Hurricane



I can’t stop this fire that burns in me
This feeling that churns through me
This change that is cooling
This power that makes a new me

Who can stop what is me
Nobody I know of that’s what I’m sure of
I can’t think purely and I don’t want anymore
of this stuff that makes me sad

I feel so bad and am so mad
I can’t get mad though, I can’t let them
make this of me which wasn’t me before
I can’t just go through life stepping through every door
that presents itself to me

I figured I’m the one who chooses
who I become but I only wanted fun
so that time is done and confused
I turned and what I earned was my
own lies to myself that I didn’t need help
that I’ll be okay and that is how I’ll stay

Now this is how I am
Wasn’t apart of the plan
I ran too close to the branding iron
Now I’m someone else’s man

I can’t stop this heat that’s inside me
This feeling that churns through me
This change that is freezing me
This force that makes a new me

It’s going to take a while now
I never was proud of what I was becoming
and this is what I am and it’s like numbing
myself and every day that passes I grow
dumber than I was the day before
now my pipes are broken
And I need a plumber to fix all the plumbing

I’m sick of this world I’m in I’m sick of being messed with
I’m sick of how I made this and I’m sick of believing it was me
who even made this that I’m in

How can one child be responsible for how messed up he
becomes and all the guilt and weight of it is solely on him
How I can actually be that influencing to influence myself
to turn down the wrong road

How can you know the road before you go down it
When will I change the way I find the way
And stop myself from drowning
It seems like it’s up to myself to get me out of this

Maybe it is maybe it isn’t but I can’t even stand
how I’m seemingly forced to go about it
I’m unmotivated and unwilling but there’s still
a will there and I’m still going

There’s that wildfire there without a reason in me
There’s that tornado there that’s blowing through me
There’s that ice storm that threatens to make a cold me
There’s this hurricane that changes the whole me.