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i think it goes without saying given that the last update to this fic was almost four years ago, but ive gotten a few comments on this in recent months so i felt obligated to make an official update on it.
its surprising seeing people still occasionally commenting on this fic in 2021, its far from the ut fic with the most kudos in the tag, and it was posted in 20...16? 17? and last updated in 2018, so it makes me wonder how people are going and finding this fic. it doesnt really matter, its just something i find myself wondering every time i get a new comment on it. and dont mistake my surprise for dissatisfaction, its really really nice to hear peoples thoughts on this old thing even if im a bit embarrassed every time i get compliments on it.
the comments are why im making this an official update about this, i got a comment a bit ago from someone asking if i was dead and it might have been an exaggeration, but i know a lot of fic writers do actually die and ig i felt the need to be like "no im still kicking im just not doing this anymore, but thanks for your concern and support".
it would be nice to be able to continue this but i dont think its possible anymore at this point. its been so long that i dont remember all of my plans for where it was going, and i've forgotten what ive already written. and its been just the right amount of time that i cant reread the fic to find out because ill die from embarrassment- four years isnt enough time to make something "endearing cringe", its just cringe.
somewhere along the line i decided im just not much of a writer, and havent written much of anything since.
i miss it a little though. maybe ill pick it up again, just for a little while. deltarunes been basically the only thing ive thought about since chapter 2 was released after all. im sure i could whip something up, but probably nothing as long and sprawling as this fic was meant to be.
for anyone whose interested, heres what i remember of the outline of where this fic was supposed to go, skip if you dont want to know in case someone adopts the story:
you travel with sans and papyrus through the mostly abandoned underground, being tailed by flowey who reluctantly agreed to not sabotage you at papyrus' request which was the closest thing you could get to him helping. gaster sends you on a mission to collect the fragments of his soul and piece him back together. hed been hovering around sans and papyrus since his accident, fully sentient but unable to interact with the world around him, just watching life as a passenger to them. meeting sans was the catalyst to the story, because for whatever reason (i dont remember lmao) gaster was able to interact with you by having his consciousness join your body. the more you were around either of the skelebros the stronger a hold gaster had on your soul, which is why the possession rapidly progressed from the beginning of the story. as he and you merged more and more he was able to take more control over your body, thus the dreams and the being able to control your hand and make you write notes for him. perhaps given enough time he would have been able to take over completely. he probably would have, but knowing myself i dont think i would have ever made it so that happened. i dont like villain gaster much. gaster would give you clues on where to go in your journey to find the fragments of his soul; you were going to meet all of the gaster followers and eventually have to enter the CORE yourself to get the last piece. once you had all the fragments, youd bring them to sans' lab and put them into the machine, bada bing bada boom you gave your very own handmade gaster
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...and i dont know the rest. honestly i doubt 16 year old me even planned past that. ive always been really bad at writing satisfying endings.
at the point that i was writing a fic i wasnt even really looking at it like a story, you know? it was what i used to escape from real life, as pretentious as that sounds. it was never about the ending, it was about the friends we made along the way. i figured it might be nice to put something like this out, i know that when fics i like are abandoned and never updated again i lose sleep over where it would have gone. so here go you, now you know exactly where it would have gone.
this is kinda a bummer. wanna hear a funny story to lighten the mood?
like i said i wrote this in high school during the peak of undertales popularity. because it wasnt set in the underground i had to come up with a setting for this fic since i couldnt rely on the ut canon. i didnt want to do a lot of worldbuilding for a fic that was supposed to be theraputic for me, so i just based the setting on the area around my school. and it was heavily based on it. every location was based on a real world place near my school. hadleys bakery was based on a bakery two blocks away from my school, the school that toriel worked at was my school. it was the place i knew best other than my own house, so i decided on it in order to minimize the brainpower i needed to write this fic. apparently it was obvious for the people at my school. my best friend at the time who was also into undertale sent me a link to this fic, because she had put two and two together and figured out that based on the setting the fic might have been written by someone who went to our school. what are the odds, huh?
anyway
so thats whats up
i started this fic when i was a depressed little 16 year old who was trying to escape reality. im 22 now. im still depressed, but im way hotter than i was back then.
maybe ill pick up fic again some day. i more or less stopped writing, not for any tragic backstory reason, i just naturally ended up sticking to my core competency which was visual art. speaking of which, you should check that out if you havent! im a lot better at drawing than i ever was at writing
you should follow me on twitter and tumblr btw
maybe ill put this up for adoption. thats something you can do right? hand it over to someone else? i dont have anyone else to give the story to, but if anyone is interested you can dm me for it and we can figure out how to make it happen.
but yeah! so thats the update. i just felt bad leaving people hanging, especially now that new people have been commenting on the story. thank you to all of you for all of your support over the years. even though this story wont have an ending, im glad it brought so many of you joy just like it did for me
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