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1.0

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Felix couldn’t really remember the first time he’d thought about kissing Hyunjin.

It wasn’t that he’d been thinking about it for a considerable amount of time, but it hadn’t only been a few weeks either.

At times, it felt as if it came out of nowhere. He would be minding his own business, sitting next to Hyunjin while the group was conducting a VLive. Then suddenly, Hyunjin’s lips were all Felix felt that he could focus on. Possibly to a disturbing degree; he took note of the way Hyunjin’s lips parted whenever Hyunjin spoke, laughed, pronounced certain syllables over others, and the quite adorable way his teeth peeked from behind his lips when he smiled mischievously. Had there been a quiz after every Live, he’d have utterly failed when asked about anything Hyunjin said in his introduction besides his name. And even that would be just an assumption.

If you had told Felix when he made the decision to pack his bags and move to Korea to become an idol that by his group’s debut in 2018, he would already be crushing on one of the other members a few months later, he’d have probably thought you were insane. Yet that was exactly where he currently found himself when it came to his groupmate, Hwang Hyunjin.

When these feelings for Hyunjin arose within him was a mystery to Felix himself. He had always been fond of Hyunjin. The two stuck together like peas in a pod whenever they could. The fact that they were in the same unit only made them that much closer. The two ate together, practiced together, and talked a lot. Hyunjin even went out of his way to speak with him in English at times, which Felix greatly appreciated. Even still, Hyunjin was always extremely encouraging of his Korean. While Felix felt he was lacking or didn’t always understand everything being said, the way Hyunjin spoke often made him feel as if he was fluent. If he needed anything, one of the first people Felix would ask would be Hyunjin, and Hyunjin was willing to stop almost anything to help him no matter what he needed. That was how it had been for months. How could he not consider Hyunjin one of his closest friends by now?

Still, that doesn’t necessarily equate to a crush. There were several other members Felix spent just as much time with and who were just as helpful to him. So what was so different about Hyunjin?

Felix found himself wondering all of this while the two were seated on the floor in one of the dorm rooms watching a movie. Or maybe it was a K-drama? Felix didn’t know how long it had been on, what it was called, nor did he even remember how they started watching it in the first place, as he’d had spent the vast majority of the time sneaking glances at Hyunjin’s lips while he explained every other line of dialogue to him. After a while, he stopped sneaking and found himself full-on staring at Hyunjin, only turning away when Hyunjin must have felt his intense gaze and attempted to face him in return.

Felix considered himself lucky for not being caught yet. Though, that was about to change very quickly.

It was apparently the time in whatever movie this was for the two main characters to move the plot along to the tune of Elvis Presley’s, Can't Help Falling in Love. Which only made Felix feel reassured that this couldn’t have been any more of a K-drama than his actual life right now. The moment was doubly awkward for Felix. Not only was he battling his emotions with an iconic love song for an IRL BGM while sitting next to the cause of said inner turmoil, but now that there was nothing for Hyunjin to narrate, it was the only source of sound in the room. He couldn’t sneak a glance at Hyunjin if he wanted to.

And he really wanted to.

It took everything within Felix not to fan his face and immediately give himself away. He stopped and took a deep breath, not worrying about whether or not that would be unusual. Maybe he was overthinking things. Hyunjin probably didn’t think heads or tails of the song playing at the moment. Plus, it would only serve to make him suspicious with how quiet he’d suddenly become. There was no reason to start making things awkward when Hyunjin hadn’t noticed anything out of the ordinary up until now.

Having reassured himself, Felix felt that it was probably safe to say something to at least give the impression that he actually cared about the movie. Or at least Hyunjin’s narration since he was going through a lot of trouble just to make sure Felix was following along. But before he had a chance to debate whether his next sentence would be a question or a thanks, whatever he had planned to say disappeared before the words even made it to Felix’s tongue.

As when he turned to face Hyunjin, he found Hyunjin already staring right at him.

Felix’s eyes widened in surprise. He expected Hyunjin might have been looking at the TV or perhaps even his phone. Meeting his eyes head-on was the last thing Felix expected to see.

Yet, now that they had locked eyes, he couldn’t turn away.

Why was Hyunjin staring at him?

Why hadn’t he said anything?

Why wasn’t he saying anything now?

Well, Felix supposed he wasn’t one to judge, as he currently couldn’t even remember how to speak Korean. And if that wasn’t bad enough, he had seemingly lost control of his eyes as well, since they were honed in on Hyunjin’s lips before he knew it, causing his brain to flood with several questions and thoughts all at once.

How were they so plush and full?

Were they as soft as they looked?

Would that be a weird question to ask?

But I’m already looking at them, so maybe it wouldn’t be weird?

Ah, his teeth, they’re so cute.

He’s really cute when he smirks.

What is he smiling at anyway?

The large hand cupping his face almost went unnoticed by Felix. It was as if the feeling of warmth suddenly snapped him out of his thoughts, and Felix realized that he was being pulled closer to Hyunjin.

Wait, what?

Before he could even process it, the gap between them closed and Felix found that Hyunjin’s lips were even softer than he thought they would be, if that were even possible. He had imagined this moment several times before, and none of them were quite as sweet as what he was experiencing. It was unexpectedly gentle and soft when their lips pressed together to the point that Felix very literally expected butterflies to burst out of his chest at any second.

They pulled apart briefly, Felix nearly in a daze that he’d actually just kissed Hyunjin. Or been kissed by Hyunjin? After a brief moment of trying to gauge what Hyunjin was thinking, he noticed a shy smile growing on Hyunjin’s lips and only realized afterwards that Hyunjin was mirroring whatever goofy smile Felix now felt on his own face.

Hyunjin pulled their lips together again. And a third time. And a fourth. By the sixth or seventh time they pulled apart, Hyunjin had moved his hands to Felix’s waist, coaxing him into straddling his lap while the two continuing sharing the softest, sugar-laced kisses, only interrupted when the two couldn’t stop giggling every time their lips met. Felix hesitantly put his arms on Hyunjin’s shoulders before eventually finding some drops of courage to lightly wrap them around Hyunjin’s neck.

Felix had no idea how long they’d been kissing and, as much as he wanted to ingrain every detail about this moment in his head to revisit in his dreams, he stopped counting after the fifteenth.

It wasn’t until the sound of somewhat loud music, signifying the appearance of rolling credits, caught Hyunjin’s attention that the two finally ended up separating, with Felix timidly sliding off of Hyunjin’s lap to allow him to move. Felix fanned his face with his hands, still processing that he wasn’t dreaming when Hyunjin turned the TV off. To his surprise, rather than saying anything about what had just happened for the last…who knows how long…Hyunjin sat back down on the floor next to Felix.

“Did you enjoy it?” he asked.

“Huh? Oh, the movie? I mean, drama? I mean…what were we watching again?” Felix asked, not meaning to sound as out of it as he did. But he clearly must have, given the snicker Hyunjin responded with.

“Don’t worry about it.” he said, simply, with a wave of his hand.

Felix had expected Hyunjin to say more, and the fact that he didn’t made Felix start to think maybe he really did just dream the entire past couple of hours in this dorm room.

Or maybe Hyunjin also just didn’t really know how to move on after…that.

“What did you want to do now?” Felix asked, forcing himself to pipe up.

“Mmm…oh, weren’t you going to show me something with your new video game?” Hyunjin asked, pointing to Felix’s backpack.

“Oh, sure, if you still want to.” Felix said, eagerly. He quickly went to retrieve the console while rummaging among the many game cartridges he carried around with him.

“You said you could get a high score easily.” Hyunjin said, sliding on the floor beside Felix. “You think you still can?”

“That’s the easy part! I’ll just show you how to do it, too. Then we’ll see who can clear it the fastest.” Felix replied, more than sure of himself.

At least, that had been the plan. Who could have expected that Hyunjin would keep feigning questions he wanted to ask about the game as an excuse to get Felix to face him, wherein he would steal kiss after kiss after kiss, failing to contain his laughter every time?

Once he was aware of Hyunjin’s game, Felix was not one to take this lying down, sneaking his own share of kisses whenever Hyunjin got genuinely immersed in the gameplay and leaned just close enough for Felix to peck those plush lips when the opportunity arose.

Ordinarily, it would have upset Felix to miss out on a chance to show off getting a new high score in one of his games. Especially when he’d been grinding his time down for the past couple of days. But for once, Felix wasn’t upset about it.

He was sure he’d end up with the higher kiss count next time.

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1.1

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Kissing Felix had become a habit for Hyunjin.

Ever since their initial kiss after watching a movie together a few months ago, neither of them seemed all that interested in allowing it to be the last time.

As such, it became a bit of an unspoken routine for them. He and Felix would meet up in an unoccupied room, usually when the other members were either asleep, showering, or busy enough doing other things that their absence wouldn’t be noticed. And they would…simply kiss each other.

Softly, gently, and definitely nervously, but Hyunjin could say he was becoming more accustomed to the routine by the day. Some days, they would be too busy, and only able to sneak in a few quick pecks. Other days, they had a bit more freedom and would share kisses until one or both of them, quite frankly, had to be somewhere else.

It felt so surreal to Hyunjin. Who would have guessed the incredibly sweet Australian boy he’d never been able to take his eyes off of since his trainee days would actually reciprocate his crush? It felt like he’d won the lottery. To be in an unfamiliar country with unfamiliar people would make anyone hesitant to open themselves up and trust others so easily, and yet Felix had managed to do so with him. Hyunjin understood that very well.

As such, Hyunjin did his very best to keep things as predictable as possible. He didn’t want to possibly risk scaring Felix off by doing anything to make things uncomfortable; either for Felix himself or between them as friends and groupmates. Plus, it wasn’t as if he was extremely skilled in…whatever they were doing…anyway. There was generally no need to push things. He was more than comfortable with where the were now.

So it was a bit of a surprise to even Hyunjin himself when he felt the urge to do something more that day.

While seated on the floor of one of the bathrooms they had effectively taken hostage, Hyunjin found himself interested in something a bit different. He had pulled away from Felix’s lips suddenly and moved to sit in front of him, leaving Felix as the only one with his back against the wall. Unconsciously, Hyunjin looked Felix up and down before meeting the Australian’s eyes again, almost as if trying to communicate his intentions with his eyes.

Felix’s expression was one he couldn’t quite determine; looking some combination of shy, confused, and curious about whatever he must have thought would happen next. Hyunjin, not particularly sure of how exactly to ask for what he wanted, decided to just take matters into his own hands, placing his hands at the bottom of Felix’s turtleneck, before looking at him as if to ask his permission to continue.

Again, Felix’s eyes were wide, but rather than saying anything in response to Hyunjin’s action, he oddly, placed his hands near Hyunjin’s, helping him remove the sweater without question.

As Felix’s sweater was removed and placed to the side, a hot sensation arose in Hyunjin’s stomach. How was it that Felix was so willing to go along with his desires without even knowing what his intention was? He had mixed feelings about it, the discomforting idea that Felix could be easily taken advantage of looming in the back of his mind. But he wouldn’t deny that it was causing to his heart to do backflips at how much Felix seemed to trust him at that moment.

Needless to say, now Hyunjin was tasked with meeting Felix’s large doe eyes staring expectantly at him, as if naturally wondering why Hyunjin had suddenly decided to have him take his shirt off.

So, Hyunjin decided to finally make a move, slowly placing his hands on Felix’s chest, first experimenting with touching the younger’s nipples.

He felt Felix tense up underneath him for a moment and a part of him felt a bit of guilt. The uncertainty of what they were doing and had been doing already ruminated the air by virtue of its forbidden nature alone. They were two boys meeting up in secret every other day behind the backs of their group members to kiss each other. Now Hyunjin had felt the need to go even further, an inexplainable desire to explore Felix’s body overtaking him.

Why? He couldn’t really say. But there was something about what they’d been doing the past couple of months that had him feeling the slightest bit possessive. It wasn’t that he’d never seen Felix without a shirt on before. But he’d never touched him quite like this before, either.

He didn’t know how Felix would react to his hands on his uncovered body in such a manner. And the fact that he didn’t know bothered him. It was knowledge that nobody else had, knowledge that he wanted, and was determined to get on that day.

Felix shifted and squirmed the more Hyunjin toyed with his nipples, his body becoming flush under Hyunjin’s gaze which repeatedly shifted between Felix’s body and his eyes. Soft pants started to leave Felix’s lips and Hyunjin began to finally feel that he was doing something the younger enjoyed.

It didn’t take long before Hyunjin gave an experimental lick to one of Felix’s nipples, eliciting a whine from the Australian’s lips that Hyunjin had never heard before and wanted to keep hearing.

The taller of the two continued his personal study, licking and kissing Felix’s nipples before eventually moving to press soft kisses to Felix’s entire chest, his stomach, and navel. The noises coming from Felix only becoming more needy, spilling out of his mouth with every press of Hyunjin’s lips to his skin.

Hyunjin kept his hands firmly on Felix’s waist for the time being, every so often looking up at him to make sure he wasn’t becoming uncomfortable. The action only became more dangerous for Hyunjin every time he looked up and met Felix’s flushed cheeks, half-lidded eyes, and parted lips begging to be kissed by Hyunjin’s own. Were it not for his determination to seeing what he’d started through to the end, he’d have tapped out minutes ago just to resume kissing Felix as they had done so many days now for two months.

While Felix struggled to keep his eyes open, Hyunjin’s eyes narrowed in on the orange-haired boy’s face. Namely the freckles that decorated his features. Hyunjin found his hand moving to brush his thumb along Felix’s cheek, slowly dragging it across the freckles.

Felix must have been somewhat caught off guard by Hyunjin’s action, blinking a few times before looking up at him.

“I like these.” Hyunjin heard himself say.

Felix remained silent for a few seconds and Hyunjin could see the moment in his eyes when he realized what he’d been referring to.

“You do?” Felix asked. His voice was still dripping with traits of arousal, and Hyunjin had to will himself not to kiss him right there and forget all about what he’d even just said.

“Yeah.” Hyunjin replied, bringing his other hand up to trace the freckles on the other side of Felix’s face. “You shouldn’t get rid of them.”

Hyunjin had heard here and there among the other members that Felix didn’t care much for his freckles. He’d found the claim so unbelievable that he never took it upon himself to ask the boy whether or not it was true. How could he hate one of his most charming attributes? He’d even heard what he hoped was a joke when one of them suggested Felix was thinking about getting rid of them. Was something like that even possible?

Whether it was true or not, Hyunjin intended to make his stance on the idea quite clear.

Felix had kept his eyes looking up at him (not that he really had a choice, as Hyunjin was effectively forcing his head up while he continued examining his freckles), his mouth slightly open in surprise at Hyunjin’s words. Hyunjin was counting a few of his freckles, taking note of the different shapes when he realized the coloration change in Felix’s skin starting to be more visible. He didn’t think there could be any other lethal combination thrown at him today after the sight and sound of the half-lidded boy panting and lightly moaning at his touches just a few minutes ago. Having him blushing on top of that was threatening to push Hyunjin over the edge.

“I won’t.” Felix said, an incredibly small pout on his lips as if mad that Hyunjin had made him blush suddenly. Hyunjin chuckled, taking advantage of the younger’s face in his hands and pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead.

“Good, it’s cute.” Hyunjin replied in English, causing Felix’s face to redden even more. Not willing to let Felix get by trying to cover his face, Hyunjin quickly pressed his lips to Felix’s, finally reclaiming his prize after so long. Fortunately, Felix was quick to oblige, probably if for no other reason than to hide his face from him.

Not that Hyunjin minded, as he seamlessly flipped their positions, pulling Felix into his lap as his back met the wall. Keeping one hand firmly on Felix’s waist and allowing the other to occasionally brush across Felix’s chest to illicit more quiet moans, the two ended up returning to their roots, spending the next hour or so simply sharing soft kisses, giggling, and teasing each other whenever either of them kissed at an awkward angle or accidentally bit the other’s lip.

It wasn’t how Hyunjin expected his first attempt at exploring Felix’s body would go, but it would be etched into his mind for a long time to come.

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2.0

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Occasionally, Felix wondered when the next time Hyunjin would catch him off guard would be.

Ever since that day two years ago when he’d acted suddenly in the dorm bathroom, things had been relatively consistent between them. It was rare that anything unexpected happened.

Generally, their kisses were still overwhelmingly soft and sweet. Not necessarily because either of them had anything against going further. But because they simply seemed content with how things were and neither of them had any real desire to do much more.

What they didn’t do to move to the next step in private, they were more than willing to experiment with in public; not shying away from any public affection in terms of skinship and happily promoting while sharing the same blonde hair color. They had even donned matching braids together to end off the year’s final performances. Couple braids, if you were to ask them personally. It was comfortable in every aspect.

Which is why, at another one of their scheduled visits, Felix felt his heartbeat accelerate when Hyunjin suddenly started to deepen their kiss, becoming more languid and drawn out. He’d moaned lightly in Felix’s mouth, and Felix felt Hyunjin’s tongue occasionally attempting to penetrate his lips before immediately pulling back. Almost as if he hadn’t meant to.

Felix felt his body getting hotter and hotter. It was a new feeling compared to any time that they’d kissed in the past and he wasn’t quite sure how he was expected to respond.

Felix couldn’t hold back the low moan that escaped his lips as Hyunjin ran his fingers through his hair and over his braid, the one matching the braid in Hyunjin’s own hair, and he felt Hyunjin shiver against him immediately. Things were slowly turning into something Felix had never anticipated happening.

Almost in unison, the two pulled apart, panting heavily and quickly facing any direction besides each other. Felix felt as though the room was spinning, unconsciously covering his mouth with his hand before placing his fingers on his lips, freshly slick with saliva from their heated exchange.

“Sorry. We should…stop.” Hyunjin said, suddenly.

“We should…” Felix replied.

The response wasn’t as immediate as it probably should have been.

Felix started counting in his head. Five. Ten. Fifteen. Thirty seconds was probably the appropriate limit to remain silent before things legally started to get awkward. Waiting five more seconds for good measure, Felix dared himself to look at Hyunjin, only to experience deja vu when he found that Hyunjin was already looking back at him. Before Felix could try to reason what they should do, Hyunjin’s hands were already on his waist, pulling him into his lap and messily joining their lips together.

“...Hyunjin…?” Felix moaned between kisses, pressing his body ever closer to Hyunjin, effectively straddling him.

“Mm? Ah…” Hyunjin moaned in response, his hands tightening around Felix’s waist.

Felix tried to shift his position, but found something preventing him from moving easily. It wasn’t outright apparent to him at first, leading him to try to move again, but had he moved too much, he’d have broken his kiss with Hyunjin. And that wasn’t an option.

It was then that Felix realized that he wasn’t just imagining things. He was hard. Quite hard.

Felix almost felt himself freeze on the spot. It was the first time this had happened to him while they were kissing, and he was worried that it would make Hyunjin uncomfortable (in more ways than one, given their current sitting position) if he took notice. He did his best to try to keep his pelvis further away from Hyunjin’s, but to little avail, as Hyunjin only seemed to keep trying to shift his hips closer. Upon being unable to resist any longer, Felix allowed himself to be pulled into Hyunjin’s lap fully.

It was to his complete surprise when he discovered Hyunjin was apparently just as hard as he was. The uninvited additions to both of their pants more or less collided with each other, causing Felix to gasp as Hyunjin only continued kissing him, spreading his lips to his neck and other areas of his face.

While Felix had been somewhat relieved to find out he wasn’t the only one completely aroused, he was also unsure of where to go from there. Should he acknowledge it? Ignore it? What if Hyunjin hadn’t noticed and would be uncomfortable upon finding out? As much as he hated the awkward state of affairs it would create, Felix felt had no choice but to speak up.

“Ah…Hyunjin. What should we…?” Felix managed to stutter out, finding it almost impossible to focus on a cohesive thought with both his erection and Hyunjin attacking his neck with kisses throwing his brain completely out of commission.

Before Felix could say any more, Hyunjin was already unbuckling his pants and quickly shoving his hand past the waistband, feeling around for Felix’s erection. Felix immediately moaned into the crook of Hyunjin’s neck, worried that someone would certainly hear them if he didn’t. Hyunjin’s hand wrapped around his cock, pumping it in a slow rhythm before gradually increasing his pace.

The feeling was borderline euphoric. The idea of Hyunjin’s hand on Felix’s cock was hardly a thought that ever crossed Felix’s mind given how tame things had been between them for so long. For it to instantaneously become his reality was something Felix could barely wrap his head around.

What he could do, however, was wrap his arms even tighter around Hyunjin’s neck, doing his best to keep his voice down.

Moans only continued spilling from his mouth and he must have gotten too loud, as Hyunjin grabbed the back of his head, forcing their lips together again as if to muffle him.

It was all quickly becoming overwhelming for Felix. One of Hyunjin’s large hands stroking him off, the other tangled in his hair, while his tongue had finally made its way into Felix’s mouth. He had no idea whether the other members could hear him or not and it only made his body feel hotter thinking about the possibility that they could. Felix felt his legs beginning to shake, and almost at the exact same time did it seem Hyunjin’s hand went into overdrive, leaving Felix with no choice but to cover his own mouth, genuinely afraid of how loud he had become.

He could swear he was seeing stars despite his eyes being squeezed shut when he reached his climax moments later, trembling in Hyunjin’s arms as he felt the taller of them holding him close. His grip around Hyunjin’s neck tightened and he had just enough brain cells still activated to worry he was probably hurting him somehow. Yet he’d hardly even had time to process asking anything before his vision finally seemed to betray him, the entire room disappearing into darkness. The last thing he recalled was the feeling of soft kisses from plush lips on his cheeks.

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When Felix opened his eyes, it was dark. And raining, apparently. For a second, he almost thought he’d gone blind. He shot up to find himself in his bed, looking around the room as if expecting something of note to happen. But all he heard were the soft snores of his roommates. Realizing that it was well past time for him to still be awake, he slowly lay back down, huddling under his covers.

As he took time to process where he was and the time, memories of what’d he done with Hyunjin hours ago were starting to resurface in his mind. He couldn’t recall much after Hyunjin had jerked him off, but vague recollections of Hyunjin’s voice asking him different questions fluttered in his thoughts.

“Tell me if it’s too hot.”

“Where do you keep your toothpaste?”

“Hey, lift your arms up for a second.”

Felix shifted around under the covers, the feeling of his pajamas against his skin somewhat foreign to him for some reason. An overwhelming feeling of emptiness washed over him as he listened to the sounds of the raindrops fall against the window. He reached out his arm to his side, foolishly hoping that he would feel Hyunjin there in his bed. Though, he knew it was probably long unnecessary by now, Felix felt bad for not returning the favor for him.

Eventually, the Australian boy turned over in bed and closed his eyes, giving up on trying to remember the details he couldn’t seem to recall. Almost as if this was a fantasy novel, he hoped that he’d be able to fill in the missing holes through his dreams.

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2.1

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It was a relief when Hyunjin and Felix officially classified themselves as a couple.

The fact that it didn’t catch most of the other members off guard when they finally shared their new relationship status with everyone was both relieving and slightly embarrassing. Hyunjin had only really told a few people. Jeongin had known for eons, Changbin had figured it out on his own, and Minho said you’d have to be an idiot to have not known when Hyunjin eventually told him. Felix had apparently told Chan ages ago, but his inability to lie convincingly meant it was only a matter of time before anyone else he spoke to at any given time found out. He’d accidentally let things slip here and there to Jisung, allowing the latter to more-or-less feign ignorance until they officially confirmed it. Meanwhile, Seungmin couldn’t have been happier when they’d finally declared it. Hyunjin still had no idea why he was so particularly invested in his relationship with Felix, but he tried to ask as few questions of Seungmin as possible to avoid being the subject of his teasing.

Needless to say, Hyunjin was relieved to know he and Felix no longer had to keep their relationship a secret. While they weren’t necessarily doing anything the members didn’t know about, they still didn’t draw additional attention towards it either. It wasn’t like they were about to start collectively announcing their “secret” meetups, but at least they wouldn’t risk scaring the hell out of anyone who might have accidentally walked in on them anymore.

On that note, while the two of them no longer had to hide in empty rooms just to kiss each other, the fact that there were cameras on them so often meant that they still couldn’t carelessly share a peck whenever they felt like it. Their relationship being known about, unfortunately, didn’t equate to it being something they could act upon at will. Which is why he and Felix decided that nothing would really change as it related to their visits. They simply wouldn’t always have to worry about being discovered.

Fortunately, the group no longer lived together in a single dorm, which meant they no longer had to bank on half a dozen people being out and about at any given time, lest they resort to an unoccupied bathroom or closet. Each of them shared a dorm with three other members, but with their own bedrooms, meaning it was much easier to always have at least one room they could use. While living together would have been preferred, the two were already loving and making use of the new arrangements. They typically decided to alternate between rooms, which was why the pair found themselves in Hyunjin’s room that afternoon.

While shutting the door, the foreseen, “Don’t go too crazy in there,” comment from Chan was tossed their way as he took his exit. Their leader repeated the light warning at pretty much any opportunity when Hyunjin and Felix were craving their alone time, but it was almost always made in jest. Any fly on the wall would probably have flown out in boredom to find something more enticing to view, as their escapades rarely went past a PG-rating.

But perhaps the comment ended up manifesting something out of the ordinary, as Felix had been all too eager to join their lips together as soon as the door clicked shut. Hyunjin was caught off guard, but he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t into it. It had been a few days since they really had a chance to meet up like this, so he figured that was the explanation for Felix’s quick actions.

Still, Felix kissed him so hungrily and greedily in a way Hyunjin truly hadn’t anticipated. He felt his back hit the wall as Felix pressed himself closer and closer to him. While keeping up with Felix’s lips wasn’t an issue, the increasing temperature was quickly becoming one. Beads of sweat began to roll down Hyunjin’s face and he was mentally kicking himself for not going with his first instinct to wear a short-sleeved shirt that day.

“Felix…it’s hot.” Hyunjin panted, his shirt starting to stick uncomfortably to his body after what was probably less than ten minutes. Felix pulled back with a concerned look and had quickly placed his hands at the hem of the shirt.

“Oh…do you want to-” he started, before Hyunjin quickly grabbed the hem as well, pulling it lower.

“A-Ah…no…” he replied, shaking his head. “I-I can’t take this off…”

Felix’s expression morphed from one of concern to confusion, releasing Hyunjin’s shirt with one of his hands. “But…you said you were feeling hot...”

Hyunjin’s eyes were glued to the floor, darting in every direction and examining every square inch of tile.

“N-No, I….it’s because I’m not…”

It was obvious to anyone with a functioning pair of eyes, including the other members and even their fans; if there was one thing Felix was into, it was muscles. Felix was constantly touching, feeling, and caressing the arms and backs of the other members. And by no means did he only do these antics in front of the camera. It was something Felix seemingly enjoyed doing whenever he could get away with it. His favorite targets weren’t hard to pin down, either. Changbin, Jeongin, Chan, even Minho got his share of attention from Felix just for his skin alone. It was clear Felix was into more muscular physiques as a whole. Which is why Hyunjin hadn’t been surprised that he was never the subject of Felix’s physical admiration. The most skin you could pay him to show were his arms and his legs from the knees down. What was there really for Felix to be interested in?

Hyunjin lamented this day coming, as he was certain Felix would eventually get to a point of wondering why he was the only one of the two who ever took any of his clothes off when they met up together. If there was one area Felix seemed to have more confidence than Hyunjin, it was showing his skin. Particularly when it was just the two of them. He’d climb out of his shirt in a heartbeat if Hyunjin so much as slipped a finger underneath it. Hyunjin, up until now, probably had never removed more than a sock in front of Felix.

“What’s wrong?” Felix asked, his eyes soft with worry. “You’re not what?”

“I just…don’t feel too comfortable…” Hyunjin mumbled, kicking himself for not knowing how to go about explaining himself.

Felix was quiet for a moment, as if processing the bits and pieces of information he was being fed. Which was hardly anything, all things considered. Despite that, his expression suggested that he seemed to have come to some kind of conclusion as he began to look around the room for something.

“Hey, what if I just use this?” he asked, before grabbing a blue bandana that had been hanging on the back of a chair. “I can just cover my eyes so I don’t see anything!”

Hyunjin blinked, almost in disbelief as to what Felix was suggesting. “Are you okay with that?”

“I’m okay with whatever you need me to do, as long as you feel comfortable.” Felix said, holding one of Hyunjin’s hands with a smile. “If there’s anything else…please let me know. How you feel about all this…is the most important thing to me.”

“F-Felix…” Hyunjin said quietly, as Felix started trying to tie the bandana around his own eyes as a makeshift blindfold.

“Tighten this for me?” Felix asked, turning his back to Hyunjin, who could only wordlessly tighten the cloth as requested.

Felix placed his hands over his blindfolded eyes. “Just want to make sure…go ahead.”

Hyunjin couldn’t think of any words to say as he slowly pulled his shirt over his head. He was so stun-locked in regards to verbalizing any thoughts that he decided to kick off his pants while he was at it, only leaving his underwear on. The cool air of the air-conditioner hitting his skin was the first comfortable feeling he experienced in the last ten minutes.

“O-Okay…I’m done.” Hyunjin said, tossing his clothes in the middle of the floor.

“Ah…good! I…I promise I can’t see anything.” Felix said, holding his hands out in front of him as if to imply his sincerity. Hyunjin found himself endeared by the action.

“…Thank you, Yongbokie.” he said, running a hand through his hair.

“There’s nothing to thank me for.” Felix said, waving his hands. “So…can we…keep going?”

“Ah…yeah, sorry about that.” Hyunjin apologized, trying desperately to pretend as if nothing just happened.

Felix reached out a hand before pulling it back. “Um…before we do…is it…okay if I touch you? It’s fine if it’s not! I just wanted to ask…”

Hyunjin felt as if he’d just been punched in the gut. Here Felix was, allowing himself to be vulnerable with him for the umpteenth time over the course of their budding relationship, and yet he couldn’t bring himself to do the same. Felix had allowed him to look at him, to touch him, to have his way with him even before they officially became a couple. Now Felix was allowing Hyunjin control over what he was allowed to see or touch, which Hyunjin had already been doing freely to Felix as he pleased for two years. How could Hyunjin still allow his personal insecurity to hold him back from reciprocating that same level of openness?

Hyunjin guessed he must have been quiet for too long, since Felix didn’t wait for him to respond before speaking again.

“Hyunjin? It’s fine, really!” he said.

“What do you mean?” Hyunjin asked.

“I don’t want you to overthink it. Whenever you’re comfortable with taking your clothes off in front of me is up to you. You don’t even have to do it at all if you don’t want to.” Felix explained. “I just asked if it was okay to touch you because I like being close to you, but we don’t have to…”

“It’s fine, I don’t mind you touching me.” Hyunjin said quickly, cupping Felix’s face in his hands. “I’d never stop you from doing that.”

Felix’s face lit up into a smile and Hyunjin immediately pulled their lips together, the two resuming where they let off as if they hadn’t missed a beat. Hyunjin shivered when he felt one of Felix’s hands touch his shoulder, gently squeezing it before sliding lower on his arm and resting there. Hyunjin had lowered one of his hands to Felix’s waist and had to hold himself back from instinctively trying to reach underneath his shirt. After what had just occurred, he didn’t feel right being able to enjoy the privilege of seeing Felix’s body while not allowing him to do the same.

Still, it seemed as though Felix didn’t mind the situation at all. Hyunjin felt his boyfriend’s hands all over his bare skin in a way he wasn’t used to, and their lips continued to meet much more roughly than usual. When they weren’t messily kissing each other, their lips were on each others’ necks or collarbones and Hyunjin was fighting back his inner desire to want to leave marks. It had simply never been quite this chaotic between them and the pit of Hyunjin’s stomach felt like a boiler.

Taking his clothes off ended up doing little to lessen the perspiration falling from his body. Hyunjin was almost starting to become self-conscious about how much he was sweating, figuring it was probably because Felix was still wearing clothes and seemed to only press himself closer and closer to him. Though Felix had told him before that he didn’t mind how much he sweat and actually liked the smell of it, Hyunjin figured he probably wouldn’t want his clothes stained by it. Add on the fact that he could even feel Felix’s hands slipping occasionally while trying to grab a hold of his arms, and Hyunjin figured he should probably try to lessen the temperature in the room. He was on the verge of needing to stop for air anyway and thought it to be a good time to ask if Felix wanted to take a short break.

It all happened so fast, Hyunjin hardly even realized that he’d done. One second, Felix was saying something akin to an apology after pulling his lips from Hyunjin’s. And the next, he’d dragged his tongue along Hyunjin’s shoulder and bicep. The action sending literal shivers down his spine, straight to his hardening dick. Hyunjin felt his breath hitch and could have sworn his vision blurred temporarily. The overwhelming feeling of desire to take Felix on the spot was so great and so terrifying that he’d unintentionally shoved the blonde away from him, sending him to the floor.

The response was instantaneous in that Hyunjin had kneeled to the floor and quickly gathered Felix in his arms, hugging him close and apologizing repeatedly. The fact that this was the second time that day that he had no idea how to explain himself had him starting to feel nauseous. The feeling worsened when Felix ended up speaking before he could come up with even a thought of an explanation.

“Hyunjinnie? Are you alright?” he’d asked quietly, attempting to return the hug.

Of course Felix was asking about him, checking on him. Here he was, unable to see anything around him. He hadn’t seen the push coming and had no way to prepare for it. And despite that, he wasn’t remotely concerned about why he was on the floor right now. He didn’t even sound angry. Hyunjin almost wished he did.

Was it truly not possible for angels to get angry with humans?

“I’m sorry….I just…when you did that…I felt…” Hyunjin muttered, continuing to hold Felix as close to him as possible.

“No, I’m sorry. I don’t even know why I did that…I wasn’t thinking…” Felix said, his arms also still wrapped around Hyunjin.

“Stop, Felix. You didn’t do anything wrong.” Hyunjin exhaled, forcing himself to keep speaking. “Just now…I thought I might do something to you…and I didn’t know if you were okay with that.”

Even though Hyunjin couldn’t see Felix' eyes, he could tell how wide they probably were behind his bandana-turned-blindfold.

“What do you mean?” Felix asked. “Are you talking about-”

“Please just…don’t tempt me. If I hurt you, I’d never forgive myself…” Hyunjin said, honestly.

On any other day, Hyunjin would be lying through his teeth if he said he didn’t largely enjoy his difference in size with Felix. He loved how easily he could rest his chin on Felix’s shoulder or throw his arm around Felix’s neck with ease, letting everyone know who he belonged to. He loved how much larger his hands were and how he could grab a hold of Felix’s wrist with just two fingers if he wished. Cliche as it was to say it, for anything else, it was just right.

But this was different. This was intimacy. This was something where Felix’s petite frame could cause Hyunjin to hurt him during something he was supposed to enjoy. Even setting aside his personal fear that he could hurt Felix, he could make Felix averse to intimacy in general if his first experience with it was negative.

“But I’m okay with it.” Felix said, taking Hyunjin’s face in his hands. “Hyunjin…you can…do whatever you want.”

Hyunjin couldn’t stop himself from continuously thinking he needed to get his ears checked every time Felix  spoke. He wasn’t upset at being made to blind himself in order for Hyunjin to take his clothes off. He wasn’t upset that Hyunjin had shoved him to the floor. He wasn’t concerned about the prospect of his first time being ruined.

 Why? Why did Felix trust him so much?

“Felix, you really want this, too? You’re not just saying it, right? I just don’t want you to not enjoy it if it ends up hurting too much.” Hyunjin asked, wrapping his hand around Felix’s. God, his hand was so small in his. But Felix only nodded in response.

“Yes, Hyunjin…I promise, I’ll be okay.” Felix said. “I’ve…honestly wanted this for a while. Today, I think I just couldn’t wait anymore.”

Hyunjin felt a different type of warmth rush to his cheeks than any other that he’d experienced that day. Was that why Felix had been so eager from the moment they first entered the room? He’d really wanted to do this the entire time? No…for a while? It felt like one of the many daydreams that flew in and out of his mind throughout the day during his vocal lessons. Now it was about to become a reality.

Realizing the weight of what they were about to do, Hyunjin pressed a kiss to Felix’s forehead and lifted him into his arms, carrying Felix to the bed before gently laying him on top of the comforter. Hyunjin slowly climbed on top of him and began to remove the younger’s clothes, starting with his pants and underwear, but choosing not to remove his shirt just yet.

“Okay, I’m going to have to stretch you first. It may feel uncomfortable, I promise it won’t take long.” Hyunjin explained. “Just wait here a second.”

Felix just nodded, not saying anything more. It took Hyunjin all of forty-five seconds to quickly enter and exit Jisung’s room, taking a small bottle of lube with him. Jisung had half-jokingly told Hyunjin he could use it whenever he thought he’d need it with Felix and Hyunjin supposed today was the half when it wasn’t a joke.

After returning to his own room, Hyunjin repositioned himself over Felix’s still body, wetting two of his fingers with lube. He leaned over and began pressing soft kisses to Felix’s face while pushing his legs up to bend at the knee, allowing him to start aligning his fingers with Felix’s hole. If Felix was going to allow him this much leeway, Hyunjin was going to do everything in his power to make his boyfriend’s first time as comfortable as humanely possible.

Hyunjin finally placed his lips on Felix’s at the same time that he slid the first finger inside. He saw Felix’s face scrunch up slightly and continued working with his lips to offset and pain caused by his hand.

“Is it okay?” Hyunjin asked?

“It feels different, but…not bad.” Felix replied.

As Felix was answering, Hyunjin used the chance to swiftly add a second finger, now working his fingers more rhythmically. While Felix had continued to squirm slightly, Hyunjin could tell he was trying not to. Hyunjin rested a hand on Felix’s hips to relax him, prodding at his hole until light pants started to escape from Felix’s mouth. Once the panting began to turn into soft whines, Hyunjin thought that it was now or never.

“Are you really, really sure you want this, Yongbok?” Hyunjin asked while sliding his fingers out. Felix only whined louder as he did, his face flushed a lovely shade of red.

“I’m positive. Please…please, Hyunjin…I really want it.” Felix whined.

Hyunjin felt his own face flush at hearing Felix unexpectedly begging for him. Realizing just how much it seemed Felix truly wanted this, he finally removed the younger’s shirt and his own boxers. Hyunjin took his cock in his hand, stroking himself a couple times before lining up with Felix’s hole and slowly sliding himself inside.

“Hggh…does it hurt, Yongbok?” Hyunjin asked, entering unbearably slowly, but he didn’t want to rush for Felix’s sake.

“Um…a little, it’s….so big…” Felix said, wincing a bit, causing Hyunjin’s cheeks to burn further.

“Ah…just give it a moment or so. You’ll get used to the feeling. Then, I’ll start to move, okay?” Hyunjin said, continuing to pepper kisses on Felix’s face as a distraction from the words that had just exited his mouth.

True to his words, the two had only exchanged a handful of kisses before he felt the tenseness start to leave Felix’s body, the boy relaxing underneath him as he adjusted to Hyunjin’s size.

“Lix, I’m going to start moving now, okay?” Hyunjin said, cupping Felix’s face.

“Okay, trust you.” Felix said, offering Hyunjin a smile as if to encourage him.

With that, Hyunjin exhaled and began to thrust, keeping his eyes glued to Felix’s in the event of the slightest sign of discomfort. Felix gasped out as Hyunjin’s movements started, gripping the comforter beneath him.

“Mmmh! Aah…Hyunjin…!” He cried out, Hyunjin able to tell his eyes were squeezed shut behind the blindfold.

“You’re okay?” Hyunjin asked, instinctively slowing his rhythm, which was met with a whine from Felix.

“Mmm…it feels good. I-I don’t want you to stop.” Felix said.

With Felix’s approval, Hyunjin resumed thrusting at his previous pace, finding himself starting to moan in conjunction with Felix, still making sure to press kisses randomly on Felix’s body whenever he could.

“Aaahh…aah…Hyunjin-ah! C-Can you go faster? I-I need m-more…” Felix said, his moans becoming breathier and shakier.

“’Kay.” Hyunjin said simply, his mind reeling at the sounds Felix was making. Wanting to hear more of them, he moved his hands to play with with Felix’s nipples; kissing, sucking, twisting, licking. Hyunjin was doing whatever it took to make Felix unravel beneath him, his mind entirely focused on Felix’s pleasure alone.

Not to say that he wasn’t enjoying it just as much. Felix’s moans of approval only encouraged Hyunjin to increase the pace of his thrusts, his hands, his lips; to suck Felix dry of every moan, whine, and cry his voice had to offer. When the feeling of Felix clenching around his cock hit him, Hyunjin found himself moaning against Felix’s chest.

“Felix…aaah…are you…?” Hyunjin started to ask, but was immediately answered by Felix nodding as though too consumed by pleasure to speak.

Hyunjin lifted the back of Felix’s head and joined their lips together one final time as they both climaxed in unison, filling each other’s mouths with their own moans as Felix coated his own stomach with cum. Hyunjin felt light-headed as he spilled unceremoniously into Felix before falling beside him on the bed.

The two lay in almost complete silence as they came down from their highs, the only noises being the softening pants escaping their lips. Hyunjin rolled over on his back and blinked at the ceiling, processing the fact that he really just experienced his first time with Felix Lee in his bedroom on a random Wednesday afternoon.

“Felix?” Hyunjin said aloud between pants, looking over at the blonde. “Are you okay? …Hurt?”

Felix turned his head to face Hyunjin’s direction. “I feel fine. Actually…I really…really liked it.”

Hyunjin was glad Felix couldn’t see his face, but he couldn’t defeat the urge to cover his face at Felix’s words, running his fingers through his own hair in embarrassment.

“Was it…weird? Having to wear that, I mean?” Hyunjin asked after a moment.

“Oh this? No, it didn’t bother me at all.” Felix said, touching the bandana and shaking his head. “I wouldn’t mind wearing it again if I need to.”

Hyunjin could only nod, even though Felix couldn’t see him. Again, he felt himself at a loss for words. What was there to really say at a time like this? Not really knowing how to end the admittedly comfortable silence, Hyunjin decided to just let it be. He chose to simply engulf Felix’s hand in his own, kissing the back of it as a smile spread across his face, the kiss eliciting a giggle from the latter.

Felix shyly brought his free hand to his own cheek, unable to stop giggling to himself while his other hand played with Hyunjin’s. “Hehe…that was our first time…”

“Hey! Don’t go saying it out loud like that.” Hyunjin whined, covering his face with his arm. “You sound too excited.”

“It was really good…” Felix continued giggling, facing Hyunjin with a mischievous grin. “Really, really good.”

Two could play at that game. Hyunjin pulled Felix on top of him with ease, kissing the words out of his mouth before he could say anymore.

“What was that for?” Felix asked with a laugh, cheekily adding, “I wasn’t done, you know?”

“Less talking, more kissing.” Hyunjin said, attacking Felix’s lips with a barrage of soft kisses. “My lips are cold.”

Admittedly, it wasn’t how Hyunjin envisioned how his first time with Felix would go. But as he lay in his bed that evening and thought back on it, unable to stop himself from smiling, he figured that was probably a sign that he wouldn’t change a thing.

~~~

3.0

~~~

Hyunjin hadn’t particularly woken up that day thinking to teach Felix how to ride him.

It just sort of…happened.

He had made it known to Felix that they were going to have to experiment with new positions to reduce any possible strain on Felix’s back ever since his herniated disc diagnosis, were they to continue being intimate. Fortunately, Felix had seemed open to the idea, and when he showed up to their meetup in a crop top and a skirt, Hyunjin figured there was no better time to try.

Felix had explained that the skirt was to make it easier, though Hyunjin was certain Felix was only wearing it because he wanted to. A few extra seconds to remove his shorts would hardly have been an inconvenience. Not that Hyunjin was complaining by any means. The prospect of Felix bouncing on his cock while wearing a skirt was nothing short of a delectable picture in Hyunjin’s mind, so far be it from him to make a fuss about Felix’s choice in attire.

Everything started the way both had come to expect, as Felix took a seat in Hyunjin’s lap; sharing the most innocent and sweet kisses amidst many giggles and much teasing. Hyunjin remarked that Felix looked just about ready to debut in the latest new girl group, gesturing to his black hair tied in a ponytail and crop top-pleated skirt combo. While Felix fiddled with Hyunjin’s heart-shaped earring, scolding him for not taking them out earlier.

“You’re going to lose these.” Felix said, tapping on one of the earrings with a laugh. “They’re so pretty, I’m going to miss them.”

Hyunjin returned the laugh and shook his head. “I’m not going to be the one moving that much today, don’t worry.”

“Hm…should we…start then?” Felix asked, casting his gaze down with a somewhat nervous smile on his face.

“Don’t be nervous.” Hyunjin reassured. “We don’t have to start right away if you don’t want to. It’s up to you.”

Felix shook his head, moving to take off his underwear. “No, I’m ready.”

“Okay.” Hyunjin said, once Felix sat back down. “If you want to stop or take a break or anything, just let me know.”

The statement was made more for Hyunjin than it was for Felix. As nervous as Felix may have been, Hyunjin found himself just as jittery.

Trying new things in their relationship wasn’t necessarily something that came easy for either of them, but Hyunjin found it especially difficult. He had no idea why, but when it came to Felix, he was so hyper cognizant as to whether or not Felix actually liked the things they were doing. Up until now, he would usually just act on his instinct and hope whatever he did was something Felix enjoyed. And if he didn’t, Hyunjin could just blame it on the fact that he tried something impulsively without thinking it through. This was the first time they’d discussed trying something different together and Hyunjin felt an even greater pressure to make sure he did it right, since now, Felix would be expecting it to be perfect.

“So, first…I stretch you like normally, okay?” Hyunjin said, making sure to meet Felix’s eyes and pressing a quick kiss to his lips.

“Okay…go ahead.” Felix said, giggling once their lips separated and lifting himself up so he was no longer completely seated.

Hyunjin rolled his eyes, trying to ignore the flutter in his chest at Felix’s sudden cuteness. He lifted his hand to Felix’s mouth, nodding for him to open it. He was quickly allowed access and wasted no time wetting two of his fingers with Felix’s saliva, making sure they were completely coated before removing them. Once he felt satisfied, he slowly pulled them from Felix’s mouth, reached around to his rear and began pressing them inside Felix’s hole.

Felix rested his hands on Hyunjin’s shoulders and sucked in a breath, but quickly adjusted to the familiar feeling, giving Hyunjin a nod, which he took as a sign to continue as planned. He worked on stretching Felix at a decent pace, eliciting a few quiet pants from the younger which quickly turned into low whines. When their eyes briefly met, Hyunjin could tell Felix wanted more, and he would happily oblige him.

Hyunjin continued pressing his fingers in deeper and deeper, the sounds Felix was making gradually increasing in volume. He nodded to himself while he continued his handiwork and it didn’t take long before he successfully caused a loud moan to surface from Felix’s throat.

There, Hyunjin thought. He lifted one of Felix’s hands, pressing a kiss to the back of it before continuing to prod at his hole.  After finding that sweet spot, Hyunjin found himself hitting it again. Once as if just to be sure, and then a second and third time when Felix responded just as he’d wanted him to. He was tempted to add in a third finger, but decided not to go that far just yet. The sounds Felix were making were delicious enough on their own and they were only just getting started.

“Gah…Hyunjin-ah…a-aahh…” Felix moaned in a slightly higher pitch each time he exhaled.

Hyunjin had to physically keep himself calm, as he simply couldn’t resist this. It was one of his favorite things about Felix in general, which in turn, made it one of his favorite aspects of their intimacy. The fact that Felix could one minute be moaning so deeply and filthily that it sent shivers down Hyunjin’s spine, to a moment later hitting a tone closer to his singing voice drove him crazy. How could one guy be this versatile in such a lewd way?

At this point, Hyunjin didn’t even know if he had a preference. But he did know he needed to hear those breathy moans continue for the time being. He continued stretching Felix out, almost forgetting how long he’d been doing it, too desperate to continue eliciting pure honey out of Felix’s mouth. Felix eventually cried out in such a high pitch, the arousal going straight to Hyunjin’s cock, that it legitimately reminded him that he still had his pants on.

“Aah! Hyunjin-ah…s-should I?” Felix panted, struggling to keep his eyes on him.

“Huh?” Hyunjin said, snapping back to his senses and finally removing his fingers. “Ah…are you ready? Let me help you.”

After awkwardly sliding out of his clothes, pushing them to rest at his knees, Hyunjin slowly navigated the head of his cock toward Felix’s hole, helping him sit with ease. He let out a sigh, both in relief at having stretched Felix out enough to not cause him any pain, and at finally giving some attention to his dick for the first time that day. The speed at which Felix started to clench around him caught him off guard, so he figured he didn’t need to waste much more time for Felix to adjust.

“Okay, so…you basically just…bounce on it.” Hyunjin said, trying to keep his voice from shaking. “I’ll help you start, okay?”

Felix nodded, adjusting himself as Hyunjin put his hands on Felix’s hips. The two moved in unison as Felix bounced once on his cock, clenching around Hyunjin even tighter.

“Good…just like that.”

Hyunjin decided to help Felix bounce a couple more times and felt that the younger was probably getting the hang of it by now. He glanced up to check his expression, mostly to make sure he wasn’t in any pain, and was surprised to see Felix’s eyes squeezed shut, beads of sweat visible already on his forehead. It was only then that Hyunjin realized Felix’s fingers digging into his shoulders. Had he actually been uncomfortable when he started bouncing? Or worse, this whole time?

Whatever Hyunjin was about to say was swallowed instantly as white ropes suddenly appeared between their bodies, splattering on both of their clothes and Hyunjin’s face as Felix’s voice filled the air. The moan reverberated throughout the room as Felix trembled in his lap. Hyunjin blinked in absolute surprise as he wiped some of the residue from his face, looking up at Felix only to see the younger had covered his face immediately, shaking in silence.

When the tears flowing and muffled sobs became more evident, Hyunjin forgot about anything he had planned on saying. Without hesitation, Hyunjin immediately pulled Felix into his arms, hugging him tightly while pressing kisses to whatever part of his face he could access. It took a few moments, but he would successfully coax one hand from Felix’s face, intertwining their fingers together.

“Hey, what are you crying for?” Hyunjin whispered. “Shh, it’s okay.”

“I’m…sorry…I couldn’t…” Felix choked out, almost incomprehensibly.

“You don’t have to apologize…don’t worry, Yongbok-ah.” Hyunjin said, keeping his voice quiet while rubbing the back of Felix’s head. He pressed a kiss to the top of his head, thumbing the back of the tiny hand he was still holding with his other hand.

While comforting Felix was Hyunjin’s top priority, he still found himself trying to register what exactly just happened that caused the boy to suddenly burst into tears. Everything seemed to have been going fine and Felix didn’t appear to be hurt at all. He hadn’t said anything to upset him, had he? But why was Felix apologizing to him? He’d hardly even started teaching him how to…

Ah…so that was it.

“Hey…listen, you’re not really…upset about that, are you?” Hyunjin asked, wanting to see Felix’s face, but deciding not to push it just yet.

Felix didn’t immediately respond and Hyunjin took that as the answer to his question. He continued pressing kisses to Felix’s head, face, and fingers while slowly rocking from side-to-side, allowing Felix time to cry. After a minute or two, Felix dragged the hand still covering most of his face over his mouth before wrapping his arm around Hyunjin’s neck and shakily attempting to speak.

“I didn’t mean to…”

“No, it was my fault. I did too much.” Hyunjin said softly. “I should have let you sit sooner. Don’t think about it, really, it’s fine.”

His words seemed to do little to comfort Felix and Hyunjin found himself unsure of what he was even supposed to say. He was certainly not mad about what happened. Surprised, maybe, but upset was the farthest emotion from his mind. He was honestly somewhat endeared by Felix’s response to what was really only a concern for one of them.

“Seriously, you don’t have to be embarrassed about it. It feels good for me, too, you know?” Hyunjin explained, still fighting his desire for eye-contact. “That’s…what’s supposed to happen.”

“It was too fast…” Felix whined, Hyunjin easily hearing the pout on his lips. Which was somewhat relieving in that moment, as it meant Felix had at least calmed down a bit.

Still, this kid…seriously beating himself up over coming too quickly as if he’d let Hyunjin down. If there were any real regrets, Hyunjin only wished he’d been able to savor the moment of when Felix climaxed for longer. It was so unexpected that he hadn’t even had time to prepare himself for it. He was mentally kicking himself for not noticing Felix’s expression until it was too late.

“Think about it like this: isn’t it better if it’s too fast than if it’s too slow? It would be humiliating if I couldn’t get you to react at all, right?” Hyunjin tried to reason, hoping it would make at least some sense.

“I guess…” Felix mumbled, burying his head in Hyunjin’s neck. Hyunjin couldn’t stop himself from rolling his eyes nor the endeared smile that had successfully spread across his face.

“Such a crybaby. Come on, you had me worried there. I almost thought I hurt you.” Hyunjin said, continuing to coo, coddle, and kiss Felix while rubbing the back of his head.

“No…it didn’t hurt.” Felix mumbled again, finally lifting his head to look at Hyunjin.

The poor kid’s face and eyes were red from crying, tear marks staining his cheeks and lips poked out in the most childish pout imaginable. And somehow, he still managed to look cute enough to eat. Hyunjin was seriously tempted to attack both of his cheeks right there, only refraining to prevent Felix from thinking he wasn’t taking him seriously. Which was already a risk because he just knew he was smiling at that moment.

“Hey, listen, we can stop for today if you want. I’m fine to try again another day.” Hyunjin said, thumbing away the last few remnants of tears in Felix’s eyes and pressing a kiss to his forehead. Surprisingly, Felix shook his head.

“I don’t want to.” he said, leaning his forehead close to Hyunjin’s.

“What do you want to do?” Hyunjin asked, gently joining his forehead with Felix’s.

“...Can we…still kiss?” Felix asked in English.

“What am I gonna do with you?” Hyunjin said, no longer able to stop himself from chuckling. “Do you even have to ask that?”

After what felt like ages, a small smile finally returned to Felix’s face, almost instantly brightening up the room. The Australian pressed a shy kiss to Hyunjin’s lips, as if in apology for what probably all seemed silly looking back on it. Hyunjin affectionately ruffled his hair, finally giving in to his intrusive thoughts and covering Felix’s face with as many kisses as possible, his ears rewarded with giggles that made his heart do back flips.

It wasn’t necessarily the first time things didn’t go quite according to plan with Felix, but Hyunjin would have been lying if he said he was unsatisfied with the conclusion.

~~~

4.0

~~~

Realistically speaking, it wasn’t as if Hyunjin was all that opposed to bottoming.

Honestly, he’d have done it a long time ago had Felix ever brought it up to him. His boyfriend simply hadn’t up until now. So Hyunjin never really pushed the matter.

But after officially dating for three years, the thought was always in the back of Hyunjin’s mind. Several thoughts, really. The main thought being that he didn’t want Felix to think he’d take issue if Felix wanted to be more dominant. Though, Hyunjin hoped that was already communicated by how willing he was when it came to oral.

The other thoughts were more specific. These were thoughts of Felix actually taking control during intimacy; his deep voice whispering commands in one ear and sweet nothings in the other. Perhaps in three different languages if he was feeling particularly frisky; mixed up words, accents, and syllables that would send shivers down his spine.

So, one day when the two were in the midst of an “after dance practice make-out session”, Hyunjin had pulled Felix on top of him and, despite Felix repeatedly motioning for him to do so, refused to change positions. Hyunjin had anticipated it would come as a bit of a surprise to him. Though, he probably should have had a better response prepared when Felix looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

“Hyunjin?”

“What?”

The head tilt and confused look on Felix’s face was cute, as was the chuckle that followed.

“Are you tired? Did you want to stop early today?” he asked.

“No.”

With that, Hyunjin rolled over on his stomach.

“Then…what are you doing?” Felix asked, sounding both amused and confused at the same time.

Hyunjin bobbed his head as if listening to music. It probably wasn’t the best stalling tactic, but it gave him some time to not blurt out the first stupid thing that came to his mind.

“It’s like…why am I always on top, you know? We should probably take turns or something, right? It’s only fair.”

Combining it with the second stupid thing that came to mind would surely go over much better, right?

Hyunjin refused to even try to look at Felix, not wanting to know what his expression was in the event that it wasn’t pleasant. He really needed to stop saying things like this in the heat of the moment and actually have a Plan B. And a Plan C through Z, for that matter.

“You want me to…?” Felix eventually asked, Hyunjin swearing he almost heard him stutter.

“Do you want to?” Hyunjin replied.

“Should I?”

“...You should.”

~

When Hyunjin gave him the go ahead to top, Felix initially wasn’t sure whether he was joking or not. At least, he wouldn’t be if not for the fact that Hyunjin was still laying on his stomach, bobbing his head and whistling as if waiting for Felix to act. Even Hyunjin probably wouldn’t play out a joke this long, knowing how limited their allotted time for intimacy was to begin with. It was only when Hyunjin started drawing shapes in the sheets with his finger that Felix decided that he must have actually been serious.

“I…if you really want me to…I guess I’ll-”

“Good!” Hyunjin said abruptly, before covering his mouth and attempting to hide his face in his arms, crossing them under his chin.

Felix chucked. Maybe it was a dare or something from Changbin. Either way, Felix decided they weren’t gaining much by just sitting around awkwardly and started to take his clothes off, tossing them on the floor.

“But…can I still…?” Hyunjin spoke up suddenly.

“Hm? Oh…this right?” Felix instinctively leaned over to the head of the bed, retrieving the bandana he always used as a blindfold and tying it around his eyes with ease.

“Are you sure you’re okay doing it while wearing that?” Hyunjin asked in a quiet voice. “I can leave my shirt on if it’s easier…”

Felix shook his head, trying to lighten the mood. “Hey, if you really want me to do this, I should get used to doing it while blindfolded, shouldn’t I?”

It was quiet for a second, but Felix soon heard Hyunjin shifting beneath him, tossing out a quick “okay” while taking his shirt off.

Hearing the sound of Hyunjin’s shirt being removed made Felix admittedly feel a little more nervous than he had up until now. Usually, that sound was accompanied by the knowledge that he was about to be immaculately taken care of by Hyunjin and given the princess treatment of his dreams. He generally didn’t really think all that much during intimacy and typically just let Hyunjin do all the work, as the taller man often wanted. Now Felix was being hit with the reality that he was actually going to have to take the lead. And worse, he wouldn’t even be able to see what he was doing.

Not wanting to seem as clueless as he felt, Felix decided he’d just follow the same steps Hyunjin usually took. He helped removed Hyunjin’s pants and underwear, attempting to fold them before dropping them on the floor.

“Uhmm…” Felix exhaled, thinking about how he should tackle the next step.

“Listen…I kinda…already streched myself.” Hyunjin said, clearly muffling himself.

“You what?!” Felix didn’t mean to sound as surprised as he was.

“S-Shut up…I…was really hoping you would…agree to do it. So…” Hyunjin mumbled. “You can just get the lube and…go ahead.”

Felix was admittedly relieved that Hyunjin had already taken care of the most intimidating aspect. The difference in their hand sizes would have probably made trying to stretch Hyunjin by himself unnecessarily humiliating had he ended up needing to ask for Hyunjin’s help in the end.

“Okay…thanks…!”

Is it weird to thank your boyfriend for stretching himself out for you?

Feeling around the drawer beside him, Felix found the bottle of lube and quickly applied it to his cock.

“Listen, don’t laugh at me if I miss.” Felix said while stroking himself with his lube-covered hand.

The laugh Hyunjin coughed out would have irritated him if he didn’t need something to relax his nerves right about now. And Hyunjin’s laugh usually did a pretty good job at that task.

“Seriously? Can you really miss?” Hyunjin asked, trying not to laugh. “How many holes are back there?”

“I can’t see!” Felix smacked Hyunjin’s leg right under one of his cheeks, also trying not to giggle at the absurdity of the situation. Feeling that this was the only thing keeping him from becoming nervous again, and perhaps just feeling a bit cheeky, he decided to straight up spread Hyunjin’s cheeks while pressing his cock inside.

Hyunjin yelped and Felix couldn’t keep from laughing. It was the most bizarre sexual encounter he’d ever had with Hyunjin by far. Yet somehow, with each second, he found his nervousness slowly dissipating away.

Still, Felix couldn’t say he didn’t feel a sense of pressure as he readied himself to begin moving. Placing his hands on Hyunjin’s hips from above him almost felt surreal. He took a deep breath, trying to remember his original plan. Just do what Hyunjin would do, he reminded himself.

Felix decided to start thrusting, beginning slowly and setting a pace the same way Hyunjin usually did. His other senses were going to need to work overtime since he couldn’t use his eyes to see how Hyunjin was responding to him.

“Nng….Felix…” he heard Hyunjin whine quietly.

Hearing his name on Hyunjin’s lip made Felix shiver; a small confidence boost which made him press himself even deeper with his thrusts.

“A-Aaahh….anngg…” Hyunjin’s voice grew louder. “Haaah….aaahhh….Felix…w-wow…”

Felix unconsciously found himself smirking at just how vocal Hyunjin was being. He lightly patted Hyunjin’s ass and leaned closer behind his head.

“You sound so good, Hyunjin.” he said, deeply

“Aah…huh?!” Hyunjin moaned, his voice basically cracking. Felix’s chuckled at his reaction, wasting no time in leaning right beside his ear.

“I’ve always loved your voice.” Felix whispered. “But it sounds even better when you’re moaning for me.”

He meant every word of it. Ever since they’d first met, Felix had always been drawn to Hyunjin’s voice. Despite what Hyunjin seemed to believe, he was relatively versatile in being able to lower it when he wanted to while singing or rapping. But it had a certain high-pitched, almost whiny quality to it that made him sound absolutely delicious when he was moaning. It was enough to drive Felix crazy on a normal day, much less when Hyunjin was doing so in response to his actions.

“F-Felix….ah…Felix…” Hyunjin’s moans kept pouring from his mouth as if he couldn’t stop himself, repeating Felix’s name over and over again. Felix was definitely starting to see the appeal in being the one to call the shots if this would be his reward for doing it.

Hyunjin was different than Felix.  Felix knew his own voice well, and would at least try not to be a disturbance to those around him when it came to being responsive during intimacy in a dorm with several other people. Hyunjin, however, moaned shamelessly. His volume was increasing by the minute and he was doing little to try to muffle himself, not seeming to care who heard him. Even burying his head in his arms didn’t do much when he continued moaning and whining and uttering complete gibberish at a steadily increasing pitch as Felix continued thrusting more quickly. It only served to turn him on that much more. He was now desperate to taste those sounds on his tongue and lowered himself to try to capture Hyunjin’s lips.

Unfortunately, while blindfolded, his trajectory was somewhat off. While he could tell where Hyunjin’s head was, he had no way of knowing where his lips were. Felix ended up grazing the side of Hyunjin’s cheek with his lips and was desperately trying to meet them with his own.  

While debating as to whether he should just ask Hyunjin to turn his head to the side, the feeling of the blindfold being pulled off almost stopped Felix in his tracks. Or rather, his thrusts.

“Wait, Hyunjin…?” Felix blinked, adjusting to the lighting in the room before seeing the blindfold in Hyunjin’s hand being tossed across the room. He then shyly lowered his head in his arms, shifting anxiously.

The sight of Hyunjin beneath him almost knocked the wind out of Felix. The taller man’s entire body was flushed red, his back rising and falling as short, needy breaths escaped his lips. Sweat caused his black hair to stick to his forehead while his skin was covered in perspiration. His head turned slightly to look up at Felix, eyes half-lidded, his tongue just barely threatening to fall from his mouth as the two held eye contact.

Despite how utterly and unequivocally turned on Felix was in that moment, he couldn’t help the smile spreading across his face.

“Hyunjinnie…you’re…so hot.” he said, resuming his thrusts into Hyunjin, finding himself becoming more rough with his movements.

“Ngghh…s-stop…” Hyunjin whined, lazily attempting to cover his face. Felix easily moved Hyunjin’s hand out of the way, his own hands now racing across Hyunjin’s back and arms, squeezing his muscles without an ounce of shame.

“I…really don’t know why…you…were so hesistant. Did you…did you really think I wouldn’t…be attracted to you?” Felix asked, incredulously, his hands moving faster than the words leaving his mouth.

“Mmm…I…didn’t want to…disappoint you.” Hyunjin said, shivering beneath him.

“How could I be disappointed? I can’t express…how gorgeous you are.” Felix said, stopping for a second to simply appreciate the man that was beneath him.

“Felix…” Hyunjin whined, shooting Felix an embarrassed look before covering his face.

“I’m serious…it feels like a dream…like you’re…not even human.” Felix breathed out in awe.

“Oh my God, Felix…”

“Hyunjinnie…look at me.” Felix whispered, patting the back of Hyunjin’s head.

Hyunjin did turn his head, now seemingly aware of how loud he had been as he attempted to cover his mouth. Meanwhile, Felix was still over the moon that this stunning specimen was his boyfriend.

All his.

“Good boy.” Felix said in English, gripping Hyunjin’s arm muscles, squeezing them. “You’re just…so sexy.”

“Haaah….aaannngg….” Hyunjin panted, wiping the sweat from his own forehead.

“Your voice is…driving me crazy. Then you choose to…show me this?” Felix said, leaving no skin untouched on Hyunjin’s back. “Ah…seriously, you’re amazing Hyunjin.”

“Felix…don’t slow down, please…” Hyunjin begged, his voice so deliciously whiny that Felix could no longer stop himself from kissing him. They kissed messily, Felix trying to move his head so Hyunjin wouldn’t hurt his neck and Hyunjin still panting at Felix’s quickened thrusts.

“Sorry…I’m not great at this” Felix said between pants.

“You’re good…I’m close…” Hyunjin warned.

“I am, too.” Felix admitted, wishing he had half as much stamina as Hyunjin did.

Thinking there was nothing to lose, Felix decided to completely let go, forgetting about acting on anything other than instinct. He began kissing and licking Hyunjin’s shoulder blades, his neck, and those biceps which made him want to lose his mind. He would occasionally capture Hyunjin’s lips when he twisted his head enough to give him access, as if begging Felix to kiss him.

They suddenly broke apart as they reached their climax together, Hyunjin coating the sheets and letting out a mangled cry as Felix filled him with his release. Felix was too exhausted to try to move and plopped down on Hyunjin’s back, feeling bad for pressing him into the mess beneath him on the sheets. He knew Hyunjin would nag at him about it later, but he was too high off his emotions to worry about it preemptively.

Still having some strength, Hyunjin rolled over on his back, pulling Felix on top of him. Felix groaned at the stickiness between their bodies, but figured he probably deserved the payback. The two simply lay there in relative silence with only the sound of their soft breaths filling the air in the room.

“Hey…” Hyunjin eventually said.

“Hm?” Felix sat up to look at Hyunjin, which he guessed the older must not have anticipated, as he averted his eyes immediately.

“Was I good?”

Felix had to have blinked at least twelve times in a row before responding, wondering if he was actually feeling too lightheaded to understand Korean.

“Huh?” he asked.

“...Did I do good?” Hyunjin repeated, offering the smallest of glances at Felix.

Felix almost felt bad when he couldn’t stop himself from laughing, finding it unbelievable how that was Hyunjin’s first thought after having him do almost all of the work this time.

“You… you know what? Yes.” Felix laughed, patting Hyunjin’s shoulder for good measure. “Yes…you were a very good man, Hyunjin.”

Hyunjin hid his face in his hands, clearly blushing, and Felix would have teased him further had something else not come to mind.

“Hey…can you sit up?” he asked.

Hyunjin raised an eyebrow, but complied, leaning up against a stack of pillows at the head of the bed.

Felix climbed in Hyunjin’s lap and placed his hands on his chest, lightly leaving kisses across his body, attentive to any bruises or marks left behind from his workout regimen.

“F-Felix?” Hyunjin seemed taken aback by his actions but thankfully didn’t look bothered.

“You’re so beautiful, you know that?” Felix whispered, continuing to litter Hyunjin’s physique with kisses. He made sure not to neglect his arms or hands, all the way down to his fingers.

“...Felix…” Hyunjin attempted to cover his face, but Felix wouldn’t let him, using both of his hands to hold Hyunjin’s much larger hand.

“You know, right?” Felix asked again, playing with Hyunjin’s hand, smiling expectantly at him.

Hyunjin could do nothing to hide his growing smile; shaking his head first, then simply nodding. Felix knew that he knew that he would only keep asking him until he got his desired answer.

“Good boy.” Felix praised him, leaving a kiss on his lips.

Felix decided that, while he certainly enjoyed having the reigns for once, he was sure he liked the sight of Hyunjin melting into a puddle for him as he left no area of skin untouched by his lips just a little bit more.

~~~

5.0

~~~

Felix truthfully didn’t expect Hyunjin would enjoy bottoming as much as it seemed he did.

A few months had passed since the first time Felix topped and he was surprised just how often they now switched roles. While Hyunjin tended to take on the more dominant role most of the time, every so often, he would pass the reigns to Felix without any prior notice, only asking directly when needed. Felix had quickly become accustomed to it and often found those to be his favorite moments of their intimacy. Especially when he had the opportunity to do so the way he enjoyed the most.

And on this particularly special day, he would finally have the opportunity to do things his favorite way with his favorite person in his favorite place.

The group were in the midst of a world tour and had recently touched down in Felix’s hometown of Sydney, Australia. After much, much negotiating and much more begging, the two had just barely been awarded the green light to spent some time together at Felix’s home.

And, no, it wasn’t for a typical family visit, to no one’s surprise. Felix had taken care of those formalities a few days prior. While he would certainly not complain about being able to spend more time with his family, there was something he was desperately clamoring to do while he and Hyunjin still had some time before their concert and departure. Thus, after finally getting a few hours with the house to himself and his boyfriend, he didn’t waste even a moment once the countdown clock started ticking.

“Mmm…aahh…g-good boy. You’re doing so well for me, Hyunjinnie.”

The image of Hyunjin on his knees with his lips around Felix’s cock was always a sight to behold, but doubly so when he got to enjoy such a view while encased in the four walls of his own home. He almost felt selfish for having a visual like this all to himself. It felt too good to be true.

Hyunjin hummed against Felix’s cock, taking more of him in his mouth with a pleading expression as his large hand continued stroking him off. Felix adjusted the skirt he was wearing, grabbing a handful of Hyunjin’s hair before caressing his face.

“Mmhmm….good man…go ahead…” Felix praised.

When Hyunjin began deep throating, his tongue swirling around his length, Felix thought he was seeing stars. He’d only done it a couple times before, and every time threatened to send Felix to an early grave. Such perfect lips, a perfect tongue, seeming so eager for more. How could Felix possibly give him any less than he deserved?

“Aaah…Hyunjinnie…you get better at this every time…” Felix panted, thrusting into Hyunjin’s mouth. “You want to…get ready to swallow for me?”

Hyunjin’s eyes widened as he nodded quickly, attempting to, in Felix’s mind, suck the soul out of his cock. Which may as well have actually been the case as he shot his load down Hyunjin’s throat, shaking with an intensity he’d never felt before. Hyunjin held his hand while swallowing, a gesture which was oddly wholesome and very much appreciated to keep him from falling backwards. Felix was still trying to regain his senses when Hyunjin sheepishly tapped on his inner thigh.

“Hey, so how was it?”

“You seriously have to ask me that?” Felix asked, incredulously. “How do you think it was?”

“You liked it?”

Felix snickered. “Yes, I liked it.”

“I was good?”

Another laugh. Felix took Hyunjin’s face in his hands, kissing his nose.

“Is that what my good boy wants? To hear it from me again?” he asked. Hyunjin averted his eyes as if to deny, despite the fact that they both knew he was clearly thirsty for more praises.

Imagine thinking Felix planned to do anything other than to oblige him to his heart’s content.

“You’ll get to hear it plenty more.” Felix said. He flopped backwards on his bed with his legs already spread, pulling his cheeks apart and making his hole available for Hyunjin.

To his credit, Hyunjin was becoming remarkably good at multitasking; the ability for him to escape out of his clothes with relative ease while stretching Felix at the same time came in handy when they only had so much time left on the clock. It helped that Felix had no desire to disrobe today, perfectly glad to have Hyunjin take him while he donned the skirt. He only sat up briefly to help tie Hyunjin’s long hair into a ponytail.

It wasn’t long before Hyunjin had pulled his fingers, soaked in lube, out and shoved his cock in. He wasted no time in thrusting hard into Felix, and the Australian gasped out in surprise as he wrapped his arms around Hyunjin’s neck.

The need for praises was severe, it seemed.

“Aaaah, Hyunjinnie….mmm…you’re so hot when you don’t even wait for me to…aaahhh…” Felix moaned, letting his arms fall from around Hyunjin’s neck and choosing instead to grip his biceps every chance he got. Hyunjin, in return, gave Felix more of what he wanted, beads of sweat already rolling down his face.

“G-Good boy….aaah…h-harder, Hyunjin…” Felix moaned, a stupid smile on his face as he refused to stop feeling up his boyfriend’s arms. He was too irresistible like this; covered in sweat, his small ponytail bouncing behind him, plush lips parted and panting roughly with every thrust. Felix couldn’t have possibly asked for a better view.

Felix heard himself beginning to moan higher and higher as Hyunjin found and repeatedly hit that sweet spot, his black nails digging into Felix’s hips as every action threatened to send him over the edge. Feeling delirious from the amount of pheromones in the air, Felix lifted himself to lick a stripe on Hyunjin’s chest, then his neck, and a final one on his shoulder; the salty taste of his sweat might as well have been as sweet as nectar as far as Felix was concerned.

“Aaah…haaah…Lix…” Hyunjin moaned, wiping his brow with one of his hands. A simple action that was probably hotter than it should have been. Felix was convinced it was the nail polish. Any time Hyunjin did anything with his hands, especially when they were against his own or Felix’s skin, something about those night-colored nails made Felix’s throat dry up like a desert.

“Hyunjinnie…keep moaning for me, too.” Felix choked out. “I love to hear you…I love watching you like this. You’re perfect…always perfect.”

Hyunjin’s face reddened at the increasing amount of praises, but it didn’t remotely stop him from allowing himself to moan just as loudly as Felix was starting to. The sound of smacking skin was becoming muffled by both of their voices. Felix’s hands continued to roam Hyunjin’s chest as he could do nothing more to appreciate the flushed skin hovering over his body. He began to feel tears well up in his eyes as he knew he was getting closer and closer to his release.

“I’m…so close, Hyunjinnie. B-Be a good man and…come together with me, okay?” Felix panted, wrapping his legs around Hyunjin’s waist and his arms around Hyunjin’s neck.

Felix had no idea what Hyunjin had mumbled against his neck, but when he felt his hot breaths quickly followed by his lips, Felix could no longer hold himself back and moaned at an unusually high pitch with his climax. Hyunjin followed suit and spilled into him messily, his fingers dug into Felix’s hips and he could tell they would leave at least some marks he could trace in the shower later. As the pair collapsed on his bed, Felix managed to roll onto his side, patting Hyunjin’s waist.

“Good man…” he panted with a smile, leaning over to press a kiss to Hyunjin’s lips. “That was…perfect. I mean it.”

Hyunjin returned both the smile and the kiss before sitting up to lean back against his pillows, pulling Felix on top of him and wasting no time in joining their lips together. Despite being drenched in sweat, among other fluids, Felix didn’t let anything stop him from wrapping his arms around Hyunjin’s neck, meeting his kisses as if he was starving for them.

It was a (bad?) habit of theirs; to this day, they hardly waited a minute to come down from their respective highs before falling back into their old ways, their lips seemingly a magnet to each other whenever they were apart for too long. Still, they were only human, and the need to collect oxygen, annoying as it was, still managed to rear its ugly head. Felix ended up pulling back first, resting his forehead against Hyunjin’s in absolute bliss.

“What’s the deal?” Hyunjin asked, running his fingers through Felix’s hair. “It’s like, we can be intimate, but somehow I still really enjoy kissing you the most.”

“Me too. It’s weird.” Felix said with a laugh, brushing a few strands of hair out of Hyunjin’s face. “I feel like I still lose track of time for some reason.”

“You too?” Hyunjin asked, tilting his head with widened eyes. Felix was dangerously close to mentally nuking this conversation in exchange for kissing the confusion off Hyunjin’s face. Instead, he gave nod in response.

“It makes me feel nostalgic. I remember our first time like it was yesterday.” Felix replied, tracing shapes on Hyunjin's chest before shyly laughing. “I still can’t believe you kissed me then.

“What? You were staring at my lips, what was I supposed to do?” Hyunjin asked, his eyes still widened as if amused. “I would have felt really stupid if that isn’t what you wanted me to do.”

“I wasn’t that obvious, was I?” Felix whined, shielding his face with a hand. “I swear I was being subtle.”

“You act like I just kissed you as a favor. I wanted to kiss you, too, you know?” Hyunjin said, playing with a few loose strands of blonde hair.

“I mean…I kinda figured that out when you didn’t stop after the first time.” Felix said with a cheeky laugh.

“Neither did you!” Hyunjin said, attempting to tickle him.

“You started it!” Felix said, trying to cover himself from the tickle hands.

“Technically, you started it. I was just going along with what you wanted.” Hyunjin said, settling for briefly tickling Felix under his chin.

“Could have sworn you said you wanted to kiss just as much a second ago.” Felix said, trying to put on his best frown but failing miserably, as the corners of his lips refused to turn any direction other than up.

“I never said I didn’t want to kiss.” Hyunjin said, returning Felix’s cheeky grin and tapping a finger against his lips.

“So you do want to kiss?” Felix said, mimicking Hyunjin’s action by placing his index finger on his boyfriend’s lips.

“Tch, okay Felix, you can kiss me.” Hyunjin said in English with a smirk.

Felix could have probably come back with something snarky if he thought long enough. But knowing that they probably only had less than a half hour before they would no longer be the only occupants of the house, he decided he would take the L for once and decided they could battle it out with their lips instead. Fortunately, it seemed Hyunjin was willing to accept his challenge.

Not all old habits needed to be broken, did they?