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Felix and Hyunjin had turned in early on game night, when it became obvious that almost everyone else was getting increasingly drunk and they were done watching Jisung and Jeongin tease each other mercilessly.
They walked through the dark, quiet house silently, their arms wrapped around each other’s backs as they came up the stairs.
“Hey, since we’re not hiding it anymore, do you mind if we sleep in my room?” Felix asked as they came to the first landing.
“Are you kidding? I’m never sleeping in my own bed again,” Hyunjin replied and Felix chuckled as Hyunjin took his hand, leading the way down the hallway.
Once they were in the room, the door shut and locked behind them, Hyunjin began to undress down to his boxers. He wasn’t sure what to expect, especially not after he had just admitted their relationship to everyone, but he knew he was ready for anything, as long as it meant being close to Felix.
Felix had followed suit, stripping down to his underwear, and then he was smiling over at him, as if he knew what the look on his face meant.
“Come on, you look tired,” he said, leading the way to the bed and then sliding beneath the covers. He held his arms out to Hyunjin, who gladly fell against him, allowing Felix to wrap him in his arms and hold him tightly.
After laying in silence for a while, Hyunjin nudged Felix’s chest with his nose to see if he was awake.
“Hm?”
“Was it okay? Earlier, I mean?” Hyunjin asked quietly, peeking up at his face.
“Which part?”
“All of it. Kissing you in front of them, calling you my boyfriend.”
Felix sighed and smiled down at him. “Of course it is. You can kiss me in front of whoever you like.”
“I know that ,” Hyunjin replied, rolling his eyes slightly. “I just wanted to make sure it was okay, since it was the first time in front of everyone. And, I don’t know…was I supposed to ask you if you would be my boyfriend or something?”
Felix hesitated for a moment and then he slid down the bed until his face was even with Hyunjin’s.
“There’s no need to ask, my answer is obvious,” he said, taking both of Hyunjin’s hands into his own. “The other night, before…before I told you I loved you, I had said there was no need to be jealous. It wasn’t because your feelings were unwarranted or anything.” He reached out a hand and brushed his fingers gently along Hyunjin’s cheek. “It was because I already knew I was yours, as much as I hoped that you were mine.”
Hyunjin felt the crack in his chest rumble, as if it were threatening to open up and swallow him whole. Because, in a way, Felix was admitting to being possessive of him, and hoped that he felt the same way.
“I am,” Hyunjin replied quickly, mostly to quiet the darkness that was trying to escape inside of his chest. “I am yours.”
A sunshine smile blossomed on Felix’s face and he leaned forward, pressing a soft kiss to Hyunjin’s lips.
“I love you.”
It was still early when Felix opened his eyes the following morning. There was a soft light streaming in through the windows, bathing the room in a warm yellow glow. He shifted a little, adjusting himself in Hyunjin’s arms to get his shoulder into a more comfortable position, and, once he finally settled, he felt Hyunjin’s head fall down against his own, the older boy’s breath ghosting over the back of his neck. Felix smiled, closing his eyes to doze for a little bit.
He could tell not much time had passed when he opened his eyes again. He had spent the time on the brink of consciousness, not fully asleep, but still his mind had wandered in a dream-like state. Hyunjin had been the focus of his thoughts, his beautiful face and his sweet smile.
Suddenly yearning to see it in real time, Felix carefully rolled over until they were facing each other. Tucking one hand beneath his own cheek, he reached the other over and gently stroked a finger down the bridge of Hyunjin’s nose.
Hyunjin’s eyes slowly fluttered open and then a smile spread across his lips, causing Felix to shift his stare to them. Hyunjin stared back at him for a few moments, watching the sunlight glance off Felix’s cheek, and then they both moved at the same time, meeting in the middle in a hard kiss.
Somewhere in the back of his mind Felix registered that this kiss felt different, almost better than it ever had before, more intentional and full of purpose. He felt Hyunjin’s hands on his chest and then his shoulders, pulling him closer, and Felix pushed himself up on top of Hyunjin, laying himself against him as he deepened the kiss.
Hands found themselves exploring soft exposed skin and eventually the skin beneath the only bits of fabric either of them wore. It wasn’t long until they were both completely bare beneath the covers, bodies rolling together as they alternated between pressing their mouths together and leaving burning kisses along each other’s necks and chests.
One of Hyunjin’s hands slipped over Felix’s hip and down over his bum, and Felix yelped when he found the spot his fingers had been searching for. Hyunjin pulled his face back a bit to look into Felix’s, chuckling lightly at the startled look on his features.
“Is…this okay?” he asked quietly and, after a few hesitant moments, Felix nodded quickly.
“Oh, wait.” He rolled away from Hyunjin, reaching for the drawer on his night stand. “I thought we might need this,” he said quietly as he set a small clear bottle between them.
Hyunjin raised his eyebrows a little in surprise and then he left out a shaky breath. “Right. Yeah, that’s probably a good idea.”
He reached down for the lube and then looked up into Felix’s face questionably.
“Have you ever done this?”
Again Felix appeared hesitant. “Not…not this part.”
“We don’t have to -”
“I want to,” Felix said quickly, cutting him off and Hyunjin gave him a small smile.
“Alright, let me just figure this out.” He flipped open the bottle and applied some of the slippery liquid to his fingers before moving his hand back to its previous position.
Felix was watching his face, his own eyes large in expectation, and then he closed them at the sudden pressure. Hyunjin was gentle with him, having no experience with this part either, at least not with another boy, but he knew enough to know this part was important.
Once he felt that he was ready, Felix reached up and pulled Hyunjin down into a kiss, lingering for a while as he felt waves of arousal and pleasure rolling through him. And then he crawled on top of Hyunjin, pressing him back into the bed until he was fully on his back.
Hyunjin stared up at Felix, a sense of wonder washing over him as he watched the beautiful boy who straddled his lap. Felix seemed to be testing things out, reaching back to adjust the position of Hyunjin’s length, and then slowly he lowered himself back onto him.
Hyunjin couldn’t help the groan that escaped his lips, his head falling back, his eyes fluttering shut, and he wasn’t able to open them again until Felix was sitting fully on his lap.
“Are you okay?” Hyunjin breathed, his hands finding their way to Felix’s waist as he looked up at him in concern.
Felix nodded, looking slightly uncomfortable. “I think I’m supposed to relax and wait for a minute.”
“Yeah, that sounds right.” Hyunjin moved his hands gently up and down Felix’s sides, trying to offer him comfort. He watched Felix breath slowly and intentionally a few times, and then be began to roll his hips a little, biting his lower lip and looking as though he were concentrating on something.
Hyunjin remained as still as he could manage, desperate not to hurt Felix as he watched him work himself up into a slow rhythm. He felt as though he could reach his end quickly if he didn’t concentrate on keeping it at bay. He had never felt pleasure this intense and it was only amplified by the sight before him; Felix leaning his hands against Hyunjin’s stomach as he rocked his hips back and forth, a serene, calm look on his face, his breath coming in small, quiet pants.
When their bliss was done, they lay beneath the covers, limbs wrapped around each other as they caught their breath.
“Was that okay?’ Hyunjin asked quietly, reaching over to brush the hair back from Felix’s face.
“Yes, I…that was…” Felix chuckled, unable to find the words and instead he grinned at him before leaning forward to kiss his lips. “It was perfect.”
“ You’re perfect,” Hyunjin replied and Felix scoffed.
“We’ve already had sex. There’s no need to seduce me with compliments.”
Hyunjin rolled his eyes but he was also smiling. “Fine. I won’t compliment you any more, unless I’m trying to get some.”
Felix pulled a face and then nodded. “That tracks.”
It was Hyunjin’s turn to scoff and he pushed Felix back, rolling on top of him. “If you’re going to be mean to me, I won’t be offering my compliments again for a long time.”
“As if you could resist me,” Felix replied simply, grinning up at him with his sunshine smile.
Hyunjin sighed, his shoulders dropping in defeat. “You’re probably right. Guess this is my punishment for opening my door to you.”
“I didn’t really give you a choice, remember. I'm pretty sure I just pushed right past you.”
“You did,” Hyunjin replied, nodding. “But I would have let you in anyway. I had no idea what you were going to say but…something in your face told me that, well…”
“What?” Felix asked when he was quiet for a moment. He reached up and ran a hand gently along Hyunjin’s cheek.
“It made me feel like you were going to fight for me,” he finally managed to say, his voice quiet. “Does that sound ridiculous?”
Felix huffed out a laugh, his smile returning. “Not at all. The only ridiculous part is that I had to fight you to fight for you.”
“Right. I, ah -”
“Don’t you dare apologize, Jin. I don’t want to hear you say you’re sorry for being who you are. I happen to love that person and I’ll fight for him if I have to, even if it means fighting you again.”
Hyunjin couldn’t help his laugh. “Alright, I won’t say it. I definitely don’t want to fight you, or myself, anymore. I concede.”
Felix was grinning triumphantly. “I see you finally see things my way. I win.”
“You’re right. You win.”