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I’m back here again. Casper has died again. That reaper is in front of me again. And I’m about to lose my memories again.
I’ve been through so much shit in my life. After all, I was being hunted by a reaper for basically my whole life. But never in my wildest dreams would I imagine that I would be forced to relive the same 5 days over and over again.
It started so many cycles ago. I had just woken up after Casper took me to his house to hide from the other reapers. After looking around for a bit, I decided to open up the app he installed the day we first met. He was online. The more we talked, the more worried I started to get until I decided to go outside to try to find him. However when I went out, I saw him, barely holding on to life. He told me that he severed the connection between us. Told me that he gave part of soul, so that I would always have a part of him. I tried to save him, tried to give him my soul, but it was too late. He died. And there was nothing I could do to change that.
I got his body inside, somehow. While I was thinking of what to do next, that reaper showed up. Fucking scared the shit out of me the first time I saw him. He was about to reap my soul but noticed that Casper had given me part of his soul. Apparently, that reaper couldn’t reap my soul because of it. Casper found a way to save my life in exchange for his life and part of his soul. I would have preferred that he didn’t do that and stayed by my side instead, but I couldn’t change even if I wanted to at that point.
But just because I couldn’t get my soul reaped anymore, didn’t mean that I could just walk away like nothing happened. After all, I knew too much. Instead of having my soul reaped, I was going to lose my memories. My memories of Casper. My memories of us chatting. My memories of us going to the festival together. My memories of us becoming one. My memories of the last 10 days me and Casper spent together. I didn’t want that. Of course I didn’t. Who would want to lose their memories, especially of the one they loved. But it wasn’t up to me if I got to keep my memories or not. It was up to that reaper. He started to take my memories, and I started to forget everything that had happened.
But instead of waking up with none of my memories, like nothing had even happened, I woke up and saw Casper right outside my window, ready to give me flowers. For a while, I thought that it was just a dream. A strange dream that predicted the future, but a dream nonetheless. That was until the same thing that happened in the “dream” happened in real life. Casper died. That reaper showed up. And I got my memories erased. And I woke up again back in the same place as before. By the window with Casper right outside.
Ever since then, this cycle would keep on repeating itself. And no matter what I did. No matter what I said. No matter who told. Nothing would change. I tried many times to change fate. I tried to tell Casper about his death. I tried to tell that reaper about him erasing my memories. I tried everything in my power to get a good ending for both me and Casper, but nothing ever worked.
I didn’t want to give up! I still wanted to be happy with Casper! But…fate had other plans. I gave up after a while, but fate didn’t want that either. After all, why keep bringing me back in time after I’ve basically given up? Why bring me back to face the despair of losing the one I love over and over again? Fate truly is cruel.
And so, here I am. About to lose my memories again. No matter how many times I go through this, I always hate this part. I know that it’s only temporary. That I'll get those memories back once the cycle begins again, but I don’t like forgetting about Casper, not for a second. Not like I have much of a choice here.
That reaper speaks, but I don’t listen. Why bother when I heard it hundreds of times before. He starts to take my memories. I don’t resist. After all, why bother. I tried resisting in the past, and it did nothing. I still lost my memories of Casper in the end. Wait…who is Casper? What was I saying before?
I start to fall asleep, but I before do, I hear a voice. I think I’ve heard it before, but I don’t know where. “FUCK! WHY DO I KEEP GETTING ENDING 7!” the voice screams. What is the voice talking about? What even is ending 7?