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Viktor's self-esteem was like a kaleidoscope. It brought different perspectives and nuances. He was always sure of himself and what he could achieve, but his illness and disability brought him down to earth to realize how imperfect he was.
He always focused on what he was good at, on science, because it was what he believed was the only thing he could offer the world. And he closed his mind and heart to nothing more than that. Hextech and work.
He wasn't looking for anything to invade his quiet space, but the thing with Jayce was doing it.
The morning came as painful as ever.
He went downstairs hoping he wouldn't run into Jayce in the dining room but unfortunately, there he was. It looked like it had been waiting there for hours.
—Good morning, Viktor—Jayce has his hand resting on his chin, as if he were reviewing the words he wants to say.
—Good morning, Jayce.
—I would like to talk about what happened last night.
—In fact, it would be better if we anticipated that none of that happened.
—What?
—For your sake, and for Hextech's sake, last night was unprofessional on our part.
—Professional? You were the one who kissed me first that night!
— I apologize for that, it won't happen again. So let's just pretend nothing happened.
—And you mentioned Mel! What does it have to do with her and me being together?
—So you were with her. Jayce, I think this conversation ends here.
-Wait! —Jayce quickly runs to the door to grab Viktor.
—Are you making fun of me? —says Viktor—You are with Mel and now you want to play with me too?
—I was angry when I said it, sorry—Jayce blurts out nervously—Just something from one night, with you...with you it's different Viktor...
—How is it different?—At this point, Viktor was very upset and wanted to run away.
—I don't know, I just know that when we kiss, everything is different and I know that it's the same for you.
—Please don't put me in your dilemmas, there are so many enough problems to deal with in the laboratory. Now if you'll excuse me, that's where I'm headed.
Viktor left, leaving Jayce immersed in his thoughts.
Jayce's mind was a mess. He had admitted to Viktor that he had slept with Mel and now he couldn't take it back. If you had asked him a week ago who he would like to have a relationship with, his answer would have been "Mel" out of inertia. But now after two nights of desperate kisses with Viktor, his mind only sees him.
The dining room never felt so lonely, his heart never felt so alone, without Viktor.
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The sunlight came through the laboratory windows, illuminating the blackboard with the equation that Viktor could not complete the day before. Today would be the day.
After all, it's the only thing he can give to the world, his wit, his intelligence.
Viktor does nothing but focus on books and notes until he comes across Jayce's notes.
"That fool, he always signs his notes"
Viktor feels a small lump in his throat. He wants to repress it but it's impossible. Even after all the bitterness that the situation with Jayce gave him, he was still important to him. His best friend, his partner. And although he would like to pretend that nothing happened and hide his feelings under a rock, he recognizes that he enjoys being touched by him, he enjoys being kissed by him.
A whirlwind of emotions move in Viktor. What do he really feel about Jayce Talis? Is it love?
Viktor disperses any idea of romantic love. Jayce would never look at him with those eyes, not in a serious way. He has Mel, and to Viktor's mind, Jayce is just confused or doesn't want to think that he's so twisted that he wants to play with both of them at the same time.
Viktor clears his throat and moves his gaze back to the board.
"You have to finish your equation"
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It's 12 am and Viktor hasn't finished.
He's exhausted and sore, it looks like he's going to spend the night in the lab, but it would be good for him, he wants to avoid Jayce as much as possible, having him in the lab all day is exhausting and there's no getting around the fact that there is a tension between the two.
He settles into a desk while looking through Jayce's notes.
"So self-centered, Talis."
He laughs to himself.
Viktor feels nostalgic and remembers the first time he met him, he was alone, on the ledge of his destroyed room. He never thought they could build something so masterful together.
—V?
—Jayce?—Viktor quickly puts aside Jayce's notes and gets up from the desk.
—It's already late. Are you going to spend the night here?
—It seems that this is my plan for tonight, I still can't finish this—He points towards the desk.
—Well, let it be our plan, I'll bring coffee.
"Wait, Jayce!" You don't have to...
Once again, Jayce Talis gets his way. He enters the lab with two cups of hot coffee and moves the couch that is used when Viktor stays over towards the whiteboard.
—Let's see, what we don't see.
—I have used all the formulas we have tried but the result is wrong— Viktor says while sitting on the couch with Jayce and drinking the cup of coffee.
—I have never seen you so entangled by an equation, I thought there was no one impossible for you.
—Well, this one caught me.
—I'm serious, Viktor. Heimerdinger is smart but you are brilliant.
—Are you comparing me to Heimerdinger?—Viktor lets out a small laugh and Jayce's eyes seem to shine—You're a fool.
—For telling you the truth?
—Keep flattering me, but you're still a fool.
—Maybe I am.
Viktor and Jayce stare at each other tenderly. They are both tired but there is a shine in their eyes that gives off affection.
— I know you want to pretend that nothing happened but...
—Jayce no...
—Listen to me, please.
— I know you want to pretend that nothing happened but what I felt was real. I wanted to kiss you, Viktor—Jayce puts his coffee cup aside and approaches Viktor—I would like to kiss you now.
—But you told me you were with Mel, you're contradicting yourself, Jayce.
—It's different, with her I don't feel anything like I feel when I'm with you Viktor. I think...I'm in love with you.
Without thinking, Jayce reaches out to Viktor's lips and kisses him. Like a hungry wolf that hasn't eaten in days, they attack each other. Their tongues tangle with each other and Viktor loses himself in that intoxicating kiss.
Slowly Jayce descends towards Viktor's neck kissing him slowly making Viktor let out muffled moans. Viktor knew that they shouldn't be doing those kinds of things in the laboratory, but he was so lost in Jayce that he didn't care about anything, he didn't care if they touched him, because it was Jayce and he, only he could touch him.
Little by little Jayce unbuttons his shirt to kiss his chest without neglecting his mouth. He places his knee on Jayce's crotch and can tell how hard he was.
—Can I?—Jayce pointed to Viktor's belt.
— Yes — Screw it, they had already started, why would he say no.
Jayce unbuttons his pants to find Viktor's erect cock which he begins to touch, Viktor does nothing but let out soft moans.
In the heat of the moment, Viktor unbuttons Jayce's pants imitating him, both are intoxicated with pleasure and hunger for each other. A sofa fuses the two of them as they kiss and touch each other passionately, it seems as if they were going to melt at some point.
—J-jayce...I'm going to...
—Me too....
They both end up together. Agitated, sweaty, Jayce looks intently at the board.
—Isn't that symbol wrong?
—What?
Today was the day they would solve that equation.
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In the distance late at night, Mel Medarda watched the entire passionate scene between Viktor and Jayce.