Chapter Text
Rafayel showed you the journals left behind the Gods before him. You assured him you believed his words but he insisted as he tugged you along and truthfully seeing the light in his eyes with that smile on his face, you melted instantly. You followed him into the darkness some lit by a flame in the palm of his hand. The light illuminating his silhouette as he held onto your hand tightly. You can't recall how long you spent in those cavarens with him, you only remember how excited he was to share those stories with you. You smiled as he read them to you due to fact it was all in Lemurian which still had yet to learn. Even in the dimly lit room, his blue-pink eyes sparkled as you reached over to leave a kiss on his cheek.
"What was that for?" He asked
He loved you...
"Just because..." You shrugged.
In the days to follow, whenever he wasn’t by your side, you found yourself in the College library. He took the time to learn about you, why shouldn’t You often spent hours trying to teach yourself the language. Algie and Conche would help you sometimes if they were around. They often would see you grow frustrated with the subject after a prolonged period of time.
“Why don’t you…” Algie started. “Switch over to Lemurian biology and anatomy?”
You looked over at her, eyes widened. A slight pink dusted her cheek as she looked at you with a similar expression. She wasn’t dumb, she actually was quite well aware of what was going on. Conche on the other hand…
”What?” The boy questioned. “She doesn’t need to know all that!”
The Lemurian girl told him to be quiet as she pulled him away. You were left alone in the rather empty library. Somehow, curiosity creeped into you more as you stood up to go browse the seemingly endless rows of books. You flipped and skimmed through the pages of everyone. You found only a couple that peaked your interest enough to keep reading more.
You hid in the darkest corner you could find, away from any other visitors. For the first time since you had actually been going, you felt like you were learning something that you could actually apply elsewhere.
Later that evening, Rafayel snuck his way into your room like always. He sat beside you on your bed as he shared one of his favorite snacks with you. He laughed at something he said that you wish you could recall but you were stuck in your new found knowledge a little too much.
“Can I ask you something?” You ponder, gently. “You’re a Lemurian… so you’re also merfolk.”
”Depends.” He responds as takes a bite of the snack in his hand.
”Do you really have…” You looked down at his lap. “Two of them when you have a tail?”
He choked on his food as he turned to look at you, bewildered, “How did you find that out?”
“So it is true? You’re not the only one with access to the library, you know… I wanted to know more about you too.”
“What else do you know?”
You told him how you were able to touch lightly on Ebb and Flow day before Algie came to escort you back for the evening. His ears were bright red as he seemed a mixed off embarrassed and angry as well. After that night, where you weren’t allowed to see him transform, you knew for some reason or another he was sensitive to it. You scoot closer to him, holding his hand in your own as you leaned over to whisper in his ear.
“I understand you not wanting to show or tell me certain things about you as Lemurian.” You reassured him. “It’s not like I didn’t do the same. When you’re ready, if you’re ever ready to show those parts of you, you can.”
You come to rest a hand on his cheek, turning his attention to you. He melts at your touch and closes his eyes as he nuzzles his nose against your palm. He relaxs at your touch only for a moment. Suddenly, he's looking at you trough his eyelashes as his gaze goes cold on you.
“All humans do is lie.” He scoffed. “You’d be frightened and think of me differently if I did.”
Truthfully, his words were like tiny daggers to your heart.
“Did you think that way of me when I showed and told you my own story?” You sighed as you take your hand away.
His eyes softened at the look of you, “I don’t want to hurt you.”
”You won’t.” You shook your head. “I trust you.”
He pouted at you as you played with strands of his hair. The rather loving gaze would’ve been apparent to anyone else but him. Even though he hurt you in an attempt to push you away, you were still so tender to him. You leaned closer to whisper in his ear again.
”Just so you know,” You hummed. “I wouldn’t mind helping you your next Ebb and Flow day.”
You pulled away only to licked a stripe up from his collarbone up to his jaw. He hissed out of shock as his face scrunched at the sudden action. He saw you pulling away and out of instinct, he reaches for your wrist to pull you back. In his lap, you can already feel him against you which you smiled at.
”Will you… help me now?” He shyly asked as he looked at the ground.
Oh, something about him made your heart fill with pure love. You couldn’t help reaching for his face just to kiss him so hard it left him breathless as you subconsciously grind against him. He can’t help but whimper gainst your lips as his eyes roll back at the sensation. His hands coming up to grip your waist tightly as he encourages your movements against him. He sighs as you pull away, however the newfound kisses on his neck only made him weaker under you. For a moment, he gained composure as you pulled away to look at him once more. He froze, everything around him slowed as he realized how comfortable and safe he truly felt with you.
“Wait.” He said, out of breath.
Your hips ceased immediately as you got up to sit down next to him on the bed. He took your hand in the matter of seconds, the look of concern so clear on your face as you stare at him.
”What about today?” He asked, his thumb rubbed over the top of your hand.
You knew exactly what he was eluding to, your eyes widened.
”Rafayel, if you’re not ready-“ You mumbled.
”I am.” He interrupted you as he squeezed your hand. “I’m just nervous…”
You chuckled lightly, “Do you want me to turn away?”
He nodded. Still on the bed, you turned your back to him as you wait. He turned around to face the wall as he took a deep breath in, his heart beat becoming more rapid in chest as his tail appeared beneath him. All he can do for a moment is stare at it, wondering if the anxiety is right or not. Silence filled the room and he realizes how long he's been taking. In a panic, he quickly turns back around, yet you're still faced the other way.
”You can look…” He says.
He can see how you hesitate a bit as you slowly turn your head. Your eyes instantly fall him and he can’t even meet your gaze. Shame and guilt filled him for some strange reason as his throat starts to ache. His tail made him even taller, he would’ve touched the ceiling easily if it didn’t curl behind him in the moment. His scales were the same royal blue shared by the ones on his neck… As the light from outside hit them, you saw the iridescent shine to them. You were left breathless.
“It’s so pretty…” You compliment as you walked toward him.
He finally looked at you, that saddened look disappearing at your words. He swims closer to you as you saw tears spill out effortlessly. As they roll down his cheeks, they turn solid and become pearls that hit the floor with a small sound. You take him rather quickly in your embrace, your hands quickly coming to hold his cheeks as you tried to soothe him. That gaze of yours when you look at him, unchanged from earlier.
“You’re not afraid?” He choked out, shocked.
”How could I be afraid of someone so beautiful?” You smiled before you left a gentle kiss on his lips.
In that moment, he was most positive that you were the one. He finally understood why he felt that longing feeling the night you met and why he so easily surrendered to you without a fight. He understood it all in that brief time. He can’t help but kiss you again, only pulling apart to ask a burning question.
“So,” He huffed. “I’m just assuming but, you did want to have me in this form when we-“
”Yes.” You laughed as nodded. “If that’s alright.”
He smiled at you, picking you up rather easily as he sits on the edge of your bed once more with you in his lap. A part of him is disappointed as you get up but becomes pleasantly surprised as he watches you strip down to nothing. Your top on the floor on the floor leaving him in shock. He can’t help but sit there and stare until you're back on his lap. His scales feel cool and smooth against the skin of your thighs.
”I give you control tonight.” You whisper to him.
Looking into your eyes, he can't find that sense of fear or dread in your eye that occured the last time he saw you like this. His heart skips a beat, knowing what that meant. His hands roam your sides as he tries to calm himself. He can’t help but find himself slipping into you in that moment. You gasp at the sensation, feeling like he filled you up more than usual as he reached unfamiliar places inside of you. Your walls wrapping around him causing him to lose his own breath as his chin rest on your shoulder. You can hear him trying to suppress his grunts.
”You look so beautiful yourself, you know?” He murmured in your ear. “Maybe later. I just want you right now…”
He wraps his arms around you, pulling you flush against his body. Your skin is hot to the touch, both of your faces incredibly red. He had never seen you so weak before as you struggle to gain composure as he struggles to keep his own. He was dumb to think you couldn't feel the other one against your ass.
"In that case," You reach behind him, a firm squeeze has him let out a loud moan as he swears as he can only feel you around his tip for a moment until he feels your arousal grace the other. "I want all of you."
He can help but let out a loud and pathetic moan as he feels you sink down on both of him. Your walls even tighter than before as he can hear you let out deep breaths. Seeing you in front of him, how you streched around him and how you were just sitting there not moving with your eyes closed, a pit developed in his stomach.
"A-are you okay?" He asked as shook.
You open your eyes with a smile before you hummed. You pulled him into a kiss, something he can't help go weak at especially feeling how your lips couldn't help but curl into a smile against his.
"I told you." You breathed. "You wouldn't hurt me."
You push him back on the mattress, unexpectedly. Your hands roam up his bare chest, your fingers grazing his sensitive nipples in a way that made him quiver as he lets out a sigh. He feels the way the pads of your finger run over them in a way he can't help but arch toward your touch as he moans softly. One of his arms flies over to cover his eyes as his cheeks become an even deeper shade of red. The scene of him like this beneath you is all too familar... You find yourself smiling at it. He still just as sensitive as that first night. He ca help but whine as he feels your tongue around one of his buds while the other remained between your fingertips. He could feel the sensation throughout his body, feeling a twitch from both of them inside of you which had you smiling against his chest.
Your hips finally rise, a sharp breath escapes his lips at the unanticipated lost around most of him. You look up at him as you slam your hips back down, his lip caught between his teeth as the skin goes white around it as he bites back a bubbling moan that anyone could've heard. The idea of being so filled with him drove you insane, only motivating you more with every movement of your hips meeting his own as you bite the supple parts of his neck and chest that turned a wine red in your wake, licking and kissing over them occasionally as you could feel the god beneath you struggle to keep his sounds of pleasure at bay. As your lips meet his own after what seems like over, he can't help but let out muffled whimpers and moans against them. The soft, velvet of your walls clenching around him every time you sunk back down onto him only made him more vocal as gasps and groans slipped from between both your lips ever so often. One of his hands was firmly planted on your waist, an occasional squeeze of your skin could be felt every time your hips lifted.
As you pull away just enough to observe Rafayel under you, you decide seeing the noises leave his chapped lips just wasn't enough without seeing the rest of his expression too. He was left dazed and confused as you suddenly pin the arm that cover his eyes to the bed. Your hand moves up to his own as you intertwine your fingers with his. Half-lidded eyes can barely focus on you as feel your skin met his tail as you gaze at him with a lovingly but mischievous stare.
Before he knows it, you’re nibbling at the skin just under his jaw that made him squirm. One hand placed on his shoulder is used for leverage and somehow, your pace is speeding up and he can’t help but thrash his head against the mattress as he grips your hand in his palm tighter. He opens his eyes for a moment, watching the way your breasts bounce as you rode him. The way your eyes occasionally rolled back as your mouth hung agape and a whimper escapes him. The softness of your skin under his, oh he was going crazy keeping parts of himself under control. He pouts as he feels you stop as you collaspe on his chest as his arms wrap around you immediately.
"I'm so tired already..." You sighed into his neck.
"We can stop-" He weakly spoke up.
"No." You said, firmly as you sat up to guide his hands down to your waist. "It's just your turn..."
"But..."
He was still terrified of hurting you above all else. You could sense the hesitation in his expression as he looked at you. It was something you couldn't help but find yourself smiling fondly at him as you leaned forward to leave loving kisses on his neck before stopping just below his ear.
”Just be a good boy and fuck me.” You chuckled, sensually.
A whimper escaped his throat at your words. You knew him a little well and how that never failed to get a reaction out of him. He lost it as his arms wrapped around your waist to hug you to his body. The sensation of your bare breast against his chest made him feel even closer to you as his hips didn’t hesitate to thrust up into you. You gasped at the sudden moment, fingernails digging into the skin of arms as he didn’t waste any time in increasing his pace inside of you. You bit his shoulder which caused him to moan, only making the snaps of his hips more relentless. He could feel the way you tighten as he reached deep inside you as you let out breathy chants of his name in his ear which only encouraged him more.
”You’re so good to me…” He breathed out. “Taking all of me so well…”
“Don’t… say things like that.” You manage to mutter out in between his thrusts.
”You like it.” He snickered as he nuzzled his nose in your neck. “You forget I can feel the way you clench around me at everything you like even better now.”
Your cheeks burned as you hid your face against his shoulder as all you could do was moan softly. However, that didn’t last long. In your weakened state, it was no trouble for him to push you up to sit on him, the familiar feeling of the smoothness of his tail hitting your legs once more. One hand held your waist to keep your upright as the other slid down in between your legs. You look at him, flushed with eyes half lidded that he can’t help but get harder at as you can feel a twitch from both of him inside of you. You mewl as his thumb brush against your sensitive bud at the same time he unconsciously bucks his hips into you.
Your hands flew to cover your mouth as his thumb starts to rub soft circular motions against your clit as you feel bury himself deeper inside of you. Your breasts bounced with each of his thrust, your face contorting in pleasure made him moan at the sight. He began to understand why you liked seeing the way you did.
“Oh, you look so pretty like this…” He sighed as he sits up.
His thumb only speeding up to match his hips as he licked up the skin of your chest, the saltiness from your sweat made him hum. His teeth sinking into the suppleness of your skin to create small marks of a deep purple color that’d remind you of him long after. He grunts as his hips start to falter against you. His arm now replaced his hand around your waist as he brought you closer to him. And suddenly, that facade he was putting on was gone in a flash as his forehead now rested against your chest as he whimpered to you.
“Can I come in you? Please, please, please!” He begged in a hushed, whiny tone.
You smiled, lazily as you pulled on the soft purple locks of his hair to get him to look at you. A moan leaves him at your actions before pouts, almost pleadingly as he holds on by a thread. You never said no to him, it’s not like you could.
“Always.” You say, breathily before your lips meet his.
His thrusts become even more intense and quick as a string of muffled moans slip from him that you swallow. The movements against your clit follow suit, feeling your own high approaching as you find yourself clenching around him. He pulls away, his head thrown back as he curses in Lemurian under his breath. His hips now slowing against you as you felt the familiarly warm, thick substance coat your walls. A soft moan leaving him as you chase your own high as you grind against him desperately. A rather high pitch but brief moan leaves you upon your own orgasm. You shake as your arms give out, collapsing onto his chest. The both of you are left panting and gasping. The feeling of him still inside you was almost a comfort. For some reason it just felt warm and right in the moment.
"I-I'm sorry." He apologized. "I made such a mess..."
Looking down inbetween you, you had only just realized how much he came but you guessed you should've know. It dripped down your thighs onto him, so much so barely anything could be seen. You giggled at the sight which left him confused.
"Such a good, sweet boy, Rafayel." You smiled as you ran a hand through his hair.
"You're going to make both of me hard again." He blushed.
"Maybe that's what I want." You teased.
He pouted for a moment though, you didn't expect the sudden emptiness inside of you as well as to find yourself laid out on your bed in the matter of seconds. All you could do was blink as your head hit the softness of your pillow. You looked toward the edge of the bed to find Rafayel crawling up to you, tail gone as you could see his thighs covered in his seed as he comes to rest between your legs.
"Aww..." You frowned. "I didn't get to really see it..."
"You act as if there won't be a next time." He laughed as he rolled his eyes. "Now, I need to clean up my mess."
He spreads your thighs apart even further, leaving kisses on the soft, sensitive skin that he'd lick over in the matter of seconds as he just continued upward. An all too familiar sight of blown out pupils as he looks up you.
Truthfully, you couldn’t recall any time you had woken up the next morning to feel parts of your body ache just a bit. Bite marks litter your skin, some in very visible spots that were practically impossible to hide. At first you felt anger until you felt the warmth radiate next to your body. Then your eyes laid upon his sleeping figure and something dissipated in you. Sunlight graced his skin, some marks from you now visible as he breaths softly. His eyelids twitch slight as his hair messily framed his face as you sighed. You reach over to move strands out of his face before leaving a kiss on his forehead. Anger with him was never an option.
His eyes flutter open to look at you. He sees your gentle smile as he awakes and its not long before he grabs your wrist to drag you back under the sheets. Your body pressed against his with his arms wrapped around your waist as his face is tucked into your neck. He inhales deeply, making your skin tickle at the sensation before he exhales, hugging you even tighter.
"You smell so good." He says, lowly, rubbing his nose against your neck which made you squirm in his embrace.
When you awoke again, he was gone despite a faint warmness gracing the sheets. You thought you'd see him later, but then everything went quiet. Sometimes you could hear a shuffling in the hall with faint whispers that chased over. Not even Algie came to check in on you which was out of the ordinary. Curiosity got the best of you as you opened your door to peek out into the hallway.
You swear you could see every servant there was making their way down the hall. Why was that? You walk down the corridor, an alarming amount of staff surronded the door at the very end. The shells that decorated the door frame was hint as to who's room it was as the hush whispered continued with no acknowledgement of your presence. All of a sudden, you see the blue girl come running at you as she drags you away.
"What's going on?" You asked.
"Uh.." She was stuck on her words as she avoided your gaze.
"Algie," You said. "Tell me, please. I'm not dumb I know that's Rafayel's room."
"It's... Ebb and Flow day for him."
You eyes widened. That was rather quick. No one the silence seemed so peculiar.
"I promised I'd help him." You blurted, drawn to the door but she quickly grabs you.
"No! You can't do that!" She whispered. "They don't know and they wouldn't even let you in."
"I'm not breaking that promise." You shook your head.
She groaned. Anyone could figure out you were stubborn but the girl was well aware how you worked and being with Rafayel only made it worse. She sent you back to your room and told she'd let you know when to come out. It felt like hours as you heard the movement of shuffling feet against the marble floor. Voices could be heard in the distance before they disappeared. An unexplainable silence fell once more and the air felt thick, the soft knock against the door causing it to disappate. You jumped up off the bed, the blue haired girl at the door to beckon you out. You apporached the decorated door once more, only then did you realize a lock in her hands.
"I have to ask, are you sure you want to do this?" She sighed. "I have to lock the door behind you which means you can't get out until tomorrow..."
"I told you already." You reminded her. "It's not like I haven't been in a locked room with him before."
She rolled her eyes at your remark, "I'll come get you first thing in the morning."
She opened the door as she quickly ushers you. As the door closes behind you, the light leaves the room. You can only see silhouettes in the dim lighting, the sound of lock closing startles you. The room looked rather deserted despite the mess of it. The slight movement of the sheets atop the bed caught your attention as you let out a sigh before you waled over. Heavy breathing could be heard under the cloth the closer you got. Gently, you pull back the sheets to find him sleeping. The scales on his skin seem to be more promiant than usual as the sparkle slightly. Your fingers run over his cheek, he groans in his sleep as he follows your touch. His eyes slowly opening to see you in front of him. He smiles weakly as his eyes close once more, his hand on your wrist now.
"You're here." He says, weakly. "Wait, no, you need to go..."
"Algie already locked me in." You informed him. "I'm not going anywhere. Even if there was a way out, I wouldn't leave you."
He pulled you on top of him, his face now buried in your chest as sharp, deep breath leave his throat. The softness of his hair brushes against you skin which each nuzzle. Heat radiated off his body onto yours. You didn't expect his tongue to run up your neck before you felt the nibble under you jaw. You try to pull away but he instantly pulls you back.
"Please..." He begged. "Share your warmth with me."
"You're burning up already." You gasped. "You're weak right now. I don't want you like this."
"You really didn't get to far into that book, did you?" He huffed.
Even though he was in a weaken state, his grip on you was desperate. He wouldn't let you go as he stared at you almost pleadingly to do what he asked. He pouted before exhaled shallow breaths. His guides your hand down his torso slowly, the moment it met his waistband, you tried to pull your hand back to no avail as his grip only tighten as he pulled you closer.
"Please." He pleaded to you. "I've been through this before. It aches... I just want to be close to you."
The look in his eyes were bitterly cold with a hint of weakness in them. Concern apparent in your own yet he didn't let go.
"You're curious, aren't you?" He asked. "Come closer if want to know."
"You're not in your right mind right now, Rafayel." You mumbled. "I don't want you to hate me later."
"Quite the contray." He huffed as he brings your hand up to his cheek, nuzzling into you palm. "The only difference is my mind is screaming my desires louder than before."
His tongue pokes out, licking the skin on your wrist before his eyes focus on you once more as he pants. Something more lustful in his eyes than ever before.
"You said you'd help me if I wanted." He reminded you. "Did you forget? Did you not mean it?"
You were at a lost for words as you sat in his lap, motionless. Conflicted with yourself as you try to say something to him.
"I need you... I always do." He confesses. "Fuck me, please."
Taken back by his words, you nod and before you know it, you're pulled flush against his body as his teeth sink into your neck. One of his hands now pressing down on your lower back as he grinds against you, feverishly. Sighs and grunts of pleasure escaping from between his lips as you could feel how hot his breath was. Reaching up, you grab a fistful of his hair, pulling him back to look at you once more as he whines.
"I'm still in control." You say, a sick smile appearing on his face as he only seems to become harder.
Yet, it didn't stay that way throughout the night. By the time dawn apporached you found yourself under him, both of your bodies covered in more bites and hickies than ever before as your legs wrapped around his waist as he fucks you into the mattress. Your lip held between your teeth as blush filled your cheeks, small mewls coming from you everytime his hips grinded against you so perfectly. His face buried in your neck but you could still feel the way his smiled with every groan. You remember warning him earlier about others hearing him, he paid no mind. Then you moaned a little too loud for your liking, feeling him twitch in between your walls.
"You can't do that." You gasped. "They're goning to hear me, then what?"
"Maybe that's what I want." He chuckled with a smirk. "I thought it was my turn. It's my turn to tell you what to do."
It never stayed that way. He ruts into you desperately as his melodic moans became hoarse and almost broken in your ear as he licked the sweat off your skin. Your hand wrapped around his neck, a choked grunt escaping as you bring him up to see him. His hips against yours becoming shorter and more frequent at the squeeze around his neck he sighs at. His eyes barely able to stay open from the pleasure as they rolled back with the tilt of his head. His arms shook beside you, sweat dripping from his skin as he falters. Soft moans of his name rolled off your neck that made him even weaker. His grip on your waist tighten before he becomes more erractic as he falls foward on your chest.
"Mine... All mine... You're mine." He groans into your ear.
A small whine comes from at his words as you unintentionally clench around him. He whimpers at the sensation, losing all composure as he brings you against him, filling you completely with himself before he falls apart. His cum once again coating your thighs as he lazily bucks against you as he finishes inside of you.
"I love you... I love you..." He uttered as he nuzzled against your chest
You froze, familar with how he sounded when he came, this was new. Your arms almost immediately wrapping around him. A wave washed over, not one most would have expect but still a pleasurable one. Before you could say anything, you found he was already fast asleep against you. You sigh, knowing the sun would be up once again soon. You take a moment just to enjoy the warmth of his body on you that no longer burned to the touch. You place a small kiss on top of his head.
There was a hope he'd wake up before Algie came to get you... Apart of you felt dread hearing that lock become undone as he laid there with no sign of waking up anytime soon. You were almost hesitant to leave the room but which each second the light came closer. You gave him once last kiss on the head before quickly exiting.
The sun was high in the sky by the time he awoke. Rather dazed and confused as he opened his eyes, he looked around. The sheets rubbed against his bare skin as he looks down at his body covered with bites and hickies from you. He takes a deep breathe as he sat up in his bed, recalling everything despite the intense bluriness of it all. He blurted those words to you as such a time that seemed ingenuine... He scolded himself for that even as he gets ready for the rest of the day.
As he steps into the hall, he notices the blue haired girl carrying some laundry.
"Oh, Algie!" He called before he cleared his throat. "Can you have my follower meet me at the temple this evening?"
She looked the God up and down, evidence from hours before poking out from underneath his garments. He pulls at his shawl as he blushes. She had never seen him as anything but powerful and composed. She tried to suppress a smile as she nodded.
"I'll let her know, your quintessence."