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It was simply too much to carry this alone.
You hadn't told Casper about your s/a, and you wanted to do badly- but the thought of telling anyone about it, even your fiancee, was sickening. You didn't have the heart to tell him his touch is the only one that didn't burn. Anyone else? It felt like acid on your skin. You just couldn't take it anymore.
Gazing down at the two items in your hands- a pill bottle and a bottle of vodka- you raise the bottle and take a long drink. You'd already drank about half the bottle, and you were drunk out of your mind at this point. Yet you kept going- that is, until the door busted open and you saw your fiancee come into your shared bedroom. There was a look of panic and concern on his face, your suicide note clutched in his hand.
"..Sunshine..?" He stared, wide-eyed, at you, then the bottle, then the pills- and finally back to you. "Please.. do not do this. It is not worth it." He walked closer, offering a hand. "Please, dear, put the bottle down- come here."
The moment you saw his outstretched hand, you took it, setting the bottle of pills and the alcohol down and collapsing against him. You wrapped your arms around his waist, burying your face in his neck. He wrapped those cold arms of his around you, holding you close as he kissed the top of your head softly.
"Cas.. I.." You were cut off by a soft sob escaping your lips, and you bit your cheek to try and hold back your tears. Yet, Casper's cold, large hand stroked the back of your head softly as he murmured to you. "You can cry. It is okay to cry, love."
With those words, it was like a dam had burst in your eyes, and you sobbed in his arms. You sniffed softly, trying not to get him wet as you pulled back, yet he rolled his sleeve over his hand and wiped your tears away. Casper held your face, kissing your forehead, nose, and cheeks softly. He then pressed a quick, gentle kiss to your lips before pulling back and looking at you with worry.
"Do you wish to talk about what is making you feel this way?" He asked tentatively, and as you nodded softly, he gently led you to the bed and sat you down beside him. As you spoke, his eyes widened- but he listened.
"Um.. back in high school.. and middle school, and elementary, and during college-" [NAME] paused, realizing he had gone through this in all stages of his life, multiple times per. Damn. "-I was raped. By countless men, some women. And.. it hurts, when people touch me. It's like.. acid, on my skin. I can't stand anyone touching me besides you, Cas."
Casper sat there in silence for a moment, collecting himself as he worked on figuring out what to say to you. "..I know how that feels. It's like you're always worried that someone will betray you and do it again, but you also want to be good enough for somebody for them to want to do that. Right?"
He watched the look of surprise on his fiancee's face, and then he listened as they asked him a question. "Have you.. gone through that too? Uhm.. rape?" At Casper's nod, he saw a flicker of both relief and sorrow cross [NAME]'s face. "I'm.. sorry. This is selfish. I shouldn't be venting to you about this." the moment his lover said that, Casper shook his head, looking them in the eye.
"No. If anything, it is wise to come to me about things like that. Because I have gone through this before, I know how to help you. And it also means, we can both trust each other a little more, correct?" He spoke gently, reaching out, but hesitating.
"..Yeah. Thanks, Cas"
"Can I hug you?"
"Of course."
You felt Casper's cold, strong arms wrap around you, and you leaned into the embrace. "I love you, Cas."
"..I love you too, sunshine."
You kissed him softly, taking him by surprise, but he kissed you back. You fiddled with the ring he'd given you, and when you pulled away, you glanced at it and smiled. "Y'know. I'm really glad that you were the reaper sent to reap my soul and stuff."
"I am glad of that as well, my dear."
"..I'm hungry."
...
"You're always hungry."
Another pause, and Casper spoke again.
"I'll make you dinner, okay?"
"Thank you.. I love you, Casper."
".. I love you too, Sunshine."