Poetry @ The Bottom of the Lake
A downloadable bundle of relics
Thank you for showing interest in this project.
You may come to think of this collection as I do: a series of grainy photos at a lake bed. Hazey things found on a sea floor, talisman with their purpose long since put to slumber.
Take them with you. Unearth what you can and keep what you need.
I have written work to be carved at and reshapen, and I have written work to be loved and held tenderly, but these poems are not for anything at all; they are pieces of myself, relics found in my notes app, created in times I only remember through polaroid. They are creatures I love very dearly, spawned through haze and fog when I needed them most.
It has been one hell of a year. I hope these depths treat you well.
...okay.
Okay.
Scraps found @ the bottom of the lake contains six poems. I don't totally remember writing any of them, they are just scraps found in a notes app - parts of myself I needed to draw out from the haze and onto a page. They are wet, disjointed, and occasionally confusing but they are exactly what they needed to be.
I think the sea itself would be proud of this, please enjoy my best offering.
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We are poor but we still need art.
I know how long I have spent debating with myself about whether a Community Copy is for me - and let me tell you, as the creator of this work and as a struggling trans person myself - this was always for you.
My work is meant to be enjoyed without worry. Access as you wish.
More community copies will come with each purchase, More still with each purchase at or above the suggested amount! <3
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Ahhh! /[tone indicator yours]
Oh, right, this is legible to people looking at the work let me take this somewhere quieter…
Hi!
oops --hi. thanks for joining! tea is over there. also, letters to friends who live here. enjoy your time thanks for coming. Huh? oh you, no, you don't have to whisper, i was just being overly mindful
to f(Eel),
"Reverse it (where a wall is a gem-stomach)!"
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to Cry,
I am not the building comma.
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to it/its,
I was literally at times spinning the phone around like a window going "this is every wonderful"•
To OJ,
Your shape is that of shelter (i know you can't see it).
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to OTW,
Your this or I read this (a rock) whose ore (we wrought) somewhat's 'me'. (You can tell me you enjoy us, but i dont have to think enjoyment exists).
PS beckon my air
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to This,
May you say it, and occupy the jar the jar undoes
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your undoing,
Re:
Curious,
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Oh! Re-PS: bonus letter!
autophonetic errata for the equinotorial anniversary of the A Tired God posting,
("i read ❌ when it was ⭕ "),
• ❌ - we are the docks I grew up in.
⭕ - we are at the docks I grew up in.
• ❌ - I tried to make it all feel worth it.
You took extra care from me and I never forgot it.
⭕ - I tried to make it all feel worth it.
You took extra care of me and I never forgot it.
• ❌ - I've read some poems just like this, in this very psychoenvironment
⭕ - I've read some poems just like this
• ❌ - Did you mean like them, not: like this?
⭕ - Did you like them?
• ❌ - My time in the office
⭕ - My work.
• ❌ - credit/coin
⭕ - luck
• ❌ - room for
⭕ - enough for
• ❌ - I wonder if the words leaving me already know what I'll say
⭕ - I wonder if they already know what I'll say
• ❌ - I wonder if it's easier for you than for me when you do what this is
⭕ - I wonder if it's easier when you do.
• ❌ - They get to ask the questions
⭕ - They get to ask questions
• ❌ - you're all-knowing and all, but
⭕ - your all-knowing is all butt
• ❌ - those 8 bites tho
⭕ - that bit though
• ❌ - is god triggered by this?
⭕ - Am I being rude to god?
• ❌ - I think part of loving is the wish
⭕ - I think part of loving is wishing
• ❌ - Wishing you could have more of the owl.done before starting in on it.
⭕ - Wishing you could have done more.
• ❌ - So if I get the paper bag†
⭕ - So if I get to go back
• ❌ - if I get to be a body again, of capacity to container the condition of lucky again
⭕ - if I get to be lucky again
• ❌ - Would you be that container i am the condition of lucky in?
⭕ - Would you be doing it
• ❌ - Is it naïve to think the gods love you back (because I always have)?
⭕ - It is naïve to think the gods love you back but I always have
• ❌ - I guess they know better than to answer your question as you are my container and i might hear them
⭕ - I guess they know better than to answer question though
• ❌ - "The world didn't end when I tried to end the call with god and didn't really change when I
⭕ - "The world didn't end when I tried to end it and didn't really change when I
• ❌ - watched as you tried too
⭕ - tried to change it either
• ❌ - I cannot help myself, I am no better than the offer‡
⭕ - I cannot help myself, I am no better than the other
• ❌ - pets‡
⭕ - [pets with an o in it]
• ❌ - Why can't i blame myself
⭕ - What did I do wrong
• ❌ - Im pretty, sure, but worthless if i cant be of service
⭕ - Did I love everything enough
• ❌ - Im no better than all of this
⭕ - was all of this
• ❌ - Enough.
⭕ - enough?
• ❌ - and then it was my turn to speak,
⭕ - and then it was the God's turn to speak,
• ❌ - "I'm sorry Tali, this phone never took coins to connect."
⭕ - "I'm sorry Tali, I really don't know who you are."
• ❌ -
⭕ -
• ❌ -
⭕ -
• ❌ -
⭕ -
Your read,
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† paper bags cost money, so carry the food to the car without a bag is anxiously provoking opportunity
‡ it ran off the screen and i ❌ guessed at the word before scrolling the box laterally to reveal it's ⭕ self.
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(Also, my boyfriend said he liked it; specifically: 'that's so good!')
cw bug
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