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ACT I : i met you upon a lucky star.
i wonder if my life would be meaningful to anyone knowing it isn't to me, do people ever even think about it? who are we but a tiny little bit of space in the world, why do others make themselves this gigantic existence when in the end ; we are none.
i, for one, isn't a god nor any kind of magical being with otherworldly powers. and yet people still paint me as not human, but perhaps are they right for what does being human really mean? maybe being mortal is it, being graced with emotions perhaps, being allowed to make mistakes?
if so, what am i, in definitive who am i? do i exist because i have a name, thoughts and what nots. do i exist for the perceptions of others, perfect strangers or so they would like to be.
still there is that one woman who somehow managed to touch my heart, yes she did, and whether was it deliberate or not i'm unsure.
yelan is her name and once upon a warm night we met ; it wasn't like one would expect a first meeting to go like, no instead it was rather bizarre. she was holding a dice in between her gloved fingers and said : "pick a number and we will see whether you trust your intuition enough." it was strange, especially since we were both up way too late.
so i did, rather appalled that someone wasn't put off by my person. "what are you.. four, i pick four." and as she threw the dice i couldn't help but feel nervous, she noticed i bit my lower lip in anxious anticipation, and i couldn't tell why i even gave in to this silly game to begin with.
"ah! four it is,' she chuckled as if it was meant to happen, 'congratulations." she had this way of smiling as if she knew something i didn't, leaving you hanging dry trying to understand her, and i looked at the dice in the palm of her hand completely lost as to how i managed to actually get the number right.
but how? "why are we doing this?' i started talking although my voice seemed way too confused, 'and what does it mean?" yelan seemed almost mischievous as she placed the dice away, and only now had i realized the hydro vision she harbored by her hips. "it doesn't mean anything if you don't give it a meaning." and i would be lying if i said i understood her perfectly.
why should we give a meaning to such a mundane thing, "if i got it right then it was only per chance, a pure coincidence." but she didn't make much of what i told her and instead shrugged it off as if i missed a key factor in what had she told me. "if so are your beliefs." was her simple answer, yet i couldn't even tell if i had disappointed her and ultimately: why did it bother me so much to let a stranger down.
xianyun often told me that people were complicated, stuck in one's certainty.. now, was i just one of them for thinking like so. in a way, it displeased me to be just 'one person like any other' but i could not exactly pinpoint why.
and this very thought plagued me for so long, that during the afternoon tea with the adepti ganyu and xiao, i could simply not enjoy myself. "is something the matter shenhe?' xiao has said, and it almost felt guilty to show disgrace for he made it clear he himself felt displeasure to be here. 'oh please! i am thoroughly pleased to be with you, but still, today's event got me feeling odd. you see, i met this woman who was, strangely enough, crossing the tianqiu valley all by herself late at night.."
ganyu chuckled in that soft tone only she could master, she was the kind of person to make you melt more than my nephew without his popsicles, then she sipped on her tea after making sure to rearrange her hairpiece, we were both wearing the outfit xianyun had gotten us. "did she perhaps catch your eyes?' as soon that ganyu spoke, both xiao and i tensed up, how shocking! 'if i knew we would be talking about mortal love, i wouldn't have shown up.."
at this i let my cup of tea slip from my hand, resulting in it clumsily falling against the table but still sitting up straight on the table, avoiding a much bigger mess, dear archon, xiao had just used the word love! "doesn't that seem a bit.. too much? i will never meet that woman again!" i assured them both, but ganyu eyed the tea that slipped from my cup, and she smiled shyly, probably feeling sorry for embarrassing me judging by her sudden blush.
"humans believe in a strange thing,' xiao ended up going with the flow, and i was more than appalled to hear the next words escape his mouth. 'love at first sight, don't they?" and now he turned to me completely, since i was the only human at the table, as if i was one to give a concrete answer. "i.. i've no idea what humans say.." and soon enough xiao realized i was right, and cleared his throat.
it was rather delicate to ask me about what humans do, since i had been recluse for so long. xiao understood it very quickly and seized all discussion, that is until ganyu changed the subject, but judging by her expression it wouldn't be the last of her i would hear.
i'm not supposed to let feelings dictate my life, what are feelings anyway? if not a poor excuse to actions you would otherwise find absolutely scandalous, "i am so sorry, i was feeling jealous so i burned down your plantations!" or even "i felt anger so i stole your partner!"
ridiculous, rightfully so, i would not find myself feeling any kind of human emotions ; mostly because i never felt any to begin with, but also because they seem terrifyingly hard to understand.
so since i wanted to understand myself better than anyone else, i stopped feeling! incredible isn't it, how incredulous can it be so simply stop being human as a mortal? one couldn't know, although, the emptiness was hard to go through and maybe, just maybe, was it an emotion by itself.
yes perhaps was this emptiness meant to be the only thing those who reject the commonly felt emotions were able to express, was it a crime to be default of the most basically human thing?
but then again if so ; what was this strange feeling when yelan stood next to me, almost disappointed in me, was it frustration perhaps? i made one point sure that is, i disliked it. almost hated feeling at the mercy of her own emotions.
or just maybe, souls are meant to become something, if so how do we rise? even more so, could two souls possibly align? not as in becoming one, no instead, something much more intimate, becoming so close to one another that they could be considered.. soulmates? i heard of this concept once walking by the bustling streets of liyue while meeting chongyun.
but enough thinking. i had been idly sitting instead of collecting qingxin flowers for ganyu as she had asked me to do, she said she had in mind to create a sort of flowery decoration for xianyun's abode, but i quickly understood that she probably would've preferred to snack on a few of them.
that is when blue hair obstructed my vision and a hand wearing a white mitten almost took hold of mine as our hands touched. "how cute of you to pick up flowers, like a happy schoolgirl." my mouth had opened to speak, not even trying to retort any smart comment back. my vision which initially settled on the woman, yelan, leaning towards me now was back on her hand that was now on her hips as she stood tall before my sitting figure.
"yelan?' i started speaking, unsure of where to go with this, 'why don't you have nails? it seems painful." she cleared her throat at my words, and now she sat next to me, making sure to pick up a qingxin flower that would've been crushed otherwise and placing it in my basket. "curious type, aren't you? well if i told you, i assume you wouldn't talk to me any more."
but why? my mind simply couldn't wrap around it, it looked incredibly painful and i thought that my critical thinking simply wasn't developed enough to understand the situation at hand. "did someone hurt you?' she chuckled lowly before sighing, placing a few more flowers in my hand. 'no." her answer was short and crude, not giving much place for discussion and i was unable to tell if i had angered her, or annoyed her, or not.
yelan seemed hard to understand for one, she wasn't alike other people i got to talk to, she knew how to show a smile one instant then be as neutral as can be the next second. but her answer implied that she willingly injure herself, and her motives were left a mystery, as many other things with her and her way of only giving vague answers.
"i never see you around liyue, instead we meet in deserted places like so, far from the city.' yelan had beautiful eues i realized, the kind of eyes that makes grown men blush, a beautiful green akin to the first days of summer, the- 'are you perhaps a recluse?" recluse, this word hung around the air for a little moment that felt way too long, i never thought of myself as such a thing.. i have ganyu and xianyun after all, and even occasionally xiao! right?
or i could have as well imagined being friends with them, and they only saw me as a mere acquaintance! i would never dare ask them wether or not we were friends though.. "perhaps i am, i do live far away from the city, humans are.. they have a hard time trying to understand me." she nodded carefully, a thoughtful look on her face.
"that alone tells me enough about you, shenhe." oh, it's true, i told her my name on our first meeting, but hearing her say it gave it a sort of significant importance i could not pinpoint. once the initial impression passed, i wondered what her sentence meant, these words seemed heavy with meaning. despite how could yelan get information about me when we've talked so little? "what do you mean?' i inquired, still stunned by the whole altercation. 'you used the word humans indicating you mustn't hang around them often.. your attire is akin to ganyu's, the general secretary of the qixing. from what i get from what you just said, you probably live with the adepti, am i correct?"
stunned once again was i, how could she be so quick witted? i placed the flowers on my lap, without a word, before clapping my hands, which probably made me look rather stupid. finally i laughed, unable to know why, i wasn't one to, but finally someone began to understand my person and it seemed so unlikely that i ended up laughing my heart away.
"you are good, you should be a detective.' her eyebrows raised momentarily, half shocked to be right (or so i assumed) and half mocking of me. 'you're getting close." she smiled as she spoke now, my laugh seemed to have made her mood better, although her words were comforting me in my idea of her being as enigmatic as can be, and i found it rather humorous again that we hit so close to home, and that we were able to tell one another like so.
it felt oddly personal the way we spoke, so carefree in our words, like two friends who just started their friendship. i enjoyed her company, but did she enjoy mine? surely since she remained here, i felt the graze of her fingers on my lap, which made me startled. she placed the flowers in the basket again before getting up, giving me her hand to do the same.
i was confused as she helped me get up, but still, a pleasant chill ran down my back at the contact. now yelan glanced around before giving me my basket and closing it. "you should head home, this place full of monsters at this time of the day, i've matters to take care of so i'll leave for now.' i was unsure why, but i felt the need to go her way, and so i nodded and took a step back, 'alright, goodbye yelan."
as she said goodbye back, i walked away with the intent of leaving wuwang hill to join ganyu and xiao in the wangshu inn, the walk to my destination was filled with thoughts of the encounter and i swore i caught myself smiling over nothing, i wondered more and more about yelan, and even ended up wanting to know more about her. her occupation, her as a whole, the more i knew about her, the more questions i had and yet the more i felt inclined to talk to her to get to know more and more.
was it what people called 'affection'? this until then insignificant word now had a newfound meaning, anticipation overtook me, what spell had she cast on me?
ACT II : love, love, love.
incredible calamity overtook me this morning, for upon waking up i wondered whether or not i would see yelan today. we had only met by coincidence until now, and maybe i wouldn't see her again for who knew what life was made of. i ended up thinking of myself as sick since it had never happened before.
i had spent the night in the wangshu inn with ganyu, and xiao was there as i left the room, "i got you this." he said, calmly, as he handed me some tofu in a fancy plate. as i held the place and took a bite, i still felt my mind getting invaded. xiao probably noticed, which is why he invited me to sit down, this early in the morning only the both of us were sitting by the outside tables, and we knew ganyu would visit us quickly before departing for the big city.
"do i perhaps look sick?' i inquired, touching my own forehead in an attempt to check my temperature, fruitlessly for it didn't seem unusual at all. 'you don't, why is that you ask?" now it was rather shameful to admit it out loud, but my rosy cheeks had me all figured out. xiao seemed genuinely confused and all i could do was suffer the consequences of my words. "it so happens that.. a singular thought is plaguing my brain, leaving me unable to stop thinking about it." he didn't seem shocked much and a smile even draught on his face.
it was sympathetic, really, the way his golden eyes scrutinized mine. "is it pleasant? if so, why would you want it to stop?' he had picked up an interesting matter, yelan was a nice person after all.. or so she made it out to be. 'you are right, i never saw it like so." xiao seemed much more human suddenly, nicely opening my mind to what was happening to me and around me.
"are you talking about someone? the same person than last time?' he caught me, right on but i got it, i might've talked about yelan too much.. 'yes, it's her.." xiao gave me a look, he must've put two and two together. "ask her on a date." it was as if it was the most obvious answer in the world the way his voice made it sound so harsh, but xiao was one to be blunt.. not one to give advice though! my eyebrows raised. "well, that's a possibility but.. we don't know each other enough!' i found a sort of excuse, but xiao wasn't buying it. 'people go on dates to learn about each other."
i was done for!
mount aozang was peaceful at that time of the day, not a lot of people ventured by at this hour, i was waiting for ganyu to start decorating the flowers i picked up and conveniently froze to avoid them dying out, but i hadn't expected for a sort of hydro figure to run by incredibly fast, initially startled by the sudden appearance i stood up, fully ready to attack. that is until the hydro let place to a perfectly normally human form ; yelan was there before me, a deranged smile on her face as if she did something forbidden.
"oh my, it seems we meet again.' she was quick to say, and i could only stare wondering what was going on through her head. 'you are right, fate must want us to be together." and i blushed, harder than i ever did, for when did i become so bold with my words! yelan's green eyes looked back into mine for a moment, all of her was a mystery and i wished for nothing more than to get the key to understand all there is to her character. she chuckled rather bluntly, seemingly not in the mood to initially laugh, then replied. "i wouldn't have thought i'd ever hear you talk about fate, you are rather down to earth from what i picked up."
as she spoke i placed a few of the cold to the touch flowers on the stone table, making sure the roots weren't frozen enough to be bent at will, my reply was quick to come as i somehow managed to figure out that she would tell me that.. maybe despite our very few encounters i grew accustomed to her, and i started knowing her a bit more ; this thought alone made me smile faintly, and i even went as far as to wonder if she felt the same thing towards me..
probably not, since she just said that, but probably so since she just discovered a new part of me (a part i just found out of too). "you are right, i don't know what overtook me..' was my shameful reply, but she leaned towards me again, closer than before, her perfume filled my head and suddenly she spoke in a hushed tone. 'oh but i think i know very well.." i held my breath, she kept getting closer, her eyes left mine and settled on my lips.
i was fully expecting it, and my body stilled at the intensity of the moment, my heart beat picked up strangely enough, yelan was about to do it, she was about to kiss me! but suddenly, a sound took me out of my trance like anticipation, a faint sound of leaves on the ground creaking.. both our heads turned towards the unknown guest, body unmoving, and there we noticed ganyu who had only now arrived. she was standing there uneasily, a sorry look on her face. "did i interrupt..? i'm sorry, i can leave!" but yelan sighed and stood up straight again which made me finally take a breath, one i didn't know i was holding.
"it's no big deal, really." yelan assured her, and ganyu took shy steps towards the table, not even daring to meet neither of our glances. the air was thick, and yelan excused herself out, although she whispered in my ear. "meet me by the harbor in liyue city tonight." and i nodded silently to her invitation. as she left, ganyu took her sit and started taking hold of the qingxin flowers, shaping them into a heart shaped decoration. i sighed before looking at her, i knew she wanted to talk. "so it was yelan all along.' she started, her soft voice hung in the air slightly. 'do you know much about her?"
i didn't which felt embarrassing, i almost kissed an almost complete stranger! i couldn't even name her favorite color if i had to, but what was reassuring was that ganyu knew of her. "she is very mysterious i will give you that, but be careful, her job is rather.. strenuous, she works for ningguang.' now my interest was peaked, and i almost broke a flower's petal as i was rendered inattentive to my work. 'please tell me more." she looked at me, her decoration then back to me. "it isn't me who should tell you that, but i suppose xiao was right! love at first sight does exist."
xianyun had joined us now as i was still shook by our conversation and she was more than pleased with our little makeshifts, somehow she managed to pick up on our mood, and she soon turned to ganyu then to me. "i sense a strange thing, what's the matter?' she spoke as she held both pur decorations, now walking towards her abode with the both of us following suit. 'do you know what love feels like..?" ganyu giggled as she heard my question, and xianyun stopped to look at me with squinted eyes behind her red glasses. "it's right here, and it's rather unexplainable for most." she pointed towards my chest, most specifically my heart.. it all made sense suddenly.
could it be that i was in love with yelan? it all seemed so scary yet so overwhelming in a good way, and as xianyun placed the decorations wherever her heart pleased i gulped ; i now was met with the charming part of love, the possibility of it being unrequited.
no, it couldn't be, she almost kissed me a few hours prior! oh dear archons, i was completely, utterly in love!
ACT III : say yes to me.
it was now nighttime, and for once i was found in liyue harbor, after having a short talk with traveler and paimon i finally saw her, her white jacket faced me from far away, she was talking to a short woman who then took her leave and yelan turned and saw me.
i thought for once, it was what people felt when they saw someone they particularly cherished ; this rising feeling in their chest, their heart skipping a few beats, their legs feeling like they were made out of jelly. she approached me, taking my hand in her gloved one to place a kiss on the back of it, could it be possible that we were currently in a date?
"yelan.." she shushed me before taking hold of my hand completely and leading me towards a more recluse place, a very few people walked by this alley, and she took a moment before talking again. "i assume you got wind of a few information.' she sighed, like a child who just got caught doing something they shouldn't have. 'i only heard so much, but i am starting to believe there's more than what meets the eyes." was all i could say, she did warn me when she told me that i wouldn't want to see her if i heard the truth about her, but i didn't feel scared or hesitant ; i wanted to know everything.
i knew what i was about to hear was meant to stay only between the both of us, and i came to the realization that if she was to tell me that then she trusted me well enough, my heart felt warm. "i am an intelligence agent, nothing too fancy.. i follow and arrest bad guys, yes that's it." i was momentarily stunned, surprised by the new information, it didn't seem bad at all. to say everyone, including me, made it out to be a big deal! "so you are like a millelith? if ganyu knows you then you must work for ningguang..' she smiled brightly, offering my shoulder a nice little tap. 'you're getting smarter by the day aren't you!"
i could only smile back, slightly embarrassed by her words. "but i am nowhere near a millelith, i work by myself and interrogate culprits in my own manner.. one they wouldn't usually allow." my eyebrows furrowed, i was left confused now and mostly nervous. finally i looked down at her hand again, you wouldn't be able to tell by her right hand, the one she isn't wearing a mitten at, but her nails had been removed ; and by none other than herself.
if i didn't know better i would be lead to believe she lives the life of a criminal, the kind that doesn't back down over anything. "did you perchance.. remove those to avoid getting them removed by let's say, a criminal?' she had a moment where she analyzed my face, my every moves like i was some sort of outsider who meant danger. 'well, now that you know everything, i'll need to get rid of you." i looked at her dumbfounded, nothing prepared me for this, and suddenly as the silence engulfed us i noticed her cracking a smile.
her next move was one i expected even less : she raised a hand to her mouth and exploded in laughter! i was left there unmoving, then i ended up mimicking her for a reason i ignore. seeing her happy made me feel giddy and i couldn't help it at all, oh sweet euphoria how i loved to get acquainted with you.
"why so serious? no, really, why so serious!' she managed between chuckles, 'i don't know, it seems pretty ominous to me!" but she knew i was right deep down and calmed down slightly, "i'm not a crazy criminal, but i arrest them and question them." now i finally knew more about her, and her job made me understand her behavior much further ; she was meant to be hard to read, she was meant to speak only enough to be understood but not enough to let on too much. and surely these removed nails was just a precaution for if she ever got caught by one.. this thought alone perturbed me.
"it's strange but i like you.' i talked before even thinking, and i suddenly took a step by, taken by stupor at my own words. 'oh? is that so?" yelan smiled that boyish smile i saw previously, quickly, she took a step towards me. "you play a dangerous game saying those words.' i had a nervous grin on hearing her, that voice would kill me one day, her little mind games too. but it didn't seem as dangerous as stated, it seemed like a sweet venom, one of the natlan kind if they weren't threatening.
"yelan, i.. i want to go on a date with you!' i spoke so fast i thought my voice was indistinguishable, maybe did i want it to be at least, but yelan heard me well. 'a date, sure, where would it be?" she seemed genuinely interested in what i had said, as if she knew i didn't even have a place in mind before asking. i gulped, 'how about the.. the lantern rite?" it once again slipped out of my mouth and the more i spoke, the more i wanted to shut up. she nodded making all my stress disappear, she wasn't about to reject me and she even said yes!
ACT IV : happy festivities
"i have a date, how am i supposed to behave!" i spluttered out, unsure still if it was real or not, xianyun glanced at me with a huge smile, but i was more than concerned, she was enjoying her tea from qiaoying village before i came along, she took a sip before talking. "you simply have to be yourself, i am sure she'll like it like that.' i was left to wonder how she knew yelan's gender, probably from ganyu, i blushed. 'but what if i do something wrong?"
xianyun giggled as if i told her a veritable joke, "how could you? you are a sweetheart, if anything she will find you only more endearing. don't worry your head." i sat down in front of her, letting my body slumped over the table, she was right, i needn't overthink it ; what will happen will happen.
"wear the dress i gave you, and just have a good time!' she added, which helped soothe me slightly. 'do you think she will like it? or is it overdressing?" xianyun rolled her eyes in amusement, i was behaving like a teen and not a perfectly functioning adult! but i couldn't help it, so many thoughts filled my head, it was hard to resist them. "i will follow your advice, i hope it will go well..' she seemed invested enough to let her teacup down and pat my shoulder over the table. 'it will, there's no reason for it to go wrong."
the lantern rite meant that liyue's harbor would be filled with people and, once my initial anxiety of being around so much persons left my head, all i had left was excitement, today was a big day, it was my first date! but what if it went wrong? what if 'love' was only a human made fantasy and i was just trying to behave like one? enough of this nonsense, as i was walking towards my destination i couldn't help but notice a couple staring at the huge decoration by the harbor. they seemed peaceful, perfectly completing each other's presence, they were most likely fatuis judging by their attire but i paid it no mind. the man shyly took hold of the woman's hand and i thought, hey maybe i could try doing something as bold as well.
finally with all my fears being left aside, i met yelan at our designated spot, she was as beautiful as ever under the shining lights and i wondered just how a simple person, a human at that, could mean so much to me so quickly. i approached her but before i could even talk to her she turned around as if she could have sensed my presence from afar, my heart fluttered. "how pretty you are, is this dress just for me?' she teased me, as usual, but this time i nodded as i was frank. just like xianyun said, i was being myself! 'i wished to impress you.."
yelan chuckled before motioning for me to approach her, so i did, her presence was soothing and yet i tried to anticipate her every moves making me on edge, which she noticed very quickly. "well, you're the one asking me on a date, and yet i see you trembling from where i stand." i sighed, i knew i had to tell her the truth. so i took a deep breath and as the laterns got released, offering us a beautiful spectacle of colors in the sky, and as gaming started dancing just as mesmerizing as the lights i went for it.
at first my fingers grazed hers, she didn't budge so i slowly crept my hand from her wrist to her hand before finally intertwining our fingers.. i did it, ganyu and xianyun would be so proud! her skin felt warm against mine, like the first ray of summer in liyue, or what i imagine would be the a delightful afternoon in the sumeru rainforest. "truth be told, it's my first date, but i'm glad it's with you..' yelan who was looking upwards to watch the lanterns suddenly turned her head to me, but this time there wasn't any malice in her eyes, only a sort of dedication i couldn't quite explain. 'i like you, i really do. i don't understand this feeling, it scares me." i finished my sentence in a second, not daring to look at her anymore.
but her fingers squeezed mine, and i could feel her stare being on me still, "shenhe, look at me." hesitantly i obliged, that's when her free hand met my cheek and traced my jawline, yelan then scooted closer. i panicked! unable to move as i saw her approaching so intimately, finally it happened, as i presumed it would. she kissed me! she did it! her lips felt soft like a cloud, warm and sweet like honey.
it lasted for a moment, i was unsure whether i kissed well or not but she didn't seem to pay no mind, she followed my pace but i followed her lead, and i was in heaven at that moment. finally she pulled away, leaving to chase after her lips helplessly. "that was.. amazing.' i said slowly, she smiled. 'you are amazing shenhe."
it all felt like a dream, i kissed yelan (and she kissed so well), but now i was met with a fatal feeling ; i missed her lips already. it was addictive to be around her, probably because she meant so much to me and i was left hoping i meant just as much to her. but now i was confused, what were we? we were still holding hands and looking a lot like a couple.. but it was too early wasn't it?
ACT V : confessions and sweet kisses.
after weeks of playing this game with yelan, after weeks of asking xianyun what she thought of this situation i was finally settled and ready to act. it almost had been one month of little dates, kisses and whatnots, but today was my day, i would confess to yelan! i meticulously planned the day all throughout, and after spending a relaxing afternoon in the qiaoying village, we finally settled down to look at the clouds and the sunset.
after a good few minutes laughing about random cloud shapes we finally calmed down, nobody was talking for a good minute or so, simply enjoying each other's presence, now was my time. so i started, "yelan, i have something to tell you..' she propped herself on her elbows hearing that, probably not expecting me to say such words. 'what is it?" her eyebrows were raised, showing urgency, a terrible catatonic feeling as if i'd tell her some bad news.
"you see, i have been perturbed by these feelings that only you could arise within me, and these weeks we spent together only made me realize something..' she scooted closer to me, touching my hair affectionately, she seemed relieved, 'go on pretty girl."
"so finally i realized i know you, all of you, the whole ; the little things you do, you came to love out of habit. if you as you are presented to me convinces me to stay, then you've won not only an ally but a newfound strength that only the both of us could begin to understand. i wish i had the words to tell you the depth of my devotion but what mortal words could explain an otherworldly feeling? and if i wasn't so little in this world so big, i'd give all there is if so you willed, just to get to have a chance to hold your dear heart close to mine. feelings and especially love used to scare me, but with you it doesn't seem so bad anymore." i took a relieving breath, although it was shaky, i finally said what i had in mind for at least a good month, and she pulled me up suddenly, now it was just the both of us in between flowers that smelled like spring.
"shenhe, i wondered if you'd ever tell me that! i am glad to see my devotion is reciprocated, if you let me then i'll make you mine..' she spoke as she held me close by the waist, all i could do was admire her. 'i want to be yours, but i also want you, all of you!" we chuckled at my determination before exchanging a sweet, longing kiss.
that was it, yelan was my girlfriend now! i was the happiest woman in the world, and i could tell yelan was thrilled too from her hold on me. "you know, i finally understand why you presented me your dice." she blinked a few times, i knew she remembered what happened when we met, but she must've been curious of my next words. "when you talked about meaning, yes, i guessed the right number because it was fate, and we met because it was meant to be! there's a meaning in everything around us if we look closely enough!' she seemed pleased and hugged me before finally letting go of our embrace. 'i'm so proud of you, i knew you would get it someday!"
so if i could thank anyone i'd thank yelan, for helping me give a meaning to the world around me, perha are we not as miserable as i thought but instead beautiful creations that are meant to make this world brighter as much as we can. yes there will always be bad people, but what does it matter when i have my dearest by my side. so yes, everything and everyone matters in their very own way.
so thank you yelan, "i love you and always will, i vow this' was her next words, i was blushing profusely unable to contain my happiness. never had such simple words have such an impact on me. 'i love you too, for as long as i live!" she seemed genuine in her expression of passion, i leaned into her, letting my head rest on her shoulder. finally i thought, life was worth living, every part of it, if i had yelan by my side.