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Jungkook comes back from the longest date he’s been on in his life. Chaewon somehow convinced him to take her bowling. It was the most draining experience he’s ever had. It’s been four weeks and three days since he’s last spoken with Taehyung and it hasn’t gotten better.
He’s gotten tired of staring at the painting of Bam, so it’s been removed from his wall. Every channel he skims through just reminds him of Taehyung in someway. The infomercial lady selling crocheted dog shirts. The cooking show with the host who cant even prepare rice properly. Bob Ross reruns coming on. K-dramas with the cheesiest plot.
Jungkook looks at his phone and presses his tongue against his cheek, “fuck it.” He picks it up and goes to Taehyung’s contact, holding his phone against his ear. He closes his eyes waiting for the call to go straight to voicemail, but it doesn’t. His heart races wondering if Taehyung will actually pick up, but he doesn’t.
He closes his eyes listening to the automated lady explain Taehyung doesn’t want to speak with him. Jungkook ends the call and just sits there feeling his eyes well up again. He blinks rapidly, whisking them away.
The next day after his classes, he goes to the supermarket to pick up some ingredients for his dinner tonight. He sees all the families and couples rush in, trying to avoid the rain. He hates that his heart hurts after seeing the sight. Jungkook finishes and walks to his car, not caring about being soaked in the process.
Once he gets home he puts everything away and goes to take a shower. The group chat is blowing up but he ignores it. Today, he just wants to be alone. That’s when his door buzzes and he rolls his eyes. He hopes it’s not Namjoon and Jin trying to spread their positive energy and give him advice.
Jungkook grunts loudly opening the door angrily, “I told you guys I-”
Taehyung. It’s Taehyung.
Jungkook freezes in his spot, his hand still on the doorknob. His heart beats insanely fast and his eyes don’t leave the figure standing right outside his door. Taehyung is drenched from being out in the rain as if he was standing outside the apartment complex for an hour wondering if he should go in or not. Jungkook is so fucking glad he chose to come.
“I miss you.” Is all he says.
Taehyung’s hair is now dyed brown from the previous golden hair he had before. He’s changed.
“Well I don’t miss you. So…” He tries to close the door, but Taehyung grabs it before he can.
“Jungkook, stop.”
Jungkook huffs, “go back to that greasy fucking joke of a man.”
“I don’t want him.” Jungkook just stares at the other one, “I want you. Always wanted you.”
He is trying so hard to play it cool and not completely melt for Taehyung. It’s so difficult because Taehyung looks absolutely gorgeous. He’s also wet and he doesn’t want the boy to catch a cold. “Hm. Well just come in and take a shower because you’re all drenched.”
Taehyung smiles and Jungkook feels like ten years has been added onto his life. Once Taehyung disappears into the bathroom he goes into the kitchen and leans against the counter. He’s trying to catch his breath, his eyes closing gently. Taehyung is back. And this time he won’t let him go.
After his shower he joins Jungkook in the kitchen. “Are you upset with me?” Jungkook is silent while he cuts the vegetables. “Jungkook-ah, speak to mee~”
“Where were you?” He says softly, putting the sliced veggies in the sauce pan. “I called you. A lot. Where have you been?”
“Can you blame me? I asked you how you felt about me and you just stood there. I was heartbroken.”
“And now…?”
Taehyung shrugs, “you go first.” Jungkook sighs and puts his attention back onto cooking. “You know I went to Bo-gum first before coming to see you.” Jungkook stops all action and glares at him. “I’m kidding, I’m kidding! We haven’t really spoken in a while since he confessed to me.”
Jungkook rolls his eyes, “don’t do that again, Taehyung.”
“What joke around?”
“Leave.” He doesn’t meet Tae’s gaze, “It didn’t feel great not having you here…I don’t know. Felt kind of empty.”
“How do you think I felt being away?”
“Then why did you do it?” Jungkook’s eyes are sad as they focus on the other. “You didn’t even call me or text me-”
“Because I’m in love with you.” Taehyung shakes his head, “I needed to step away from you because my emotions were getting too intense to deal with. You’re all I think about and it’s suffocating that you don’t feel the same way. But I found that it feels even worse when I’m away from you. So I’ll stick to you until you fall for me in the same way. I don’t care anymore. It’s more painful being away from you.”
Jungkook licks his lips trying not to smile, “You like me that much?”
Taehyung pushes his shoulder softly, “You punk. Like is not a big enough word for how I feel about you.” He surveys Jungkook’s grin. “You still haven’t told me how you feel yet.”
Jungkook grabs Tae’s hips and pushes his back against the kitchen counter, leaning closer. “Do you want to know how you make me feel?”
“Don’t just kiss me-”
Jungkook leans in anyway and kisses him slowly, pouring every emotion into that kiss. He doesn’t even push his tongue in, just wants Taheyung to taste the longing he’s been harboring all this time. Then he grabs Tae’s hand and puts it on his chest.
When they part, they’re still close and Jungkook searches Tae’s eyes. Taehyung’s eyes are wide as his hand ghosts over Jungkook’s chest. Feeling how hurried his heart is beating. Jungkook is still close, “this is every time I kiss you, Taehyung. My heart feels like this. I think you’re my euphoria.”
“Jungkook…”
“It’s so silly. I’m so fucking lost, Taheyung. You won, alright? I give up.” He leans in again kissing him so deep, scared that he will wake up and it will be a dream. If it is, he wants to kiss him so eagerly that he remembers the taste and feeling of Taehyung.
⌦
That week goes by and Jungkook can’t even remember the last time he’s spoken with his friends. Besides Taehyung, he’s only spoken to Yoongi who came banging on their door because he’s been watching Yeontan all this time.
They haven’t had sex yet and Jungkook tries to convince himself it’s because there hasn’t been the right time. But he knows that’s a lie. They make out all the time, and it gets pretty heated. One night Taehyung did give him head, but it didn’t go further than that.
In reality he’s very nervous.
The first time they fucked, it was a one off thing and he didn’t have anything to lose or prove. He’s scared that if they do it and it’s bad Taehyung will start losing interest.
They havent officially started dating, but it feels that way. They don’t see anyone else and Jungkook makes that clear by giving Taehyung his password if he ever felt the need to go through his phone. He never brings up the Greece guy but he doesn’t feel the need, not when Taehyung is in his bed everynight kissing him until they fall asleep.
Then Taehyung’s birthday comes around and he can’t stop dropping hints about it to Jungkook. As if the other would ever forget, though.
“Today is a nice day. What should we do today?” Taehyung asks sitting on the bed wearing an overside white shirt, exposing a bit of his shoulder. Jungkook shrugs while standing up, looking at himself in the mirror as he gets dressed. “So you don’t have anything special planned?”
“Nope.” Jungkook walks over and leans across the bed pecking Tae on the lips. “Why do you? Should I expect you back late?” He pecks his lips again once more before moving back and walking to his dresser to apply his cologne.
Taehyung huffs and crosses his arms, Jungkook smiles to himself. “I guess not.”
“Why are you sulking?” He teases the other one.
“I’m not.”
Jungkook laughs and grabs his gym bag, “okay. Well I’m going boxing with Jin. I’ll see you after your classes today-”
“No. I’m not going to my classes today. I’m skipping them..”
He nods slightly, “wow, what a rebel. I’ll see you later.”
As soon as he leaves Taehyung texts Jimin, angry that Jungkook forgot his birthday. The other one simply responds they can do something together later. Tae just doesn’t know everyone will be there and it’s actually a surprise party.
Jimin calls Jin and Jungkook during their boxing session and tells them and Jungkook’s heart warms. Taehyung is so gullible about these things.
“Can’t believe he actually thinks you forgot.” Jin laughs while putting on his gloves.
“You see why I call him my idiot. Because he is.” Jungkook giggles stretching, getting ready to box. “Jin, I like him a lot.”
“I know you do. When he came back you went MIA. We didn’t even know he came back until Jimin and Hobi went over and they said it looked like you got attacked by a vampire, which..” Jin surveys his best friend’s neck and sees the stinging hickeys. “Are still there.”
Taehyung dresses up to go hang out with Jimin because his own angel forgot about his birthday. He’s so upset with him so he’s going to drink away his sad thoughts tonight. He’s wearing a white shirt tucked into loose tan trousers. He puts on his pink gloss and dainty gold jewlry pieces and walks out Jungkook’s apartment.
Instead of Jimin standing there, it’s Jungkook standing by his black porche wearing all black. He’s wearing a short sleeved top with ripped jeans adorned with heavy boots. He looks stunning. “I’m guessing Jimin told you?” He walks up to Jungkook.
“Come here.” Jungkook smiles reaching out and pulling him in by the waist. He kisses him gently and when he moves away there's a golden rose in between them. “Happy birthday.”
“You didn’t forget?” He eyes the similar golden rose. Just like the one he got Jungkook on their very first date.
“How could I forget? What the hell…?”
Taehyung giggles and wraps his arms tightly around Jungkook's waist, breathing in his floral scent. “I love you.” He mumbles in the broad chest. Jungkook wraps his arms around Taehyung’s neck, leaning down and kissing the top of his now brown hair.
Throughout the party, Taehyung feels so heard from Jungkook. He can tell the angel boy is trying. He got him a golden rose, just like he did once before, just like the art piece he saw in Taehyung’s studio. All the food options are mostly spicy, catering to him. The birthday cake is colorful and designed with a portrait of him and Yeontan.
His art club friends are there too, and everything just seems so perfect. He hopes it can be like this forever.
When they get home Yeontan runs to Jungkook, and he picks him up walking over to his food bowl to fill it up again. After that, he takes him outside.
They get ready for bed and finishing shower and brushing their teeth.
“Taehyung, come here for a second.” Jungkook whispers standing by the bedroom door, watching Taehyung jump into the bed. He leads him to the living room and grabs a box, handing it to him.
“Huh?” The other questions softly.
“Just open it.” Taehyung opens the box and sees a dainty gold ring, his eyes widen. “This isn’t a proposal you idiot. Just thought it would suit you.”
Taehyung giggles and hugs Jungkook tightly, not wanting to let him go. “This was the best birthday ever.”
Jungkook kisses his cheek and hugs him back, “ever, ever?”
“I spent my favorite birthday with my favorite angel baby. Yes, ever,” he moves away slightly to kiss Jungkook on the mouth. “Ever,” he kisses him again, “ever,” another kiss.
Jungkook grabs his face, done with the tiny pecks Taehyung has been feeding him. His heart begins to race as he kisses him. They do this all the time but every time he’s always left breathless. He’s kissed so many people in his lifetime, but nothing ever felt this euphoric.
There’s something about the way Taehyung kisses him back so gently and lovingly. Like he’s so special and deserves everything he wants. Jungkook can’t help but smile through the deep kiss because the other one is slowly becoming his entire world. His entire reason for breathing, waking up.
He feels Taehyung’s slender fingers at his waist, lifting the fabric there, touching his bare skin. His heart catches on fire in that exact moment. Taehyung moans lowly in Jungkook’s mouth, his fingers digging deeper at his waist.
“Let’s…” Jungkook still kisses him, his mouth hovering over the red lips while he speaks, “go to the bedroom.”
“To sleep?” Taehyung whispers lowly.
Jungkook just shakes his head and picks Taehyung up, walking over to the room. He presses him against the door, causing it to close shut. He lets him down and slowly sinks down to his knees, kissing Taehyung everywhere on the way down. Jungkook’s hand lifts up his shirt, pressing kisses there.
Taehyung throws his head back as he feels a warm mouth against his groin. This is the first time Jungkook has given him head, and Tae is already breaking the first few seconds in. All he hears is Jungkook slurping. Tae arches his back against the door as Jungkook swirls his tongue against his length, saliva dripping down his chin.
It’s Jungkook’s first time giving a blow job so he’s using a bit of teeth but Taehyung doesn’t give two fucks, it feels amazing. He moans loudly, his head falling back against the door as he grips Jungkook’s black locks. Jungkook’s head bobs as he works on Taehyung’s length. The blow job is so sloppy and wet. Taehyung looks down at Jungkook and the other is staring right back at him. “Fuck, baby. Don’t stop.” This blow job is consuming Taehyung’s entire being.
Tae’s engulfed in wet heat and he feels the vibration of Jungkook groaning on him. Suddenly the warmth is gone and Jungkook is standing in front of him, grabbing his face, kissing him recklessly. The kiss is so demanding. So needy. So rushed. Then Tae is being pushed down on the bed and Jungkook is hovering over him.
Taehyung’s shirt is discarded somewhere in the room and he’s whimpering due to the wet mouth taking in his nipple. Jungkook’s tongue laps against the bud, casually dragging his teeth there causing it to go red and puffy. Tae hates how he’s been void of this feeling all this time. Then he feels a wet finger being pushed inside of him.
He’s so lost because he doesn’t even remember Jungkook licking his fingers at all. Taehyung grips the sheets crying out loudly feeling his spot being stimulated. His toes curl up and his eyes squeeze shut. Taehyung is a moaning mess as Jungkook massages him while sucking and licking at his nipples.
“Do you want me to stop?” Jungkook mumurms while dragging his tongue against Taehyung’s neck.
“Don’t you dare fucking stop.”
“No?” He then teasingly bites at his skin, caring after it with messy wet kisses.
Taehyung grabs Jungkook’s neck, shivering while Jungkook gives him hickeys. “No.” Three fingers are in him at this point, destroying him beautifully. “I want it.”
“What do you want?”
“Fuck me.”
“You want me to fuck you?” Jungkook whispers his ear then goes back to sucking kisses into his neck, leaving bruises. “You sure you can handle it? When I’m inside you, I won’t be able to stop fucking you into this mattress. I’ll enjoy it too much.”
“Please.” Taehyung drags out a long moan, his entrance producing slick. “Ah!” He cries out when he feels pressure at his opening. Jungkook nuzzles his face into the side of Taehyung’s neck as he slowly buries himself inside. Taehyung is so loud as he gets adjusted to Jungkook’s impressive girth. He hears Jungkook panting as he softly pulls out just to push back in.
“You feel so warm, baby.” Hearing the pet name only makes Taehyung whine and shake. Jungkook is destorying him little by little as he keeps a slow pace. “You take me so well, beautiful.” Then he grabs his hips and starts moving in quicker. Taehyung begins gasping once the speed picks up. It feels so good his eyes roll to the back of his head. “Fuck.” Jungkook breathes out lowly as he recklessly snaps his hips against Tae.
The bed begins to rock from Jungkook’s erratic thrusts. Taehyung rolls his hips against Jungkook, meeting his thrusts. Taehyung arches his back as Jungkook continues to hit that special spot, causing him to cry out. Jungkook is fucking into him as if he wants to break him. The sounds of the creaking bed and claps due to the storm-like rhythm ring loudly against the walls.
Every time Jungkook sinks inside it fills Taehyung up and it feels so fiery and rough. He’s pinned down by Jungkook’s heavy weight as he fucks in deeper. “Ah, ah, ah.” Taehyung pants out due to the powerful impact.
Then suddenly, their position shifts and he’s on top of Jungkook’s lap. Jungkook’s hands are roughly grabbing his ass as he begins to lift and lower him down on his dick.
Tae rose and fell from Jungkook’s hands, the pace fast and the rough. Taehyung goes up high then is brought back down so deep. Jungkook’s head is against the pillow with his eyes closed, panting with every clap. He slaps Taehyung’s ass as he lifts and drops him down mercilessly. Then his hand wraps around Tae’s length, dragging his fingers up and down, also teasing the tip.
Tae throws his head back whining loudly. Everything just feels so good. Jungkook’s hand working on his dick while he’s being fucked roughly. The pleasure becomes too much for him as he ejaculates over Jungkook’s chest. He can’t even catch his breath and recover from his high before he’s pushed to the ground. Jungkook throws the condom across the room and his length presses against Tae’s lips.
Taehyung obediently slurps on the length, his cheeks hallowing. Jungkook groans as his hips snap against that mouth, cuming. Taehyung swallows the musky substance, some cum dripping out from the corners of his mouth. Some may think the taste is bitter, but it tastes like heaven to him. He continues to suck as Jungkook curses loudly, continuing to thrust softly into Tae’s mouth, riding out his orgasm. “You did so well, baby.” Jungkook’s thumb rubs against Taehyung’s mouth as his dick falls out from the wet entrance.
⌦
Taehyung wakes up with new sheets on the bed and a loose white tee with comfortable boxers on. He smiles breathing in the fresh scent of the replaced sheets. They fucked again through the night and it was amazing. He doesn’t remember falling asleep, but Jungkook replaced the sheets and cleaned him up. He squeals into the pillow getting flashbacks.
He brushes his teeth before heading into the kitchen smelling pancakes and eggs. Taehyung goes behind Jungkook and hugs his waist tightly, kissing the nape of his neck. “Good morning, Angel.”
Jungkook tries to walk around the kitchen with the sloth hanging from him. “Morning.” He grumbles back pouring himself some coffee.
“That was really nice. Better than our very first time.” He smiles in the back of Jungkook’s neck not letting go of him.
“Oh yeah?”
“Yeah.” He’s basically cooing, feeling like he’s in heaven. “Do you regret it?”
Jungkook scoffs while sipping at his coffee, “no, I don’t.” He turns around in Taehyung’s arms and pecks his lips a few times.
“I love you.” Taehyung smiles receiving more kisses from Jungkook after saying that. “Just admit you love me too.”
Jungkook ignores him moving away to set up their plates for breakfast. “Definitely not in love with you.” He nervously places the pancakes on the plate before clearing his throat. “Listen, I have a shoot this afternoon. A-after I’m not really doing anything and you’re not doing anything…so…” His sentence trails off, hoping Taehyung gets the message. He’s not used to asking a man out so this kind of stuff makes his palms sweaty and heart race. “If you don’t want to that’s fine, but…”
Taehyung hugs him again causing Jungkook to chuckle and hug him back. “Yes, of course! We can go on a date.” He tilts his head up and kisses Jungkook slowly. This feels like a dream and he sure doesn’t want to fucking wake up.
Jungkook leaves for his shoot later that day. Taehyung takes Yeontan for a small walk and meets with Jimin at a nearby cafe. He keeps the dog close to him while they sit so he doesn’t attack Jimin’s innocent ankles. Taehyung eyes the small smile on Jimin’s face while he texts, but decides not to comment on it. Their pastries and drinks come and they begin to talk about random stuff.
He mentions how they’re finally going a real date and how excited he is. Later, Jimin comes back to Jungkook’s place with Taehyung to help the boy pick out an outfit for today. Jungkook still has not made it back yet, still working on his shoot.
Jimin eyes this purple jumper and pulls it out, “this is nice!”
Taehyung eyes the purple gingerbread jumper from Tuewid and grins brightly. He pairs it with brown cargo pants and adds gold jewelry pieces. Jimin thinks it is a good idea for Taehyung to get ready at his place so Jungkook can “pick him up” and have the real date experience.
The only issue is that they get caught up watching a drama that they forget to tell Jungkook that Taehyung is with Jimin. The drama is also so good, that they get distracted and don’t pay attention to their phones.
An hour later Jimin yawns and checks his phone seeing all the missed calls and texts from Jungkook. “Shit, shit, shit. Your boyfriend is worried.”
Taehyung looks over, the word boyfriend causing his stomach to go ablaze. “Really?”
Jimin smiles playing one of the voice messages Jungkook left on his phone. He sounds audibly frantic and he’s speaking so fast. Jimin laughs, kicking his legs up. He gives in and calls him letting him know Taehyung is at his place. Taehyung’s hands get sweaty as he waits for Jungkook to get him.
This is an official date, and he’s very nervous. He knows that if he messes anything up it can be the end of what they have. Jimin’s door goes off and Taehyung’s heart drops. Jimin looks at Taehyung and nods at him, “don’t be nervous. You got this.”
Taehyung lets out a deep exhale and goes to the door, opening it. Jungkook looks absolutely breathtaking. He’s wearing a loose brown dress shirt tucked into ripped blue jeans. His black heavy boots giving him some height. Jungkook is biting his lip nervously, teeth clashing with his lip piercing. “Hey.”
“Hi, Angel. You look so pretty.” Tae hugs Jungkook’s waist and kisses his chest, smelling the wonderful oak floral scent. He looks up, his chin propped on Jungkook’s clothed chest. “How do I look?”
"Unreal..." Jungkook runs his hand through the dusty brown locks, looking down at Tae’s puppy eyes. “Perfect.”
They ignore Jimin’s coos and get into Jungkook’s car. Taehyung is playing with Jungkook’s fingers as they drive through the city. He wouldn’t tell him where they are going, but he doesn’t care where because he’s with Jungkook. Tae kisses every tattoo inked into Jungkook’s hand, not seeing the shy smile the other has painted on his face.
They arrive in the downtown area where all the street food and night life is. Jungkook knows him so well. It’s very casual and there are many creatives out showcasing their talents. Dancers, artists, even people selling handmade clothes and trinkets. They walk around and taste various foods. Taehyung moans and closes his eyes, tasting the lovely hotteok, rice cake and mozzarella skewers, and dakkochi.
They go to a few artist booths, viewing the beautiful artwork people have created. They walk over to the crowd that has formed around a tiny jazz band. Jungkook watches how the other has stars in his eyes as he watches.
After a few hours they head back to Jungkook’s car, and they sit in there for a while to talk.
Jungkook is holding Tae’s hand now, playing with the gold ring he got him, sliding it up and down his slender finger. “I was so worried.” He chuckles, eyeing Taehyung’s fingers, as he fiddles with them. “I knew you were out with Jimin but you both weren’t answering…”
Taehyung cheeses and quickly pecks Jungkook’s mouth, “sorry, Angel.” He leans his head on the headrest, staring at Jungkook. “Shouldn’t have made you worry about your two best friends.” He says this as an opening for Jungkook to hopefully correct him.
“I don’t…” Jungkook can’t seem to look in Tae’s eyes, “I don’t wanna just be your friend.” He finally glances up, his eyes searching Tae’s light brown ones. “I wanna be more than that.” Jungkook surveys Taehyung’s smile and it makes his chest feel lighter. “I’m bad at these kind of things. My dad wasn’t the best role model, but I’ll learn for you. I’ll do anything for you.”
Taehyung laughs and crawls into Jungkook’s lap kissing him deeply. Jungkook’s hands rest on Tae’s ass, squeezing softly while kissing him back. They may have or may have not fucked in the backseat. Taehyung kept saying it’s okay because Jungkook’s windows are tinted.
⌦
There’s no way to describe how Taehyung’s heart feels when he’s woken up to slow kisses. Jungkook. His boyfriend. His boyfriend. His boyfriend. Everything is just perfect, too perfect. They get ready for the day because they are meeting with Jungkook’s mom to tell her the news. They brush their teeth next to each other, eyeing each other in the mirror.
“I have the cutest boyfriend.” Taehyung takes a break from brushing staring at Jungkook through the mirror. Jungkook just smiles and rolls his eyes, spitting into the sink before walking away. He greets Yeontan and puts food in his bowl, taking him outside while Taehyung finishes getting ready.
After, they head to Jungkook’s family home and Taehyung is so giddy, so excited to share the news. Taehyung welcomes Bam, kneeling in front of him, petting him while Jungkook’s mom prepares drinks for them both.
“So, mother. We have something to tell you.” Jungkook begins slowly, leaning against the kitchen counter. She just continues to pour the wine, waiting for him to continue. “Taehyung is my boyfriend.”
She stops all action and looks back and forth between them. “FINALLY!!!” She goes to hug Taehyung and the boy laughs in return, hugging her back. “You make my kook so happy, thank you!!”
Hours pass and they are still talking, but at this point Jungkook’s mother is wine drunk. She is showing Taehyung all of Jungkook’s baby picture, ignoring her son’s embarrassment. He keeps trying to stop her from showing Taehyung but she moves the picture away from his grasp showing his boyfriend anyway.
Jungkook notices his boyfriend is slowly getting drunk as well. Giggling and gossiping with his mother. He knows Taehyung is at his limit and doesn’t want him to get sick. “Okay, mother. We have to go. He’s too drunk, right now.” He tries to grab Taehyung but the other moves away trying to run. Jungkook quickly grabs his waist, stopping him in his tracks, causing him to pout. “I don’t care.” He sees that frown when he turns Tae around to look in his eyes. “We need to go home, the little rat probably misses you anyway.”
“He likes you more than me and you know that!” He whines, his eyes getting wet, his lip still jutted out.
“Just spend the niiight~” his mom dangles over the arm of the chair.
“Tell me you like me~” Taehyung looks up, his eyes half-closed.
“Tae-”
“Give me a kisssss~” He pokes out his lips, closing his eyes fully.
Jungkook rubs his boyfriend’s back knowing he will have to make the other hangover soup tomorrow. He just has to watch him closely so he doesn’t hurt himself tonight. “Mother, we’re leaving.”
She picks up her phone, trying to silence the loud ringing. Her face changes, her jaw dropping. The phone falls from her hands. “Your father…”
“Huh?” Jungkook is distracted by Taehyung trying to leave his strong hold, “Tae, stop.”
“He got in an accident. Crashed into a tree. His alcohol level was very high.”
Jungkook just simply blinks at her, wondering if this is actually happening or if it’s a dream. He then looks at Taehyung who suddenly fell asleep, not hearing any of that. He feels a little sick because he hasn’t spoken to his father in a while, the last time they spoke they were arguing. Although, he feels sick he hates how he doesn’t feel that bothered by it.
He knows his mother is deeply affected by this so he places Taehyung on the couch and tries to comfort her. She just simply shakes her head and mentions they should leave for the night. She makes sure to tell Jungkook to drive safe.
Jungkook picks Taehyung up and walks to the car, he places him in gently and watches him as he drives back. This is what Taehyung worries about. Why he hates when Jungkook drives drunk. As he drives vivid memories of his dad keep replaying in his mind.
Him coming back home drunk out of his mind. Yelling, slobber dripping from the corners of his mouth. Jungkook vowed never to become like that. Now that he has Taehyung, he refuses to let him down. The worst part is going to have to tell Taheyung and look overcome by the news.
⌦
Taehyung wakes up the next morning with a pounding headache and upset stomach. He pouts while rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He goes to the restroom to brush his teeth and takes a quick shower. Tae walks out into the living area to greet Yeontan, but he doesn’t see him. “Angel?” He softly calls looking for Jungkook who is nowhere to be found.
Then the door opens revealing Jungkook and Yeontan. The other just came back from their morning walk. Jungkook takes off his jacket and Yeontan’s leash, so the dog can run to Tae. Jungkook sees the sleepy look on his boyfriend’s face, probably struggling with a hangover as well. “You alright?” Taehyung shakes his head and Jungkook sighs walking into the kitchen to grab advil for his headache. “I made you some soup before I took Yeontan for a walk, let me warm it up for you. Come here. Kisses make hangovers less annoying.”
Taehyung walks over and accepts his small short kisses from Jungkook. His arms are wrapped around Jungkook’s waist as the other moves through the kitchen. “I heard about your dad, baby.” Jungkook stills thinking Tae was asleep all that time and didn’t hear anything. “It’s okay that you aren’t that hurt by it okay? If anyone says any different I’ll fucking kill them.”
Jungkook shakes his head, “I just feel weird how I am just…” He grabs a paper towel and puts the two tiny pills on it. “I’m not happy, but I’m also not that upset. It sucks because what son doesn’t want a relationship with their dad? But I’ve been grieving the loss of my dad since I was a kid. So it feels like I’ve completed the stages of grief early.”
Taehyung sighs deeply, hating how Jungkook never got the chance to have a healthy relationship with his dad. It’s unfair. He hugs him tightly before taking the pills Jungkook set out for him. “You have your mom, your friends and me. I know we’re not equivalent to your dad but-”
Jungkook looks down at the counter, raising his brows, “you’re way more than that. Don’t compare yourself with anyone, alright?”
After Jungkook warms up the hang over soup for Taehyung they go into bed and cuddle while watching k-dramas. Taehyung yawns about to drift off, not noticing Jungkook staring at him. He smiles at the sleepy boy. “I was thinking.” Taehyung hums softly, “I should get a tattoo, right across my chest that just says ‘Tae’”
Taehyung laughs lightly, his eyelids half closed. “You’re so silly. Then I will get one across my forehead that says ‘Angel’”
Jungkook giggles and presses their lips together, giving him a long kiss. Once he pulls away the other is fast asleep.
⌦
Everything feels so easy and simple over the next couple of months. They go on weekly dates, even group dates with Seo-Joon and his girlfriend. After classes and practice they usually cook a meal at home, Taehyung always comes close to burning it. They take Yeontan to the dog park so he can socialize with other dogs. They even bring Yeontan to Jungkook’s family home so he can play with Bam.
However, Jungkook begins to get a burning feeling in his gut. It keeps growing stronger and stronger everyday. It begins to overpower his entire body, controlling him and make him think out of the ordinary thoughts. It’s very powerful and scary.
His little idiot is the most compassionate, lovely, etheral person he’s ever met. And it’s terrifying him. He’s scared to lose him. Scared to fight with him. Scared to love him. Every time they fuck, kiss, sleep together, it renders him breathless. Taehyung still has that same glint in his eyes that only he is privy to see. He hopes that never goes away because he thinks he’s falling in love with him.
Sometimes it feels he cares for the other more because Jungkook just wants to be around him all day. Taehyung seems less clingy, doesn’t ask for kisses as much. He wonders if it’s because he is becoming more and more infatuated with the boy and /he’s/ actually the clingy one.
He has the stupid idea to pull back and try to control those strong emotions. Being that strung out over one person is very unhealth, and he knows that. In the mornings, he doesn’t offer to cook breakfast anymore. Doesn’t give Tae his morning kisses either, which the other notices quickly.
After classes and soccer practice, instead of coming back to meet with Tae, he hangs out at Jin and Namjoon’s flat.
One Friday morning he tries to scurry out before Taehyung wakes, but he hears grumbling. He looks over and sees Tae rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He yawns, “where are you going? There’s no classes today.”
Jungkook’s knees go weak seeing how puffy his face is, and how his brown hair is all messy and curly. His heart begins to beat faster and faster that he tries to calm it by pressing his fingers into his chest. How he feels for Taehyung is very overwhelming and he can’t breathe. It’s scaring him to death. “Hey, Tae.”
His boyfriend has a tired pout, “I wanna cuddle with you. Why haven’t you been here?”
Jungkook strides over and peers over him, placing his hands on the bed. He leans down and kisses Taehyung softly. “I’m going boxing with Jin. I’ll be back a little later.” Then he leaves, causing Taehyung’s thoughts to spiral.
Later on, Tae is out with Jimin and they’re walking through downtown looking at all the shops. Occasionally, Tae sees Jimin smiling at his phone, which he’s been doing every time they hang out. “What buff man has you giddy like this, Mimi?”
Jimin scoffs and pushes his phone into his jeans, “no one. Just checking my bank account. I see a lot of zeros.” They walk around some more and stop for some food, sitting down to eat. Jimin notices how the other is moving his chopsticks around in the ramen, quiet. “You good? You’ve been dragging your feet today.”
“Jungkook has been acting weird.”
“That boy is always weird ever since you came along.”
Taehyung shakes his head, “I don’t think he likes me anymore. He’s going to break up with me.”
Jimin chuckles knowing that’s the furthest thing from the truth. “Just talk to him about it. Trust me. I’m his best friend. I would know if he didn’t like you.”
“You sure?” Taehyung is very insecure, they haven’t had sex in a week either. Jungkook kisses him, but they are simple pecks. It’s driving him mad. Seems like he’s ignoring me. I love him so much I don’t want to lose him.”
Jimin coos and runs his hand through Taehyung’s locks trying to comfort him. He knows Jungkook likes Taehyung a lot, but his best friend is also scared to fall in love. If he feels himself getting too attached he will try to pull away. He can see that’s what he’s doing with Taehyung. He wants to talk to him about it before it goes too far.
Taehyung gets a text and he pauses, his eyebrows raising, “I have to go, Jimin.”
Jimin hums, “you okay?”
“It’s Bogum. He wants to catch up.”
He bids goodbye to Taehyung and watches the other walk away. He decides to meet up with Jungkook after he finishes his boxing session with Jin. He goes back to his flat and invites everyone over in the group chat. Hobi is the first to show, bringing some weed with him.
Then Jungkook shows and explains that Jin and Namjoon couldn’t come because they have a night class. Jimin wonders how to bring up how Tae is feeling he is going to wait until Jungkook is high. But, Jungkook doesn’t reach for a blunt, turning it down announcing that he has to drive home. Saying that Taehyung doesn’t like when he’s drunk or high and driving home. “You know he told me he thinks you’re going to dump him.”
Jungkook sighs, “really? Oh my-what an idiot.”
“Then he left to go hang out with Bogum.”
Jungkook rolls his eyes at the name, “I hate that gummy guy. That boy is in love with /me/ the fact he may think he has a chance is outrageous.”
“I think you should tell him how you feel…” Jimin starts, “how deeply you care for him.”
“I…” Jungkook trails off, pressing his tongue into his cheek. “He means everything to me. And it’s scaring the fuck out of me.”
“Just trust your gut. That man is not leaving you. There’s nothing to be scared of. He’s so understanding and caring as well. Any disagreement you guys may have I’m sure he will be willing to work it out. Don’t lose him again. I hate seeing sad JK.”
Jungkook chuckles and nods, “I should tell him everything tonight.”
When Jungkook gets home, the apartment is all dark and he doesn’t see Tae at all. He greets the little rat and takes him to use the rest room. He calls and calls Tae but he gets no response, causing his heart rate to pick up.
He leans over the counter, breathing heavily, “come on, Tae.” Jungkook pulls the phone from his ear, calling again, “pick up, baby.”
Then the door opens and he slumps over the kitchen counter, trying to slow his breathing. “Tae, where were you? I was calling.” Taehyung walks past him without another word, going into their bedroom. Jungkook follows behind him, “what’s wrong? What did Bogum say? Whatever he’s saying isn’t true.”
“Stop it. I just wanna be alone right now.” Taehyung changes out of his outfit and grabs a blanket and pillow, going back to the living room. Of course, Jungkook is right at his heels.
Jungkook runs his hands over his face, worried as fuck right now. “No, Taehyung, please.”
“Jungkook, leave me alone.” Tae lays on the couch dragging the blanket over him. “I’m sleeping on the couch tonight.”
He closes his eyes, “you mean the world to me, Tae. I can’t live without you.”
“I’m fine with you not loving me right now. But you have been ignoring me, and treating me differently, how do you think that makes me feel?”
Jungkook kneels down in front of him. “I’m so sorry. I just have difficulty sorting my feelings out. They’re strong, Tae. I don’t know to deal with them. I’m afraid one day you’ll wake up and not want me anymore. Love me anymore.”
Tae sees how Jungkook’s eyes are wet and he actually looks terrified. He frowns, sitting up. “Why would I ever leave you?”
Jungkook searches his boyfriend’s light brown eyes, his heart beating faster, “Taehyung…I think I love you.”
Tae stops breathing, his eyes widening, “huh?”
He blinks fast, trying to make his tears go away. “It’s very scary. I was trying to distance myself and thought maybe those feelings would disintegrate but it just made me fall even harder. I love how you look in the mornings. Your sleepy smiles and kisses. The way you hold my hand before we fall asleep, tracing my stupid tattoos. How you look at me, makes my body go limp.” Tae just stares at him and pouts turning the other way, sulking. Jungkook lets out a wet giggle, trying to keep his emotions under control. “Kiss me. I’ll cry if you don’t give me a k-”
Taehyung grabs Jungkook’s cheeks and presses his heart shaped lips onto Jungkook’s. They kiss slowly and Jungkook picks him up, taking them to the bed room.
Later that night they’re in bed naked, gazing at each other. Taehyung is caressing Jungkook’s ear, playing with his earrings. “I love you so much. I love the way your eyes crinkle when you laugh. How you watch over me when we cook.” He wraps his arms around Jungkook’s neck, bringing their naked bodies closer. “The way you smell after working out.” Taehyung smiles widely reacting to Jungkook’s eye roll and scoff. “The way you kiss me.” He leans in, pecking him a few times. “Your little dimple coming out when you smile too hard.” Tae studies his boyfriend’s eyes. “How passionate you are about photography. How you support me with my art. Coming to my events even though you may not understand. Just so many things. I will never leave you, I’m not letting you go…ever.”
Jungkook rolls on top of Taehyung, joining their lips together in a passionate exchange. He pools his tongue in Taehyung’s mouth, licking deeply. He bites gently on Taehyung’s mouth, pushing his length into Taehyung’s entrance. They continue to kiss as Jungkook rocks his shaft slow and deep into him. Jungkook grunts and pants over him, the pace still dangerously unhurried and profound. Taehyung arches his back just taking the deep thrusts, letting Jungkook fuck him slowly.
Taehyung whimpers with every push, shutting his eyes as he’s being manhandled. “On top.”
“Huh?” Jungkook is still working as his boyfriend moans under him.
“On top.” Taehyung breathes out desperately.
“You wanna be on top, baby?” Jungkook whispers back. Taehyung nods, causing Jungkook to pull him over him. His length is still buried deep inside, stirring around from the rough movement.
Taehyung places his hands on Jungkook’s chest and begins slowly rising and falling on the impressive girth. Jungkook’s hands grip his ass roughly, allowing Taehyung to set the pace. This is their second round so his dick slides in easily, being suffocated by the warm heat. He fucks himself on the twitching and hard length. The tip peeking out, angry and red when he rises up.
Taehyung moves down, kissing Jungkook slowly as the man underneath takes over and starts moving him up and down. They kiss for a while, slowly fucking through the night.
⌦
The next morning, they’re still in a daze giggling and kissing in the sheets. Taehyung doesn’t care that Jungkook is all marked up, but the other is kind of upset because he has some shoots today. “I’ll help you cover themmm~” He whines, his arms wrapped around Jungkook’s neck. Taehyung smile is so wide as he takes in how upset Jungkook is.
“Oh, you’ll cover them?” He leans in and kisses Tae’s smile away. “Highly doubt that. You have me looking like a fucking vampire attacked me.”
Taehyung giggles dragging Jungkook even close, hugging him so tight. “I love you.”
Jungkook kisses the side of Taehyung’s neck, hugging him back, “I love you.” He presses kisses all over Taehyung’s face. His nose, cheek, temples, lips, chin. “You’re my little idiot.”
“You’re my angel.”
When they finally shower, Taehyung bids Jungkook goodbye while he goes to his shoot. As promised, before his boyfriend left, he perched himself on top of Jungkook’s lap and covered the marks up with concealer.
He waits for him to come back, playing fetch with Yeontan and taking him for a short walk. Once his boyfriend comes through the door, they both run to him attacking him. “I missed you!”
“I was gone for two hours!” He tries to move through the door. Difficult because of the dead weight attached to his body. “I was thinking of visiting my dad’s grave today.”
“Really? No one’s forcing you?”
Jungkook hears the anger in his tone, and smiles, loving how protective the other one is. “No one is forcing me, baby, don’t get all upset. I just wanna go.”
“Okay, I’ll go get dressed!” He finally detaches himself from Jungkook and jogs to their bedroom, going to put on some clothes.
They drive to his dad’s stone and Taehyung squeezes Jungkook’s hand trying to show him some sort of comfort. The air is cold as they stare at the red flowers placed next to the stone. Jungkook feels weird not having his dad constantly berate him. His mind is so clear now. He can fully see his future. He knows Taehyung will be there by his side through everything and that’s all that matters.
Tae supports him with every decision and doesn’t judge him. He’s so glad he slept with him that night at the party. He doesn’t want to think about what life would be like without him. Very dark and blue with a heavy lonely heart. He leans over and kisses Taehyung’s temple, staring down at the grave.
⌦ One Year Later ⌦
Taehyung and Jungkook have been dating for a year and in that time they got a new bigger place. Their new place is big enough to have Bam and Yeontan. The brothers get along so well, playing and eating together every night. They take them on cute walks together, the size difference between the pups so dramatic.
They’ve both graduated college so are working on their long term careers. Jungkook has been able to book more high-profile clients and has his own company now. Taehyung works on commission paintings and teaches art classes on the weekend.
They come back from a cute date and Yoongi was nice enough to watch Bam and Yeontan since they were going to be gone for a while. As they get to the door, Jungkook fumbles with the keys because he’s told Taehyung he will play him a song for him on his guitar. He expressed he wrote it after their fight coming back from Greece.
Now Jungkook is nervous while Taehyung is beaming and bouncing with excitement next to him. “My baby angel is going to serenade me.”
“Stoppp~” Jungkook whines, opening the door, but freezing at the sight.
Taehyung squeals and immediately turns around covering his eyes.
“Shitshitshitshit.” Yoongi grumbles pulling on his clothes. Right above him is Jimin coughing and quickly putting his clothes back on. “You guys are home early…”
Jungkook just stands there awkwardly as his best friend squirms out the house, not sparing a glance in his direction. He drags his hands down his face as Yoongi follows Jimin out the door.
Taehyung and Jungkook look at each other and then look towards the couch. “I’m throwing out that couch. Tonight.”
The room goes quiet and then Taehyung speaks up, “I still want my pretty song from my pretty boyfriend.”
Jungkook grimaces, “oh my god, Taehyung.”