~Anmorph

As I don't like anything for free, I will try one more time for emergency commissions.

My objective: $2800 USD.

As you may have seen my artwork, I do pencil colors. I now it is not thaaat great, yet I can do some things.

So as proposal:

$15 only one character, situation you may want, not background, $5 per extra character.

$15 for a short-3-pages story, and $3 x extra page.

No gore, scat, cubs/underage.

I'm ashamed to ask, yet I have been pushed to do this...

I'm a pediatrician, I finished my studies a year and half ago, I've been through lots of things, one of them is that my papers that license me as a Pediatrician are stucked because pandemic and bureaucracy. Because of that, I'm unable to request a better job, needing to do three less paid works: two by commission (I get paid if I get patients, otherwise nothing), and another one weekends and festivities, that is my "main source".

I owe around $3600USD, it was higher, but I've been able to pay them out. The reason: I bought a special medical for oxygen saturation for newborn, as part of my thesis.

Now, my main income is "frozen". Because the Local Government has debts, and banks has frozen the accounts. This is not the first time that happens, it did happen a year ago, but at least the payments didn't stop, but now, not only me, many doctors, nurses and employees, this salary has not been received, and it is told that maybe it will delay... But we are fearful, because the Government is about to be changed, and... They are not as honest...

I'm very proud, and barely accept any help... But now I most ask for it...

I know, I am a stranger, I did try to move commission in the past, without success, and the depression and anxiety struck and it is making it harder.
I can't give anything in exchange, I just want to support my children and my wife and have a relaxing life...

So... Anyone who can help, I would be quite grateful...

Yeah.. me back...

Unable to do anything right...
Unable to finish my debts...
Working everyday, trying to go on...

I feel I'm alone...
No one cares for me...
I was just useful once and discarded away later...

I really wish I could die...

Anyway... I'm not even useful at all...

And here I am again!
After a hard pandemic year, i have been able to survive.
I know now, that things can work better now.
Now i have a cute girlfriend and two cute children.
I'm working as Pediatrician, yet working on getting my documents on law, because pandemic delayed everything.

I haven't been able to do any artwork, much more for the feeling of not doing anything good. I know, it is quite egocentric and dramatic point of view.

But I've seen FA is just meant for porn things. Barely get something out of that. And I can't draw something like that.

I am out of inspiration... And sometimes time...

Well, I'll be around

See ya.

A year have passed...
The love of my life... The one I feel I owe my life... Well... Even if it was to check she was alright after the tremor two days ago... She blocked my *"doctor" * WhatsApp.

I can't blame her... I am the bad guy...

I just feel i need to get this feelings sorted out... Because I am uneasy and feeling stucked... I feel like my friends ignore me... Specially those we shared with her...

I feel alone... I feel ashamed...

I just want to find myself out, i can't bear to be the only one to look and try to talk to anyone...

I need someone to look for me... Talk to me...

I may have found.... Maybe...

I'm scared...

I can't draw, i cant write... I wish I could get some extra earning but dunno how...

I dunno if anyone would even read me this Journal...

Yet... I'm just trying to vent....

Been a while since I made an update, though I think I will support a good friend of mine now in need.

has been my friend for a good time now, even he has supported me even with money when I needed it. I have shared many experiences and we have made fun on many politics on both our countries.

Now, unfortunately, been harassed by people thinking he is homophobic or transphobic or racist... I can TOTALLY say: he is not!!

He is cute and kind, and anyone saying otherwise, has a peanut for brain.

I am bisexual, queer, and what almost every citizen in USA hates most, I am mexican!!

But this kitten has helped me tons of times and I will support him as much I can!!

I don't have money to commissioning pics, and he has made me some! He even tries to cheer me up to do my stuff!!

So stop any more harassment at him!! And at least, try to know him as much as I do!!