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Kawi looked through his call log, seeing multiple missed calls from Pisaeng. He wishes he could just call him, he has been overseas too long. ‘ Hope you aren’t gonna try to find yourself a new guy ’ Kawi thought to himself, he put his phone back on the table.
Once Kawi got back to his hotel room he checked his world clock to see what time it was in Bangkok. 11:00pm. He was sure Pisaeng would still be awake and proceeded to call him. “Hello?” Pisaeng answered, Kawi smiled. “Hey.” There was a moment of silence before Pisaeng finally broke it. “Why haven’t you been answering my calls?” he asked with a slight hurt in his voice. Kawi’s heart broke. “I’m sorry love, I've been busy with schedules and interviews. I haven’t been able to have time to look at my phone until now.” Pisaeng hummed in response, not pleased with the answer he got. Kawi sighed and spoke out again. “ Nights in Paris used to feel so right, I'd rather stay in my hotel and talk to you all night .” Pisaeng sighed, Kawi kept going. “ I wish you were here to share these days so bad .” Pisaeng nodded. “Okay, I forgive you.” Kawi smiled, they continued to talk into the night.
Kawi texted ‘XO’ to Pisaeng from his hotel in Melbourne, it’s so busy in Melbourne. He never has time to relax anymore. His flight back to Bangkok is in the morning, but was it really so important? Should he be going home to him? Kawi sighed and decided to call it an early night.
I've never stopped thinking about how I miss you so much. How I don’t kiss you enough I know that.
Kawi was on his way to the airport, he was anxious to get back home and see Pisaeng. Pisaeng has been texting him all week. Kawi hasn’t had the chance to reply and he wanted to talk with him in person. Once his car pulled up to the entrance of the airport, he jumped out and ran in as if it was going to make time move faster. He slept the entire flight to catch up on much needed rest so he can give all his attention and energy to Pisaeng. Once the plane landed he whipped out his phone to text Pisaeng.
K : Babe I just landed, you need to come over. How about I text you what time you should be here, text me right back as soon as you're leaving. I need you right now. No other city I'd rather be.
Kawi walked into his apartment and quickly began to set up the place for Pisaeng to come over. He placed his suitcase on his bed and started to look through it trying to find the ring he planned to propose to Pisaeng. It had Pisaeng’s name engraved on the inside but he couldn’t find it. He nearly tore his entire suitcase apart before sitting on the bed, placing his head in his hands. He must’ve forgotten it on the nightstand when he was packing. Kawi heard a knock at the door, assuming it must’ve been Pisaeng. He closed his bedroom door and walked to open the front door, he stood in front of it for a few seconds to compose himself then opened the door. He quickly became confused as it wasn’t Pisaeng. “Max? We separated at the airport, is something wrong?” Max walked in and sat at his kitchen island. “We have to talk, it’s important.” Max brought out his phone and pulled up some photos his friend had sent him. “You need to see what I was sent just a little while ago.” Kawi gave Max a confused look and walked to stand next to him, Max began showing him photos of Pisaeng and another guy out in the bar. They were cuddled up close, Kawi felt his heart sank as Max kept sliding through the photos. It kept getting worse. “His name is Sun.” He felt tears prickle his eyes once it got to the photo of Pisaeng and Sun kissing. He walked away from Max and sat on the couch, Max got up and stood in front of him. “I guess he has been seeing this man the entire time we were gone.” Kawi's hands were shaking, he pulled out his phone, dialing Pisaeng’s number. It went straight to voicemail. He got up and walked out of his apartment, ignoring Max’s calls out to stop him. He called a taxi to drive him to Pisaeng’s house.
He walked up to the door and knocked, waiting for someone to answer but was left with silence. He entered the door code and walked in, he heard sounds coming from upstairs. Kawi walked up the stairs and towards the bedroom door where the sounds were coming from. He opened the door, not fully expecting to see Pisaeng and Sun in bed. “Kawi!” Pisaeng jumped out of bed and threw on his robe. “What is this?” Kawi asked in a hurtful tone. Pisaeng pushed him out of the room and closed the door behind him. “I didn’t know you were back.” Kawi shook his head. “I texted you hours ago telling you I was home.” Pisaeng walked downstairs to where his phone was sitting, turning it on and seeing the missed texts and calls from Kawi. “Why?” Kawi asked, trying to keep himself composed. Pisaeng shook his head. “I can’t keep doing this Kawi, you’re gone for months and there’s time I don’t hear from you for days.” Kawi tried to grab his hands but Pisaeng just pulled away. “I know and I’m sorry, I try to text you whenever I have time.” Pisaeng sighed. “That’s not good enough!” Kawi winced when Pisaeng slightly raised his voice at him. “Sun gives me the attention I crave and doesn’t leave me on read for days. He doesn’t leave for months and doesn’t leave me wondering when he’ll come back.” Kawi felt tears forming in his eyes, was Pisaeng really just going to throw away everything they built together? “You chased me, remember?” Kawi told him. “I’m starting to think that was a mistake.” Pisaeng replied, Kawi shook his head. “ Forgot to bring your present back, I'm ashamed. Bet you’d love that ring engraved with your name .” Pisaeng gave a look of sadness, Kawi went to the door, gave Pisaeng one last look and walked out.
Kawi and Max were on flight the next morning to Singapore for a last minute planned event Max set up to help get Kawi’s mind off Pisaeng, Kawi checked his messages, seeing the messages he received from Pisaeng. Trying to justify his cheating but how he’s regretful, how he didn’t come clean sooner and hurt Kawi in the process. Kawi put his phone down on the tray and pulled his hood over his head.
You finding it hard getting used to my fame, crushing how i’ve missed ya
I’ve been going crazy, boy, knowing how I've missed you, knowing how he kissed you.