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I stay in bed for the next hour or so thinking of all the possible outcomes that can happen if I go to school. Then it hit me. What if Rob wanted to take my place? If he did, would he do a better job at being me? This question stayed in my head until the alarm went off. I turn it off as Darwin opens his eyes. He immediately notices that I'm not okay.
"Are you okay gumball?" Darwin asked.
"Nah, I'm gonna stay home today" I responded.
"You can't just do that!" Darwin said.
"I know, but rob is after me again." I continued.
"What makes you say that?" Darwin asked.
"I had a dream and it might be a message." I answered.
Darwin obviously looked concerned for me. I don't know if he thinks I'm crazy, or if he's actually scared of the idea that Rob is after me again. I go downstairs to tell mom.
"Mom? I'm not going to school, I need to hide and stay safe." I said.
She sighs in disappointment. She takes a sip of her coffee and then sighs again.
"Gumball, I don't need excuses for you not to go to school." She groaned.
"But I'm serious! Somebody is out for me!" I said.
"Are you being picked on?" Mom asked.
"No, I mean they wanna kill me." I answered.
"Then we gotta call the police dear." She said
"WHAT?! YOU CAN'T! HE'LL BE MAD!" I screamed.
Mom then turns to look at me. She looks as concerned as Darwin was. I ignore it. They definitely think I'm crazy. Rob and I haven't really talked to each other in a while. So I wouldn't blame them.
"Fine, you could stay home but JUST THIS ONCE!" Mom said.
"Thanks mom!" I said going up the stairs.
I enter the bedroom and get back on the bed. I need to fully process the dream. It takes me a few minutes, just laying in bed, staring. I see Darwin get on the bus from out the window. Thats when I fully processed everything.
He thinks I'm a waste of space.
Of course Rob would think that. He's my nemesis! But I'm not a waste of space! There's no way he knows what he's doing. I'm no "sorry excuse of a son."
I mean, I don't really follow the rules but still. I still treat my parents with respect, right? I'm not really sure about that. I always do things behind their backs. I also don't respect my teacher enough! Or is that me just being a kid?
But what about penny? How well do I treat her? Yeah, I overreact sometimes but she still loves me after all this time. Unless she's only forcing herself to.
How about Anais and Darwin? I obviously don't treat anais well. But what about Darwin? I immediately think of the times I seem to brush him off or treat him like my sidekick.
Oh my god. I'm a horrible person to those around me. And I wonder why not much people love me. Some people only SEEM to love me just because they have to. Why didn't I notice this? I can't really blame Rob if he really views me that way. Which he probably does. That dream was so obviously a sign.
Oh my god, I'm rethinking everything about my life and how people must see me. I always thought people just let me do what I do because it didn't affect them so much. But now I realize that in my story I'm no hero, I'm a villian. A villian who hurts everyone around him because he thinks its so funny.
From now on, when I go to school I have to see what people REALLY think of me. I need to take a close look. And I need to see how I need to change.
But maybe it is too late. And I've already done enough damage.
I start crying. How did I just realize this now? If only I found this out earlier! Would it be better if Rob replaced me? Am I just an excuse of a son?
I decided to go on the computer and scroll on whatever is on the internet for the rest of the day. I don't know if I'm gonna talk to anyone at the moment. What if I say something bad? But the silent treatment really isn't any better. Is there ANYTHING I can do to stop being such an awful person?
Or am I just born that way?