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They asked me to write a speech, I've never written a speech before, words hurt my brain.
What am I supposed to say in a speech? Am I supposed to be very sad like Jade?
"Tori said she'd be back today."
"I made mango spaghetti because it's her favorite. It's sitting in the fridge at home. I have to take it out so it can be un-colded. Jade, I don't want Tori to come home to cold spaghetti. Cold pasta tastes funny and makes Tori's teeth hurt. She told me that one time when my brother came over and made frozen tortellini. It did taste funny."
Jade is staring at me but I don't know why, she looks mad, is she mad at me? Everyone seems so mad or sad, and I don't know why and no one will tell me. They keep saying things like gone and passed away but no matter how many times they say them they don't make anymore sense to me.
Not coming back.
Gone.
Forever.
I still don't understand.
Why is she gone? Why forever? It seems like such a long time. Will she be home for dinner? She didn't even say goodbye.
"Why?"
"Why what cat?" Jade wont even look at me, she seems sad and so small as she finishes off her second whiskey. Tori wouldn't be very happy with her.
"Why is she gone?" Gone...sounds funny, like yawn. "When will she be coming back?" Yes, Jade will know, Jade always knows. Even when Tori won't tell me what's going on Jade always has the answer.
"Never."
I don't like that answer, never is a very long time and dinner is only a few hours away.
"Why never?"
Why doesn't Jade answer? Maybe it's all that whiskey, it's making her insides fuzzy so she can't hear. That's what Tori says.
When Jade takes the bottle back to the bedroom and shuts the door, she thinks I don't hear her lock it, but I do, I always do.
Never is a long time.