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♡ i think your second pregnancy with pelle would actually be just a little bit planned…
୨୧ not in the way that pelle really has a breeding kink though, more so in the way that whenever he saw your daughter playing by herself or not having many friends due to her macabre interests, so similar to her father, he just wants her to have a friend really bad, he knows loneliness more than anyone and he knows how hurtful it can be to be alone simply because your interests do not align with many others
♡ and what better way to give her a friend than to have another child with you? to give her a sibling when she’s still so young, only being a little older than a toddler!
୨୧ pelle himself grew up with siblings, he knows very well how special that sibling bond is and he actually really wants that for his daughter, he wants her to always have someone she can turn to outside of you and him, her parents…
♡ so pelle likely brought it up to you from time to time, albeit very shyly as he doesn’t quite know how to go about telling you he thinks having another child would be nice! but you understand him quickly, catching on to all of the hints and agree with him, much to his delight
୨୧ when you actually give birth to your son is where i can see some problems starting to arise, just some slight issues…
♡ pelle is so soft on your daughter and so openly loving towards her, always making sure she knows how much he adores her and now she can come to him whenever she needs to! with your daughter, pelle was very rarely afraid, maybe it was because she looks so much like you that he just saw you in her, saw your comforting smile and warm eyes
୨୧ but your son is just a double of pelle, inheriting almost all of his features and having close to none of yours! whenever pelle looks at him, he feels as if he’s looking directly into a mirror, looking at his younger self, right into the eyes of his former self who had no idea how dark his life would soon become in his teen and young adult years…
♡ that is what scares pelle, whenever he sees your son, he sees himself and all of the pain that was brought down upon him by forces that he couldn’t stop nor waver
୨୧ it’s the thought of your son growing up and going through those same things that he did which terrifies him, the thought of your son doing those same things he did in his darkest days just kills him
♡ i mean, this was already a slight fear with your daughter, he was fearful of her growing up and falling into a downward spiral but with your son? it’s even worse simply because of how much pelle sees himself in your son, anyone can see how much they look alike, it’s as if a mirror is reflecting an image of the past and present
୨୧ it’s those fears that makes pelle almost not want to interact with your son, he’s just so incredibly afraid of himself somehow tarnishing his innocence by simply being around him, as if holding him and loving him will curse him to a life of pain…
♡ it will take a little while for pelle to break out of this, only after so much assurance and love from you, only after you’ve told him to look at how amazing your daughter is turning out and only after you’ve told him how much your daughter so obviously loves her father is when pelle will become much more open to your son and luckily it is when your son is still very young
୨୧ it’s not as if pelle was ever cold or hateful towards your son before, he was just afraid and extremely cautious but he did love your son, he still loves your son, it’s just that now he feels like he can actually show it more and feel secure in it… he no longer feels like he is hurting his son by loving him
♡ as i mentioned in my post about this dynamic, the best representation or parallel for this family dynamic would likely be kratos, faye and atreus from god of war! pelle does love his son, more than anything, but he feels like he has to protect his son from himself, he has to protect his son from his own past self and the possibility of his son becoming like his old self when he grows up just scares him! he needs you to teach him how to open his heart to his son just as you taught him how to open his heart to his daughter, he needs to be assured that he is a changed man, a better man and an even greater father
୨୧ anyways, let’s move on from all that slightly angsty stuff now…
♡ pelle would absolutely adore seeing your two children playing together, always sitting or standing close by as to keep an eye on them due to your daughter being a little older and having a bit more strength than her brother
୨୧ he’s kind of a helicopter parent like that, he does not ever want them to get injured or upset, it just kills him inside although he does handle it really well when an accident does happen!
♡ he might be panicking really bad on the inside but he learns how to hide that from his children, even when he himself knows deep down that there’s no real reason to be panicking this much
୨୧ like when they get a slight scratch from playing in the nearby woods! pelle is so quick to yell over and ask them to come over to him so that he can check the small wound, his voice wavering slightly and he walks over to meet them halfway! all kinds of thoughts running through his head, really ridiculous thoughts about the possibility of it being a poisonous branch or other things… but he keeps all of his paranoia locked up and hidden from them, he knows that openly freaking out will only scare them and scaring his children is not what he ever wants to do at all
♡ he keeps all of those fears hidden and silent inside of his head until he comes back inside to see you, coming over with slightly wide eyes as he bursts into a quiet spew of words about how you both need to keep an eye on your child for the rest of the day in case they get a fever and how it’s all his fault that they even hurt themselves but you shut him up with a soft laugh before leaning up to pet his pale cheek and plant a gentle kiss on his lips, mumbling against them how small scratches are a part of childhood, how it’s not his fault at all and he needs to quit blaming himself for everything but he isn’t as quick to forgive himself…
“ yes, but… if i had been closer to them, or maybe i just shouldn’t have let them go into the wooded section, then they wouldn’t have… ” ( the most pelle ever talks is when it’s about his children, anything regarding them will usually cause him to ramble and go on for a while, almost always knocking the wind out of him and leaving him with heavy breaths )
୨୧ but seriously, pelle just cannot get enough of seeing your two children play together… every time he sees them running around the garden together, cuddling up on the couch and watching a cartoon together or even when they have a simple childish squabble over something small and stupid… it all just makes him smile, it makes a strong warmth overtake his heart, his mind becoming overwhelmed with memories of doing the same with his own siblings when he was a child, memories once buried and trapped under so much sadness and emptiness
♡ morning is now a favourite time for pelle, such a difference from a couple years ago when he was kind of a nothing person, he never really preferred any time of day because he never had much to look forward to… but now, he just loves the morning! mainly because he thinks you looks so beautiful in the morning, your hair slightly messy and frizzy, wearing only the clothes you find the most comfortable as you prepare breakfast for your children!
୨୧ whilst pelle used to stray away from much physical touch, now, he reaches for it! he enjoys holding your hips from behind as your prepare breakfast, slouching down slight to rest his chin atop your shoulder, turning his head slightly to pepper light kisses on your cheek and down your neck, smiling against your skin when you laugh softly and tilt your head back to press a deep kiss against his lips before you have to slightly push him away from the kiss to actually be able to finish breakfast, smiling back at him and telling him to go see his babies
♡ and that he does, he parts from you with a final lingering kiss on your head before he walks out of the kitchen and into the living room where your two children are sitting up on the couch, both in their fluffy pyjamas and hair as messy as yours whilst their eyes are glued to a cartoon playing on the tv… he smiles slightly as he approaches them before sitting on the couch in between them, both children perking up from their previously sleepy state when they set eyes on their father, immediately scooting over and going to cuddle into him as he wraps an arm around each of them and mumbles quietly
“ morning… you hungry? both of you, i hope… breakfast is nearly ready ” ( his voice is already quiet and soft but in the morning? even more so! it’s the perfect voice to hear in the morning, so soft spoken and gentle as he speaks to them, planting a soft kiss on each of their heads as they both fall back into a sleepy state curled up into his side )
୨୧ when your son gets a little older, he only begins to look even more like his father! his blue eyes shining even stronger with pigment and blonde hair growing brighter in the sun
♡ speaking of his hair, he absolutely wants to keep it long, just like his father! you mentioned maybe giving him a haircut once and he almost threw a tantrum, he would have thrown a tantrum if pelle wasn’t there to soothe him and assure him you wouldn’t cut all of his hair off… all whilst your daughter was giggling up a storm behind him because of how whiny her brother was being, only causing pelle to crack a small smile at the sound of her high pitched laughter
୨୧ the fact of pelle being able to stop tantrums is something that runs a lot deeper than just that though…
♡ your son very quickly became a major daddy’s boy and absolutely loves pelle, they form an extremely strong father - son bond, pelle overcoming all of his fears he had and having the most immensely loving relationship with your son, pelle is usually the only person who can ever soothe your son when he’s upset or angry, neither of you really know why or how, the two of them just clicked so deeply and have such an unbreakable soul bond
୨୧ pelle absolutely loves making your children little pieces of jewellery and knick knacks out of animal bones! obviously he makes sure to clean them super well before giving it to them… but things like little necklaces or bracelets? he could make them all day, making matching ones for you and the children, maybe making himself one too
♡ not to mention if your children ever really get into drawing? likely influenced by always seeing him drawing and doodling in his sketchbook, just wanting to do something that their father also does and so obviously loves, his children are basically his shadow, they want to do everything they see him doing which never fails to make you laugh as you watch their wide and curios eyes watch him
୨୧ and he will gladly teach them both how to draw! he doesn’t think he’s the greatest teacher but as you watch him take them both onto his lap, steadying one of his children on each knee as he slightly bounces his knees to create a soothing rhythm, talking quietly down to them as he teaches them one at a time, his pale hand coming down to hold and guide their much smaller one, showing them how to hold the pencil properly and how to create shading, all whilst his children are just beaming as they spend time with him and pelle has a small smile of his on his face… yeah, you beg to differ about him thinking he isn’t a beyond great teacher
♡ pelle just still can’t really believe that he, of all people, has a family let alone two children who only ever see a side of him that no one else does, pelle might not be perfect but he has two children with the love of his life, two children who actually want to be like him when they grow up, two children who only see him for what he truly is and that alone is what makes life worth living for pelle… just you and his babies <3