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Feelings untold, words unspoken
The ache in my heart, feeling broken
My love for Phil was growing stronger each day; every time I looked at him, I felt like I was drowning in feelings, suffocating...hard to breathe, and suddenly I was coughing. A hundred petals bright blue in colour, reminding me of his ocean eyes, came tumbling out of my mouth with blood and spit.
A hundred petals, all blue
Wish I could give one to you.
I know of course what this means for my fate and the choice I have to make, but it's not that simple. Telling Phil how I feel would ruin our friendship, as would getting the surgery and losing all feelings, so I have no choice but to suffer and endure for the sake of getting to see him and be with him every day.
Forget me nots they are; ironic, isn't it the flower that could cause me to forget him.
My darling Phil, there you are.
Never nearer but never so far
I'm struggling every day to even carry on, but being with Phil makes it all worth it. He takes care of me thinking that I'm simply sick, and although I don't deserve it, I want to be selfish and relish in every moment with him, making my heart sore and scream all at the same time.
Vines weaving tightly throughout the chest
Never leaving a moment of rest
I knew the end was near; this was it. I could hardly breathe, and I could feel scratchy vines crawling up my neck and flowers lodged in my throat. It was finally time for my goodbye to tell Phil how I felt.
Phil, I love you.
As the last flower blossomed in my mouth, clogging my airways and spilling out onto the ground
Dan, I love you too!!
But it was too late.
Shakily taking my final breath
My love for you the cause of my death.