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November Thoughts

Summary:

Written *mumble mumble* years ago as a freshman in college, very lightly edited.

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(See the end of the work for notes.)

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Walking through the dead and dying leaves 

scattered across my path, 

breathing in the sharp, bitingly cold late fall air, 

I realize that almost four months have passed.

 

This thought strikes me with a sudden chill 

far colder than the November air, 

and I wonder if these hours and days 

have been well spent.

 

Have I grabbed the coattails of this time 

and ridden them through every last second?

And if I’ve let this experience begin to pass me by, 

how should I respond?

 

Is there a frantic scrambling to discover and force 

a meaning on this time, 

or is there a passive release and nod to defeat?

Is there such a thing as wasted time?

 

As I slowly continue walking my cluttered path, 

these questions hang, 

frozen and unresolved, 

in the frosty air with my cloudy breath.

Notes:

Just a quiet contemplation of the first few months of college, which, looking back, may have had some prophetic questions raised. The sense of both not spending time on the “right” things and nothing being a waste of time was a dichotomy I never really resolved then.