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I was talking to my friend about how I used to ship weird shit and I was like "Oh, I'll go on my ex's wattpad account because maybe she has those old rps that we did!"
Yeah uhm big mistake
I was like "she has a strawpage?? Whatever bet it looks like shit hehe"
number one it was actually very well made
number two she had a list of characters that she liked and I was scrolling down it like "yeah, whatever this game is... yeah... yeah..."
THEN I SCROLL DOWN AND THE FIRST ALGEBRALIEN AND BFDI CHARACTER AS A WHOLE SHE HAS IS FUCKING FOUR
AND THE CAPTION WAS "he's literally me literally me"
And I was sending a silly voice message to my friend hold on let me quote some of it
"NO GET FOUR OFF OF YOUR FUCKING PAGE- NO YOU'RE NOT GOING TO-"
and that's the part i started crying 😰
Uhhmmmm soooo yeah crying over Four was not on my 2024 bucket list but hey it happened. And when I say I cry over things I mean I was close to crying but NO THIS TIME ACTUAL TEARS WERE SHED
I'm pretty sure it was a trauma response I'm gonna be so fr because I was looking at her shit and oml she has NOT changed at all it's SCARY it's like I was just a fucking pawn to her god damn
I didn't even mean to stalk her! I just wanted to revisit a part of my cringy past that I had with her but she deleted it anyways because of course she would!!!
Here comes another chapter of the idea of healing 😔