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Jimmy and Castiel climb out of the lake, and they go home.
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In their eyes, you're the monster. And you are. You truly are. The monster who disturbed their rest, slaughtered their brethren, and defiled their Mother who made them and loved them. (As your Father made you and loved you.) You want to laugh, thinking about how far you tried to raise yourself, how far you then fell; an awful ugly laughter like tar, black and sticky and foul. You want to weep for all the lives you’ve violated and sacrificed on the altar of your good intentions, for yourself. Your eyes burn with a cold, brackish liquid; a cruel irony, this, to only cry when you’ve lost your tears.
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.Two paths tangled at the last into an inextricable knot of misery and regret. How you wish the lesson of one had better taught the other. In the end, fate has no true power over creatures of free will; and once revoked, cannot be invoked again to escape the consequences of their actions.
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.But this is the best you will get, the best of all possible remaining worlds. Jimmy had to sacrifice himself to save the world (to save his daughter). But that doesn’t mean his family has to forgive you (either of you).
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.For the first time in years--since that night--she feels whole again, the aching void in her sated. Claire gingerly cracks her eyes open, rising slowly from her crouch. She is alone and all that is left of him is in her like the weight of a well-worn book, bulging with memories pressed between its fragrant leaves. It’s not just Castiel but Jimmy Novak in there; and one day she thinks she might have the courage--and forgiveness-- to go looking for him somewhere other than the grave she dug for him.
She takes one step, then another, still marveling at her newfound balance, and she takes her father home.