Maybe I should just stop trying...
7 years ago
No matter what I do...
No matter how much I try and help...
No matter who it is...
It's never enough...
I have been trying to help my mother lately (who has ben going off their depression meds due to medical reasons) so to help her out I helped with some chores.
aaaand apparently instead of appreciating the effort, she complains that they were still greasy...
"I'll do them again then!"
"Don't worry about it."
Soooo...This resulted in a pointless arguments due to me wanting to help her by doing them myself again, telling her to go lay down to rest because she was not well, and she got pissed at me because I was being "condescending" and eventually resulting in me crying due to an emotional breakdown.
I worked myself literally into exhaustion after a long day of school AND the next day for nothing then...? maybe instead of just- you know- making me feel like shit maybe say "They are still greasy but thanks for the effort anyways." or something and not right out bluntly tell me I fucked up because "If I don't help you now, someone else will do it worse than I do"?
Yeah...because you are supposed to treat me like a co-worker rather than a daughter with depression issues who is just trying to make you feel better by helping you out with the things you can't because you are unwell...
Yeah...it's official...Everyone in my family just thinks I am a useless piece of shit who can't do anything right... I am understanding it's hard for her due to her being off her meds but...she's taking it out on me now and frankly, it really hurts...
I don't have a home anymore...It's just a roof over my head that keeps me from the cold and other elements...
I don't have a family anymore... these are just people that share my biology...
No one loves me anymore... They may say they do but then why do I feel more like shit at home than I do literally everywhere else...?
I'm done with trying to get/feel better and trying to be kind and understanding only to get hatred right back...
No matter how much I try and help...
No matter who it is...
It's never enough...
I have been trying to help my mother lately (who has ben going off their depression meds due to medical reasons) so to help her out I helped with some chores.
aaaand apparently instead of appreciating the effort, she complains that they were still greasy...
"I'll do them again then!"
"Don't worry about it."
Soooo...This resulted in a pointless arguments due to me wanting to help her by doing them myself again, telling her to go lay down to rest because she was not well, and she got pissed at me because I was being "condescending" and eventually resulting in me crying due to an emotional breakdown.
I worked myself literally into exhaustion after a long day of school AND the next day for nothing then...? maybe instead of just- you know- making me feel like shit maybe say "They are still greasy but thanks for the effort anyways." or something and not right out bluntly tell me I fucked up because "If I don't help you now, someone else will do it worse than I do"?
Yeah...because you are supposed to treat me like a co-worker rather than a daughter with depression issues who is just trying to make you feel better by helping you out with the things you can't because you are unwell...
Yeah...it's official...Everyone in my family just thinks I am a useless piece of shit who can't do anything right... I am understanding it's hard for her due to her being off her meds but...she's taking it out on me now and frankly, it really hurts...
I don't have a home anymore...It's just a roof over my head that keeps me from the cold and other elements...
I don't have a family anymore... these are just people that share my biology...
No one loves me anymore... They may say they do but then why do I feel more like shit at home than I do literally everywhere else...?
I'm done with trying to get/feel better and trying to be kind and understanding only to get hatred right back...
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