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The city lights blinked in red and green as Hoseok sat comfortably on Taehyung's couch. Taehyung didn't have a Christmas tree, but luckily all of the cranes doing construction in downtown Seattle had been decorated in colorful lights so it was almost as festive. Hoseok had helped Taehyung make a pie earlier, so the scent of cinnamon drifted through the apartment and Christmas music played on the record player. So far it was a merry Christmas season.
Taehyung came in from the kitchen with two mugs of hot chocolate and put them on the coffee table. "I'm sorry I don't have a tree," he said, sinking into the soft cushions. "I've never gotten one and usually I don't do much at my place."
"It's okay, we don't need one to exchange our gifts," Hoseok said.
"Next year, we can get one together," Taehyung said. "I'm going to put it on our spreadsheet." When the two of them had finally gotten around to looking at Hoseok's spreadsheet the other night, Taehyung wanted to make a new one of things they could do together. Hoseok's nerdy heart had contracted when Taehyung sat down at his laptop and quickly opened a new Excel page on the spreadsheet and started entering data like a pro.
"I like that idea," Hoseok said, smiling. He also liked that Taehyung easily said things about what they'd be doing together a year from now. He knew it was a bit premature to be planning that far in advance with another person, but he just felt calm about it. He had a good feeling about his future with Taehyung.
They sat comfortably together, enjoying their drinks and listening to the Charlie Brown Christmas album Taehyung had put on. It was Christmas Eve and they were each spending the next day separately with their families. Hoseok was kind of glad that they could just do something with the two of them this year. If next year went as planned they could figure out how to involve their families then, but for now he just wanted to enjoy his first holiday ever with a boyfriend.
After finishing their hot chocolate, Taehyung asked, "Want to exchange gifts now?"
"Yeah," Hoseok said, sitting up. Their gifts were already sitting on the coffee table and Taehyung reached for his.
"Here, will you open mine first? I'm excited to give it to you."
Hoseok accepted the gift and carefully unwrapped it. The paper was beautiful, but he had always been a cautious un-wrapper, even as a kid, so he took his time. Inside was a large thin box, so he opened that too and pulled out a sheet of heavy ivory paper. He turned it over and gasped.
"Taehyung! Did you paint this?" It was a painting of one of the photos Hoseok had taken at the Japanese Garden a month ago. Hoseok admittedly didn't know a lot about art, but it was beautifully done, in an almost abstract style, although you could tell what the subject was. The brush strokes seemed very bold and confident and the colors were vibrant.
"Yeah, I did," Taehyung replied, sounding almost sheepish. Hoseok wasn't sure why, he was clearly very talented.
"It's beautiful, I can't believe you painted something for me." Hoseok had received many nice gifts from his family and friends over the years, but no one had ever created something original for him.
"You like it then?"
"I love it. I don't think I've ever gotten a nicer gift, thank you." He leaned over and kissed Taehyung softly. "You're such a talented artist."
Taehyung looked like he was blushing, which was surprising. Usually he was so confident, but he must be shy about his artistic skills. "I wanted to be an artist when I was younger, actually," he said. "But I wasn't sure if I'd be able to succeed at it and I knew I could work for my family's company so I did that instead. It's kind of embarrassing to admit it."
"Well, I'm kind of the same way. I know I told you I didn't want to be a professional photographer, but I had thought about it too and also worried I wouldn't be able to make a living at it."
"But you like your job, right?"
"Yeah, I do," Hoseok said. "And I still get to do photography too, and you can still paint. You're still an artist, Tae."
Taehyung smiled. "You are too. As soon as I saw your photos I wanted to paint one. They seemed so alive to me."
"Thank you," Hoseok said. "That's one of the nicest things anyone's ever said about them." Hoseok looked at the painting again. It was of his favorite photo from that day at the Japanese Garden and he remembered that he'd been thinking of Taehyung when he took it. He had thought it might be a nice place to go on a date with him. "I think I'll hang it right by my piano. It needs something there, and then whenever I'm playing I can look at it."
"I hope it inspires your music, then," Taehyung said, resting his hand on Hoseok's leg.
"Okay, open mine now," Hoseok said, passing the gift to Taehyung. "It's not as lovely as yours, but I hope you like it."
Taehyung pulled the bow off the package and then tore into the paper. Hoseok chuckled, noticing how differently the two of them unwrapped gifts. Taehyung was like a little kid on Christmas. Hoseok really hoped he'd be as enthusiastic after he saw the gift.
Taehyung pulled a picture frame out of the box and turned it over. He immediately started to laugh.
"Hobi, I love it," Taehyung said, cracking up. Hoseok had enlarged one of the photos of he and Taehyung in their coordinating Elvis costumes from the Halloween party and put it in a tacky picture frame that said LAS VEGAS in huge letters at the top. "See, I told you you looked hot in this costume."
Hoseok laughed. "I think that's a bit of an over-reaction, especially compared to you."
"Maybe we need to go to Vegas again some time - together."
"We should," Hoseok said, leaning in to give Taehyung a kiss. He would love to have a do-over of part of that first trip. "Maybe we can recreate a few things."
"Definitely," Taehyung murmured, kissing him back. "I'd for sure pick you up again if I saw you in a seedy bar."
"And I'd for sure go back to your hotel room," Hoseok said. "But I'd stay there this time."
Taehyung didn't reply, but he pulled Hoseok closer to him and kissed him again, slowly this time, his tongue teasing Hoseok's, drawing him in. Hoseok responded immediately, putting a hand into Taehyung's hair, tasting the sweetness of the chocolate from earlier. He let out a quiet moan and Taehyung ran his hand down Hoseok's back to grip his ass. Hoseok took the hint and crawled into Taehyung's lap so he could be facing him.
Even though they had only been in this position one other time, Hoseok liked it because it seemed to make Taehyung even more amorous. Hoseok felt strong hands on his ass, pulling him towards Taehyung so their groins made contact. Even though Hoseok was on top, which made him taller, Taehyung ended up taking control like this and all Hoseok had to do was enjoy it. He was beginning to think he might like having someone else be in charge and he looked forward to exploring that feeling more.
But for now, he wrapped his arms around Taehyung's neck while he kissed him deeply, feeling Taehyung's hands caressing his body underneath his sweater. They were warm and made him feel like he was on fire. Hoseok swiveled his hips slowly, trying to get even closer to Taehyung and wanting to feel his hardness. Taehyung broke the kiss with a groan and then dragged his lips to Hoseok's neck while his hands dipped into Hoseok's boxers.
"Taehyung," Hoseok gasped.
"Sorry," Taehyung exhaled. "Am I going too fast?"
"No," Hoseok replied. "Can we go to your room?"
Taehyung pulled back to look into Hoseok's eyes. "Are you sure?"
Hoseok nodded quickly. He was definitely sure. He couldn't wait for Taehyung any longer.
"Okay," Taehyung said, pushing himself up and off the couch. He extended a hand to Hoseok and then led him down the hallway where he and Taehyung had talked at his Halloween party. Once again he was glad so many things had changed since then. Instead of feeling unsure and awkward, he was at peace with himself and his new relationship.
Taehyung opened his bedroom door and Hoseok followed him in. Taehyung left the overhead light off, but he turned on one of the lamps on the bedside table. It was difficult to see how the bedroom was furnished but Hoseok didn't really care. He wasn't here for decorating tips.
The lamplight cast intriguing shadows on Taehyung's face. He was staring at Hoseok reverently and he slowly traced his hands up Hoseok's arms until they landed on his shoulders. Taehyung pulled him closer and resumed the kiss from the couch. Hoseok sunk into it, his own arms coming around Taehyung's body to grip him tighter. They stumbled to the bed and Taehyung fell backwards onto it, pulling Hoseok with him.
Hoseok laughed lightly when he landed right on Taehyung, but then he was swiftly rolled into the center of the bed when Taehyung flipped them both over. He scooted back into a huge nest of fluffy pillows while Taehyung's hands rested along the bottom of Hoseok's sweater.
"Can I take this off?" he whispered.
Hoseok nodded. "Yes, please." He raised his arms over his head while Taehyung pulled the sweater off. He left his hands above his head where they dangled near his hair. Taehyung was kneeling above him, staring at him as if in wonder.
"You're so gorgeous," he said.
Hoseok laughed nervously, covering his mouth with a hand. "You always say things like that," he murmured.
"I mean it," Taehyung said, running a hand up the side of Hoseok's torso. His touch was soft but it was enough to light Hoseok up from the inside. He grabbed at Taehyung's shirt and demanded, "You take yours off now."
Taehyung smirked and quickly pulled his shirt off. "I like you being all bossy," he said. "What do you want?"
Hoseok didn't even really know. He just wanted to be surrounded by Taehyung, however that worked out.
"Um, I don't care," he got out. He still found it difficult to say what he wanted. He knew it would get better with time, but he still felt unsure how to ask. "I just want to feel you." Ugh, that sounded dumb, why had he said that?
But Taehyung just smiled sweetly. "I like that idea," he breathed out, laying back down and covering Hoseok's body with his own. His skin was so smooth and warm, and Hoseok's hands immediately came back up to caress Taehyung's broad back. He still didn't know what he was doing, but Taehyung seemed to like everything so he just did what felt natural.
Right now what seemed natural was to keep kissing and touching Taehyung. His hands drifted lower, settling on Taehyung's firm ass. Taehyung gasped when he squeezed and then his kisses became more passionate. Hoseok could feel Taehyung's arousal through his jeans and he pulled Taehyung's ass closer to him to grind.
"Fuck, Hobi," Taehyung spat out. "Gonna make me come in my pants."
"You should take them off then," Hoseok said, surprised by his boldness. Maybe just saying whatever he felt like would work after all.
He felt Taehyung's short laugh against his lips. "I will if you will," he teased.
Hoseok smiled. "Help me?" he asked, looking up into Taehyung's smoldering gaze.
"Absolutely," he replied, quickly undoing Hoseok's belt and the button on his pants. Hoseok lifted his ass a bit to help Taehyung pull his pants off and they were quickly tossed on the floor. Taehyung knelt back on his heels as he lightly rubbed Hoseok's thigh, his gaze slowly drifting over Hoseok's mostly-naked body. Hoseok knew he should have felt uncomfortable being eyed so brazenly, but the look in Taehyung's eyes was soft, as if he was treasuring this moment.
"I almost forgot how you look like this," he murmured, his eyes going back to Hoseok's. His heart was in his throat thinking about their first time together, when Taehyung had complimented him and made him feel beautiful and alive. He knew that whatever happened tonight, he would not soon forget it.
"I want to see you too," Hoseok said. "Please, Tae."
Taehyung hopped off the bed and pulled his pants off in record time. Now Hoseok had his chance to check out Taehyung and he was planning on enjoying it. Taehyung was lean and not especially muscular, but Hoseok loved his softness. He was beautiful everywhere, his skin golden and smooth, his black boxer briefs pulled tight over an impressive cock.
"You're beautiful too, Taehyung," he whispered. "Come here."
Taehyung wasted no time in joining Hoseok back on the bed. He slowly crawled over Hoseok's legs, up to his chest, until they could finally kiss again, free from the constraints of their clothes or the small couch.
Hoseok's arms wrapped around Taehyung's neck as their lips and bodies met. It felt amazing to be back in Taehyung's arms, feeling his warm skin next to his, knowing he was as aroused as Hoseok was. He had thought maybe this would never happen again, that the first time was just an accident and that he couldn't feel this desire again. But Taehyung was making him feel sexy for the second time ever and he was going to embrace it.
He dragged a hand down Taehyung's back, trailing it towards his ass. When he reached Taehyung's underwear, he slid his hand under the fabric, caressing the soft flesh. Taehyung's tongue continued to thrust into his mouth as his body echoed it's movements against Hoseok's hard cock, but he let out a loud groan at the contact. He lifted up just slightly and huffed out, "need to take these off."
Hoseok listened and pulled the boxers down. Once again, Taehyung sat up and removed them and then placed his hands gently on Hoseok's own boxers. "Okay?" he asked. Hoseok nodded quickly, needing the last layer between them gone. "I don't know why we didn't just do that earlier," he mumbled.
Taehyung chuckled. "I know," he said, slowly removing the briefs. After, he laid down on his side next to Hoseok, their bodies overlapping, and reached out a hand to reverently stroke Hoseok's cock. Hoseok could only gasp, the touch feeling so different than his own and so much hotter. Taehyung continued to caress him as his lips met Hoseok's again, the kiss now slower and more sensual. Hoseok could feel Taehyung's own hardness against his outer thigh and he wanted more access to it but he wasn't sure what to do or what he wanted next. There were so many options and none of them were bad.
"Tae," he moaned. "I..." he couldn't finish the thought.
"What, baby?" Taehyung purred. "Tell me what you want."
The term of endearment caught Hoseok by surprise. He wondered if Taehyung even realized he said it, but it momentarily stunned Hoseok and he lost whatever idea he'd had. If he had even had one, he still wasn't sure.
"I don't know, just make me feel good," he stammered, knowing that wasn't a helpful suggestion. Taehyung wasn't a mind reader and he only had their previous experience to go on, where he had let Taehyung take control.
"Do you want my cock?" Taehyung said, his breath hot in Hoseok's ear, his lips brushing the sensitive skin below it. As soon as the words were out of his mouth, Hoseok let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. Yes, he thought. That was exactly what he wanted. Hoseok turned his head to look into Taehyung's dark, smoldering eyes and he nodded once.
"Yes," he whispered. "Need it."
"Fuck," Taehyung groaned. "Okay. Just..." Taehyung rolled away quickly and opened the drawer in his bedside table. He grabbed a few things and then turned back to Hoseok. "Like this okay? I want to look at you."
"Yeah, me too," Hoseok said, a nervous knot forming in his belly. He knew Taehyung would be considerate and caring, but it had been a couple of months since losing his virginity and he hadn't really tried much on his own since then. In all of his other times with Taehyung, they hadn't done this again. What if things didn't go as well tonight as they had the first time?
"Are you okay?" Taehyung asked him as he squirted some lubricant on his fingers.
"Yeah, I'm good," Hoseok said. "Just take it slow?"
"Of course," Taehyung said, placing a gentle kiss on Hoseok's lips. "Let me know if you need me to stop."
Taehyung slowly prepared him while he trailed his lips along Hoseok's neck. He whispered sweet compliments to Hoseok the entire time, telling him he was lovely and sexy, that he'd been dreaming of doing this again, making Hoseok feel like he'd never felt before. How had he not known for so long that this was what he wanted?
Finally Hoseok felt ready. "Come on, Tae," he whined.
"Okay, sweetheart," Taehyung whispered, just about stopping Hoseok's heart. How was he going to survive when Taehyung kept saying and doing all of the right things?
Taehyung grabbed the condom and opened the package. He quickly rolled it on and added more lube and returned to kissing Hoseok. "Ready?"
"Yeah," Hoseok said. He wasn't sure if he was ready, but he didn't want to wait anymore. He needed to once again be joined with Taehyung, feeling him coursing through his blood, like a sweet and spicy cocktail. He felt the pressure of Taehyung's cock at his entrance and he tried to relax while Taehyung gently thrust.
"Oh God," Hoseok groaned. There was a little pain, but mostly it felt good - Taehyung's breath mingled with his own and his soft touches on Hoseok's arms soothed him.
"Okay?" Taehyung asked, his lips brushing Hoseok's tenderly.
"Yes, keep going. You feel so good."
"You too, baby. So tight." Taehyung continued to press in, lightly thrusting his hips and going deeper, while he kissed Hoseok, their tongues dueling passionately. The heat was building in Hoseok's center and his hands grabbed at Taehyung's torso to pull him closer. He wrapped his legs around Taehyung's waist and the move changed the angle so that Taehyung was hitting his sensitive prostate with every stroke.
Taehyung propped himself up on his hands and looked down at Hoseok. His face was intense and he bit his lip as he increased the speed of his thrusts. Hoseok didn't think he'd last much longer - they were locked together in a sweet rhythm, the push and pull of their bodies creating a sensuous duet.
Hoseok held on to Taehyung's wrist with one hand and with his other, he reached down to stroke his cock. Taehyung moaned at the sight. "Fuck, Hobi - you are so sexy. Keep touching yourself."
Hoseok could only obey Taehyung's request - it felt too good to not keep going, and it seemed to spur Taehyung on. Hoseok was so close, and it looked like Taehyung was too. Hoseok was gasping out little moans every time Taehyung thrust and Taehyung's hips were picking up speed. Finally, with his emotions swirling and the taste of Taehyung on his tongue, his back arched off the bed and his release swept through him. He tightened his legs around Taehyung, who followed him into the sweet bliss of his climax shortly after.
***
After they rested a bit, Taehyung went to the adjoining bathroom and came back with a damp cloth. He gently cleaned Hoseok off, kissing him softly, while Hoseok laid on his side, spent.
When Taehyung returned, he crawled into the bed and pulled the covers over them. He laid down facing Hoseok and put one arm around his torso to pull them closer. Hoseok wrapped a leg around Taehyung's calf. He remembered that when they were together in Las Vegas, they had ended up in a similar position, talking easily and laughing together. But that time, there had been an underlying nervousness, worry that Taehyung would know he was inexperienced, and wondering how he'd be able to leave. This time he felt like he was right where he wanted to be.
"So, that was your second time ever, right?" Taehyung murmured, his lips brushing Hoseok's forehead.
Hoseok blushed and closed his eyes but he was smiling. "Yeah," he mumbled. He opened his eyes to see Taehyung looking at him fondly. "Is that weird?"
"No, of course not," Taehyung said, kissing him on the nose. "Maybe it's kind of rare, but I don't think it's weird. What do you think?"
Hoseok thought about it while he snuggled closer to Taehyung. Maybe his situation was a little different, but he'd always felt a little different from people. What was one more thing? "I'm okay with it," he finally said. "It's just one part of me. I have a lot of other weird things I like to do too," he said with a laugh.
Taehyung laughed with him. "I hope you'll let me do some of those things with you."
"Definitely," Hoseok said, trying to kiss Taehyung but only getting his chin. Oh well. They had time to get better at things. "There's a lot of stuff I still want to try."
"Like sex stuff or any stuff?"
"All kinds of stuff, you perv!" Hoseok laughed, giving Taehyung a playful swat on his side. "But maybe some sex stuff too."
Taehyung chuckled and kissed him again. "I like to try new things too. But we don't have to always do that if you don't want to," he said, his tone serious. "We can have quiet movie nights and cook together or listen to music, whatever you want."
Hoseok smiled softly. He was still feeling completely boneless after his orgasm and he was likely to agree to just about anything Taehyung suggested. But he knew enough about relationships to know that compromise was important.
"That sounds great," he said. "But if you want to have a big party sometimes or go to a work thing I want to be there for you. We'll just have to make sure to talk about stuff like that."
"I'd like that," Taehyung whispered, his hand gently caressing Hoseok's back. He was pretty sure he'd be asleep in about five minutes. "Speaking of parties, though - my birthday is next week and I'm having a huge rager. You'll be there, right?"
Hoseok's eyes snapped open. "What?" he yelped. Shit, he wasn't expecting to have to agree to a party right away.
Taehyung smiled, the adorable boxy one where it was clear he was teasing. "Just kidding," he smirked. "I purposely didn't plan anything for my birthday. I was hoping to just spend it with you."
Hoseok sighed with relief. "That sounds great," he said. "We can do a big party next year. I need that much time to prepare."
Taehyung let out a big belly laugh. "Next year - I like the sound of that," he said, cupping Hoseok's chin and pulling him in for another kiss. It seemed like they had been kissing all night, not that Hoseok was complaining. He was pretty sure they'd be doing a lot more of it - for Taehyung's birthday, this year and next year. And hopefully many more years after that.
***
Hoseok took a sip of the Dark and Stormy that Jungkook had put in front of him.
"No Taehyung tonight?" he asked, taking a seat next to Jimin.
"No, he had a family thing after work, but tomorrow is his birthday. We'll hang out then."
"And what are you giving him for his birthday?" Jimin hinted suggestively, leaning into Jungkook's side.
"Shut up, Jimin," Hoseok replied cheerily. "I did show him my spreadsheet," he continued. "He liked it and suggested we make another page of things we can do together."
"Oh God, it's probably all sex stuff, isn't it," Yoongi groaned.
"No!" Hoseok replied, slapping Yoongi's arm. "Okay, some of it is. But we agreed we want to keep trying new things, so..."
"If you're gonna tie him up, I can give you some hints," Jimin said.
"Uh, thanks... but we'll figure things out."
"Actually, Jimin, if he's going to tie Taehyung up, maybe I should be giving the hints," Jungkook said.
"Okay, we do not need to know about this!" Yoongi said.
"Fine, you prude," Jimin said. "Anyway, Hobi, do you still have a lot more things on your spreadsheet that you have to do before your birthday?"
"I've done about half of them," Hoseok said. "And actually I still need one more thing for the list. But I'm not going to worry if I can't get to all of them before my birthday. Some of them are longer-term things anyway."
"Wow, look at you, not stressing out about meeting a goal," Yoongi said.
"I know! What's happened, Hobi?" Jimin joked.
"I feel like I've gotten into the spirit of the spreadsheet and I know I want to keep it going. But I don't care as much about the timeline."
"You've done so many different things the last couple of months," Jungkook said.
"Yeah, what was your favorite one so far?" Jimin asked.
Hoseok had to think about that - what had been his favorite new thing? Of course, something to do with Taehyung, but it was hard to decide the best one.
"I don't know," he finally said. "A lot of things have been fun. I hate to admit it, Jimin, but sexting turned out pretty good."
"I knew it!" Jimin yelled, putting his arms in the air. "When are you going to learn to trust me?"
Hoseok laughed. "I should have." He took another drink while he thought again about the spreadsheet. "I think my favorite thing about it was that it made me feel more like myself, I guess. I don't know how to explain it. But some of the new things I did were things I'd wanted to try for awhile but I was scared. The spreadsheet gave me a reason to do it. I think it really has changed my life."
"You shouldn't give all of the credit to the spreadsheet, though," Yoongi said. "You were the person who did everything. You could have just kept going the way you were and you probably would have been pretty happy, but you decided to make a big change. You were really brave, Hobi."
"Yes!" Jungkook exclaimed. "You're awesome, Hobi."
"Thanks," Hoseok replied. "Um, not to sound too sappy, but I'm glad I had you guys to help me with things. I love you guys."
There was a chorus of "Awwws!" from his friends and he smiled.
"I'm feeling kind of inspired to make my own list!" Jimin said.
Yoongi snorted. "What's the point, you've done pretty much everything!"
"Not everything, Yoongi! Just last week Kookie and I tried this new thing -"
"Okay, Jimin," Jungkook said, standing up. "I can guarantee Yoongi doesn't want to know. And on that note, my break is over." He kissed Jimin's cheek and then headed back to the bar.
"Anyway, there are still things I can do," Jimin continued.
"You should make a list, Jimin," Hoseok said. "It's helpful to write down your goals."
"Do you have any ideas?" Yoongi asked.
"I think I want to get a different job," Jimin said. "I'm sort of tired of doing hair. And maybe I'll ask Kookie to marry me," he added casually, as if that was a thing they talked about all the time.
"What?!" Hoseok and Yoongi yelled at the same time.
"Are you serious, Jimin?" Hoseok hissed, seeing that Jungkook was nearby.
"I've been thinking about it for awhile, actually," Jimin said, his eyes finding Jungkook and softening. "I love him and I want to be with him for the rest of my life so why not?"
"That's huge though, Jimin," Yoongi said.
"Life is short!" Jimin said, eating one of the many cherries from his Jimin-tini.
Hoseok thought about that. It was a cliche, but it was a cliche for a reason. It was true, life really was short. He was glad he'd finally started living a little more - things weren't bad before he'd started making changes, but his life had felt muted and blah. Now it was as bright as one of Taehyung's paintings, and Hoseok felt like he could truly be himself and be appreciated for who that person was.
Right then Jungkook came back to pick up a few of their empty glasses.
"Jimin's thinking about making a spreadsheet too," Yoongi said, smirking at Jimin, who looked a little worried.
"Oh yeah? What are you going to put on it?" Jungkook asked, looking at Jimin fondly.
"Hmm, I've been thinking of making a job change."
"Well, you know I'll support you no matter what," Jungkook said, tousling Jimin's hair, before moving on to his next table.
"See, that's why I want to marry him," Jimin said. "He's always there for me."
"We'll be here for you too, Jimin," Hoseok said. "No matter what you decide to do."
"But I'm not gonna marry you," Yoongi said. Jimin threw a cherry at him.
***
After Hoseok got home from Pandora and had changed into his favorite sweats, he sat down at his laptop. He'd been thinking about what he'd said to his friends, about how much different his life was because of the spreadsheet. And because he'd made a leap and tried new things.
Hoseok added a new cell to his spreadsheet and began typing. He'd finally realized what the 30th thing on his list should be. Out of all of the things he'd done so far he was certain this would be the best, and he was going to do it tomorrow night, when he and Taehyung celebrated Taehyung's birthday. He finished typing and re-read his new entry, smiling and feeling a sense of happiness and calm coming over him.
#30: Tell Taehyung I love him