Notice in Advance...Gallery Going Down
9 years ago
This is a journal that has been a long time coming, and it's been something that has been weighing very much on my mind and finally came to fruition today. I don't expect many to understand why I am doing this, or that I am betraying people, etc, etc, but this is something that I realized needs to be done. Over the past few months I have been struggling with a lot of personal demons and vices and other things that have been holding me back...things that I should not have been doing, but did it anyway. Sound religious or conscious you might say...you'd be correct. I won't bore you all with the details as again, I don't expect to find too many that can totally relate or understand, but suffice to say with all of this...my gallery is coming down tonight. At 8:00 PM EST I will begin removing the pictures and the like and they will not be coming back, nor will I have access to them either.
Extreme? Perhaps yes, but it's what I need to do to move along in my life and to unburden myself from what this has done to me...things that I regret doing in my personal life that came about because of this. However, do understand that this isn't being done because I am mad at anyone here or the like...this is totally personal, totally something that has tugged at my spirit for far too long that needed to be done, and today...today was the confirmation that I got that I needed to set myself on a different path. Again, I fully expect rage, dislikes, hatred, and whatever else from some or many of those that have come to enjoy my gallery and the artists I featured in it. This also doesn't mean that I won't be cutting myself off from communications from those that I do communicate with, but understand that this subject matter will be very limited to practically non-existent with me if you want to talk with me. It's a hurdle that I have to climb, but I know that I have to if I want to keep on growing in the ways I know I should be.
Finding me here on FA, though...well...I will likely not be responding to notes and the like from now on, so to those who only have that way to communicate, I do apologize, but that will be what it is. I do want to thank those who have and will continue to be friends with me, and even those who may not be...I will cherish those thoughts well. That all said...once again...gallery will begin coming down at 8:00 PM EST tonight and then will never be up again, so you have plenty of fair warning before it's all gone! Peace out to all and good luck to all in your journeys...oh...and just for some crazy reason someone thinks this is like a suicide journal or the like...IT IS NOT! It's more a goodbye thing from this site and that's really all it is, so dun read too much more into it than that. All right, now for real...peace out and good luck all!
Extreme? Perhaps yes, but it's what I need to do to move along in my life and to unburden myself from what this has done to me...things that I regret doing in my personal life that came about because of this. However, do understand that this isn't being done because I am mad at anyone here or the like...this is totally personal, totally something that has tugged at my spirit for far too long that needed to be done, and today...today was the confirmation that I got that I needed to set myself on a different path. Again, I fully expect rage, dislikes, hatred, and whatever else from some or many of those that have come to enjoy my gallery and the artists I featured in it. This also doesn't mean that I won't be cutting myself off from communications from those that I do communicate with, but understand that this subject matter will be very limited to practically non-existent with me if you want to talk with me. It's a hurdle that I have to climb, but I know that I have to if I want to keep on growing in the ways I know I should be.
Finding me here on FA, though...well...I will likely not be responding to notes and the like from now on, so to those who only have that way to communicate, I do apologize, but that will be what it is. I do want to thank those who have and will continue to be friends with me, and even those who may not be...I will cherish those thoughts well. That all said...once again...gallery will begin coming down at 8:00 PM EST tonight and then will never be up again, so you have plenty of fair warning before it's all gone! Peace out to all and good luck to all in your journeys...oh...and just for some crazy reason someone thinks this is like a suicide journal or the like...IT IS NOT! It's more a goodbye thing from this site and that's really all it is, so dun read too much more into it than that. All right, now for real...peace out and good luck all!
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Where are you moving on to? Anything you can share?
I do hope that sheds light on the matter somewhat.
I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors
-Dizzie
https://www.dropbox.com/s/9gva4bjc6.....ia150.rar?dl=0
o3o if this upsets you, im sorry, and i'll understand if you delete the comment.
edit. huoh im going to miss that spiderfox :(
But, part of me, doesn't understand to why taking down your gallery has to be necessary if you don't plan to return to the site...at least, that is my understanding of it...I mean, unless you're concerned with rampant copy/pasting of your stories before you leave.
And yet, there is another part of me that is sad you're leaving and another that feels entirely the opposite...not mad, more like upset that you're not going to be here anymore or write stories that have been so enjoyable. The most upsetting aspect of all of this however, is you won't be here anymore and I had somewhat gotten used to seeing you in a couple streams here and there. :(
In the end though, all I can really say is that I wish you well in whatever new path you're taking and know that if you ever decide to come back, we'll welcome you with open arms.
Nothing that I can fully share, but I will say that this has been something that I know has been turning beyond a bit of an addiction, and it's been hurting me physically, mentally, and spiritually. Last night and today were the final confirmations that I needed to know that something needed to be done. I want to stress that I am not in any mental instability state or physically wounded badly...nothing like that. Just one of those things that I understand that I need to distance myself from, and knowing my personality and how I function, I can't just leave things here. The temptation is far too powerful for me to resist, so this is what I decided upon after a lot of thought, praying, and other things.
I do hope that sheds light on the matter somewhat.
Still, I do wish you the best and hope that maybe, someday, we'll see you again.
Still, think carefully about this matter, if you're really closing everything i'm really sorry about that, you'll be missed by a lot of people in here.
Xeno, I understand what you're going through, I started to write a story here, and I had to put it in scraps because it was going to be so insane it was bothering me :s! I hope you come back someday!
Wherever your life takes you, best of luck with it.
I hope you find the peace of mind you seek, take care.
I'll certainly miss your creativity, but don't let that stop you from doing what's gotta be done. Best of luck in your endeavours. Wherever you're going next, hope it treats you kindly. Have a good one.
I have a lot of respect for you, being able to draw a line like this and wrest control back, takes a lot of willpower. Hope it works out for you. Wish you all the best.
Just leave the account.
Good luck.
That said I've done similar things in the past, just not not in regards with my art; so I understand the overall sentiment.
I hope you find good health and good fortune whatever is ahead for you!
You take care of yourself, and I hope things get better for you.
You take care of yourself and hope things work out for you, try and catch ya somtime. :)
And I wish you the best of luck with whatever you choose to do^^
Your stories were even better than your commissions and though I'll save both it is a pity new people won't be able to see them
PS. Xenos are amazing.
I'm ironic btw
P.S. If you do receive this despite my lateness, is there a chance we could re-connect on skype? I really would like to keep in contact with you. You're a great guy.
I hope we are still up for that idea but if not i'll save that up for later.
Good luck to you.
Take care of yourself. I wish you well in your future endeavors
I was away on a trip and didn't get a chance to save anything. Does anyone happen to have the gallery saved proper that they could link? It would be highly appreciated
I poked you on skype, but in case you do not see that, I will miss you dearly hun *winghugs softly* I really have enjoying everything; the art, your amazing stories, it has all been great :3
If we do not chat again, I wish you godspeed, and all the best of luck with whatever you may decide from now on ^.=.^
I don't pretend to know your reasons, nor will I pry, but I will say this.
You have a shining, deep, glowing talent for writing. Your word craft is absolutely stunning, and I sincerely hope that you will not be giving that up. Even if you never write anything erotic again, please, please, please, don't give up writing entirely. You're too damn good at it, and I would be deeply saddened to think of such talents going to waste. Find a new passion, and write about it, because I can guarantee, it will be beautiful.
You have my most sincere well wishes, wherever you end up in life. And I hope that someday, you may reconcile yourself enough to at least continue to be a member of this community. There are many good people here, and I can see from this wall of comments, you are going to be very, very missed.
Cheers and hats off to you. Thank you deeply for the memories, and the commissions. Though you may go on to forget us, if that's your desire, we will never forget you.
Take care of yourself. We love you. Peace.
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Here is a full copy of his gallery, stories included, circa may 11, 2015.
Provided courtesy of the wayback machine.
https://web.archive.org/web/2015051...../xenolugia150/
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