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The Calm Before the Storm

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Taehyun should have known. He should have been smart enough to know that relationships inside a group will never work, not when your group mates are close to each other all the time and you would never know when they would start catching feelings for each other.

It was all obvious and on clear display that his boyfriend had started to lose interest in him and instead like one of their group mates, he should have noticed that from the very moment his boyfriend started to turn down his requests for dates and fun hangouts.

But still, he chose to be a blind fool and ignore all the signs that they were never bound to become one. Maybe it has all been in his head.

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Taehyun should have known. He should have been smart enough to know that relationships inside a group will never work, not when your group mates are close to each other all the time and you would never know when they would start catching feelings for each other.

 

It was all obvious and on clear display that his boyfriend had started to lose interest in him and instead like one of their group mates, he should have noticed that from the very moment his boyfriend started to turn down his requests for dates and fun hangouts.

 

But still, he chose to be a blind fool and ignore all the signs that they were never bound to become one. Maybe it has all been in his head.

 

But how can one know when their relationship has ended when their partner still continues to show them love, even if it’s different than what it used to be?

 

How was he supposed to know Beomgyu’s feelings had disappeared for him when the older boy still continued to treat him like a rare gem?

 

So maybe it wasn’t entirely his fault.

 

×

 

“Bye Huening~” Taehyun bid his farewell to Hueningkai as he exited the apartment and walked towards his bike.

 

Oh yes, his bike, the same one his dear, precious Beomgyu hyung had bought for him on his birthday, last year.

 

Taehyun had promised the boy to always ride the bike and think of Beomgyu.

 

How lovely, isn’t it?

 

He caressed the bike as he started riding towards the destination he had in mind while humming one of their group’s songs, but before that, he made sure to wear a mask and cover most of his face with his hoodie.

 

After all, he was a member of the very famous group, Tomorrow by Together.

 

He looked around with his big, doe eyes shining like a piece of diamond and observed the normal people around him, doing normal things and saying normal things.

 

“I missed this feeling of being able to blend in with others…” he sighed and shook his head, it was not like he didn’t like his life now either.

 

His phone rang and he looked at the contact, it read ‘Gyu hyungie’.

 

A smile appeared on his face and his eyes turned into little crescent shapes. If he didn’t have his mask on, who knows how many would fall in love with his adorable face.

 

Hyunie, I’m waiting

 

Don’t rush, I need you here in one piece, hihi

 

A giggle left his mouth and without realizing it, his cheeks turned a bright pink color.

 

‘God, why am I feeling so exhilarated?!!?’

 

Taehyun continued the path he was on until he reached somewhere that looked like…

 

“A beach? Why would hyung want me to come here?”

 

He shrugged and got off the bike, making sure it was locked and in a secure place.

 

He walked until he saw someone standing in the middle of the beach with his phone in his hand, he recognized him as Beomgyu.

 

“Hyung!” he shouted and waved his hands and as soon as the latter saw him, he did the same.

 

Taehyun ran to where Beomgyu was standing and suddenly he felt his foot hit something and he fell on his face.

 

“Oww! This son of a-” he stopped before cursing and saw Beomgyu laughing his ass off at him.

 

He looked to his side to see the thing he tripped on was Beomgyu’s guitar.

 

“Couldn’t you put it somewhere else?? I almost bruised my foot!” he whined and stood up, not forgetting to smack Beomgyu on his shoulder.

 

“Sorry, sorry, didn’t know you were that sensitive” 

 

Beomgyu laughed and Taehyun glared at him but his glare disappeared soon enough and he laughed too.

 

“Why did you call me here? Oh! Do you want to drown me?!!”

 

Taehyun gasped and put his palm on his mouth while pointing at Beomgyu, but that made the older crack up even more.

 

“Hey, stop!”

 

Beomgyu yelled as Taehyun started punching his arm repeatedly, the boy has really gotten stronger.

 

A few minutes later, when both had calmed down, Beomgyu held Taehyun’s hand and guided him closer to the sea, his guitar in his hand too.

 

They sat side by side and didn’t speak.

 

Taehyun’s eyes wandered to where Beomgyu was holding his hand so soft and gentle, and his face heated up.

 

He then looked at Beomgyu who was admiring the view in front of them.

 

Taehyun’s eyes lingered on Beomgyu’s face for a while.

 

The boy in front of him looked so pretty, even without makeup on. His eyes looked dreamy, Taehyun doesn’t think he has ever seen eyes as beautiful as his hyung’s. Then came his nose, his oh so sharp and tall nose which everyone died to have. And lastly, his lips, those lips that Taehyun wanted to lock with his own and-

 

“Take a picture, it’ll last longer”

 

Beomgyu chuckled when he saw Taehyun’s face turn red and pinched his cheek.

 

“You are cute, hyun”

 

“Whatever”

 

Taehyun rolled his eyes and turned his face to his side, not knowing how to look at Beomggyu again after being caught staring at him like he was a fice course meal.

 

“I prepared something for you” 

 

Beomgyu’s words stopped his train of thoughts and he looked back only to see Beomgyu with his guitar in his hand.

 

He watched as Beomgyu’s fingers traveled through each string and out came a beautiful melody, Taehyun thought he was in heaven for a second.

 

Beomgyu cleared his throat and started to sing. Taehyun just looked at him with his heart pounding in his chest so loudly he was scared everyone could hear it.

 

Like water in the desert 

Impossible to find 

You found me when I was broken 

Put me back together, gave me life

 

Like a flower in the concrete

So beautiful and rare

You gave me hope when I was empty

Walked me through the fire, you were there

 

You're the sun to the moon

You're my ocean, painted blue

You, I'm nothing without you

(Without you, without you)

 

Like an angel in a nightmare

You opened up my eyes

Looking in all the wrong places

You're the one I needed this whole time

 

“You’re the sun to the moon” 

 

Beomgyu’s eyes lit up when he heard Taehyun sing along with him.

 

“You’re my ocean painted blue” 

 

This time, both of them sang together.

 

“I’m nothing without you”

 

At the last phrase, Beomgyu put his guitar on the sand and moved closer to Taehyun.

 

Taehyun watched as Beomgyu moved his hands to his face and cupped it in his hands.

 

“Taehyun, will you-” he started but taehyun cut in between,

 

“Yes!” 

 

A smile crept up to Beomgyu's face and he leaned in closer, so close he could count each one of Taehyun’s eyelashes and could see the world from Taehyun’s eyes.

 

 With a nod from Taehyun, he leaned in fully until their lips touched.

 

Taehyun’s hands crawled to the back of Beomgyu’s neck and pulled Beomgyu closer.

 

Their lips were now pressed together, so Beomgyu took that as a chance to move his lips.

 

Lips against lips, hands on their skin, the cold spring breeze and the sound of the ocean.

 

Everything was just perfect.

 

Too perfect for Taehyun’s little head that he managed to get his heart pulled out and stepped on.

 

Once they pulled out, Beomgyu still held Taehyun’s cheek and he whispered,

 

“I love you, be my boyfriend, Taehyun”

 

Taehyun hummed and leaned in again, and they let the ocean waves take them with itself and show them the beautiful world of love.

 

But an angry storm is always there to mess up the ocean and kill all it has within it.

 

×

 

“Should we tell the others?” Taehyun asked later that night when the two were cuddling on Beomgyu’s bed.

 

“Mm, I don’t know, but let’s just let them figure it out by themselves, it will be fun to see their shocked faces. '' Beomgyu muttered sleepily and pulled Taehyun closer, using him as a pillow.

 

“You are so mean, but I want to see it”

 

Days after days passed and the love between the two grew bigger.

 

They went on dates in their free time, kissed each other while no one was looking, held hands during their lives, gave each other gifts and made love when no one was in the dorm.

 

Perhaps things were going too fast, that’s why the storm hit them sooner, even before they had their first year anniversary.

 

A storm never cares about who or when it hits, it just lets itself be dragged and destroys everything.

 

×

 

“Beomgyu hyung!” Taehyun exclaimed when he saw the latter sitting on the couch with his phone in his hand.

 

“Hey baby, what’s up?” Beomgyu responded and patted the place beside him, signaling Taehyun to sit down.

 

“I was thinking what if we go out today since we don’t have any schedule?” he asked.

 

Beomgyu put his phone down and turned to Taehyun, seeming to be nervous.

 

“I really would love to, but me and Kai-ah are having a fun night tonight, he said we haven’t spent too much time lately, sorry”

 

Taehyun was taken aback at that.

 

Sure, he would love for his members to be close to each other and all, but did Kai have to ask Beomgyu tonight out of all other nights?

 

Nothing special was happening that night, but he really wanted to have some time with his boyfriend after the hectic and busy week they had.

 

“Of course, can I join too?”

 

“Sorry baby, but I wanted to spend time with him, he seems a bit stressed lately, I hope you understand that” 

 

“You’re right, have fun!” 

 

Beomgyu smiled and opened his arms wide for Taehyun to crawl in and then the two cuddled on the couch.

 

And soon enough, Taehyun forgot about their conversation, all that mattered now was to be held by Beomgyu and rest a bit.

 

But that wasn’t the only time Beomgyu turned him down.

 

Slowly over time, their time spent together decreased and instead Beomgyu’s attention turned to Hueningkai.

 

Of course it wasn't Hueningkai's fault, how was he supposed to know the two are dating??

 

“Hyung, where are you going?”

 

Taehyun asked when he saw Beomgyu put on his jacket and leave the room.

 

“Oh, um, me and Kai are working on a song”

 

Taehyun stood up from his bed and walked up to Beomgyu, patted his hoodie and then looked up to the older.

 

Taehyun tiptoed a bit to reach Beomgyu’s face and was about to kiss him when Beomgyu held out his hand and stopped him.

 

“Not now, baby. We can mess around later, I’m running late”

 

Beomgyu walked out of the room and Taehyun just stood there, dumbfounded.

 

“M-mess around?”

 

Did his boyfriend seriously think he wanted to mess around ? Even knowing that the last time they kissed was two weeks ago? 

 

Taehyun’s legs wobbled and before he knew it, he fell to the ground.

 

His eyes welled up with tears and he let the crystals run down his cheeks.

 

What exactly happened? Did he do something to make Beomgyu mad? Is he getting too affectionate with his own boyfriend? Or, 

 

Is Beomgyu getting tired of this relationship?

 

He shook his head, trying to get the thought out of his head.

 

‘No! Hyung would never do that, imagine how hurt he would be when he finds out I think this about him, no, no no! Get a grip Kang Taehyun!’

 

He scolded himself mentally but still didn’t let the thought run free.

 

More tears ran down his face and he screamed, so it wasn’t much of a surprise when the door opened and a worried Yeonjun ran to him.

 

“Taehyunie, what’s wrong?” he asked as he pulled Taehyun in a tight hug and drew circles on his back to comfort him.

 

“Baby, calm down, everything is alright, hyung is here”

 

He closed his eyes and sobbed quietly, the nickname helped him a bit, after all that’s what Beomgyu always calls him.

 

Once he calmed down, he told Yeonjun everything. From the two dating to Beomgyu slowly ignoring him.

 

“Well, first of all, I didn’t know you were dating, but that doesn’t matter now, baby. What he is doing is not right and you are hurt from it, but I’m sure he has his reasons, he and Huening are close friends so they are probably spending time because of that” Yeonjun assured him while he ran his fingers in Taehyun’s hair.

 

“I know but he doesn’t even spend time with me, his boyfriend! And everytime he is doing something with Hyuka! He thinks I want to kiss him because I want something to happen between us and I’m NOT okay with that, does he think I’m some sort of slut-”

 

“Okay, stop. I’m sure he doesn’t think of you like that, Taehyunie. Talk with him when he gets back and you can talk to me later too if you want, okay? Now please rest for a bit” 

 

Yeonjun kissed the top of his head and tucked him in his bed and left him wondering.

 

When did things get this bad? 

 

He turned to his side and closed his eyes, praying for Beomgyu to come home sooner so that they can sort it out, of course, if he doesn’t have to do something with Kai, like always.

 

×

 

“Taehyun, are you awake?” Beomgyu called him as he caressed his cheek.

 

He opened his eyes slowly and yawned, but once his eyes were fully open, he jumped on Beomgyu and hugged him.

 

“I missed you, hyung,” he whispered.

 

“I-I need to talk to you about something, do you have time?”

 

Oh… 

 

All the confidence that Taehyun had now vanished.

 

What did Beomgyu want to talk to him about? 

 

“I- yeah sure, I have time”

 

Beomgyu nodded and sat next to him.

 

“I want you to stay calm, okay? We don’t want hyungs and Huening to wake up.”

 

Taehyun nodded, his cheeks warmed up, are they going to mess around as Beomgyu called it?

 

“I think we should end it here.” Beomgyu’s voice came and Taehyun felt his heart shatter to pieces.

 

End it all? Break up? 

 

“W-what? Are you okay hyung? Ohhh! It’s our anniversary! You are good at jokes, hyung!” he laughed but deep down all he wanted to do was scream at how pathetic he sounded.

 

“No, Taehyun, I mean it… I’ve been wanting to tell you this for a long time but I couldn’t.”

 

Beomgyu paused to take a deep breathe, and then continued,

 

“I have been hanging out with Kai a lot these days and I like him, he likes me too-”

 

“I like Huening too…”

 

Beomgyu shook his head at Taehyun’s words.

 

“No, I mean it as in we love each other, Taehyun, and we talked about it too, we want to be together, be each others”

 

But weren’t Beomgyu and Taehyun supposed to be each other's? Wasn’t that what both of them promised each other each night? To be together ‘til the end of the world?

 

But Taehyun still doesn’t want to give up on their love, even if Beomgyu has already done it.

 

“The three of us can be together, I-I can try to love Kai romantically too… I still love you and I know you do too, hyungie…”

 

“No, no listen. I don’t want the three of us to be together, just me and Kai. Taehyunie, I’m sorry but I’ve lost feelings for you, from the night I kissed Kai-”

 

The storm hit Taehyun hard and he didn’t have any protection, so he wasn’t prepared for Beomgyu’s words.

 

Taehyun’s body started to shake uncomfortably and his eyes glistened with tears, he tried to reach out for Beomgyu’s hands but the latter pushed his hands away.

 

“Y-you kissed him? Behind my back?”

 

“Look, I-I’m sorry, I really am. We were drunk and I promised myself to not do it again, but I kind of liked the kiss, so we decided to give it a go when we were both sober. A-and, I wanted more of it, I wanted more of Kai.”

 

Taehyun shook his head and tried to get rid of the tear, but they still left his eyes and wet his face.

 

All the times that he thought of Beomgyu, wanted him to spend time with him, kiss him, tell him that he loves him, all these times, his boyfriend was kissing someone else behind his back.

 

And not just anyone, it was one of his close friends and group members.

 

And now he was admitting to all that.

 

“So you cheated on me? That’s why you didn’t even kiss me anymore, you didn’t hold my hand or slept with me, that’s why Hueningkai was sleeping with you all nights-”

 

“No, I didn’t cheat, not-not like that-”

 

“Hyung, Stop lying! Did I really not mean anything to you? You just saw me as a slut who only wants you to touch him? I fucking let you take my virginity! I let you fuck me so many times and you still cheated!!” 

 

He yelled and threw his hands in the air, ready to scream for Yeonjun and Soobin to come and scold Beomgyu, but Beomgyu quickly held his mouth with his hand and stopped him from making any more noises.

 

He let tears run down his face and onto Beomgyu’s hand, he wanted Beomgyu to feel just how much he broke him, to know that Taehyun loved him, still does.

 

“Don’t yell! Taehyun, I don’t want this relationship to continue, I don’t love you like that anymore and I can’t force myself to do either, please understand!”

 

He looked at Beomgyu who was still holding his mouth shut, and for a second their eyes met each other.

 

Taehyun watched the color and happiness from Beomgyu’s eyes fade and now his eyes were just empty, the same eyes who looked at him with love and treated him like he was on top of the world.

 

And now those same eyes are looking at him with pain in them.

 

“Sorry, I-I didn’t mean to do that” 

 

Beomgyu let his hands fall to his side and instead, he pulled Taehyun in a hug.

 

“I loved you alot and I know just how much you hate me right now, but I can’t choose who I fall for and who I lose feelings for. I had the greatest time with you and I never regretted being in love with you. I’m sorry that I was your first in everything, your first boyfriend, first kiss, and first break up. Taehyunie, let’s continue as friends, and act like nothing happened, not this night or any other night we spent together, okay?”

 

Beomgyu had tears in his eyes but he held back from crying, he didn’t have any rights to do so, Taehyun was the one who was broken, not him.

 

They stayed like that, with Beomgyu’s arms wrapped around Taehyun but not Taehyun hugging him back.

 

And he understood that. Taehyun had every right not to want to be near him.

 

“Can you kiss me one last time?” Taehyun asked, but Beomgyu pulled out of the hug and walked out of the room.

 

The storm can really damage a ship, and who was Taehyun to not get his boat broken to pieces?

 

And at last, the ocean will engulf Taehyun in a hug and pull him down until he is far too deep in the ocean to be saved.