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Sam was struggling a little bit to put on the strap around her waist because her hands are shaking, in nervousness or anticipation, she didn't know. And it doesn't help that Mon was just staring at her the whole time, she has this hungry look in her eyes.
"That strap on look so good on you," Mon said with hooded eyes.
Sam approach the bed and Mon pull her in a deep and hungry kiss. The kiss become heated and Mon was pulling her on top, already hooking her legs around her waist but Sam put her hand on her shoulder to push her away gently. Mon looked at her dazedly.
She lick her lower lip while staring at the girl beneath her, she know this is not important but her clouded mind couldn't help but ask. "Have you...used this strap on?"
"No." Mon groan.
"Did someone used it on you?" Sam know there's a possibility that she wouldn't like the answer and she's just gonna hurt herself but she couldn't help it. She didn't even know why she's asking all this question. "Are you planning to use it on someone?"
"I.. You know I've been trying my luck on dating but... I can't seem to find someone." Mon said truthfully, she didn't expect to have this conversation with Sam while they're in the middle of having sex.
"And I said that's impossible," Sam gulp. "You are too perfect and everyone would be lucky to have you in their life."
"No," Mon shook her head and bite her lower lip. To be honest, there is only one person in her mind when she made that purchase and that person seems out of her reached just couple hours ago. "Uhm.. I..want to.."
"Use your words, darling." Sam whisper on Mon's skin as she kiss her way down in the middle of her chest creating a trail of goosebumps along her pale skin.
"I-I was.. I was hoping you could use it on me," Mon finally said with shaky voice. "I bought it for you."
Sam stopped her movements to look up and stare at Mon's flushed face, her chest heaving up and down, her eyes so dark with lust. She contemplate whether it is an honest statement or just the drugs talking. Hoping to protect her heart Sam decided to ignore it for now.
"I was about to," Sam said instead, pressing another deep hungry kiss on Mon's lips which she return with the same intensity. Mon burried her fingers in Sam's long hair and tug it a little bit. The older girl knew Mon is getting impatient but she wanna take her time, the night might be a little hazy and she wouldn't be surprised if it all turn out to be just a crazy dream so she decided to enjoy her time and commit every second to her memories.
She started trailing kisses down her body and the way Mon's back arch to her touches and kisses would never not amaze her, just knowing she's the cause of those reactions drives her crazy.
"Sam." Mon gasp. "I-I need you."
"I got you," Sam pressed a kiss on her lips before sitting up. She hold both of her knees and slowly push them apart revealing her dripping core, obviously making a mess on the bed but who cares. Her mouth waters at the sight and she have half a mind to just go down and start eating her out until she remember the contraption she's wearing which sends another wave of arousal in her own body. "You're so fucking hot."
"Please.... Sam.."
She grabbed the strap on and her hand is shaking a bit as she experimentally run its tip between her wet fold making Mon throw her head back. Satisfied with the reaction Sam slowly push the toy and watch as the whole lenght disappeared inside her core. Her gaze then return to Mon and found her mouth open in silent scream as her eyes rolled on the back of her head. She lean in and pressed soft kisses on her forehead, on her eyes, nose, cheeks and finally on her lips which Mon return as she finally came back to her senses.
The older girl ever so slowly pull out a few inches and thrust in just as slow, listening to the delicious sound Mon is making beneath her all while trailing kisses on her jaw. There is something so soft with the way they move together that she forgot why they are even doing this in the first place. It wraps her brain in delusion, making her believe they are making love and not just simply fucking. She closed her eyes and inhale deeply, smeling Mon's sweet perfume, she ran her hands on her sides, finger tips tracing her warm and sweaty pale skin until it lands on her breast. She run her thumb on her hardened nipples making the girl beneath her arch her back, wrapping both her arms around her body possessively, nails digging on her tan skin making her hissed.
"S-Sam." She wrapped both of her legs around her waist, hips moving up trying to meet her thrust.
The said girl understood the unsaid plea and started thrusting hard making her partner gasps in pleasure. She maintain her steady pace, listening to the younger girl's moan as she continue kissing her neck and touching her boobs. Mon is driving her crazy, she doesn't know how she'll be able to look at her eyes again and not see this. She don't know how she'll be able to pretend not to know how her face looks like as she orgasm because of her touches. She doesn't know how she'll be able to pretend not knowing how beautiful she is as she gasp and twist in pleasure. She doesn't know how she'll be her friend again after this but she forced herself to not think about those thoughts and focus on making her friend feel good first. The world could end tomorrow but she doesn't care, she'll live in this moment, in Mon's bed, above Mon's body, while watching Mon unravel by her touches.
She sit up for a bit and untangle one of Mon's legs around her waist and push it up and hook it on her shoulder instead before resuming her thrust. Mon threw her bead back and groan loudly as the toy reached deeper and in different angle.
"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." Mon chants as she rake her nails on her back, undoubtedly leaving red marks at the expanse of her tan skin. "You are so good at this."
"Hmmm..." She thrust a little bit harder, enjoying the way the younger girl's mouth would fall open everytime she do so. "And you are so flexible. It's driving me insane."
Sam continue thrusting in and out, she watch the pink toy as if she's hypnotized by its movement and don't even mentioned the sound. Oh God. The sound they are making are so filthy and its enough to drive her towards the edge. The wet squelching sound of Mon's pussy as the strap on thrust in and out. The slapping sound as their skin meet whenever she thrust a little harder. Oh Sam wish she could add it on her playlist or something.
Her abs and legs muscles are already burning but she doesn't dare to stop or even slow her relentless pace, especially not now that Mon is almost at the edge. Mon pull her in a kiss which makes the leg that was still hooked on Sam's shoulder stretch more and pushing the strap deeper inside her. Sam dominate the kiss because Mon is a moaning mess, she kiss her and taste her mouth, swallowing every noise she makes.
"Oh God.." The younger girl dig her nails on her skin as her hips move to meet her thrust as if chasing something.
Sam plant her knees on the bed for support. One hand holding her waist, one hand on the leg hooked over her shoulder and eyes trained on the younger girl's flushed face ready to save the image in her brain before she started moving her hips faster, basically hammering her on the bed.
Mon shrieked at the change of pace and Sam's already thinking of how to apologize to her neighbor tomorrow. But that is Mon's problem to solve for now Sam's focus is the girl beneath her trashing around, head thrown back, hair haloed around her and some even sticking to her face. She's never been more beautiful.. so Sam said it
"You are so beautiful."
"O-Oh God." Mon said instead making Sam chuckle. Her whole body is moving because of the intensity of her thrust. Sam's eyes follow the way her breast bounced up and down in sync with her thrust. She finally give in and wrapped one breast with her mouth, tounge tracing the hardened nipple while not even slowing her pace.
"Shit." Sam felt a tug on her hair. "I... S-Sam.."
"Hmmm.." She moved to the other breast.
"D-Don't stop..." she gasp. "Please... ughhhh."
Mon's leg started shaking and her hips moving frantically. Sam knew she is coming so she keep her steady pace, not daring to slow down.
"Fuck," her mouth fell open in silent scream as her orgasm hit her whole body. Sam slow down her movement but doesn't stop to help Mon ride her orgasm.
Mon think she blacked out a little bit, she never have orgams that strong. She also think she'll probably not be able to walk tomorrow with how her body is aching delicously. She groaned weakly when Sam pulled out. When she open her eyes she found Sam staring at her.
"Hi." Sam said, smiling shyly as if she was not just fucking her to oblivion seconds ago.
"Hi." She smile when she felt Sam press a kiss on her lips.
"You think you can go another round?" Sam said after a moment making Mon widened her eyes. She literally just orgasm but she can feel her whole body reacting to Sam's words. Oh God. She's insatiable.
"Who's on drugs here, you or me?" Sam laugh loudly at her joke.
"Come on." Sam sit up straight. "I want you on your hands and knees."
"Fuck." Mon can feel her core throbbing already. She felt the older girl's strong hands wrapped around her waist before maneuvering her body in the position she wanted. There is something so hot with the way Sam is handling her body, she's not rough but not exactly gentle.
Both of Sam's hand is holding her waist to steady her. Mon planted her shaking hand on her soft bed and moan loudly when she felt the toy stretch her open in one swift movement.
"You are so hot like this," Sam said as she continue thrusting in and out, starting a relentless pace.
Mon could only moan in response, its like her brain just stop functioning and all she could think of is how nice it feel the way Sam is filling her delicously. She's thrusting so deep and hard that all she can hear are the slapping sound echoing inside her bedroom, aside from the sound her own throat is making, of course.
Her hand gave out and she found her face burried in the soft pillow but Sam doesn't stop moving. She felt strong hand tangle on her hair and gently pulling it up. Sam kissed her jaw as one of her hand snake its way down her body until it reached her wet bundle of nerves.
"Ohhhh...."
Sam keep tracing circle on her clit as she thrust faster behind her. Mon is already on heaven, she don't think her soul is still on her body. Her legs started shaking again as hot pressure started building up her womb. She's gonna come anytime soon. Sam knew it because her movement became faster if that's even possible.
"Fuck..."
"Hmmm?" Sam answer as she gave on particular hard thrust that sends her towards the end.
"Ohhhh G-God... Hnnnggg.."
She came around the strap on for the second time that night and she might've blacked out for the second time too because when she open her eyes she's already on her back and Sam's staring at her softly. Looking at her as if she's the most beautiful girl in the world, it makes her heart swell. So no one should blame her for what she said next.
"I love you."
Sam's eyes widened and she almost take it back but she didn't because its the truth. She need to be honest to her heart for once. The corner of her eyes heat up as she watch Sam stare at her in shock.
The older girl didn't say anyhing but she pull her in a deep kiss. Mon closed her eyes and focused on the kiss as she feel the hot tears trail down her cheek. She doesn't want to regret anything but at that moment she would do anything just to rewind the time to ten seconds ago.
Sam stood up, ignoring as her muscles protest in sudden movement. She unbuckle the strap and disposed it on the foot of the bed. She look back at the sleeping girl and her heart ache a little bit. Mon told her she love her... oh how she wish its the same love she feel for the girl. But she knew its just a fantasy.
She shake her head and told herself to stop with the self pity. She walk towards the living room and pick up her underwear and put it on, as well as her discarded band t-shirt. She went to the bathroom and wet the small towel in warm water before going back to Mon's bedroom.
Mon just groaned in her sleep when she started wiping her legs clean. After making sure Mon is clean she get another clean towel and slip it underneath her because she couldn't change the wet bedsheet without waking up Mon so she thought she'll just place the dry tower underneath so Mon wouldn't have to sleep in a wet bed. She adjusted the airconditioner to how the younger girl prefer it before tucking her in her fluffy comforter.
After all that, Sam debated whether to go home or stay. She look at her friend's sleeping face and tuck a stray hair behind her ears.
"I love you." She finally allowed herself to say it out loud.
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Mon open her eyes when a ray of sun shine directly to her face, she groan and curse herself for leaving the window curtain open. Her eyes flew open when she suddenly remember the event that happened just last night. She questioned her sanity for a moment wondering if everything is just a wild dream but the delicious ache of her muscle and the thing between her legs is enough proof.
She look around the room but there is no sign of Sam. She sit up and winced at the ache between her legs, face flushing hot as she remember the reason why. Her clothes from last night are folded neatly on the other side of the bed so she pick it up and put it on.
"Sam?" She called out to the living room but the said girl is nowhere to be seen. She checked the bathroom but she's not there as well.
"Fuck." She cursed herself, eyes heating up and blurring her vision because of unshed tears. She slide down the couch because her knees feels week all of a sudden. The house is so quiet and neat, as if Sam wasn't just here last night. Its so quiet she can almost hear her heart breaking.
She shouldn't have said that last night, she probably scared Sam away. How stupid can she be? Sam is her bestfriend. She should just accept and be content at what Sam can give to her.
But...How can Sam not even stay? Does she not matter to her at all?
The tears started falling followed by a quiet sob. She curled on her couch and hug her legs as she cries silently. So this is what heartbreak feel like, like she's physically in pain. Maybe she's actually having heart attack for all she know. She can't breath, like someone is physically squishing her heart.
She doesn't know what to do next. Should be call Sam and apologized? For what exactly? Apologized for loving her more than a friend should? Or maybe denied it just so everything could go back to the way it was before. Mon knew she couldn't just take it back. It took her years of silently pining before she finally tell Sam of her feelings. Granted it happened after Sam gave her a mindblowing orgasm but still.
Oh God. The sex. She had sex with her bestfriend, the girl she is secretly in love with. How can she go on her life knowing how good it felt to touch Sam but not being able to do it again? How can she go on her life knowing how good her lips taste like when she kiss her?
She's a sobbing mess when the door to her apartment burst open revealing Sam. The older girl take one look at her before she came rushing down by her side.
"Hey, what happened?" Sam asked worriedly.
"Sam!" Mon throw herself in her bestfriends arms who hugged her without a second thought. She burried her face to her neck and inhale deeply. "I... I thought you're gone. I thought you left me."
"I just bought coffee and pastries to the cafè downstairs." Sam rub soothing circles at her back. "Are you okay? Why are you crying?"
Mon tightened her hold of Sam. "I thought you leave me."
Sam stopped for a minute before she resume touching her back. The place engulfed in deafening silence with only the noise of their breathing as the sound...and maybe the sound of Mon's heart breaking as Sam remained silent.
"I would never." Sam said after a while. A sigh of relief escape her lips, the younger girl almost thought she would not say anything. "I will stay with you for as long as you want me."
"I mean it."
"Hmm?"
Mon gulped, heart beating in her ears. Preparing herself for a heartbreak as she laid down her feelings open. "I mean it when I said I love you." She whispered but she might as well scream it with how silent the room is. "I have for years now."
Sam was silent before she started pulling away, untangling herself away from Mon. A lone tears roll down her cheek and prepared herself to hear a rejection.
The older girl stare at her face, mouthing opening and closing for a second, she seems like she doesn't know what to say. She never seen Sam like this.
"I know." She said. "I know you don't feel the same. You don't have to. I.. I just want to tell you."
"I love you too," Sam said instead. "I love you so so much, you have no idea."
Mon couldn't believe what she's hearing, she's wondering if her ears are playing tricks on her. But Sam is crying and its not a sad tears. So she did what she wanted to do and that is to kiss her. And so she kissed the girl of her dreams, letting it do all the talking.
"I love you for the longest time." Sam kissed her nose. "How could I not? You're my best friend. You keep me sane after all my family drama. You keep my feet on the ground. You are the best thing that happened in my life. I'm content in just being your friend if as long as I can have you in my life than not having you in it at all."
"We're so stupid. I should have told you long time ago."
"We have all the time in the world, darling." Sam chuckle. "I intend to show you how much I love you from now on."
"Yeah?"
"You're stuck with me."