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We Make Our Hearts

Summary:

In this short play, Beverly and Kate meet just before Kate becomes the Enterprise's new CMO.

Notes:

(See the end of the work for notes.)

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DRAMATIS PERSONAE

DR. BEVERLY CRUSHER
CMDR. WILLIAM T. RIKER
CPT. JEAN-LUC PICARD
DR. KATHERINE PULASKI

 

The scene is set in the living room section of the Chief Medical Officer’s quarters on the Enterprise-D. The door to the corridor is at the back of the stage. On stage right, another door leads to the bedroom/bathroom.

A table with two chairs, a sofa and armchairs around a coffee table. The light is on DR. BEVERLY CRUSHER sitting in one of the armchairs. The rest of the room is dimly lit. On the sofa, a half-packed beige travel bag and next to it, a few clothes and personal items along with another bag.

CRUSHER has been packing and she’s taking a rest, surveying her quarters; there’s a feeling of finality to her demeanour. She’s tired. She may have slept very little the previous night.

CRUSHER, with a sigh

Computer, time.

COMPUTER

The time is fifteen-oh-nine hours.

CRUSHER

Damn it.

CRUSHER gets up and continues packing, fetching her things from her bedroom and putting them on the sofa and into her bag. The light has gradually shifted to normal lighting so that her entire quarters are now visible. The work console is empty, as are the shelves. It’s clear that most of CRUSHER’s things have already been taken out of her quarters.

CMDR. WILLIAM T. RIKER, over comm

Riker to Dr. Crusher.

CRUSHER

Go ahead, commander.

RIKER, over comm

Doctor, the shuttle carrying the transfers is just about to dock.

CRUSHER

Thank you. I’ll be right there.

RIKER, over comm

Good. They’ll be arriving in shuttlebay two.

CRUSHER

Shuttlebay two, noted. Crusher out.

CRUSHER goes to the bathroom and rummages through her drawers. Her packing is more frantic now: she’s late, but it's not just that. She drops a thing or two as she walks back to the sofa, and it makes her mad – she scolds herself as she picks them up and stuffs them into her bag.

The door chimes.

CRUSHER

Come in!

The door opens, revealing CPT. JEAN-LUC PICARD standing in the corridor.

CRUSHER

Jean-Luc.

PICARD

I can come back later.

CRUSHER

No, please. I’m almost finished.

PICARD steps in, looks around the quarters, says nothing.

CRUSHER

I’m going to miss this place. It’s silly, but I never thought I’d leave the Enterprise.

PICARD

I hear she has that effect on most of us.

CRUSHER disappears into the bedroom to fetch some things. PICARD looks at one of the armchairs, awkwardly, and then elects not to sit down after all.

PICARD

Wesley seems to have taken the news well.

CRUSHER, off-stage

He’s a teenage boy, Jean-Luc. A teenage boy about to spend months on end without his mother to look over his shoulder and remind him of his bed time – of course he’s excited.

PICARD

I’ll have someone watch over him for you.

CRUSHER slips her head in through the door.

CRUSHER, with a smile

I was hoping that you and the rest of the bridge crew might keep an eye on Wes.

PICARD

Ah. Well. I’m sure Commander Riker –

CRUSHER

Relax, Jean-Luc. My son is old enough to look after himself.

PICARD, relaxing visibly

Of course he is.

CRUSHER comes back with a stack of clothes she shoves into her bag. Looking around she spots a book she’s left on her table.

CRUSHER

Would you pass me that book?

PICARD goes to pick up the book. It’s a copy of a translation of Hervé Son of Wekhur’s Unsung Battles.

PICARD

Klingon poetry?

CRUSHER

You sound surprised.

PICARD

I didn’t know you had an interest in Klingon culture.

CRUSHER

I have an interest in poetry. (She snaps the book from PICARD's hands.) You really should expand your repertoire. Read something that isn’t by Shakespeare. You might learn something.

PICARD

There isn’t a Human experience Shakespeare hasn’t written about.

CRUSHER, teasingly

And isn’t that a narrow-minded outlook.

She stuffs the book into the bag and then surveys the room for anything she might have forgotten. She's not done packing, and she's not fooling anyone.

CRUSHER

Well, then. Looks like I’m all good to go.

There’s a pause. Something floats by between CRUSHER and PICARD and neither of them are able to grasp at it.

PICARD, uneasy

I’ll let you get ready.

CRUSHER

Thank you. I won’t be long.

PICARD nods and steps to the door. It opens, but he pauses and turns back. For a moment it seems like he wants to say something – words that are too big for him, and then – a shift, and his shoulders slump down.

PICARD

I’ll meet you at the shuttle.

CRUSHER

Alright.

PICARD leaves her quarters and the door slides shut again. CRUSHER sighs and sits back down in her armchair, and she stares out at the audience as though she were looking out her windows into space.

After a moment she moves to get up – and the door chimes again.

CRUSHER

Come in.

The door slides open. DR. KATHERINE PULASKI is standing in the corridor, her own beige travel bag on her shoulder. CRUSHER freezes. PULASKI steps in, very slowly, as though pushing against knee-high water.

PULASKI

I went to Sick Bay. They told me you weren't there.

CRUSHER

No, I'm still packing.

PULASKI steps closer, looking around her new quarters, and sets down her bag next to the armchair opposite CRUSHER.

PULASKI

I hope you don't mind?

CRUSHER

Not at all, please.

PULASKI sits down. The room around them suddenly looks desperately empty.

CRUSHER

Would you like something from the replicator?

PULASKI

Not right now, thank you.

CRUSHER

I knew it was you when I heard there would be a shuttle transfer. You haven't changed a bit.

PULASKI

Oh, I have – just not on that front. As long as there are shuttles on starships I'll keep requesting them.

CRUSHER

Have you even tried it before? It's not as bad as you think it is.

PULASKI

I don't need to try it to know that I don't like it.

CRUSHER

That conversation rings a bell.

PULASKI smiles. The lighting has changed ever so slightly – it's warmer, perhaps, or kinder.

PULASKI

You look well.

CRUSHER

Thank you. So do you. How has the Repulse been treating you?

PULASKI

It wasn't easy at first, but Taggert is a good captain. I learned a lot from him.

CRUSHER

Are you thinking of trying your hand at command?

PULASKI, laughing

God, no. I've got more than enough responsibility as it is and I'd like to keep my blood pressure within normal levels for as long as I can, thank you.

CRUSHER

You'd look good in red.

PULASKI

I really wouldn't. But thank you for trying.

CRUSHER

Maybe if you dyed your hair…

PULASKI

We agreed never to talk about that unfortunate accident ever again.

CRUSHER

It was over twenty years ago, Kate.

PULASKI

And yet the memories are still fresh in my mind.

CRUSHER

I thought you looked cute.

PULASKI, smiling

I remember that, too.

CRUSHER, after a moment

Well. We should go to Sick Bay.

PULASKI

Surely we can take a moment. We'll say we got stopped on our way.

CRUSHER is indecisive, but then she smiles and stays put.

CRUSHER

All right. I'll tell them I got an urgent subspace transmission. Family emergency.

PULASKI

Perfect.

CRUSHER

They're a good team. Very talented and eager to learn. You won't have any trouble with them.

PULASKI

As long as they show up on time and do what needs to be done, I'm happy.

CRUSHER

Only the best people make it to the Enterprise.

PULASKI, teasingly

Don't flatter yourself.

CRUSHER doesn't answer.

PULASKI

May I ask you a personal question?

CRUSHER

Of course.

PULASKI

Why aren't you staying?

A beat.

CRUSHER

I need to be sure I'm in the right place.

PULASKI

As a Starfleet officer?

CRUSHER

As a doctor.

PULASKI

That sounds tricky.

CRUSHER

I've never questioned myself like this. I've always been clear on why I wanted to become a doctor and why I joined Starfleet, and I still am – I'm just not sure if the Enterprise is where I can accomplish it.

PULASKI

And Starfleet Medical could be.

CRUSHER

Yes. Now that I really know what Starfleet needs from its field doctors, this is the perfect opportunity to do some good in a way that doesn't feel so…

PULASKI

… so small.

CRUSHER

Yes.

PULASKI

I suppose that's our lot as starship doctors. You patch up what you can and hope for the best.

CRUSHER

Don't you feel helpless sometimes? Don't you feel like there's something more you should be doing, rather than sitting at your console waiting for someone to come in with a sprained ankle or an upset stomach?

PULASKI

That can't be all you see on the Enterprise.

CRUSHER

No, it isn't. (A pause.) How do you handle it?

PULASKI

I've done my share of theoretical work. One day I realised I'd hit the limit of what I could offer as a researcher and I asked to be posted on a starship.

CRUSHER

Just like that?

PULASKI

Just like that.

CRUSHER

And how did you know?

PULASKI

I didn't. I took a risk. Just like you are now.

CRUSHER

I hope it's worth it.

A moment of silence, full of avoided glances.

CRUSHER

I'm glad it's you.

PULASKI

Quite honestly, so am I. I requested the posting as soon as I heard it was available.

CRUSHER

A deep space mission on the fleet's flagship doesn't sound like you.

PULASKI

Should I be offended?

CRUSHER

No, it's just – it doesn't fit the Kate Pulaski I knew at the Academy. You weren't in it for the accolades.

PULASKI

I'm not here to shower myself in glory. And even if I were interested in that, I don't need it. You've probably heard of my paper on linear models of viral propagation?

CRUSHER

A classic.

PULASKI

After working with Dr. T'Mor on memory engram surgery procedures for so long I found myself missing the interaction with… live specimens, so to speak.

CRUSHER

You'll have more than enough of them here, trust me.

PULASKI, after a pause

You really do need a break, don't you?

CRUSHER

What gave me away?

PULASKI, chuckling

I think I changed my mind. Do you want something from the replicator?

PULASKI gets up and steps to the replicator.

CRUSHER

I should really finish packing.

PULASKI

A cold glass of Sapporan mineral water might help.

CRUSHER

Well, it certainly won't hurt.

PULASKI, to the replicator

Two glasses of Sapporan mineral water, ice cold.

Two identical drinks materialise in the replicator: high, rectangular glasses containing a transparent, pastel purple fizzy drink. PULASKI takes both of them back and sets them down on the coffee table.

PULASKI

Here you go.

CRUSHER

Thanks.

They raise their glasses and both take a small sip of their drink.

PULASKI

So, how long do you think you'll stay at Starfleet Medical?

CRUSHER

The paper I signed says at least a year. I hear they're hoping not to have to replace me for much longer than that.

PULASKI

I'm looking forward to reading about you in the FNS.

CRUSHER

I'll wink at you when they take my picture.

PULASKI

I'll wave back.

A moment; they both seem absorbed in their drink for a bit.

CRUSHER

Ah, I'm sorry. Here I am, complaining and asking you for advice when really I should be introducing you to the staff.

PULASKI

Just like old times.

CRUSHER, for lack of a better thing to say

Indeed.

CRUSHER gets up and goes into the bathroom, where she goes through her drawers again. PULASKI remains in her armchair.

CRUSHER, off stage

How many people did you have in Sick Bay on the Repulse?

PULASKI

Twenty-two, in three shifts. Eleven nurses, six doctors, two maintenance personnel, two decontamination personnel and a counsellor. We had close to a thousand souls on board.

CRUSHER, off stage

We've got twenty-nine. Our counsellor is assigned to General Operations instead of Sick Bay, but we’ve got eight doctors and fifteen nurses. I was thinking of dividing the workload and reorganising the shift schedule, actually.

PULASKI

Have you discussed it with them yet?

CRUSHER, off stage

Only with Strindberg. We haven’t decided on anything.

PULASKI

What about crew evaluations?

CRUSHER, off stage

Done quarterly by the First Officer and the ship’s counsellor. They’ll sometimes ask for your opinion but you’re not required to sit in on every single interview.

PULASKI

Alright. And the monthly reports are sent to…

CRUSHER, off stage

Starfleet Command terminal 118-23-24. There's a flashy note on my work console if you forget. But don't worry, I'll show you around.

PULASKI

Thanks. (She gets up and paces around the room, stopping by the dinner table to look out at the stars.) Anything else I should know?

CRUSHER, off stage

Not that I can think of. (She steps back into the room, carrying a pile of things to pack.) Biobed three has been acting up lately.

PULASKI, smiling

I'll remember that.

CRUSHER packs what she brought into the other bag on the sofa while PULASKI watches.

CRUSHER

I'll be done in a minute.

PULASKI

I don't think the shuttle is going to leave without you.

CRUSHER

I'm not taking that chance.

PULASKI

Is the idea of sharing quarters with me really so unappealing?

CRUSHER

You snore.

PULASKI

Not anymore. I got a CPAP machine.

CRUSHER, laughing

Alright, you've got me there. I'm staying.

PULASKI laughs and walks back to the armchair. She looks like she's about to say something, and then changes her mind. CRUSHER disappears back in the bedroom.

CRUSHER, off stage

Wesley will be staying aboard the Enterprise while I'm gone. He's been promoted to acting ensign by Jean-Luc.

PULASKI moves to sit back down but her eye catches the cover of the book in CRUSHER's open travel bag. She reaches for it and picks it up, opens it to the first page and reads, and then reads it again, and again. A faint smile dances around her mouth.

CRUSHER, off stage

He's got a lot to learn and he works hard. I think you two will get along.

PULASKI, distractedly

I'm sure we will.

CRUSHER, off stage

How old was he the last time you saw him?

PULASKI, still reading

Two, maybe three. I don't know.

CRUSHER, coming out of the bathroom

Well, he's definitely grown since then –

PULASKI shoves the book back into the bag.

CRUSHER

– and not a day goes by that he doesn't make me think of his father. He looks so much like Jack.

PULASKI

That's what genes do.

CRUSHER

Sometimes I do wish he'd gotten to meet his father.

PULASKI sits down and drinks from her glass.

PULASKI

I'm sorry I didn't call. After Jack.

CRUSHER

I don't know that I would have picked up, if that makes you feel any better.

PULASKI

Yes, you would've.

CRUSHER

It had been over seven years, Kate. I didn't expect you to call.

CRUSHER returns into the bedroom and comes back out seconds later with another stack of clothing.

CRUSHER

How has love been treating you?

PULASKI

I stayed busy, let's put it like that.

CRUSHER, laughing

Sounds fun.

PULASKI

It was, for the most part. You know me – I've got a thing for people who know how to enjoy themselves.

CRUSHER chuckles and closes the second bag.

CRUSHER

You used to be quite the party-goer.

PULASKI, smiling

I remember not being the only one. The only reason you didn't drink me under the table at the graduation party was because Jack was leaving early the next day.

CRUSHER

I would've won if not for that.

PULASKI

There's no doubt about it.

A pause.

CRUSHER

And did that business have a name?

PULASKI

Four, actually.

CRUSHER

Oh. (She sits back down in her armchair and takes a sip from her drink.) You weren't lying.

PULASKI

Well, as you pointed out, it has been over twenty years. How about you?

CRUSHER

A bit of romance here and there, but nothing serious. I don't think I've got time for that anymore, anyway.

PULASKI

No, of course not.

A sustained glance.

PULASKI

You kept the book.

A pause.

CRUSHER

Yes, I did.

PULASKI

It would have been a shame to toss it.

CRUSHER

I didn't think we'd see each other again… like this.

PULASKI

You always meet twice in life. My grandmother taught me that and she's never been wrong about it.

CRUSHER

Kate…

PULASKI

It was twenty years ago, Bev. I've moved on and so have you.

CRUSHER

You're right.

CRUSHER stands up, gets the book out of her bag and flips to the first page to the dedication PULASKI was reading earlier. She strokes the paper without thinking, traces along the letters with her fingers.

CRUSHER

'"There are no songs about that which did not happen", Hervé Son of Wekhur wrote. Twisting his words, I like to think that they wrote "We make our hearts" about us. Yours, always. Kate.' It's a beautiful book.

PULASKI

His best work.

CRUSHER

I quite liked The Broken Path to Glory, too. Worf lent me his copy. He’s got an extensive library and he’s happy to lend out his books, if you’re ever looking for Klingon poetry on paper.

CRUSHER puts the book back into the bag and sits down.

PULASKI

Do you remember that time we went to that poetry reading after finishing that bottle of Saurian brandy? On the campus, in the middle of the night?

CRUSHER

I do. You'd just started your new job at the lab and I dragged you out because I wanted to hear classical Andorii so badly.

PULASKI

You wanted to hear it live. That's why we went.

CRUSHER

It was really good though, wasn't it?

PULASKI

The beginning was. I’m afraid the rest is lost in brandy fog.

CRUSHER

Trust me, it was.

PULASKI

Well, you know what wasn't so good? The next morning at the lab.

CRUSHER

I think I missed my first class.

PULASKI

I hope you told them you had a hangover.

CRUSHER

I told them I'd missed my alarm. It wasn't a lie.

A pause. PULASKI drinks from her glass.

PULASKI

We had a good time together.

CRUSHER

We did. We did.

PULASKI

Are you planning to tell your son?

CRUSHER

No, I don't think I will.

PULASKI

Alright. Then I won't say a word.

CRUSHER

Thank you, Kate.

PULASKI smiles.

CRUSHER

I need to finish packing.

PULASKI

So you keep saying.

CRUSHER goes into the bedroom and comes back with one last stack of clothes she somehow manages to cram into her bags. Meanwhile PULASKI puts both glasses back into the replicator.

CRUSHER

You've got a gymnasium and the arboretum only two decks below and there's a nice observation room down the corridor. I think you’ve probably got the nicest quarters on the ship.

PULASKI

What about the captain?

CRUSHER

Don’t tell him I told you, but Jean-Luc has been trying to get his hands on my quarters ever since he had dinner here.

PULASKI

Beverly, don’t tell me that -

CRUSHER, with a sly smile

No. And I resent the fact you even thought I might.

PULASKI

Well, I hope he’s aware that I’m keeping these quarters. And that he won’t be invited to dinner while I’m here.

CRUSHER

Never say never.

PULASKI

I’m quite certain that this is one instance where that saying doesn’t apply.

CRUSHER closes her bag and gives a satisfied sigh.

CRUSHER

I think I’m done.

PULASKI

Well, then.

PULASKI gets up.

CRUSHER

It’s good to see you again, Kate. We should have done this sooner.

PULASKI

Maybe this is exactly the right time.

CRUSHER

Maybe.

PULASKI

Well, you know where to find me now.

CRUSHER

And if you ever get shore leave on Earth… You do remember how to get yourself to Starfleet Medical, don’t you?

PULASKI, laughing

It hasn’t been that long yet.

CRUSHER

I’m just checking.

PULASKI

Yes, well, let’s hope you remember the Sick Bay Handover Protocol as well as you should.

CRUSHER

We’ve got PADDs these days, darling. There’s no need to remember the whole protocol.

PULASKI

Ah, the arrogance of youth.

CRUSHER

You’d better get used to it. Most crewmembers on this ship are younger than you.

PULASKI

And are they as disrespectful as you are?

A beat. Memories swim between them, close enough to touch.

CRUSHER, smiling ruefully

We should get going.

PULASKI, after a moment

What about your luggage?

CRUSHER

I’ll have someone bring it to the shuttle.

PULASKI

Alright.

They both step to the door.

RIKER, over comm

Riker to Dr. Crusher.

CRUSHER

Go ahead.

RIKER, over comm

Doctor, Lieutenant Strindberg tells me neither you nor Dr. Pulaski have been in Sick Bay yet. What’s going on?

CRUSHER

Oh, yes, commander. We got stopped on the way but we’ll be there shortly.

RIKER, over comm

Alright. Riker out.

PULASKI

We got stopped on the way. Got it.

CRUSHER

Let's hope we don't actually get stopped on the way or they will end up leaving without me.

PULASKI

You can beam over if push comes to shove.

CRUSHER

I was hoping to avoid the farewell committee.

PULASKI

Your secret would be safe with me.

CRUSHER

And O'Brien, hopefully.

PULASKI

I'd make sure of it.

CRUSHER

That's not what the medical supplies cupboard is for.

PULASKI, chuckling

Come on, we really should get going.

CRUSHER

Yeah. Let's.

They leave the quarters through the door to the corridor. CRUSHER doesn't turn back, but PULASKI does. When the door closes behind them, the lights on the stage go out.

Notes:

This was written for Star Trek Femslash Week 2023 for the prompt "Treating Injuries".