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“I still can’t believe we’re having a baby.” Tim’s got one arm wrapped around Lucy and another on her still flat belly.
“It seems surreal even after hearing the heartbeat just now.”
Lucy just had her first ultrasound and they both still can’t believe they’re having a baby. “You really have made all of my dreams come true Lucy. You’re amazing and I’m so lucky to have you by my side.”
“I love you, Tim. You’re going to be the best dad.” She gives him a chaste kiss.
“I wish that I didn’t have to go back to work. I want to go shopping and start preparing for our baby.” The way he says it makes her heart melt.
“I know babe. I wish you didn’t have to go back today either.” Tim took the Watch Commander position when Grey was promoted. Lucy’s a detective and one of the best they’ve seen. “I love you Lucy. Stay safe and please try to eat something today. I know that it hasn’t been easy with being sick but I need to make sure that you’re both okay.”
“I’ll eat and stay hydrated, I promise. I love you.” She watches Tim drive away and sits in her car for a few moments, pondering so much. She loves Tim and they have both always wanted kids, but at this moment she feels frozen. What if I’m just like my mother?
Lucy finally drives away and drives to a familiar house on autopilot. Her mind is going a million miles a minute and she just needs a few moments to breathe. She parks her car in the driveway and finally walks to the door. Her hands are shaky but she still manages to ring the doorbell.
The door opens and Luna smiles widely seeing Lucy. “Hi Lucy, is everything okay?”
“I’m sorry to just drop by without calling. I just really need a mom right now.”
Luna pulls Lucy in for a hug and then ushers her to the couch. She makes Lucy some tea and sets the cup down on the coffee table. “Are you okay? Is it Tim?”
Lucy shakes her head. “No, Tim is great.” The smile forms slightly thinking of him. “We, uh, well we have news and we weren’t going to say anything quite yet but I am kind of having a freak out.”
“What’s going on?” It takes a few moments for Lucy to respond but she manages to get it out.
“I’m pregnant.” It comes out in a whisper. Luna can’t help but break into a smile.
“Oh Lucy, this is amazing. I’m so happy for you both.” Lucy can’t stop the tears from flowing and she puts her head into her hands. She vaguely registers Luna’s hand on her back.
“We’ve tried for so long and we’re finally getting everything that we’ve wanted.”
Luna can sense hesitation. “But?”
“I’m just so scared, luna. Tim, he’s been amazing and we’ve only known for a few weeks about the baby. His excitement makes me so happy and I know that he’s going to be such a wonderful dad. I…I don’t know that I will be a good mom.” Luna hates that Lucy feels so much doubt. She waits for Lucy to continue before speaking. “What if I’m just like her? This baby deserves the best and what if that isn’t me?”
Luna grasps Lucy’s hand with her own. “Lucy, you’re going to be a great mother. This baby is so lucky to have two of the best parents there are. You’re compassionate, loving, kind, and you love fiercely. Your parents are awful people which is not a reflection of you.” Lucy takes a shuddering breath. “This baby is so loved by so many already, but I’m assuming you haven’t told anyone else.”
Lucy shakes her head. “I wanted to wait until I was out of the first trimester, which apparently I am. I found out three weeks ago and I’m already twelve weeks. They didn’t make themselves known at first, but they definitely are now.”
Luna laughs quietly. “They love to do that. I promise that I will be here for you for whatever you need.”
“I haven’t had any type of mother figure my entire life except for you Luna. I’m so grateful that you have been here and that I have you in my life. Our baby is so lucky to have you in their life and so am I.”
Luna feels emotional and pulls Lucy in for a hug. “You’re family Lucy and we love you all. You’re going to be a mom Lucy.”
“It really does feel surreal. Luna, we’ve been trying for over a year. We told everyone that we wanted to wait but it’s because it just wasn’t happening for us no matter what. I hated disappointing him every time we would get a negative test.” Lucy’s hand lands on her slight bump. “Tim deserves to be a dad and he is finally getting everything he’s wanted. Baby Bradford is very healthy too.”
“Well you know they will be spoiled by everyone.”
“Thank you for being here for me Luna.” Lucy wipes a few more tears that threaten to fall from her eyes. “I was about to go home and spiral to myself about my own parents. Luna, you’ve been there for me for so long. I know we didn’t know each other well for a while but you have always accepted me. You were my second biggest support after I was kidnapped.”
“Tim was your first?” Luna just knows.
Lucy nods. “I wouldn’t have made it without either of you. It was one of the hardest times of my life and you both stepped up for me. My parents blamed me for getting myself kidnapped and therapy helped get me through some of it. You and Tim were the biggest reasons I’ve made it. You always make sure to check in with me. Thank you Luna for being the mom I never had. I hope that I can be half the mom that you are.”
Both women are now openly crying with smiles on their faces. “Now you’re making me cry Lucy.”
“That was not what I wanted to happen.”
Luna lets out a wet laugh. “It’s for the best reason of all, Lucy.”
“It really kind of is, isn’t it?” Lucy smiles and for the first time all day she feels lighter and happier than she has. “Thank you for listening. I thought I was going to have a panic attack earlier. You were the first person that I thought of to come to.” Luna squeezes her hand.
“How about we have some lunch and spend the afternoon looking at baby clothes?”
Lucy giggles. “I can’t stomach much, but I can stomach burgers. This baby is most definitely Tim Bradford’s child. I want a juicy burger with bacon and onion rings. Oh, and a Diet Coke.”
Luna laughs. “Well we better go get what the baby wants. Does the baby want ice cream and to go shopping as well?”
“I mean, I definitely do, but we can always blame my hormones.”
Luna laughs and grabs her keys. “Let’s go.” She drives them to Lucy’s favorite burger place which is also on the other side of the city.
“Have I mentioned that you are my favorite person right now? Tim is currently in second place.”
“Wait until you give birth. You’ll be yelling at him and blaming him for what he did to you.”
Lucy lets out a hearty laugh. “Oh, I can imagine I will. He is such a saint, Luna. He puts up with me every single day. I am really so lucky that I have him.”
“Lucy, you’ve helped him in all the best ways. Wade did what he could to keep his mind off Isabel, but it didn’t seem to work as planned. I saw him slowly changing and we both knew that it was because of you. Please just remember that you helped him just as much as he helped you.”
“We do bring out the best parts of each other.” Lucy takes a bite of her burger and moans when she tastes it. “This is freaking amazing. I love you.”
Luna giggles. “I’m glad to be of service.”
They finish lunch and they decide to head to some stores. Lucy finds some onesies that Tim will love. They’re gender neutral for now but she can’t wait to finally find out what they’re having. She knows Tim will buy the stores out.
After a few hours of being out, Luna drives them back to her house. “Thank you again for today, Luna.”
“Anytime Lucy. And don’t worry, your secret is safe with me.”
“I appreciate that.” Lucy heads home. Tim doesn’t arrive home for another hour and he finds her outside with Kojo.
He wraps his arms around Lucy’s midsection from behind. “Hi baby.”
“Hi. How was the rest of your day?” Lucy murmurs as Tim’s lips make their way to her neck and then nibbles her ear.
“It was boring and I missed my favorite people.”
Lucy laughs. “Well we missed you too, daddy.”
“Daddy, wow. It still feels so unreal.”
“Even after seeing them today?”
“The best part of my day. How was your day?” He feels Lucy stiffen a bit. “What?”
“I went to see Luna. My fears of becoming a mother got the best of me today and I started panicking. She helped me as she always does.”
“I’m really glad that you have her. I hope you know that you’ll be an amazing mother and our baby is lucky to have you.”
“I’m lucky to have both of you. You’re already a wonderful dad.”
“I’m excited for this journey. It’s going to be incredible.” Tim whispers into a soft kiss.
“It really is.” Lucy leans back into Tim and for the first time in weeks she feels lighter. This was the best journey of all.