hadn't injured my leg while running. I am unbelievably eager to get back into the gym. Maybe I'll even see a six pack this year? :D
-Pass all my classes, B or better. In my first semester of college, I got...one c, two Ds and an F. I've NEVER done that bad in any of my classes, throughout highschool or any other academic endeavors, and I vowed to do better. This year? A's and B's. And one C lmfao. I'll take it, close enough ;3
-Write. I did that! I even put out a story! :D And you all read it! Why You Shouldn't Pick A Fight With A Werewolf, my youngest story in the gallery, one of the most popular. Thanks guys <3 I'm stoked to put out some more material before winter break ends in January, I'm just waiting for work to calm down so I can find the time to scribble some lines out.
-Exercise. See above!
-Play more guitar. Diiiiidn't really happen lmao. Just gonna roll that over to next year~
But more than that, I learned about hard work. I learned about giving up what you want to go after what you need. I also learned about dropping negative influences in your life. And I'm really tired so this is probably sounding kinda cheesy. Anyway!
This year, I want to reach my weight loss goal, and maybe even surpass it. I want to feel comfortable with my body, y'know? SIX PAAAACK.
I want to get better playing my instruments. My guitar playing always need more work, I've had it for...three years now and I still suck at it haha. I've been working on my singing and screaming in my car, and now I even have a drumset! It's a Ludwig and it needs some work, but hey, it's a start and that's all I need! Maybe you guys will see some music from, in addition to some more writing? :D We'll see!
I wanna get out of being a bagger in a grocery store and into the field of automotive technology. There are plenty of shops around here that can do what I know and I'm eager to get looking for a new job.
But most of all? I want a relationship. I've been single for literal years and now that I'm more comfortable with myself, I think I'm ready to get out there and mingle a little bit. I've done enough me-building, it's time to live a little bit ;3
I'm genuinely excited for 2013. My even years have been kinda eh, but the odd years are ALWAYS bomb, so I'm stoked!
Have a Happy New Years guys!
Maybe streaming?
Posted 12 years agoTrying to get a Cowboy Bebop fanfic off the ground but my internet's a liiiiittle glitchy right now.
Jump in if'n you're interested! :D
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
Jump in if'n you're interested! :D
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....5x8WKso8s/edit
NEW ADTR FUCK YES
Posted 12 years agoYOU ONLY GET ONE CHANCE, AND THAT'S ONE TOO MUCH. WHAT'S THE WORLD GONNA SAY WHEN I CALL YOUR BLUFF PUNK?
2:47!
THAT. BREAKDOWN. UGHHHH.
It feels so different from the last record, but that can be said about all of ADTR's new songs right? All I can say is that it feels good to have ADTR be HEAVY again!
Some thoughts while I jam out to this song:
About...six months(?) after What Separates Me From You, ADTR's last album came out, they were SUPPOSED to be released from their label, Victory Records, but since ADTR kinda blew up and started hauling in the $$$, Victory didn't wanna let them go. So ADTR sued them lmao. I have no idea what's up with their label situation right now, but I DO know that they claimed in their intro video found on adtr.com (don't think it's there anymore) that this record was entirely self-funded, just like one of their old records, I thinkkkk.
Tom Denney, who wrote some of the guitar for all of ADTR's records so far (was the lead guitarist for a while but left to pursue a family and a recording studio, you might've heard some of the work he's produced with We Are Defiance and Close To Home) is back in some capacity. He's decent at writing guitar parts (so long as he doesn't straight up rip them off other bands COUGHCOUGHTHROWDOWNCOUGH), and I know he does rap music, not sure how I feel about rapping on an ADTR record. We'll seeeeee.
Anyway!
After hearing this a few times...I'm not entirely sold on it right this second, but it's slowly reeling me in. I think the chorus is kinda generic and overplayed in this song, but the verses? Mmmm. And that breakdown? MMMMMMMM <3
I'm stuck between "eh" and "YES FUCK YES MORE PLEASE"
We'll see when this record comes out. Between The Plot In You's "Could You Watch Your Children Burn" and A Day To Remember's "Common Courtesy", 2013 looks like it's going to be either a pretty cool year or a pretty bland year for hardcore music.
Time will tell!
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Connecticut
Posted 12 years agoThere's a special place in hell for people who murder children. I heard the news this morning and I still can't properly process it. All I know is that I have this deep, disgusting pit in my stomach everytime I think about the kid that did this and the bickering its caused between gun control enthusiasts and mental health doubters.
And it makes me sick. It makes me sick that this happened. Believe me when I say I think gun control is important and that mental health needs more attention, but to argue such topics over the deaths of CHILDREN is just throwing salt in the wound.
I posted this to Facebook today:
"You guys could do more than just post on Facebook about how awful the Connecticut shootings or how gun control needs to be tighter or how attitudes towards mental health need to change. They're all right in their own way, but really, if you want atrocities like this to never happen again, it has to start with everyone. So for once today, go out and be nice to someone for a change. If it takes the murder of children to change the attitudes of a nation, we're truly backwards as a people, but we can change. But if we don't change in the face of something so horrific, we as a people are truly doomed. My 2 cents.
Keep Connecticut in your heart."
And it makes me sick. It makes me sick that this happened. Believe me when I say I think gun control is important and that mental health needs more attention, but to argue such topics over the deaths of CHILDREN is just throwing salt in the wound.
I posted this to Facebook today:
"You guys could do more than just post on Facebook about how awful the Connecticut shootings or how gun control needs to be tighter or how attitudes towards mental health need to change. They're all right in their own way, but really, if you want atrocities like this to never happen again, it has to start with everyone. So for once today, go out and be nice to someone for a change. If it takes the murder of children to change the attitudes of a nation, we're truly backwards as a people, but we can change. But if we don't change in the face of something so horrific, we as a people are truly doomed. My 2 cents.
Keep Connecticut in your heart."
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