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Have I Forget It?

Chapter 6: I Think Of Something Else Today

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Duchess Hestia, the day on her death. Just suddenly stopped breathing. Even the physicians had no answer on the sickness or any reason to blame this on. On her death bed, all she did was stay motionless. And to stop living. The society talked about this matter a lot. This also making the country a bit more nervous as the rumors of the Emperor's health and the news of Duchess' death combined now.

 

People sent letters to the duchy. Praying for the duchess to be happy in heaven.

 

He didn't open any of them. He didn't even read the ones that came to congratulate the negotiations.

 

It wasn't that he didn't want their praying. But, he was trying to find a reason. Trying to find something to blame it on. Was that it? Was it all just like that? Because she wouldn't give any prophecies anymore, did that mean she had no reason to live this life? Did the god really had to take everything he loved so easily?

 

Kael crouched near the bed, he didn't want to touch it. It felt like it would also dissapear if he were to even feel the sheets of it. He reached for the drawer and took out the letter he had left for her to read. It didn't even had a single scratch on it for him to think she had read it.

 

He didn't thought she'd read it to be honest. It isn't that he wanted her to read it perhaps. He would've rathered to tell it to her himself. But could've never tell it to her. It was amusing wasn't it?

 

"Hestia..."

 

He spoke after a long time, the moment he said her name; he felt a tear fall from his eye. Even with no feeling at the moment, he cried. Looking at the letter he wrote.

 

"In another world, I wish to be with you. Don't forget me, I could never forget you."

 

He read the letter. Two sentence, that meant just enough of his emotions. If he could, he'd pray to god to take his life as well. But, no way. His life was saved by Hestia. The very person who owned his life. The very last thing she left for him to take care of. If he didn't take good care of it, he knows that it would make her sad wouldn't it?

 

How could god do this to him? It didn't felt fair. He lost his parents, just when he was a child. He lost his friend, because of his love. Because of the women he once loved. And now, he lost his wife. Who he couldn't even be there on her last breath, to hear her last wishes.

 

Kaelus' eyes rolled away at the thought of a memory, a quick frown. Diana. She came to the duchy to inform her sadness about Duchess Hestia's death. But right after that, inviting him to the palace to ease his mind? Of course, he refused the offer. Though, he could feel that if Hestia heard it she'd be making a face of confusion and annoyance. It almost made him smile just thinking. Seeing her so angry on his behalf.

 

 

It was almost... comforting...

 

He sighed, everything she did was. All her efforts. And all her reactions. It all seemed to make him feel better in some ways. He still couldn't believe it. Just a year ago, on the edge of killing himself. A woman, but not just an ordinary woman. A woman who had the most confidence to break inside his house, entered his room and stopped him from suicide. Just proposed to him, even while knowing his feelings towards Diana at that moment.

 

He felt blessed now, just meeting her. Like some guardian angel fallen from the heavens. A prophet, daring to use her powers on him. A woman, who gave him too much care but never wanted it back. Is that why?

 

"Because of your death...?"

 

He asked himself. Almost expecting an answer. She knew her death, she said to him about her death. He felt guilty for forgetting it. He could've listened more carefully when she said she didn't got any prophecies before he left for the negotiations.

 

But for the moment, he felt like being silent was the best thing he could do right now. Probably the only thing he can do is this...

 

After a few seconds, a knock was heard from the door. He didn't answer but behind the door, Uros asked him. As if he knew he was inside the room all along.

 

"My lord, would you like to have some tea to help you relax? Even a little bit."

 

Tea? It sounded nice to his ear.

 

But, right now. While looking at the bed that was just near him. He felt like something else could do that part for him. And he found himself smile, even though another tear fell.

 

"I think. I'll go with coffee this time."

 

***

 

Hm? What... Is this?

 

My body, that was hurting in that moment. Just felt tired, nothing else. No hurt or no pain.

 

...No... This can't be... Can it...?

 

I opened my eyes nervously, expecting the same view after my death. But. Why. Why am I seeing the modern furniture...?

 

This did not feel right.

 

I didn't even get to take Kaelus' revenge...!

 

"So...why...?"

 

I should feel great. After 3 years inside the novel, I returned to my home. My real home. So, all this that I am feeling should be good for me. Shouldn't it!? Then tell me.

 

Why is my hand shaking while holding my phone? Why is it shaking uncontrollably while tears are forming on my eyes?

 

My phone. Yeah, I fell asleep while reading the novel didn't I? I opened the phone. Ah, the date. The same year before I went inside the novel. I haven't forgotten the password even after 3 years, so I opened the lock to find the novel infront of me.

 

...What can I expect? The end is still the same. But, it didn't felt like I was just dreaming. I felt everything. The rage, the sadness, the fear. Even pain.

 

I didn't feel like reading it anymore. It felt useless. If my favorite didn't get his own happiness, then what?

 

I closed my phone, raising myself from my bed to look at my counter. Oh, a dirty coffee cup. I really read this novel too many times.

 

...

 

"I think I'll learn to make some tea this time."

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