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Kazuha,
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Kazuha!
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KAZUHA!?
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KAZUHA PLEASE.
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Please, Help me.
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THEY'RE TRYING TO SHO-
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*gunshot*
"SCARA?!" Kazuha screams as he wakes up from his nightmare, his eyes full of terror, his heart stinging every time he remembers. As he gradually calms down he thinks to himself, 'If I was there with him that night, would he still be alive?'
But there was one thing Kazuha knew, he hated it. He hated how he didn't die with him. He hated his feelings. He hated that he couldn't move on. He hated that all everyone gave was fake sympathy. He hated that he couldn't do anything about it. He hated that Every. Single. Thing. Reminded him of his darling, his lover, his beloved. He hates how he can't control the fact that he yearns for him, he wants him in his arms, he wants his lover to be happy every waking moment of the day, and he so desperately, so very desperately, wants to tell him that he still loves him.
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*RINGGGGG*
"Settle down class," The teacher, Jean says. Those words were like magic. Every time she said what seemed to be like sorcery the whole class would shut their mouths and listen, it was a miracle that the whole class listened with no hesitation. Maybe the class has favourites or maybe they're just scared of Mrs. Jean.
Who knows? Not Kazuha at least.
She cleared her throat. "Today we have a new transfer student." Mrs. Jean informs the class. As the whispering died down she continued. "Please come in, Introduce yourself!" She urged at the figure outside in the hallways.
The transfer student came in, His blonde hair was in a high mini ponytail, and he wore a crimson red sweater with a cut in one of the sleeves almost as if it had been sewn up carelessly. As an accessory, he wore a light blue scarf with a white plaid pattern on it.
"Hello! My name is Tomo. I was homeschooled for almost my entire life, I love cats, and I love the colour purple." Tomo introduces.
'He loved the colour purple too...' Kazuha thought absent-mindedly, He missed him too much.
"Tomo, you can sit next to... mmm... Kazuha!" Mrs. Jean enthusiastically said
"Here?!" Kazuha said out of reflex as he snapped out of his thoughts from hearing his name.
"*sigh* Tomo please take a seat and, Kazuha please pay attention." Mrs. Jean obviously felt pity for him, as he was constantly in and out of the actual world and the world inside his head.
"Oh sorry about that Mrs. Jean, I'll pay more attention," Kazuha said with the kindest sarcastic thing he could mutter, If you were in this very classroom you could probably smell the sarcasm.
"Please take a seat Tomo." Mrs. Jean commanded as she started her lesson.
Now, It might've been Kazuha's hallucinations but he could've sworn he saw Tomo staring right at him.
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*RINGGGG*
"Class Dismissed!"
Tomo came up to Kazuha almost immediately after class was dismissed. "Kazuha Right? I'm Tomo!" He Introduced for the 2nd time. "Yes, I'm Kaedehara Kazuha. Nice to meet you Tomo..." Kazuha replied while scrambling to pick up his books to get the fuck out of there. Not even 5 steps in, an obnoxious voice called from behind. "Wait up!!!" Tomo called after, the boy with the red streak of hair paused for a second as if he was debating. In the end, he turned around.
"What do you need?" Kazuha asked in an extremely tired voice, he wanted to go home and sleep.
"Ohh, nothing..." Tomo said while grinning ear to ear. Kazuha didn't have time to deal with bullshit like this and if he did have time? He wouldn't waste time on this bullshit either.
"Great, bye." He then started speed walking just for him to catch up again, "NO WAIT STOP... CAN I HAVE YOUR NUMBER?!"
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It had been silent for a few seconds, until random juniors started whispering, all of them are really shit at that because, in the end, Kazuha still heard all of it!
"Have you noticed that he never got new friends after the 'incident'?" A girl whispered to her seemingly best friend.
"Yeah, I heard that his boyfriend was seemingly the love of his life... poor guy" her best friend answered
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Another awkward silence had gone by, and Kazuha seemed to finally have an answer.
"Sure I guess..."
"Yay! My number is *** *** ****" Tomo said enthusiastically.
Kazuha had one single thought about him, Loud. In his personal opinion, he is so goddamn noisy that deaf aliens from a different planet could probably hear him.
"K," Kazuha said, Then left.
"No way... did you just see what happened???"
"Well yeah, obviously??? I'm standing right here dipshit."
"Ok ok no need to be rude, but bro? Do you think he's moving on?"
"No way! They're just friends plus they just met!"
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5wirl
Barbietoes: HEY GUYSSS
Adeptus: Hi.
Hairzou: wow dry much Xiao.
helpmefindmysister: Hi guys!
weedsmoker: Oh, Hello guys
barbietoes: OMG!!!!!!!! HI KAZUHA!!!
hairzou: Why are you so excited to see him? WHAT ABOUT US 💔💔
Adeptus: imagine using emojis
Hairzou: imagine being emo
Adeptus: imagine being gay
Hairzou: You're literally as straight as a banana???
Adeptus: imagine being stupid
Hairzou: I'm literally a detective bro... are you on something???
Adeptus: imagine being short
Hairzou: You literally can't be talking... ur as tall as the Dendro Archon 💀💀
Adeptus: ...
Adeptus: kys.
weedsmoker: ooooookay thats enough
Barbietoes: So guysss how y'all been,
Barbietoes: ONG HAVE U HEARD OF THE NE STUDNT??. I THINK HIS NAME IES TOMO OR SOME IDK
Hairzou: Yeah I have actually he's in my class along with Kazuha
Adeptus: yeah i have, also fix your spelling
helpmefindmysister: Oh I actually got his number want me to add him to our group chat?
Barbietoes: YEYSYYEYEYS!!!!!!
weedsmoker: sure
'helpmefindmysister' added 'ilovemycat' to the group
Barbietoes: Hi!! I'm Venti!
Adeptus: Hello, I'm Xiao.
Hairzou: Hi I'm Heizou remember me?? 😍😍😍
helpmefindmysister: Anyway
Ilovemycat: Oh hi guys, I'm Tomo and who tf is weedsmoker 😨
Hairzou: OMFG ANTHER EMOJI USER!!!
weedsmoker: hey I'm Kazuha, hope you didn't forget the person u screamed at for their number
Ilovemycat: nahhhh i remember as clear as day glad i still got them digits though
Barbietoes: NAHHHHHHHH NO WAY? SERIOUSLY?
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Kazuha knew that his friends would spam him with millions of questions, He knew that the whole grade was thinking about it. The only thing he didn't know was simply, why did it matter so much? Why did it matter if he got someone's number? Why did it matter if he won't move on? Why did it matter?
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Later that night when he finally touched his soft bed which he melted into, another notification popped up. He picked up his red phone with pictures of him and his beloved together and drawings that his beloved gave to him as presents for random occasions. They all stayed in his phone case, Kazuha thought it would be the safest place they could be.
As Kazuha slowly moved his finger to click on the messages app, another notification popped up, and because of that he finally noticed the 999 notifications which he assumed were all from the group chat.
He didn't understand how they managed to write 999 messages in just 2 hours, but just at that very moment Kazuha didn't want to check the messages anymore, He didn't want to get questioned.
So in the end? He shut his phone off and got ready for bed.
He wished all problems were this easy to solve, but unfortunately, he couldn't shut his problems off. He couldn't and wouldn't shut his feelings for his beloved.
He still loved him.
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Kazuha POV:
I stepped into the bathroom, my bare feet touching the cold marble tiles, pondering whilst I felt the rush through my body. 'I still love him' I couldn't get the thought out of my head, it was stuck.
Just as I was about to take a shower I felt something slowly move up in my throat, I panicked. I turned into a coughing fit, coughing and gagging until what I thought was a huge blood clot with all of the metallic tasting liquid dripping towards the floor.
I slowly opened my eyes that I unconsciously closed while I was thrown into a coughing fit. I saw a delicate, purple petal.
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"What the fuck."
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Third-person POV:
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Kazuha couldn't believe it, he coughed up a petal. He doesn't remember eating a petal, But as he stared, more and more it reminded him of his beloved. His gorgeous, stunning, captivating Scaramouche.
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"Kazuha!!!!" Scara shouted "Come on! You're so slowwww, I want to go on the rollercoaster..." He pouted
He looked adorable while pouting. His Black skin-tight shirt with grayish-white sweatpants matched his flawless silky purple hair, one that kazuha wished he could play with forever.
"Alright, Alright I'm coming." He said while chuckling.
Kazuha loved him. He loved him so much that he would do anything for him.
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"Scaraaaaa, are we done... I'm so tireddd, and I still have an important meeting..." Kazuha whined. He wished they had stayed home to watch a movie.
"No!! I wanna continue playing Kazu..." Scara replied. It was the honest truth, he loved amusement parks since he never got to go as a child.
"Alright, But I have to go. I can't miss this meeting, I'm so sorry sweetheart." Kazuha said.
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Oh and how he wished that he never left, never looked at his phone, never listened to his boss.
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"aweee ok kazu! I'll call you if I need you. And don't worry I know the way back home," Scara reassured.
"Alright, Bye! I love you." Kazuha said.
"love you too" Scara replied.
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(Incoming call from 'My Beloved')
Kazuha clicked answer.
"Hello? Scara, what do you need?"
"Kazuha! *pants*"
"Scara? Wha-what's wrong?" Kazuha stuttered in a panic
"Kazuha!!! Help!!!"
Kazuha heard his desperate calls and rushed to get his keys.
"Kazuha?! please hurry"
"I'm coming! What's wrong??" Kazuha asked more alarmed and frustrated by the second
"KAZUHA THEY'RE TRYING TO SHO-"
*BANG*
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"..."
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"Scara?.."
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"Scara this isn't funny, Answer me."
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He prayed to himself that it was a sick joke and he was alive and giggling with Aether.
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"..."
Although there was dead silence on both ends, both of them wished they had more time together, more time to get married, more time to go on adventures, and...
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...More time to tell each other "I love you."
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It had been 1 hour since Kazuha coughed up a petal. He searched online multiple times to find out why he was coughing up flower petals, but he found nothing that even mentioned coughing. Until he came across a website that was oddly suspicious, but accurate. Every Single Thing was on point. The symptoms, the causes, everything.
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He had suffered from a disease caused by 'one-sided love' or 'unrequited love'. The disease's infamous name is; Hanahaki Disease.
He read that the last stage's symptoms were coughing full flowers and after that? Death. It is said that you choke on your blood, thorns, and flowers.
But the million-dollar question is this: How do you cure it?
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Easy! Get the person to love you back, get it surgically removed but your feelings will disappear, or if you do not want to or can't do it then the only option is to lose feelings. Those are the only ways to cure the disease.
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Kazuha hasn't been this stressed since his beloved's death, he didn't know what to do.
He could never, ever, stop loving his beloved, so most options are gone. His beloved could never love him as he's in the above, his murderer below, and his lover stuck in the middle.
Kazuha soon realizes he only has no options left and you know what?
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He was fine with it.
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5wirl Tomo
barbietoes: GUYS LETS HAVE A SLEEPOVER PLEASE
Adeptus: okay
Hairzou: YESSSSSSSSSSSS WE SHOULD!!!
ilovemycat: CAN I COME?!?!?!?!!
helpmefindmysister: Yeah sure!! @ weedsmoker
weedsmoker: sure
Barbietoes: OMGGG YES
adeptus: You're so cringe venti.
Barbietoes: I know you love it <3
adeptus: I would rather kms. (maybe)
Hairzou: HELPPPP HE WOULD RATHER KILL HIMSELF AND NOT YOU LMAOOAOAOAOAOA (NAHH WHAT THE PERHAPS AHHH ANSWER!??!)
barbietoes: *heart breaks* (XIAO BABY I'M BLUSHINGGGG~~~)
helpmefindmysister: Character A.I core
Barbietoes: NO STOP *heart breaks*
Adeptus: ...
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In all honesty, Kazuha is excited about the sleepover. Except he's scared that they will find out about the disease. Kazuha was never someone who would take risks, but 5swirl (excluding Tomo) have been his childhood friends, Ones that stayed with him since day 1. He couldn't possibly decline.
So in the end, Kazuha sucked it up and risked it.
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*ding dong *
"KAZUHA!!!" Venti hollered at the top of his throat.
"Hey." Xiao greeted
"Hey weedsmoker" an unfamiliar voice spoke in almost a mocking tone.
"Hey 'ilovemycat'" Kazuha mocked back at Tomo
"Hey!!" Tomo pouted
"break it up. break it up!! We can't stay in the doorway forever, COME IN!!! HURRY!!!!!" Heizou scrambled
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Everyone Smiled, Everyone laughed, and Everyone bickered. It was a pleasant environment, a moment where Kazuha could truly be at peace without thinking of his beloved.
Everything was going fine until Kazuha started coughing violently again, and he immediately went to the bathroom, coughing more violently and violently till 10-15 petals came flying out of his mouth. It was an interesting view, petals drifting in the air with blotches of red crimson blood. It was truly a bewitching sight.
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Kazuha believed that no one saw him enter the bathroom and leave, but Tomo saw everything. What happened in there and his moment of silence. He was worried, terribly worried. He knew what it was.
He knew how hard it was to cure, He knew how painful it felt, He knew how to catch the disease, He knew. He knew everything, But how did he know? We'll never know.
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The day went as normal, except Kazuha occasionally coughed petals. They were multiplying, 10-15 turned to 15-20. It was painful, but he couldn't do anything about it. He was helpless
"HEY XIAO!!!" Venti screamed, Aether 100% thought he was trying to make all of them deaf.
"GUESS WHAT???" Venti continued.
"What?" Xiao questioned, ignoring his gut that was screaming at him to not answer and run.
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"CHICKEN BUTT!! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA..." Venti joked.
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"Kill Yourself." You could probably guess who that was.
*HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAA....*
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"Venti please stop laughing..." Kazuha pleaded, The laugh was like nails on a chalkboard.
"No. hehe~" Venti replied, "I will laugh for as LONG AS I WANT."
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"Ok, I don't want to laugh anymore."
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1:36 am, Kazuha's POV:
I look around my surroundings, I see gorgeous vibrant green trees in rows. I see purple flowers, and next to them is a silhouette of a slightly short man, his hair in a short jellyfish cut.
He was everything. Gorgeous, enchanting, affectionate, compassionate, beautiful, and pretty.
He was Perfect.
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I waved at him, He waved back. He said something I couldn't make out.
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Everything was blurry, I couldn't see clearly. I walked toward the silhouette,
I heard a noise, I wondered what it was and where it came from. I heard the wind blowing louder and louder.
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wait.
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That's not a silhouette of my beloved. That's a silhouette of a flower. How did I mix them up?
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Whats wrong with with me?
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*GASP*
I wake up, and I try to catch my breath, but it's getting more and more difficult. I rush to the bathroom where porcelain tiles lay, I slightly bend over the sink and start to cough violently praying that none of my friends will hear me. I cough out a 30-ish amount of petals and one delicate, gorgeous, fragile flower doused in blood.
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'It's getting worse'
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Third-Person POV:
Kazuha finally made it home after the sleepover, Venti was laughing non-stop the entire night and Kazuha didn't even have the energy to tell him 'Shut the fuck up' His mind was too fixated on how he coughed up an entire flower last night.
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after a while, he received a text message.
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(text messages)
ilovemycat: Hey kazuha!
zuha: Oh, hello tomo
zuha: what do you need?
ilovemycat: could we talk
ilovemycat: like in person
zuha: mmmm...
zuha: I mean sure but why so suddenly?
ilovemycat: theres not much time left
'ilovemycat' is offline
zuha: huh??? tf???
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Kazuha couldn't be more confused, He was getting too stressed. He wished the disease would just hurry up and kill him, He wished for too many things. Too many things to grant.
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He often wondered what he did to deserve this, what did he do to get his happiness taken away? He wondered if his beloved was doing ok, He wondered if his beloved's murderer was suffering just as much as he was, But why would Kazuha need to suffer? It's not like he murdered someone...
----( a few minutes later )----
*knock-knock*
"Coming!" a muffled voice shouted.
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"Kazuha!!! Welcome, welcome!!" Tomo greeted as if he hadn't texted the world's most confusing sentence.
"Hey Tomo." Kazuha greeted back as he entered the house.
Almost as soon as he entered the house a strong scent of vanilla mixed with cat invaded his nostrils harassing him with that interesting smell.
"So," Kazuha began.
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"Wha-"
"I know about your disease," Tomo said before kazuha could even finish his sentence.
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"..."
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Kazuha was pretty much speechless, He knew that once one person knew EVERYONE else would know too. But it wouldn't do anything, there was no point. Kazuha was going to die anyway and no one could save him.
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"Oh." Kazuha said to break the uncomfortable silence. He didn't know what to say, He was speechless for the second time in his lifetime.
His first time was when he confessed to Scaramouche.
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"HOLY SHIT KAZUHA!!! YOU'RE FINALLY GOING TO DO IT????" Venti hollered.
"yay" Xiao said sincerely
"wtf xiao" Heizou insulted. In the past, Xiao and Heizou bickered non-stop every single day to the point it looked like someone might throw hands any moment, but of course, their relationship got better and no longer bickered every day.
"I'm happy for you Kazuha!" Aether exclaimed. He was always the 'mother' of the friend group, always keeping the group intact and always, always sincere. It felt nice having someone be happy for you even though you're the one who's supposed to be happy. It was an enlightening and wonderful feeling.
"Thanks, guys I'm going now. Wish me luck!" Kazuha said
"Bye! Good luck!" Everyone hollered
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"Kazuha?..." Scaramouche asked.
"Scara! Over here!" The taller male guided the smaller male.
"Sooo what did you need me for?" The indigo-haired man questioned.
"To talk, and to tell you something!" The sweet and calm male replied,
"Ooo~ Then I'll have to tell u something to tell u too!!!!" The bitterly sweet male said.
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"I have something to confess," They said, both eyes widening after hearing the other male.
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"You go first," They both said hoping to break the awkwardness.
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"I'll go first," Can you guess? Yeah, you're right both of them said that.
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"At the same time?" They both suggested.
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"Ok on a count of 3"
"1"
"2"
"3"
"I like you," Scara said quickly and quietly.
"I love you, Scara." Kazuha said confidently and sweetly.
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"I'm leaving." Kazuha informed.
"Please," Tomo begged
"Huh?"
"Please, rethink your decision," Tomo begged.
"..."
Kazuha never said anything after that, He left Tomo's house never to return.
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Once Kazuha got home after a dreadfully long day, he thought to himself, 'would my friends would miss me when I died?' He thought about it and decided to write a letter. He poured all of his emotions and feelings into it not even knowing if it was ever going to have the opportunity to be read.
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One day later (Tuesday)
"Kamisato Ayaka" Mrs. Jean called,
"Here!"
"Tomo" She called again,
"Present!"
"Shikanoin Heizou," She said whilst slightly messing up his last name.
"Don't fear, your best detective is here!!!"
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"..." Everyone commented.
"Mr. Shikanoin please just say 'here'."
"Very well..." the 'best' detective answered.
"Lumine"
"Here."
"Lyney and Lynette?"
"Here!" They said in unison
"Kaedehara Kazuha?"
"..."
"Mr. Kaedehara?"
"..."
"Very well then."
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*RINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG*
"WOAH! THAT WAS TOUGH." Venti commented.
"Npc core." Heizou said quite blatantly, "HEY!!! that's so mean... XIAOOOOO.... HE IS BULLYING ME...." venti whined for the 600th time today
"Ok? and???" Xiao answered.
"..."
"HELP- LKAMOOOOBAHHAIAHHAIAHIAHAHAAHAHA" Heizou wheezed, screamed even.
"Heizou if I hear another word from u I'm gonna rip that teapot out of your neck and shove it up your ass so far up that it will come flying out ur hollow head. Also, stop bullying Venti" Xiao insulted.
"..." Heizou said.
"AWEEEE YOU DO CARE ABOUT ME MY CUTIE PATOOTIE BOO" Venti hollered.
"...can u stfu?"
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"Sooo how y'all been," Aether started.
"Decent," Xiao replied,
"GREAT!!!!" Venti screamed,
"Good," Tomo replied,
"AWESOME!!!" Heizou shouted,
"..."
"Where’s kazuha?" Aether asked.
"Gone. He wasn't in class today," Heizou replied.
"Yeah," Tomo replied, although he sounded cool and collected. Deep down he didn't want to believe the possibility of what happened, he really didn't.
"We should surprise him hehhehehhee" Venti 'hehe'-ed
"Very well. (we should definitely do that)" Xiao answered.
"hehe (xiao I love you)" Venti commented very unnecessarily,
"..." Xiao was speechless, but to be honest. Who wouldn't be...
"Anyway, LETS GOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!" Heizou shouted
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*ding dong*
*Ding Dong*
*DING. DONG.*
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"I don't think he's home..." Aether said worriedly
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*ding dong*
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"Hellooooo?" Venti sang.
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"Let's just open the door." Xiao suggested whilst taking the spare key in the flower plant above Kazuha's white and red-ish brown door.
*click*
"Bro why is there a random key the-"
"Venti, Shut the fuck up." Heizou said
"Shut the fuck up deez nutz hahahhahaahhaa......"
".........."
"Guys stop talking we are getting nearer to Kazuha's room, shhhh," Aether told them
*knock knock*
"Kazuhaaaaaaaaaaaahahhahhahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" Venti sang once more.
"Kazuha?" Aether called out
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Silence. Not even a sound of someone walking, just plain breathing.
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"Ok...." Xiao commented.
"Heizouuuu time to use ur awesome detective skills!!!" Venti mocked
"NEVER FEAR! YOUR BEST DETECTIVE IS HERE!!!!!" heizou screamed.
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*a few minutes pasts*
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"Oh hell no bro, We've literally searched the entire house." Venti stated.
"No fucking shit bro." Aether comments.
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"KAZUHA!" Xiao screams in a horrifying tone
"What the fuck? Whats wrong?? Did you find him???" Aether screams whilst scrambling towards the voice with Venti following close behind.
The pair enter the washroom where they heard the horrifying scream from Xiao. Aether was rendered motionless almost immediately.
"*pant, pant, pant* holy shit *cough*"
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"...Kazuha?" Venti asks in an almost silent voice,
"What the fuck. Kazuha wake up" Venti demands,
"What the actual fuck? Xiao are my eyes working?" Venti asks.
Silence. No words come out of Xiao's mouth as he does not have the answer either. 5 humans in the washroom, One on the floor, the other 4 standing, not knowing what to do.
The albino beauty was laying on the ground inside a pool of blood and flowers, unflattering yet alluring, His mouth was unable to close as there was an unbelievable amount of flowers and thorns in his mouth. Blood dripped down the side of his pale cheek as if it was the last drop in his body. He held one singular Dicentra, also known as the bleeding heart flower.
"..."
"Xiao?"
"Im sorry Venti, I checked his pulse already." Xiao replies quietly, not owning the guts to look Venti in the eye.
"IM HERE IM HERE IM HER- KAZUHA?!" Heizou screams
"I'm sorry" Xiao chokes out, nearly at the verge of tears.
"What?" Heizou asks,
"Im sorry."
Xiao apologizes multiple times that very night, unknowing how to comfort people when he can't even comfort himself. Hours pass, the ambulance has already taken Kazuha away without sparing 5wirl and Tomo a single glance. Leaving broken hearts and tears in the confined area. They slowly walked out and passed the letter that was written with care, destined to be forgotten
If only they had more time, more time to communicate with Kazuha. Maybe they would've saved his broken heart from the world's most dangerous disease,
A disease that is beautiful and painful. An emotion that can't be controlled, a curse that will shackle your heart with thorns.
A sensation that Kazuha still held in his fragile heart whether it was pierced with a flower or not,
A feeling called "love"