It's pointless, don't you know? Because that's the way death works. Wandering the world of the living unnoticed as a spirit, that isn't a continuation of life.. When you die, that's it. There's nothing more.. nothing new begins. No matter how much you regret or wish, if you couldn't do something in life, you can't suddenly do it when you die. That's just how it works.. no way to defy it. TRY and you end up like this... we no longer have futures to fight for.

Youth is a lie, it is nothing but evil, those who look to rejoice in their youth deceive themselves and those around them accepting and fool the circumstances that devour them in the face of the great and reverent word youth. They will twist any common interpretation or accepted notion out of recognition in their minds, lies, secrets, sins and even failure are nothing more than the spice of youth. If failure is truly the designated mark of one's youth to still fail at befriending anyone. But I'm sure none of them would admit to that being true, they only define youth to their own benefits. In conclusion i leave you with this, all you fools who delight in youth DROP DEAD.

i hate nice girls.. just enchanging hello makes me nervous. Texting just makes it even worse. If i get a call then for the rest of the day i'll keep checking my phone history with a wide grin on my face. But i know the truth. They're just being kind, anyone kind to me is also kind to others. I always end up merely forgetting that. If reality is cruel then a lie is kindness and so, kindness itself is a lie. I'd always hold expectations and i'd always misunderstand and at some point i just stopped hoping. An experienced loner doesn't fall for the same trick twice. As a veteran on the battlefield of life I'm an expert at losing. That's why i'll always hate nice girls.