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Looking into my closet I swear I’ve worn all these clothing over and over again for multiple decades and never changed them. I've worn the same skinny jeans. Since the treaty, it's probably nothing. I'm probably over-thinking what I’m wearing. It's just a small meetup. Why should I panic over what I am wearing? But honestly, would I be underdressed? Or would it be considered over-dressed? Can It even be considered a meet-up when it's between three lovers? I don’t know how all this love shit works but I must try for them even though it's already so complicated from every side. I mean it can go either good or bad. I guess sometimes you have to let the cut bleed prepare for the worst and wait out each storm. I guess its what happens when you have two lovers that are exact opposites.
Flying to the clearing wasn't that hard as it wasn't far from vampire territory just in case of the sunrise but that would be hours from now. I guess the idea of the relationship being exposed to other vampires wasn’t a bad idea I mean they all mostly respect me. Except that “Fledgling” Kazha but I don’t mind because he showed me that it's okay to have attachments. He’s like my son and I would do anything for him. Plus I don’t have to worry about him finding out about it because he already knows.
I mean everything will happen eventually
but you can only do what you can to speed up the process. I was gonna save the planet from mass destruction today if there was an impending catastrophe but tonight I got plans and I think the emotion I feel is joy and excitement. My son, I mean Kazha says it’s good to point out what emotions you are feeling especially after all I’ve been through. I guess this is just what I am and that is a dead flesh suit of emotions but now I have less control over what I feel and well I’m a little more human than I was before.
I'm an object in motion spinning along to the dance of this damn planet. even though I have learned to love every moment on it especially recently. But sometimes saying I've lost all emotion is too much. I just don't know what to do with the amount of emotions that have built up over the years. I told myself I couldn’t hold an attachment but look where I am now attached and in love with the strongest two idiots I know and I know that’s growth from the past. I know if I fuck up My two legs will break and so will my heart but I know that it will take a lot more than just my own stupidity to break apart this bond.
“I hope no one asks where I'm going
'Cause whеre I am going is right where I am.” think to myself as I end up in the clearing a little earlier than the others because I was tasked with setting up the area but I don’t mind in truth it gives me butterflies because what could go wrong.
Getting ready wasn’t the hardest part, it wasn't even flying. It was explaining to Ryena that I wasn’t missing dinner and I’d be back later. I feel like she suspects something and she has every right because I’m keeping another secret from her but in reality, it’s the entire Avien community. I mean I’m dating of course that’s one of the problems the council sees in me but they only think it’s another avian. Which couldn’t possibly be farther from the truth. I’ve created a big facade of dating my friend and I hope she doesn’t fall in love with me. In truth, I’m actually headed to meet up with my lovers for a date under the stars. What would the council do if they knew it was a mage and a vampire that had stolen their Perfect’s heart?
Finding the clearing wasn’t that hard as it was lit up by multi-colored mage lights. It must have been done by Paris, one of my angels. It looked beautiful from above a sea of yellow and purple lights.
It wasn't a tense atmosphere when I landed in the clearing. In fact, it was quite calm but then the weight of the knowledge of everything I've kept hidden would be exposed and talked about tonight. I mean I wasn't even trying to hide it as we've talked about it before.
“I know we are your secret but I'm tired of being hidden by you Percy. We know you're trying to change the bird council's rules but you're hiding the real you and using another poor Avien who doesn't deserve to be used.” Asher says in the quiet.
“You said you'd break up with her, But she met your family and that's almost like you two are actually a thing?” Paris says gently, not as blunt as Asher, but her words still hang in the air thickly. It was obvious that they were upset with me but I felt like couldn’t stop the facade as it was like an object in motion and I didn’t know how to put a stop to something that was pulling me down.
“I know I need to stop it and it's just really hard to do even if they were to unveil the secret because it would put us all in danger,” Percy murmurs leaning into Paris.
“And dating's the worst” Asher mumbles a little louder than expected. It was a silly little statement but the two turned to look at him with exasperated smiles on their faces. Knowing just how he felt on the topic of exclusive dating even though he was the one to suggest it just being the three of them because of jealousy.
“Now, we get you're not in love with her But you'll stick it out for, like, twenty years more,” Asher says as if he hadn’t pretended to date. Paris for years before falling in love with her. Percy rolls his eyes and thinks it’s not what matters now it was the fact that they had each other and were in the moment with each other.
But you do what you can in the moment even if it means breaking that small promise you’ve created for yourself. When in truth sometimes it’s not the promise that is broken but your own spirit as you are tired and need a break. So I shall rest now and be in the moment with them.
“Don't you like it a little better when you don't understand?” The small voice in my head asks but I like it better when I understand and have a grip on what’s going on around me without worry. In honesty, I was gonna save the Avien government, but tonight I have plans. I guess this is just what I am a bird that’s a mess but deeply in love tangled in a pile with the ones I love.
“I'm an object in motion that’s all we are objects in motion” I repeat to myself trying to ease the nerves within me. I know Asher won’t talk to Percy about his “fake lover” tonight so I must. I have to show him that hiding the truth with another half-truth will not work. I love him and I won’t let him live out the mistakes that Asher and I made. Even though it turned out alright. I know it will be a hard conversation but we will make it through it.
The thoughts in my head go quiet the moment I realize I can’t find the bottle. The important bottle I said I would bring tonight. Searching the room I found it rolled onto its side in a corner. Picking up the bottle and looking in, scolding the little creature inside who’s trying to make its escape back to vampire territory. A tiny yellow axolotl that Asher found in his wine glass full of water multiple times. He was identifiable by the pink spot on his tail while he was mostly yellow, a quite particular little guy. We gave him the name Arlow. Staring at the bottle I began to speak to the little menace to society.
“Arlow, what did I say about rolling off the bed? I know you are excited to go with me tonight but you must be on your best behavior that means no wine-glass escapades.” He looked a little sad about the last statement but also seemed very content that he got to travel with me this time. Maybe he saw us as parents, Asher and hopefully Percy in the future. With that thought, I hook the bottle to my belt and start to head out the door to help Asher set up.
After teleporting to vampire territory it was a short flight to the clearing to meet Asher who was hard at work setting up the snacks and blanket for them to sit on. “Hey, need some help there my little prince,” I say with a playful tone knowing that he dislikes the title but will tolerate it. He looks over with exasperation and adoration in his eyes. “ Hey magic girl, could you put some purple and yellow mage lights down and that will be the last of everything. All we need is a bird brain.” I roll my eyes but do as I’m told lightning up the clearing even though he can see in the dark. “Hey, bat boy do you wanna dance with me a little bit before the bluebird gets here like old times under the moonlight?” The question hung in the quiet night air before a response cut through the quiet night air.“I’m sorry my two legs are broken tonight.” A long sigh rolled from Paris's lips before she could stop it “Asher you say that all the time. Please let’s dance just for a little bit. I won't ask for the rest of the night.” I beg and give a sad look to add to the drama to get what I want. All too soon Asher gives up and grabs her by the waist to start the dance with a small peck on the lips. Gentle twirls and steps across the grass. The world could go to shit at any given time but in this moment look at us dance under the moonlight. So graceful and so gentle.
We are an object in motion twirling underneath the moonlight between the mage lights.
“I wanna move out of the forest, but everyone knows me and packing is tiring,” I say but it is obvious I’m attached to the forest and one with the nature that surrounds a move would be too much of a hassle to deal with anyway.
“Paris sweetheart, your intrusive thoughts are thinking for you again, you love that forest and it means the world to you,” Percy says knowing that it would start a chain of complaints or just random thoughts.
“I said I would start working out ideas for a plan to reveal the relationship to the Avien Council, but I'm fuckin' hungry for a snack right now and need to just spend time with my loves,” Paris says hangry from all the setup and deep conversations that she doesn’t mind.
And screw you world, We’re trying to make this work.
The moon was high and it was just about midnight when the snacks slowly disappeared and the blanket became empty except for wine glasses filled with water and blood. The tension had calmed down and so did the nerves. It was peaceful and only the sound of the night could be heard through the clearing it was a little too quiet for Percy. As Percy was sprawled out on the blanket next to his love staring up at the stars the words came tumbling out of his mouth before he could stop them “I wanna be big like my plans, So why am I so tiny?” Percy whined knowing damn well that there was nothing he could do other than just lay there but he could slowly take steps to
change a plan in motion. But for now, plan be damned he had his two loves next to him and that’s his focus for now.
“Guess this is just what I am,” Paris says slowly lying down to look at the stars. Wondering what she could do to help her bird-brained boyfriend. When the other slowly rolls to hold her hand and stare up at the stars. the idea of being stuck here in this time and dimension does not seem so bad after all. She had her two idiots and the world would be damned if she let them go.
Asher sat at the edge of the blanket unsure what to say to those things other than what a life he has lived and how even if he were to go down by stake now at least he would be able to die happily, other than the fact that the goddamn pants he was wearing were just plain uncomfortable at this point. So he added to the Little Speak Out session without a second thought. “I'm stuck in this life and I'm stuck in these pants,” Asher grumbles something about choosing the worst pair of pants for being outside and how uncomfortable it is to be in those skinny jeans as if it's not the same pair he wears almost every day just to do daily tasks. Giggles broke out from around Asher as he was slowly put in the middle of the pile. Though he hated physical affection he would tolerate it from his loves, especially for a clear night under the stars like this one.
Where I am goin' is right where I am
Oh, inertia