(No but I love you really, please never change)
You can talk to me in Russian, Hebrew, French or English.
ze/zer or fae/faer. bi. genderweird. flootzavut.carrd.co for all my socials.
Always pie adjacent. Old. Probably your mum.
I'm horrible at tagging; please tread carefully.
If I don't make it back from where I've gone, please know I've loved you all along.
Whatup TAD fandom, I bring a quizzy thing with which to torture yourself!
In previews it says it can’t be found, but I and others have successfully opened it in browsers so 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼
Have fun making yourself make choices. (Spoiler: it’s so difficult omg.)
Semi-inspired by @peach-pot’s TAD bracket.
No matter that I’ve looked at this multiple times now, Giles’ face is still killing me every gd time I love him 🤣
ppl on facebook sarcastically saying “well why don’t we do 40 year background checks on EVERYONE in congress?? there’d be nobody left!1!!”
…..that’s a great idea, let’s do that!!
Yeah, like, if we got rid of all the pedophiles and rapists and racists and replaced them with good people, how does anyone have a problem with it?
I legit had someone unfriend me after they shared that post and I was like yeah, let’s do that!
Seriously though. If you did a forty year background check on me, you’d find lots of immaturity and stupidity, but you wouldn’t find any sexual assaults or attempted rapes because I’m a decent fucking human being.
Like, this is… not a hot take? This is seriously just keeping abusers out of positions of power. How does anyone have a problem with that??!?
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this one gets to breach containment me thinks
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Ok okok so in December @flootzavut (evil) tagged me in a
WIP folder game
Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Tag as many people as you have wips. People send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!
Does anybody even remember I wrote a little fanfic, and even un-fan fic, occasionally? Very occasionally? Yes? No? Anyway there’s a whole bunch of unfinished stuff in my folders, and some of it looks like this:
“first-plot-for-magician”
“plot bunny pergamon”
“Yuletide 2023 (abandoned)”
“2 Cavazione TEXT Vs 5”
“Incrosada 2”
“Incrosada cont plan”
“Incrosada part 3_”
“Incrosada pt 2MUC hotel”
And then there is a fake screenshot of a text conversation that goes like this:
Yennefer: Just don’t fall in love with them
Jaskier: Yen, please, I’m not about to fall head over heels in love with the council-appointed sex worker who’s “providing safe heat services and emotional support.” I’m not completely stupid.
Jaskier, four days later: Yen help :( :( :(
Yennefer: Oh no, honey(Yes, this screenshot is the whole WIP don’t worry the plot is nestled safely in my brain)
Anyway I’m very normal about the WIPs that are rotting on my hard drive, and I’m trying not to think about the WIPs rotting on my other hard drive. Maybe, possibly, at some point in the far future, when my brain is less fried, I will write one of them.
I’m supposed to tag people, but I cannot think of anybody to bother tonight, so I’m going to declare anybody who feels amused by these WIP titles is now required to share their own!
Um hello I need the fic that goes with that screenshot please that sounds so so silly (complimentary) *chinhands*
I firmly believe that if a fic is written in first person pov the writer should tag it so readers can know beforehand
seriously
you can’t just throw a first person pov at me without warning, I need to be in the correct state of mind to read that shit
I need time to get ready for it
Specially if the source material is not in first person
Like, that’s a no-no
Honestly my main problem with first person pov is that it feels too personal
Like this words on my screen are invading my personal space inside my own head somehow
It’s like talking with someone who stands too close for comfort, and you keep trying to shift away, just a little bit, so there’s a proper, civilised distance between the two of you, but they just keep getting closer and you are trying to find a polite way to say “well yes, I do find this topic of conversation to be interesting, but I would be able to concentrate better on it you could go and stand over that corner there”
That’s how reading something in first person feels to me
That’s actually how I feel about reading AND writing in second person. “You say-” no I don’t, what the fuck? I also can’t write it easily because it feels like I’m imposing on someone else. The only times I’ve successfully done it are when it was for someone specific and I knew it was a thing they’d enjoy having “imposed” on them.
(That said, fanfic wise it’s fairly rare for me to read first person, and the only time I’ve written it is for epistolary fics.)
I’m sorry I keep posting my tiktok comments but please. What does this mean. What do people THINK shipping is for anymore???
AO3 authors in the lab creating ships purely for research purposes:
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To me, I don’t think Buffy or the audience can ever truly know if she’s in love with angel or just in attachment with him. I believe she is just in attachment and especially before innocence and after his encounter with the first, just full on enmeshment with him. No boundaries whatsoever, his pain is her pain (which is extremely common in parentified children who feel they have to protect their parents from their pain like what buffy does with joyce), just like how she describes her feelings towards riley later which is NOT a good thing, empathy is good, taking on others pain as if it’s your own is extremely unhealthy. (Yes I’m pulling on my psych degree for a tumblr post, human behavior and buffy are two of my special interests)
What I mean by “in attachment” is that she has all of the same anxieties and insecurities about angel that she does with her father. Angel’s erratic and unpredictable behavior plays on her anxious avoidant attachment style SO AGGRESSIVELY. He keeps showing up, giving her little information at all and even less about himself and then vanishing leaving her hanging, and anxiously wondering about him which can mimic thinking you’re romantically interested when really it’s just an unresolved problem you desperately want to solve. She has a lot of valid criticisms about him before they’re officially together about his inconsistencies, him treating her like a child, him being too old for her and then all of a sudden she’s saying she wants to die when they kiss and that she loves him (after he forces her to say she loves him before he’ll tell the truth about drusilla). That is exactly how falling into attachment goes. Once you’re hooked all your feelings that are caused by a bad relationship with a parent are projected onto the partner who you are unknowingly recreating that dynamic with which is why such intense and strong feelings can happen so quickly and suddenly you’re ignoring all concerns you had before forming this attachment with someone.
He’s not her soulmate, he’s just the first guy to treat her like her father did and if you don’t address that cycle the relationship is recreating it can be impossible to move on because they will ALWAYS feel like something is unresolved and if you don’t know why you feel that way you can misinterpret it as true love or destiny because why all would you suffer so much and still love them if it wasn’t? It’s a mistake SO MANY of us make in our romantic relationships and these portrayals of unhealthy attachments being sold to us a soul mates doesn’t help us at all.
She does it with Riley also but she walls herself off so she doesn’t get AS attached to him as she did angel but their relationship is still her trying to fix the relationship with her father by changing herself so maybe this time he’ll stay. It’s why his opinion still matters so much to her when he comes back in season 6 despite him being a truly awful person to her who has done nothing but make mistakes and whose opinion should not matter to her at all after everything he put her through. He is another pseudo father figure she craves approval from.
It’s why I love her relationship with Spike so much despite all the bad they go through before season 7. We know her feelings are real because Spike doesn’t play on her anxious-avoidant attachment at all because he is ALWAYS there even when she’s mean and claims she doesn’t want him there. And to me everything they do to each other makes perfect sense, their relationship is exactly what two people with severe trauma and one with anxious-avoidant and one with just anxious-attachment going into a relationship together looks like. You hurt each other A LOT because you’re working out all your issues with each other and they don’t have ANY help from a therapist or someone who can help minimize the hurt so they both just use their worst coping mechanisms and the fact that they go through all that and still get to be together and happy and healthy on the other side is just everything to me because that so rarely happens in the real world, where you get to be with the person who was also a catalyst for healing and having to go through all that suffering together only to have to start over -hopefully from a much better place - but still with someone else BLOWS. So Spike and Buffy to me are about hope and healing (including the unpleasant and very ugly, dark parts of healing people rarely talk about) and getting to do each phase of that with someone AND enjoy being happy and whole together is just UGHHHH I love it so much.