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A/N – It is with great sadness I bring you the conclusion of LATD. I have to say this was the hardest to write knowing it was the last chapter. I hope you guys have enjoyed the ride. I can’t tell you how grateful I am to have had such great readers and reviewers. On a brighter note there is a sequel called “Primal Desire”. Feel free to check it out!
Reminder – story contains bad language and sexual content – you are warned
BPOV
Jake dropped me off at my car after court and I was happy to find it was still where I had left it the other night. We drove back together to my house since I was only a short walk to First Beach. I had to say there was just something about Jake in his new car that completely turned me on. I caught myself driving just a little slower than the speed limit allowing Jake enough time to pull up beside me. The view of his muscular forearm bracing the top of the steering wheel and the way his hair blew feverishly with the wind made my mouth watered and my core pool. I watched Jake run his hands through his hair as his tongue licked his lower lip. Jake knew I was watching him like a hawk as his signature grin appeared on his face while he kept his eyes fixed on the road ahead.
I parked my car in the small driveway of the house and Jake parked right in front. I jumped out of the car and raced over to Jake before he could even get out. Jake’s door was open and his body was still faced towards the steering wheel. I placed my arm across his chest and straddled him in the car seat.
“You know it’s not very nice to tease me like you do” I said in a sultry voice
Jake just grinned at me knowing full well he was responsible for the now saturated panties.
Jake’s hand rose from his side and he slid his hand right underneath my skirt. He softly stroked my core through my damp panties. I closed my eyes and just moaned as my body was more stimulated than ever before. Jake rose up and placed soft delicate kisses on my neck. My body’s instinct took over as I laced my hands through his hair and pulled his mouth up to mine. There was not a minute that went by that I didn’t want or need Jake in some way. My body craved him, my mind raced with thoughts about him and my soul was now entwined with his.
I reached down between my legs and unzipped Jake’s pants. I looked around to see if anyone was coming but as usual not a soul in sight. I slammed the door beside me to lock us into the car as I reached into Jake’s pants and took hold of his hard cock. I slowly pulled it from the confines of his pants and began slowly stroking it with my hand. Jake’s eyes closed as he moaned with pleasure at each slow painful stroke I was delivering. Just watching Jake receive such pleasure from me made me hornier. Shit at this point there was nothing about Jake that didn’t make me horny. I laughed to myself for a second as the thought of Jake and I living in Seattle.
I would be the employee who went from taking no time off to running out of it. I would take 3 hours lunch breaks and too many sick days to count with Jake around. Jake would be too much of a distraction for me but I had to admit I didn’t care. I loved his distraction.
Jake’s eyes slowly crept back open and he noticed me laughing to myself.
“Does my cock amuse you Ms. Swan?”
“It does more than amuse me babe. It sends me into orbit. I’m just glad you have this gorgeous ride to christen. I am ready to receive my return on my investment,” I said with a sultry grin
“Oh I see, so you get this muscle car for me so you can receive guaranteed unlimited use of a certain muscle of mine?” he said as he took a strong hold on my hips and thrusted his cock right into my wet core.
“Oh so you don’t like my gift?” I said as I reached to my right and pulled the lever reclining Jake’s seat back.
Jake’s hand came up to stroke my exposed thigh. His hands crept underneath my skirt and moved my soaked panties to the side as he thrusted his hard cock deep into me. My hips instinctively moved forward taking in all Jake had to offer. I rocked my hips as my inner walls clung to Jake’s throbbing cock. His hands gravitated towards my blouse. He torn my blouse open and placed his hands on top of my breasts just kneading and pinching at my nipples. My rocking got more intense as the feeling of his hands on my breasts and the thickness of his cock within overwhelmed me. I could feel Jake’s cock pulsating and getting harder by the second as my rocking became even more vigorous. Jake pulled his body up towards me and whispered.
“Cum for me baby”
His words were the green light for my body. A wave of pleasure tidal waved over me and my body shook as my orgasm spread through me like a shot of adrenaline. Jake leaned back and thrusted his hips into me not allowing me any time to ride out the feeling. Moments later I felt his warmth consume me as he spilled into me and pulled me into his arms.
“I love you so much babe,” Jake whispered into my ears
“And I you” I whispered back
I pulled my head from his shoulder and just kissed him softly.
Jake pulled back a few moments later and said
“I think we have officially christened the baby”
I giggled and replied “Yeah I guess we did”
Jake and I rushed into the house and got changed quickly. We walked hand in hand down the beach and were instantly greeted by everyone as soon as they caught sight of us. I have to say it felt good to be a part of a family. I had not known these people long but in the short time I had been here everyone was so warm and welcoming.
Jake and I barely made it through the crowds of people swarming us, as we got closer to the bonfire. When we managed to get through everyone Jake and I walked over to grab something to drink. That is when I noticed Sam making his way towards us.
“Jake, Bella, glad you guys made it”
We both nodded.
“Bella I was wondering if I could steal your man here for a second?”
“Yeah sure Sam but don’t keep him too long” I said as I peaked Jake on the cheek and walked over to where I noticed Emily and Sue standing.
The girls and I made small talk but I couldn’t help but notice Sam and Jake getting into a very deep conversation. My curious mind was getting the best of me and I was extremely tempted to sneak over to them just to hear what they were talking about. Just as I had excused myself from the ladies an all too familiar song came chiming in my ear.
“Carry out” by Justin Timberlake started blaring from the little dance floor the kids had created by the water. My eyes turned to Jake and his returned the glance. I grinned at him and he excused himself from Sam and made his way over to me. This was “our” song. This was the song that started it all. I took Jake’s hand and pulled him towards the groups of people dancing amongst the sand. I turned my back to him as he took my hips and we swayed to the music. Dancing had become “our” thing. It was what brought us together and what kept us together in more ways then one.
I got lost in both our movements and the warmth coming from Jake’s breath as he leaned his head on my shoulder from behind. His arm laced around my hips and we moved left to right together. Our dance once sexual in nature had matured as our relationship had. Our relationship had blossomed from two people trying to gain the affections of one another to two people so deep in love that thy could express it through fluid movements within a dance.
The song ended a few minutes later. I grabbed Jake by the hand and started to walk towards the refreshments. Jake however had other plans and just stood there watching me try to pull his oversized body from his current position. I even put two arms into it, trying to pull him towards me, but he just grinned and found humor in my pathetic attempts. After a minute I decided that my way was just not working. Effortlessly he pulled me towards him and my body followed suit as it smacked right into his chest.
“I want to dance with you Ms. Swan” Jake whispered
“But we just……”
The slow song that was playing seemed to mean something to Jake. “Life After You” by Daughtry started to serenade my ears and Jake pulled me towards his chest and we rocked slowly back and forth. My head rested on his chest right above his heart and his head rested along side my head. As the song played on, my eyes filled with tears as Jake started to sing the words to me
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you
You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah
I could no longer contain the tears that fell from my eyes as the song ended. Jake sang with such conviction. If I hadn’t known any better I would have thought he was pleading with me in some way. Almost like he thought I was going to leave without him. I decided I would put an end to his doubt right then and there.
“Jake, walk with me?” I said as I pulled him towards the shoreline.
We both walked together along the shoreline for a bit till we came to a piece of driftwood sitting amongst the sand. We both sat down never letting go of each other’s hands. I was happy that we were just far enough from the party that we could have this much-needed conversation with out the threat of interruption.
I reached into my pocket and pulled out the key charm I had originally planned on giving Jake the other night.
“Jake” I called to him noticing he was very deep in thought as he looked out to the sea
He turned to me and his expression looked strained. It looked like he was bracing himself for bad news.
I lifted and opened my hand exposing the charm within my palm.
“This was what I was going to give you the other night. This was why I went out.” I said as I removed it from my hand and reach around Jake’s neck to clasp it.
“Now I hold your heart and you hold the key to mine,” I said with a smile
It would seem Jake was at a loss for words. I remember that feeling all to well since I had felt the exact same way about the locket.
“Listen Jake I know something is going on with you. One minute you are jumping my bones and the next you are giving me the cold shoulder. I need you to talk to me. Tell me what’s wrong so I can fix it”
“Bella I just….”
Jake shook his head, as it would seem he was having a hard time formulating the words he wanted to say.
“Jake if this is about New York let me ease your mind. I am not going,” I said hoping my decision would ease the tension
“Why?” Jake said with a questioned expression
His reaction was not at all what I had expected. I thought he would be thrilled to know I wasn’t moving all the way to the other side of the country.
“Why?? Is that a trick question Jake? Honestly you need a reason?”
“No that didn’t come out right. God I wish I were good at formulating words as you are. I wish I could say what I really need to say here……”
I took Jake’s face into my hands, looked him deep in the eyes and said, “Just say what you need to say Jake. Please, you are killing me here”
He looked up at me and I could see the tears building within his eyes. At that moment I knew what this was all about. He was breaking up with me.
Jake went to speak and before he could I decided to speak instead
“Jake please tell me this is not what I think it is. Please tell me we didn’t go through all this to just end it here. Tell me you still love me and want nothing more than to be with me. Please Jake don’t….”
But before I could finish my plea with tears streaming down my face, Jake crashed his lips onto mine. I gratefully received his lips and clung to them with every last breath I had. If this was in fact the last time we would be together I wanted it all. I desperately licked and sucked on his lips as if it were our last moment together. To my dismay, Jake pulled away slowly leaving our lips just inches from each other when he whispered
“Bella I love you with every fiber of my being. If I had to choose between breathing and loving you, I would use my last breath to say, I love you. There is nothing more in this world that I want than you. I find myself torn between doing what is right and what is selfish. In the short time I have known you, you have changed me. You have made me a better person, you complete me. I…”
I placed my fingers on his quivering lips.
“Jake I love you too with everything that I am. My choice is to be with you. I decided not to go to New York not only because of you but because I don’t like who I am when I am not with you. You have changed me too Jake. You made me see the light. I am all that I am because of you. So please babe, don’t feel torn, I have made my decision.”
“Bella see that is the thing. I don’t want you to stay here. Forks is no place for you. You are at the prime of your career. I want you to spread your wings and soar. I know you think my decision is rash but I would hate for you to resent the fact that you passed up this opportunity just because of me. I don’t want to hold you back from all you can achieve. I saw the glimmer in your eyes in court. I loved who you were, who you are and what I believe you will become. You have rare talent Bella and it is a sin to just disregard it so easily”
I could see from Jake’s expression and mannerisms he was forcing the words out. I knew he was just saying these things because he felt in his heart of hearts it was the right thing to do. I finally realized what had him thinking so much. He was torn between asking me to stay here and letting me go.
“Jake I want to be with you. There is nothing you can say or do that will change that. I do however see the silver lining around this doom cloud you sit under. Remember the garage I had your new car parked in? We’ll that is legally yours. I have a proposed plan if you will humor me?”
Jake nodded
“Why don’t you hang here for a week and get the shop in good standings and then come to Seattle and open up a second shop. You can come to Forks on the weekends to visit your dad and check on the shop and spend the weekdays with me in Seattle. It seems like a win win situation right? If not then maybe I can find a place in Seattle for your dad to stay in or….”
“Bella stop” Jake said through a strained voice
“Jake I don’t get you” I said as I stood up getting extremely frustrated with his lack of enthusiasm for my what seemed like brilliant idea
“Is this really about me not staying in Forks or are you just pushing me away because you feel it is “THE RIGHT THING TO DO? Honestly Jake. JUST BE HONEST WITH ME DAMN IT! I said almost screaming from frustration and hurt
“Bella please. You have no idea how hard this is for me. I can’t just pick up everything and go. There is NOTHING I wouldn’t do for you and don’t get me wrong I am appreciative of the car and the new garage but it is not that easy.” He said pleadingly
“Why not Jake? I am not saying you have to do right this instant. You have taught me patience so I will wait. I will wait until the end of time for you Jake. I love you. Please babe, we have been through too much to just end it over something so small. I can’t fathom a life without you in it. It pains my heart and my very soul at the mere thought. Please don’t leave me,” I said as I bent down on one knee in front of him with tears streaming down my face and my voice raspy and weathered.
Jake lowered his head to me and I could sense he was fighting his better reasoning. I knew Jake thought it was in my best interest to leave Forks and pursue my own career but what he failed to see was that it all meant nothing if I didn’t have him along side me for the ride.
“Bella….I …..can’t” Jake said as he struggled with his words
Those three words were like a knife to my heart. I couldn’t stand to hear any more. I didn’t want us to be over and I didn’t want it to be the end. I worked to hard for us to end it now. I suddenly felt like the walls were closing in on me and I couldn’t breath. I felt like someone had reached into my chest, pulled out my heart and was squeezing the last drops of blood from within it. My chest felt like someone had just hit me square in the ribs. I needed to walk. I needed to feel the wind on my face. I moved away from Jake and started walking towards the beach house. My feet felt like they had cement in them as it got harder and harder to put one leg in front of the other. Where was I walking to? What did I have to look forward to if I didn’t have Jake? My life seemed purposeless without him. I dropped to my knees and literally balled my eyes out.
Within moments I felt my body being lifted off the beach. I felt Jake’s warm skin as he cradled me in his arms. He sat down on the sand keeping me cradled in his arms.
“Why do you do that Bella? Why do you run? You didn’t even let me finish before you decided to just take off.”
“I just couldn’t hear you say those words Jake…..my heart couldn’t bare it” I said with shortened breath
“You couldn’t bare to hear me say that I love you and that I can’t live without you either and that I think if you can give me some time we might be able to work something out?”
His words were like music to my ears.
“Are you serious Jake? You’re not fucking with me head right?”
“I think it will take some time but I think that if you can have some patience this might work”
“Jake you have no idea how happy you just made me. Have I told you that I love you?”
“Not enough. I never get tired of watching your lips move when you say those three magical words”
“Good because I don’t either”
JPOV
I held Bella in my arms and I knew my decision was the right one. I would try to make this work. Although I had thought that pushing Bella away was the right thing to do I now knew it was impossible. How do you live without someone who you require in order to breath? Every waking moment of my life I was thinking about her. My life would have no meaning without her so I would try my hardest to do the impossible.
The following morning after the bonfire I approached Embry about running the business in Forks for me. To say the kid was excited was an understatement.
“NO FUCKIN WAY MAN. ARE YOU SERIOUS?” Embry said screaming at the top of his lungs
“Yeah it would seem so. That garage we saw in Seattle, we’ll Bella got it for me”
“NO FUCKIN WAY”
“Fuck seems to be the word of the day”
“Nah man its just it, seems like Christmas in summer here in Forks”
“Yeah I guess so.” I said rubbing the back of my neck
“Jake is something wrong? I mean you seem less enthused than I would have thought you would be”
“Nah it is just something Sam said to me last night at the bonfire. It’s nothing really. I am happy that I will be opening up this new branch in Seattle though. I was thinking of maybe taking on motorcycles, what do you think?”
“That would be fuckin awesome. We could be like Biker Boyz”
I couldn’t help but laugh. Embry’s enthusiasm was contagious. I guess all my worrying was for nothing. This would work out, it had too.
The day went by smoothly and I knew that Bella had to be heading back to Seattle tonight. I drove over to her house and helped her pack up her stuff into the car. She put the last items into the driver’s side seat and said
“So I think that’s it,”
“So it would seem. Make sure you call me when you get there ok?”
“Ok I will. Let’s hope I don’t get a flat on the way,” she said with a wink
“Yeah” I replied with a grin
“Ok we’ll I should be going if I want to make it back before 12”
I pulled her into my arms and kissed her with all the passion I had inside. I needed to feel her one last time as it was going to be over a week before I got to hold her warm soft body in my arms. She returned the kiss with equal passion and vigor. She pulled away slowly leaving just a string of saliva connecting our lips
“One week right? I just have to be without you one week?”
“Yes one week and then you and I will be together I promise”
“Ok. I love you Jake”
“And I you Bella.”
She smiled and got into the car. I slammed the car door behind her and cringed at the sound of the ignition. I took a deep breath as she looked at me with pained eyes as she started to pull away. I watched as her car disappeared behind the endless forest and I felt a pain shoot right into my chest.
I tried to reassure myself that everything was going to work out and that she and I would be reunited soon. However I couldn’t help but wonder what could happen in the one week she was away? Would that slimy bastard try to wiggle his way into her life again? Thoughts of Edward filled my mind and I felt a sudden uncontrolled anger consume me. I could feel my blood boiling as my temperature was skyrocketing. Edward had pissed me off before and even the mere thoughts of him pissed me off now but it still didn’t warrant this powerful feeling now coursing through my veins.
I couldn’t explain what was happening to me. I felt like something was crawling under my skin. I felt like something or someone was trying to break free from within me. I closed my eyes and just tried to calm my nerves but it would appear my mind had other ideas. Imagines and glimpses of my past and present flooded my brain only fueling my current anger. I had known anger, jealousy and even hatred but nothing felt like this before. Nothing I had ever felt had caused such fury within me. Did it have something to do with Edward? Was I going insane? It would seem that after my mom passed I felt a hint of it and then when my dad was in the hospital a little bit more, then when Bella was hospitalized and Edward arrived the rage hit its peak. Something within me was being fueled by my emotions and it was trying to take over my body. I started to run back to the Rez. I had to talk to someone about this. I had to talk to Sam.
BPOV
A week had come and gone so quickly and strangely enough I hadn’t spoken once to Jake. I figured I would just let him be since he had a lot to do in order to get the garage situated. I sent him a text when I arrived and but I hadn’t spoken to him since.
I waited for him patiently inside his new garage. We had agreed that the garage is where we would meet when he came to Seattle. An hour came and went and Jake still had not arrived. I called him and texted him but his phone went directly to voicemail and my text went unanswered.
I scrolled through my numbers looking for Embry’s number when his name appeared on my phone as an incoming call.
“Hello?”
“Bella O THANK GOD! It’s me Vanessa,” she said in a frantic voice
“Vanessa? Why are you calling me from Embry’s phone? What happened? Are you ok?”
“Bella you need to come down here. Something is not right”
“Calm down what do you mean something’s not right? Is Embry ok? Did something happen? Talk to me”
“I don’t know Bella but please come back. I need your help. It involves Jake too”
I knew once I heard his name my gut feeling were correct. I knew Jake was hurt and I had to help him. So I closed the chapter to one piece of my life and started a new one today. Today I would rescue my light from his own darkness as he rescued me from mine.
The End For Now....