Dear Keanu;
This wouldn't exist if it wasn't for Tara.
I was drawing it (what about 2 weeks ago now?) for Helen Day but wasn't happy with it at all.
All there was at that time was your face, but I didn't know if it looked enough like you and I was becoming increasingly frustrated with it.
Tara told me that it did look like you, though, and to just go with it.
Still, I wasn't satisfied and put it to the side.
Only I kept it lying around, just incase.
And then I saw it a few days ago and thought Tara was right:
It wasn't too bad.
So I picked it up last night and finished it finally.
I needed an art today, I still have to work on the Kung Fu Panda fic but my mind is too frantic to. I feel too betrayed and upset.
In too much confusion and pain.
I weeded out someone else today, someone else I no longer trust. I can no longer spend effort on those whom I cannot trust, because if I can't trust them, neither could you, and so they aren't worth having around.
Maybe I'm not concerned with my own safety, but I am with yours and so, as John Wick might say in the same circumstances...
I'm thinking, it's about time.
But I needed to return to my art today.
Because it helps.
See behind Helen and John there?
Well it looks like the sky but it really is the sea or the ocean, you'd know which, my dearest friend.
Well that is what my brain feels like at this point in time.
Only it isn't peaceful.
It is waves and it is torment, it is tempests and winds and finally the darkness of what lies beneath the waters meeting the danger of that which hovers above in the sky.
But when I can draw, I can cling to something safe until the waters calm down and the clouds go away and the sky becomes blue again.
I can see myself better, feel what is important and get back to where I need to be: the shore.
You can't see yourself clearly in the waters when it storms.
You can when the storm has passed.
Have you ever noticed that?
All my love forever,
Your
Erin
XO XO
🌊🏞 :D <3
I turned it black and white using the brightness and contrast on my phone: 
I took it to an online coloring app called Petalica and it initially used the Canna coloring style: 
I changed it to Satsuki: 
I gradually colored it: 
It, unfortunately, takes away detail so I had to place the black and white sketch over it to bring the detail back: 
I then had some fun by using an app to create Warhol Dots: 
Or by turning it into a Van Gogh styled piece. 