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“I don’t understand emotions, but I know I don’t like this.”
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Uzi Doorman POV
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I think something’s seriously wrong with me.
Okay, so maybe not the best way to start off, but I’ve been feeling really weird lately.
N will smile at me, and my stomach will twist into a knot. V will ruffle my hair, and I’ll have the urge to let her play with it for hours.
It’s starting to take a toll on me, and it’s genuinely getting hard to talk to them. I feel like I’m constantly trying to avoid embarrassing myself around them, and it’s making me go frickin insane!
So, to avoid that, whenever I see either of them I do what any sane person would do! I try my best to make up an excuse to leave the area. I don’t want to burden them with my stupid feelings, they don’t deserve that.
It doesn’t make me feel any less guilty, though. Their faces after I dismiss their attempts to talk to me make me feel like the worst girl ever. I don’t mean to be cruel, but I don’t like the unknown.
And this feeling is foreign and scary. It makes me stutter, and worry about the way they see me! I’m supposed to be Uzi frickin Doorman! I shouldn’t care about the way any of them think of me. Especially not those two dorks.
I’m supposed to yell at them to bite me when they tease me, but instead my mind turns into mush and I get all flustered!
I’m knocked out of my internal dialogue by a tap on my shoulder, and I already know who it is.
“Hey, Uzi-!” Just like I thought. It’s N. That familiar giddy feeling returns, and my brain immediately spits out some nonsense. “Sorry, kind of busy!” My footsteps speed up as he follows close behind me.
Goddamn him and his long ass legs!
He mumbles something and grips my shoulder tightly. My eyes widen, and I go to slap his hand away. In response, he grabs my hand.
I finally looked up at him, about to protest. At least, before I see the expression he has.
He looks concerned, and maybe even a little bit angry. “I tried to give you space, but you just keep doing whatever this is! Can we please just talk?”
Guilt immediately fills my chest as I notice the conflict in his eyes. I breathe deeply, sighing. “Fine. What do you want to talk about?”
His eyes narrow at me. “Uzi, I think we both know..you’ve been avoiding both me and V, and we’re both really concerned. Did something happen? Did we do something?”
His voice cracks, and it looks like he’s trying to not break down. I realize right then and there that I fucked up. And bad.
I also decided right then and there that I was going to fix my mistakes.
“…I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to—you guys didn’t-“ I cut myself off and take a deep breath.
“This is my fault and mine alone. I was... scared . I’m sorry.” His gaze softens and he puts both of his hands on my shoulders.
“Uzi, when this kind of stuff happens you need to communicate! We care about you, and you worry us sick.” He pulls me into a quick hug, gripping the back of my head.
He ends up pushing my head into his chest due to the height difference, and despite my burning face I hug him back.
After this, all 3 of us talked. V was understandably angry with me, but I explained that I was afraid. She tried to push, but I refused to tell anything more. She ended up relenting, saying she’s just glad I’m ‘back to normal.’
As time passes, midterms finally roll around.
I haven’t been able to hangout with N and V as often lately, but every weekend we all go do something together. It’s typically the mall or movies, but we recently went to the arcade! Of course, I whooped both of their asses in almost every game.
I really miss their company, but I know that I can’t do much about it until midterms are over. These midterms are important, and I have to study for them. If I fail my dad will never let me see another day.
I’ve taken 2 of my midterms already, and I’m in the process of writing my essay for my English midterm as we speak. I groan in annoyance as my stomach rumbles, adjusting my position on the bed.
I haven’t had much time to eat today. I’ve been cramming all day and week, so energy drinks are mostly making up my diet right now. Cans are littered around my desk, and I lazily take a sip out of a half-empty can.
I’m snapped out of my thoughts by my phone"s ringtone blaring in the otherwise silent room.
Quickly snatching my phone, I pray that it’s either N or V. I need to get this midterm finished, but I’d much prefer them being here. Even if we’re just doing something as boring as studying…I’d really appreciate their company.
I reach for my phone and look at the contact. Seems like my prayers were answered, because N’s contact appears on my phone screen. I quickly accepted the call.
“Uzi?” N’s calm voice makes me subconsciously relax, and I put my phone on speaker so I can hear him better.
I realize at his silence that he’s waiting for me to respond. “I’m here. Hi.” I stutter out. God I’m an anxious wreck.
“Hey! Me and V were wondering if you wanted to hang with us? We both miss you.” Huh? I stutter a bit, and he backtracks.
“I mean- we miss your company!” He laughs awkwardly, and I just reply with a teasing hum. “So, uh..are you up for it orrr?” He seems nervous but hopeful.
I hear V’s voice, and tell N to bring the phone closer so I can hear her. “Oh- Okay!” I hear shuffling and footsteps before V’s voice is heard through my phone speakers.
“We’re bored! We need some gremlin energy.” I can practically hear the smirk in her voice. The reminder of my school work eats at me, but all I want is to be near the two right now. I made my decision as soon as he asked.
“Yeah, I’m on my way.” I hear both of them cheer goofily, which makes me laugh a bit. We say our goodbyes and I head out the door as soon as they hang up.
Recently a snow blizzard came by, so I have to walk. It’s too dangerous to drive. I see my neighbors shoveling their driveway, and when they notice me they wave. I wave back lazily.
The walk to N’s house is a short one, and before I know it I’m standing at his front door waiting to be let inside. My hands are dug into my jacket pockets to keep warm.
After a minute or so, the door flies open. I’m met with N standing in the doorway with a monster energy can in his hand.
His hair is messy, and he seems to have dark circles under his eyes. He’s wearing a simple white hoodie and black sweatpants. Despite the tired look, his smile is as bright as a goddamn star.
“Hey Uzi!” He hands the can to me and moves to let me in. I quickly crack open the drink and take a long sip, before setting it down on the counter.
When I look around, I see V sitting on the couch. She seemed to be typing on her laptop before she noticed I was here. She cracks a grin at me, her fangs peeking out. My stomach twists in a knot, and my breath quickens.
What is wrong with me?
“Hey short-stuff! Took you long enough.” I roll my eyes and sit on the armrest of the couch. V looks up at me and raises an eyebrow. “You look..stressed. You okay?”
I met her gaze, my eyes feeling heavy. “Do I really look that sad?” I questioned. V nods, and she looks at me with clear concern. “Like a damn wet puppy.” While her tone is teasing, I can tell she doesn’t mean anything malicious by it.
V moves her laptop to the side. “Come here.” I feel her grip around my wrist before I’m tugged down onto the couch. Arms wrap around my shoulders, and I’m pulled into a hug.
Despite her naturally running cold due to the whole vampire thing, her embrace makes my face heat up.
My face flushes as I realize what’s happening. “V- What are you doing?” I stutter out. She moves my head to her shoulder, staying silent.
A beat of silence passes before V opens her mouth again. “Have you eaten today?” Her voice is interrogating, but not in an angry way. She knows my poor eating schedule when I’m under stress. I frown and nod my head no. V lets out a disapproving sigh before letting go of me.
Standing up, she grabs my wrist and forces me up with her. “I’m making you eat something before you start working again. School is important, but so is your personal health!” I groan as she lectures me.
I pout, and she places her hands on her hips. She raises her eyebrows quizzingly, and I relent. “Okay okay, jeez. I’ll frickin eat!” V’s frown twists into a small smile, and she walks over to the kitchen area.
N and V typically don’t eat human food, but it still provides them with nutrients and all. Blood is just more fulfilling for them, and they’ll stay sane for longer with it. I’m still partly human, so I eat human food. They’ve started buying small snacks for when I come over.
“I’ll grab you a granola bar, and we can eat dinner in an hour or two.” N walks out of his room holding his phone. He looks at V, having overheard the conversation. “Should I order some food?”
V’s head tilts to the side in consideration, before lazily nodding. “Yeah, that sounds fine.” She shrugs and walks back over to the couch, dragging me with her again.
As 10 minutes pass, I’ve already finished my granola bar. V’s head is resting on my shoulder, and we’re both watching a random video she put on. My body is tense, and V looks up at me when she notices. Soon, she gains a devilish grin and pulls me into a hug like before.
I’ve always been bad with physical contact. My dad’s typically doing something work related, and my mom died when I was young. To put it simply, I never really got hugged as a kid.
I yelp in surprise as she wraps her arms around me. “You need to take a chill pill. Just relax, kay?” V’s voice is soothing in my ear, and annoyingly I subconsciously melt into her embrace.
We sit there for a minute or so before I feel the couch shift as N sits beside us. He brings his hand up to my shoulder. “There’s no need to be tense, we’re here.” He says with a smile.
I let out a small sigh. All of my stress completely melts away when I feel a pair of larger, stronger arms wrap around me from behind.
I’m basically sandwiched between two vampires…and as terrifying as that sounds it"s actually pretty comfortable. I’ve always ran really warm, sometimes to the point I’d have to sleep with my window open just to stay cool.
But with these two, they keep me at a normal temperature like this. I don’t feel too cold, or too warm. It feels right.
I realize just how corny that thought is, and it makes me want to move and ignore these two until they forget about me completely. But it’s way too comfortable for me to move.
I let out a breath of defeat, leaning back onto N’s chest. Both of them start to purr, and I reach my hands around V’s head to play with her short hair.
A little over a week ago I learned that both of them could purr. I woke up first at a sleepover, and heard it while they were both sleeping. I will forever tease the ever loving SHIT out of V for it.
We sit in comfortable silence, letting all of our stress from midterms melt away. I can hear N’s heartbeat, and It’s relaxing. I close my eyes as I move my ear over to listen better.
“I missed you guys.” I admit, breaking the silence.
I feel N smile into my shoulder, where he rested his head, and V grins and ruffles my already messy hair. I didn’t even realise she took off my beanie..
“We missed you too, dork.” At V’s words, my stomach immediately bursts into butterflies. My eyes open, and I avert my gaze. I just know my face is extremely red, so I bury my face deeper into her shoulder.
V chuckles, gripping my hair from behind, and starts twirls small strands of my purple hair around her fingers. I close my eyes once again, and a set of words slip out of my mouth before I can stop them.
“I love you guys.” My eyes immediately snap open at the realization of what I just said, and I quickly move my hands from V’s hair to slap them over my mouth.
V freezes up, and N’s grip around me tightens. Did I fuck up? I probably fucked up. I ruined it again! Goddamnit Uzi, why can’t you just keep your fat mouth shu-!
My internal rambling is cut off by N muttering, and V nodding. I stare at the two in confusion for a second. The words he spoke don’t register for a hot minute, but when they do?
“We love you too.”
My breath catches in my throat.
I’d usually protest, and say that I’m an ‘all powerful god,’ and how I don’t need mushy love. This time, though?
This feels right. I hum, and V breaths deeply. She lifts my head from off N, and by extension removes N’s head from my shoulder.
I feel like I can’t breathe as her palms meet the sides of my face, and she stares into my eyes. Striking yellow eyes meet violet, and V’s soften.
“Uzi, can I ask you something?” Her voice is quiet and soft. N’s hands begin to massage small circles into my sides, and my breath hitches once again.
Not trusting my voice, I nod. V breathes deeply again, and N brings his gaze to hers. He softly nods, and smiles. She swallows, before finally spitting it out.
“Would you like to be me and N’s girlfriend?”
My life flipped around in the best way possible, and I got the worst case of butterflies in the stomach I have ever had. And yet, I couldn’t be happier.
Instead of replying, I tightly wrap my arms around V’s shoulders. I frantically nod into her shoulder, and both of them chuckle at my antics. I feel a kiss planted on top of my head, and my face flushes.
These two will seriously be the death of me.