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My best is never good enough

Summary:

Even the most perfect pretty girl can have a breakdown

Notes:

This is a vent fanfic and might seem ooc because I am sad and I thought of Teruhashi would have a similar issue like me aham coughs remember the episode where she tries to remember everyones name etc and she stresses out too much just to please everyone and show shes the perfect pretty girl? Yeah I feel her, like trying to always be your best but in the end you exhaust yourself to the limit. Anyways my bad that the notes are so big lets start with the fanfic!

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Dark blue eyes staring at the mirror. Hair sticking out really badly and an miserable face that no one should ever see her like this.

Tears are dropping slowly it seems at first, biting her bottom lip staring down at the sink not wanting to cause a bigger scene.

Not wanting her brother to find out she’s crying not wanting anyone to know that she’s crying.

Putting both of her fragile weak hands on the sink as she breathes heavily, wondering where it all went wrong.

Well many things did went wrong before, like trying to remember everyone’s names or lots of nuisances such as those two people from the newspaper club.

But they weren’t really a bother that much, she’s always the perfect pretty girl. Always beautiful, always achieving a lot and people praise her.

Yet she doesn’t do enough some might think, she knows she can achieve a lot but sometimes it can be really annoying to always try to please everyone. Especially with having such hateful haters around her that can be annoying as well.

Another breathe was exhaled from her as she was thinking.

People like Saiki did made her upset a bit, she knows that she can make people like Saiki happy and praise her but it seems like some people like him… Like his brother wouldn’t never praise her. She knows that she shouldn’t let her pride down but it stings her heart a little.

Her knees became wobbly a bit as she tried to not cry loudly as she was holding tightly into her sink, trying to breathe.

She sniffled as she thought more.

She of course still gets praised for sure even by such people, but they expect more. More better and she can’t do all better.

She will exhaust herself just like last time where Saiki had to hold her and everyone was annoyed at him for that.

At least he cared enough, not like the others only wanting to hold her because she’s so perfect.

With one arm she wiped the upcoming tears as she decided to sit down on the cold floor. It felt too cold just like ice but she didn’t cared.

Why is it so hard to please everyone?

Everyone expects the worst and also everyone expects the best for her, how is she supposed to live this way when she knows there will be so many troublesome things coming.

She knows that every situation will always be okay but she also knows its gonna be so tough. She wonders if God really is there for her. Of course he is… Right…

It’s too much as she leaning against the wall, sobbing silently wanting to forget everything and wish that this wasn’t really her life a bit.

It’s so tough trying to be always perfect and please everyone when you also suffer just like anyone else.

No one will truly understand her, she can’t even understand herself.

She’s so confident, she knows many people love her but they also hate her because she’s like this.

Can’t please everyone thats for sure but she wishes her life would be more peaceful sometimes, where she can go somewhere without being harassed or feeling like someone is stalking her.

Another tear drop comes down her cheek as she’s staring at the door, wishing she can just forget about tonight and her outburst of unusual overthinking.

The door creaks slowly open as an voice is heard.

“Kokomi?…” and her breathe hitches as her head hurts. Trying to have her eyes opened but her eyes are fighting to sleep.

Her body goes down on the floor now totally as her brother goes after her trying to get her up.

Sometimes people can see her at the weakest point and sometimes they don’t. Yet both ways it sucks.

She just wishes she would be alone but she can’t.

“Kokomi I am here it’s fine.. I put you in the bed. You can sleep peacefully.” She hears a faint voice, she knows its her brother but even knowing he’s there it sucks but also trying to sleep peacefully is truly hard to achieve.

Trying to breathe properly with her eyes closed, she mumbles an “Thank you”

Always gonna be sure you’re the perfect pretty girl. She knows she is but it’s exhausting sometimes trying to be good. She needs praises and people keeping the attention on her but also it’s too much…

Everything’s too much as she hears the faint voice saying “Everything’s okay” and more sentences that she can’t really comprehend as she’s falling asleep on her soft bed.

Maybe tomorrow won’t be too bad?