~akychan

Its been a while now and sometimes you come back on my mind. There's so much thing i would like to say to you. Not to beg for forgiveness. Just to tell you why. When we first met i was in an harsh period of my life i will never forget. I wasn't myself nor was i ready to face it. I offended you and i am sorry. I never meant to and i had trouble keeping people near me.

It always been weird to get anyone close to me without trying to push them away. Only a few made their way in trought my barriers. This hard shell i had to keep others away so i wouldn't be hurt again. I've hurt many in the process and now i have to live with it.

With time i learned to accept that you won't be there anymore. I had to face it again. You're gone. Today i am myself and proud of it. I don't need a shell to protect me. I am a survivor of sexual abuses, of a brain cancer and i went trough depression and transitioning happily with my partner.
To you i've hurt or simply been a negative person in your life.

I am sincerly sorry.
Ps: Everyone deserve a happy ending. So do you