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Jakes POV
I’m awoken by my alarm. I turn it off and lay on the bed contemplating. Contemplating if I should get up, should I shower, should I brush my teeth. These seem like such simple things. Except I’m so tired. And I don’t know why. I could blame it on this situation with Johnnie but he didn’t ask for this to happen.
I rest my eyes and think for a little bit. Finally getting up and going to the bathroom and getting ready. I take a shower, brush my teeth, and get dressed. And I lastly use the cologne Johnnie loves. I get the stuff he wanted and head out the door.
The drive is once again silent, weirdly silent. I hate it. I really hate it. I stop by Starbucks and get him stuff he likes. I finally reach the hospital and sign in and head towards his room. I open the door quietly and he’s sleeping so peacefully. I place the stuff I brought for him on the table and sit down in the chair beside his bed. I kiss his forehead and admire him. He looks beautiful even when he’s sleeping. How his hair is still in a side part even though the rest of his hair is messy. How his eyeliner is still on. Just absolutely beautiful. I sigh loudly at the thought.
His eyes start to flutter. Oh shit I woke him up. His eyes open and he looks at me.
“Hey baby.”
“Hey.” He says hoarsely, rubbing his eyes.
“How’d you sleep.” I say scooting my chair closer to his bed.
“I slept pretty good.” He says forcing a smile.
“That’s really good baby.”
He nods
“I brought you some stuff.”
“You did.”
I get up and get the breakfast and drinks I brought for him.
“Your so sweet Jake.” He says sipping on the coffee Jake handed to him.
“You don’t want the sandwich.” I say my voice filled with concern.
“I’m just not hungry. Food makes me nauseous.” He says still groggy from waking up.
“Oh ok.” I say my smile slightly dropping.
It’s not that I was sad. But I thought bringing Johnnie stuff he likes would make him feel better.
“Have they been treating you well.”
“I guess. I just wanna go home.” He says his voice somber. I hate seeing him like this.
“You’re gonna be home soon baby.” I say putting his hand in mine. His hand holding tightly to mines.
“Trust me.” I say looking at his beautiful blue eyes. Their heavenly. They’re like a slice of heaven if I say so myself.
“Your so sweet. But your staring a little bit.” He says a smile forming upon his face.
“It worked.”
“What worked?”
“I made you smile.” I haven’t seen a genuine smile from Johnnie in forever.
He attempts to say something but laughs instead.
I also haven’t heard him laugh in a while.
We laugh and talk about our day until we’re interrupted by a knock on the door.
Johnnies POV
“Hi, it’s me Ann. I have your breakfast. And also I’m here to remind you that you have a MRI scheduled at 9:00.” She says placing the breakfast on my bedside table.”
“Thanks.”
“Do you need anything by chance?”
“I’m good but thanks.”
She smiles and walks out the room.
“Jake your doing that face.”
“What face?” He says looking down at the floor.
“The face that you knew something beforehand and didn’t tell me.”
“Well uh. So I knew since yesterday but I didn’t wanna overwhelm you.” He says fiddling with his hands.
“You know I hate when you don’t tell me stuff.”
Jakes POV
“Really I wanted to tell you. It’s just that you’ve been going through a lot the past couple days. And I didn’t wanna scare you.” I say feeling guilty as ever.
“What else did they say.” His voice stern.
“Nothing.” God I’m such an awful liar. I wish I could tell him. But I wouldn’t want someone to tell me that I might have a brain tumor. When it’s not even official.
“Ok.” I can tell he doesn’t believe me.
“I’m gonna take a shower.”
“Do you need help? Remember your on fall risk.”
“Nope, I don’t need help from a liar.” He says hurt lingering in his voice. As he stands up.
Im shocked how could he say such a thing.
“Well your a little bratty.” I say jokingly laughing it off.
He glances at me and walks toward the restroom. That bitch meant what he said.
I look at my phone it’s 8:40. I have 73 missed messages. Oh my. They’re all from my friends and family asking about Johnnie, and pictures of him they saw online. I don’t have time to deal with this. I lean back into the chair closing my eyes. Until I hear Johnnie voice.
“Jake I forgot my towel.”
I get up and fetch the towel and walk to the bathroom door leaning against it.
“Say that again, I didn’t hear you.” I say sarcastically.
“Just give me the towel Jake.”
“What’s the magic word?”
“Please.” He says grumpily.
“Can you say that a little nicer.”
“Please!”
“Of course love why didn’t you say it sooner.” I say handing him the towel through the crack in the door.
I walk back to my seat and rest my eyes.
Johnnies POV
God why was I so mean to Jake. I wasn’t trying to be rude. I think to myself as I put on my clothes.
I walk out the bathroom door and into the room. Sitting back on my bed.
“I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to be mean.” I say directing my gaze at him.
“It’s okay. You’re going through a lot. I get it.” He says embracing me a hug rubbing circles on my back.
Our hug is interrupted once again when I hear a knock on the door. It must be Ann.
Ann walks in with a wheelchair. God I really don’t wanna get in that thing. “Hi, i’m here to take you to get your MRI. Your friend can come with us too.” She says giving Jake a welcoming smile.
I get in the chair and she rolls me to the room Jake following too. As we go through the hallway, I realize there’s people who’s nurses are also pushing them, who look pretty fucking awful. I would hate to look like that.
We reach the room. Or two rooms actually. One room has this big machine, and one room has computers and chairs. Before going into the room. I put a hospital gown on and take my jewelry off.
I walk to the machine with Ann it’s quite huge. To me it looks like a huge circle.
“First your gonna have to lay flat on the bed.” She says pointing to it.
I climb onto the bed. The motion of getting on the bed making me dizzy.
“Now I’m gonna give you a shot. This will help us see you better in the scans.” She says sanitizing a spot my arm and giving me a shot.
“And now I’m gonna but a sheet over you and a ring like circle over your head.” She places a sheet on me from my toes to my waist and put this weird circle thing over my head. She lastly gives me a ball connected to a cord.
“The ball is for you to alert us if anything is wrong. And lastly you have to stay very still the entire time.”
“Ok.”
She presses a button. The button causing me to move into the machine. I feel kinda dizzy and kinda claustrophobic. But I’ll be okay.
I close my eyes it makes me feel calmer.
(15 Minutes Pass)
I hear a voice. It’s Ann.
“The scans are over. I’m gonna take you out now.” She walks over to the machine pressing a button which makes me slide out the machine.
“You did really good. But are you okay, you look a little pale.”
“I’m good.” I lied. I wasn’t good. My head was hurting horribly.
She takes the sheet off and the weird circle thing over my head. She lends out her hand and helps me off the bed now standing. God I feel awful. I walk a couple steps until I don’t. My vision starts blur and my head starts spinning. And suddenly I’m on the floor.
Jakes POV
I’m in the other room. Sitting down in a chair waiting for Johnnie to finish his scan. He doesn’t look good. I see him walking towards the room until he falls seizing. I run into the room hearing Ann shouting “Code Blue, Code Blue!” Nurses come running into the room.
“Get him out of here.” Ann says making my heart break.
“But no. I need to help him!” I say a nurse taking me out the room.
“Your friend will be alright.” She says.
“Fuck! That’s not my friend he’s my fucking boyfriend!” I say angrily.
“I’m sorry I didn’t know your relationship status.” She says looking like she’s on the verge of tears.
“Oh fuck I’m sorry.”
“I have to go back.” She says quickly going back into the other room.
I can’t see Johnnie anymore just tons of nurses surrounding him.
Ann’s POV
I’ve dealt with seizures before as a nurse. But I think this might be one of the worst I’ve seen. His entire body is convulsing. His back throws him around, his arms are locked in place and trembling, and his legs kicked out.
We laid him on his side. And gave him some Phenytoin hoping his seizure will calm down quickly.
He’s making gurgling sounds as he trashes his head back. The gurgling sounds slightly sound a little different now more like choking sounds. His convulsions intensify causing him to fall on his back.
His seizing is coming up on 4 minute’s. He starting to calm down leaving only his face twitching. It’s an awful site to see something like this. It sticks with you forever.
He stopped seizing. Now just groaning with glazed eyes. We place him on the gurney and head back to his room.
Jakes POV
I see him come out the room. He doesn’t look good. I walk with them toward his room.
“Can you please stay out here for a little bit. We need to do some evaluations.” A nurse says.
“Yeah sure.”
I sit on a bench scared out of my mind. I thought this whole seizure thing was over. I see the nurses walk out the room.
“Your welcome to come into the room. We gave him some seizure and nausea medication. He’ll probably be sleeping for a while. He might be tired or nauseous if so, just reach out.” She says.
“Thank you.”
The nurses walk away and i walk into his room. He’s hooked up to these two IV drips. He looks so tired.
I sit next to his bed and hold his hand in mine. I wish he would’ve told me that he wasn’t feeling well. This whole thing could have possibly been prevented. God Johnnies so stubborn sometimes.
I lay my head on his bed while holding his hand. I love him so much but i’m tired, so tired.