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"...Hey, mom?"
"What?" My mom replied, looking back at me with a frown.
"Are you sure this is a good idea?" I asked softly. "I mean, us...leaving. Starting over. It's just...I'm...scared. Not so much for myself, or...everything that's working against us, but...Beomsun..."
I bit my lip, clutching my phone that housed the QR code for a plane ticket. A one way route to Australia. One for me, one for my sleeping son in my dad's arms.
"He doesn't even speak English, mom. I'm just...scared that he won't be able to adapt to Australia. He just started kindergarten, just started making friends, and...he doesn't even know we're never coming back. It's just..." I trailed off, my eyes falling.
"This is what's best for all of us, Felix. We need to get out of this country. Bad thing after bad thing has happened since you came here for college. You got hurt by some random man, you got so sick during your accidental pregnancy that you almost died, and now? You're on crutches for the next two months at best because one of your supposed mates pushed you down the stairs and didn't even help you back up. We're done here. We don't need to be here anymore. It's easiest for us all if we just forget that we ever even came back to Korea. We should've stayed in Australia. I'm sure you can find a job there that you'll love, sweetheart. And we can work together to get Beomsun started on English. It's about time he learned it anyway. Okay? Don't worry so much. Your father and I will take care of everything. We'll make sure that you never have to see those men again. Alright?"
... I don't know if that's what I want, honestly .
But...
It had already been a month. I had blocked all of my old mate's numbers, and had been staying with my parents so they couldn't pop up with the keys I gave them. I quit my job at the school and unenrolled Beomsun...leaving myself with no options to see them unless I tried to.
And...the moment that I voiced my regrets about going missing to my mom, well...
My eyes drifted out the window of a plane, as it began to take off. Watching as the runway passed, before I took in a deep breath.
It's too late.
Impulse decision or not...
This is what's best for Beomsun and I.
Even if he will never believe me on that.
Even if I'll never believe myself.
I loved them so much.
But...
There's only so much pain I can endure for them.
I can't go back.
So...
I'll just...try and make a new life in Australia.
And try my best to forget what it felt like to love someone.
As well as to be loved.
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~Chan's POV~
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How silent can one house be?
Five of us all sat together, curled up in Hyunjin's bed. Our two omegas, Jisung and Jeongin, both softly crying as they cuddled, huddled together in the nest that Felix had left. Hyunjin was holding a beer can--one that he'd taken from Minho before our struggling mate could even dare resort back to his alcoholic tendencies. Though Hyunjin had ended up drinking the foul beverage himself, as Minho and Hyunjin both stared blankly towards the wall. Eyes beadier than usual as they must have ran out of tears. And me?
I felt dead inside, as I could finally feel myself losing my one last connection to Felix. My biological need to hold my marked omega was fading, as the month my mark lasted was passing by.
The need was supposed to be gone too.
And yet, why do I still feel like I have a massive hole in my heart?
Why do I still feel like crying?
I guess, a part of me just wished that I wouldn't have to feel this pain anymore once my bite on Felix's neck had faded. It felt more and more like wishful thinking by the second though, as I was sure that my mark was gone from the omega's neck now.
I've lost all of my ties to him.
And I don't even know why.
Felix has truly abandoned us.
And...
I wish...at this point...
...That I had never met him.
So that my heart could have never been toyed with.
Though I knew anyway.
The rest of my life would be haunted by those last words he spoke to me.
'I love you'.
...Like I never even mattered to him.
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