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Farewell to Farewells!

Summary:

Honoka reminisces the memories of the experience she started.

Inspired by their "final" song "Sayonunara e Sayonara/Farewell to Farewells"

Notes:

(See the end of the work for notes.)

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“Was the sky this same color, when it all began?”

Nobody dared to think about this day. The day where every good aspect of our lives came to an abrupt end. Yet, here we are, staring at each other, Tears filled in all nine of our eyes. I remember the beginning like it was yesterday. I remember when I got the idea to form this idol group. It was a silly idea, but to this day I still think it’s my best. I couldn’t even imagine the end, it felt so far away.

“And thanks to you, I really could do it - - I’m grateful we met.”

I’m grateful we met. I’m grateful that I formed an idol group with eight other amazing people. I'm grateful that with these same people, we’ve created memories that we can carry with us for the rest of our lives. I’m grateful for Kotori and Umi, who managed to go through with my stupid plan in the beginning. I'm grateful for Hanayo, probably our only supporter in the beginning, whether she wants to admit that or not. I’m grateful for Rin, her energy is immaculate. I’m grateful for Maki, her ability to compose. I’m grateful for Nico, despite her jealousy in the very beginning. I’m grateful for Eli and Nozomi, the two who even allowed us to be here today. I barely knew some of these people in the past. Nonetheless, I’m so glad I do. I’m so glad to have had the opportunity to meet them.

“And I can already see them in your eyes - - your plans for what’s ahead”

Everybody else knows what they want to do when we officially disband and split paths. I don’t. I can’t help but feel a little worthless. I expected this idol thing to last longer. I wanted it to. I don’t have a plan for after. I deluded myself. I don’t want to leave them all behind. I want to stay together, forever…
“Just promise we’ll be together, that's all I need..”

“ ‘Farewell’ means ‘we’ll meet again someday’ - - we’ll make it mean that.”

Maybe the word ‘Farewell’ describes the farewell of the name we created, “µ's.” Maybe the ‘we’ll meet again someday’ implies we don’t need to separate. We’ll meet again tomorrow! As close friends! That’s just a dream. We’re going to say our farewells, and the rest of the group we once were will disintegrate into a memory cherished for the rest of our lives. That ‘someday’ will not be the next day. It will be far into the future. What if ‘someday’ never rolls around?

It all started as a silly idea. The idea to form a school idol group. I thought it would be fun. It was a struggle at first, but we did it. We formed more than a school idol group. We formed a connection. We formed our best memories. Memories that are guaranteed to never leave the entirety of our minds. I do wish this moment could last longer, but the memories created within this past year will live until the day we are put into our graves.

“Rather than wallow in nostalgia
Lets give each other a smile and say ‘we’ll meet again!’
We’ll set farewell aside, until ‘maybe someday’ comes
I want to cherish this joy, and have fun together with everyone
‘Farewell to farewell’

A silly urge,
But I found myself wanting to say it…

It might be a good thing to say, after all!”

Notes:

Muse will always be together in my heart.