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Namjoon was not feeling it that evening, he had already ordered dinner and he was just waiting for it to be delivered but he still felt like he couldn’t stop feeling sad.
It had been a long day, actually it had been such a long few weeks, work was going well, his new album was progressing as he was expecting and it was going to have a completely different vibe from Indigo, but he felt like today was not a good day at all.
How could it be? He wasn’t sure what had gone wrong, he never was completely sure of when things turned south and suddenly it was not easy to fix it. He remembered how at the beginning all those little misunderstandings had fuelled his creativity and they had become his muse… Indigo was filled with all those songs, they were bittersweet songs, songs from the start of a relationship, they were songs about beginnings, about closing previous eras, about finding their own feet in the midst of emotions, insecurities, desires and previous experiences… Now, he felt like the muse was leaving him for good…
He felt his eyes start to fill with tears and his nose started to itch and he couldn’t let this happen. He will not cry. He will focus on work and keep going. He had to. He had to do it for her, for him and for ARMY.
ARMY… maybe that was the answer he needed at this moment. He will talk to them, they will cheer him up with their nonsense and their questions. They will have all these theories about his new haircut and his weight loss.. Yes, that’s exactly what he needed, a distraction from ARMY. That will cheer him up and allow him to focus back on finishing the album.
Damn, not even Weverse was on his side tonight. He couldn’t read any of the comments and he couldn’t be bothered to restart the live show in case he changed his mind again. He rambled for a few minutes about what was going on in his life right now but even thinking about that was a difficult topic, he couldn’t remember much about anything apart from work, gym and missing you so fucking much, and he couldn’t say that on live, could he?
Had you watched it? Had you seen his sad face with his slightly red nose and his sad eyes? Would that live change some of the things that were making him feel sad?