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She buried her face in her hand as her phone buzzed again. Jade laid in her bed, staring at the ceiling as another message from Kit popped up, another message asking her if she'd like to just hang out with her. Before picking it up. She scrolled up to the former messages of today and last night, the casual invitations to swim in the pool and playing video games, reading over Kit's invitations to hang out.
She exhaled and shut her phone again. She wasn't ignoring Kit, she didn't want to ignore it. It wasn't that she didn't want to see her, or play video games with her or swim in her pool…with her. It was the thought of returning to the same house, to the same room where she did…that.
Her cheeks burned with the memory of her own audacity, asking Kit to show her her cock. The room where she had begged for her the entire night, where Kit had taken her virginity with a fierce gentleness that had torn her apart and then meticulously pieced her back together again.
She didn't know how she'd face the one who fucked her after that when she couldn't even bear facing the room she did it in.
The room was the witness of what they did last night and it's weird but she was ashamed to face the damn room.
Her phone rang. Her heart raced as it was Kit. She considered letting it go to voicemail, but she kept calling, again and again, until she was forced to answer.
"Hey, Kit," she managed, her voice barely above a whisper.
"Jade, why aren't you answering me?" Kit's voice was a mix of concern and irritation. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah," she lied, her nerves wrecking. "I, um, I just didn't see my phone.”
"Oh, okay," Kit said, sounding fully convinced but a little disappointed. "Well, I was wondering if you wanted to come over for a swim today. It'd be fun."
Jade cringed. The thought of being in a bathing suit in front of Kit was too much to bear.
"I'm not feeling….well,”
There was a silence on the other end of the line and Jade's heart raced in her chest before Kit spoke up again. "Is it because...do you..."
“Just feeling really drained and dizzy," Jade said, trying to keep her voice steady as she felt her face heating up.
“Oh, I think—”
She couldn't take it any longer, the longer she talked with her, the more red and embarrassed she felt.
“Ah, I need to go, I'll call you later bye!”
She closed her phone and placed it on her bedside table. That was weird. She doesn't know why she's being so fucking weird. It was not like she had never lied to Kit. She had lied to her, multiple times in fact. But she had only ever lied to protect Kit. This time it didn't feel like she was protecting Kit.
She stood up and pulled the hoodie up and placed it back in the cupboard before taking out her makeup box to hide the marks Kit left on her last night. It was way too hot to hide it under the hoodie.
She stared at the bruises and she doesn't remember it being this bad. There is no way she can completely hide it under the makeup.
"Jade! Come on, it’s time!”
“Okay!” Jade immediately chose the right shade and covered the hickey's on her neck and upper under the foundation. With a quick sigh, she analyzed it. It had not completely disappeared and she can only hope Elora's sharp eyes don’t stare for long enough to connect the dots.
Jade went downstairs and entered the kitchen where Elora buzzed with energy. The counter was perfectly arranged with flour, sugar, chocolate chips, and eggs, creating an inviting scene.
“There you are!” Elora exclaimed, “I have it all ready, let's start.” She gestured dramatically to the ingredients. “Are you excited?”
Jade forced a half genuine smile. The awkwardness and tension from earlier leaving her body as she nodded. Kit loved Elora's baking, her cookies, her muffins and all of it but she was too proud to admit it. Kit loved Elora but loved teasing Elora even more.
She could never forget the look on Kit's face every time she tasted them. She cooked but had never tried baking anything and she wanted to give it a try for Kit. She wanted Kit to have her. She shared her thoughts with Elora who promised to teach her this summer. She wanted Kit to be the one to taste her first bakery. Coincidently, the day Elora got time to teach her was the day she was kind of avoiding Kit.
Elora quickly grabbed a mixing bowl and began measuring the ingredients with ease. “First, we need to cream the butter and sugar together until it’s nice and fluffy,” she explained, demonstrating with a wooden spoon. Jade leaned in closely, eager to learn every step of the process.
“Okay, your turn,” Elora said, handing the spoon to Jade. She took it eagerly, feeling the cool weight of the bowl in front of her. As she beat the mixture, the buttery aroma enveloped her, creating a cozy atmosphere that enveloped the kitchen.
“What’s next?” Jade asked,
“Now, we add the eggs and vanilla!” Elora replied to Jade who had already started cracking eggs into a separate bowl. “You have to do this gently. We don’t want any eggshells in our cookies,”
Jade followed Elora’s lead, as they moved with the recipe. As they began to mix the ingredients and shape the dough, Jade's mind was focused on one thing; not revealing to Elora what she and Kit did.
“What's on your neck?”
"I slept with Kit," Jade blurted out, her cheeks turning a dark shade of pink as her hands freezed and she looked up at Elora's face with horror on her face and muttered, “fuck…”
Elora's eyes widened as she gasped, “finally!”
"When and how did that happen?”
She asked, unable to keep the excitement out of her voice.
Jade shook her head stubbornly, not prepared to admit what she did last night to her. “Come on, I had shared every detail of my first time with Airk with you. It's only fair if you do the same.”
Jade shook her head again, “I can't.”
“You can!”
“I can't! It's embarrassing!” Elora tried to argue again but Jade simply said, “You're not getting any details except that it happened last night.”
“Fine…” she signed as they continued to shape the dough into smaller pieces under comfortable silence.
"I wanted to see Kit's cock," Jade blurted out, her cheeks now a deep shade of red. Elora slapped her hand over her, “Oh my God Jade! I never knew you were so kinky.”
“Stop!” Jade protested, squeezing the dough in her hand, her face burning as she narrowed her eyes at her friend. “I’m not sharing more details!”
“No, no, I won't say a word,” Elora promised and nudged her gently.
Jade hesitated, biting her lip, despite her hesitation, she wanted to share this really badly with someone. “Fine…I asked Kit to stroke it… and then I asked her to show me how to give a hand job. Then, I gave her one…and then a blowjob…and one thing lead to another and we fucked.” Jade winded up the story, feeling too embarrassed to go into any more details. “All night.” She whispered.
Elora squealed in excitement, “Ahhh…I'm so happy for you!” She paused, digging for more details, “But was Kit good in bed? Because honestly, I have my doubts…”
“No, I swear, she's amazing.” Jade said, feeling a wave of pride and need to defend her. “Like, really amazing. She has so much stamina. She literally fucked me all night!”
Elora burst into laughter. “Wow! How big is she?”
“I wasn’t out there measuring her size, Elora!”
“You did have it inside of you, though,” Elora winked, having fun with the topic. Just as Jade was about to dismiss the topic, setting the baking sheet in the oven, a voice from behind startled them.
“Well, if Jade's limping wasn't big enough proof itself, then yes, let me educate you, I’m extremely big.” Kit declared, stepping into the kitchen.
Jade's heart skipped a beat before racing. Jade can only hope her panic is not written all over her face as she chews on her bottom lips, an unfamiliar feeling rising from within at the sight of Kit.
Jade was so sure she wasn't imagining stuff.
Elora looked shocked, nonetheless she flipped her off with her middle finger. Ignoring Elora's middle finger, she turned to Jade with a concerned expression while stepping closer. “What're you doing? You should be in bed, resting.” she raised her concern, hands on Jade's arms.
“Why should she be resting?” Confusion was clear on Elora's face. Kit turned around with her equally puzzled face and before her lie could eat her up, she narrowed her eyes at Elora as a signal which she thankfully understood and raised her eyebrow but didn't say anything.
Jade cupped Kit's cheek, making her turn back to her and felt her own cheeks starting to flush under the softness of her gaze as she stuttered, trying to come up with a valid excuse. "I..I was just craving some cookies and I've been thinking about learning to bake for a while now, so…”
Kit's face lit up with understanding. "Ah, you should've just asked her to bake them for you.” She said, gesturing demeaningly at Elora.
Elora rolled her eyes as she crossed her arms, “or better yet ask this lover boy of yours to, I bet she'd buy you every kind of cookie known to mankind.”
Kit went red almost immediately as she stepped back from Jade and defensively spoke, “I'm not…we're not…” she shook her head and glared at Elora as she mumbled out. “Whatever,” She gently took her hand and guided her out of the kitchen, her hand resting on her waist. "Come on, let's go to your room. We need to talk."
Jade stared at her serious face and felt a sickening knot forming in her belly.
Elora watched them leave, a small smile playing on her lips as Jade looked back at her helplessly.
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“Are you pregnant?" Kit asked, closing the door behind her, as Jade's eyes widened in shock.
"No!" she exclaimed, but the dread that filled her made her mutter, "Am I?" under her breath. The thought had never crossed her mind, but as she replayed the night in her head, she remembered the reckless passion, and the lack of protection. "Did you release inside of me?" Jade asked, panic surging in her voice.
Kit looked hurt at the accusatory tone, but she quickly reassured her, "Of course not, I was extremely careful and I would have known if I did, and I'm damn sure I didn't." Jade let out a sigh of relief, but she couldn't shake off the worry that had taken root in her mind.
Kit obviously wouldn't do it intentionally, the last thing she wants is a child. Kit has enough sense to know that they both are in no way ready to be parents but what if in the heat of the moment she just didn't want to pull out and knocked Jade up accidentally.
“but you said you were sick so I thought…I accidentally did”
Oh Fuck.
Why do her lies always backfire on her in the worst ways possible.
“It was just a headache.”
Kit sighed, scratching the back of her head. “That's good.” Kit pulled out a kit from her pocket. “I still brought a pregnancy kit, if you want to make sure…you can just…use it or whatever.” she completed her sentence as she threw the pregnancy kit her way.
Jade felt her cheeks getting red as the kit landed by her feet. She kicked it away as she exclaimed with embarrassment, “It takes a couple of days for it to show Kit!”
Kit frowned, “how would you know that?”
“They told us at school.”
“Huh? Where was I?” she asked with shock in her voice.
“Right there!” Jade chuckled, struggling to hold the laughter in.
“I don't know…we just need to be careful next time—” She stopped immediately and Jade let herself hope for a moment. “...you know with…whoever we're fucking.”
“Yeah.”
Kit cleared her throat and smiled softly, “so if you are feeling any better, can we hang out?”
Jade tucked her hair behind her ears, not having it in her to decline, “I guess…wanna stick around and try the cookies I made before that?”
Kit nodded with a goofy, ear to ear grin that showed her dimples.
“What?”
Kit shook her head but the smile didn't fade, “I was waiting for you to offer.”
Jade found her lips unable to not break into a smile. She could only imagine how happy it would make her to know that Jade did it for her in the first place. She desperately wanted to tell her that but hesitation got the best of her.