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Georgia was sitting alone in the library, desperately trying to concentrate on the essay she was supposed to write. The pen in her hand was clicking against the table as she fidgeted with it. This assignment was not that hard. Why was it this difficult to get anything on the paper?
She flinched when someone tapped her shoulder. She turned her head to see who it was, but she didn"t recognize the guy.
"Could you please stop that?" he whispered and gestured to the pen that was still hitting the desk.
"Sorry"
Georgia put her pen down and returned to her assignment. She tried to write down at least one sentence, but her brain jumped back to the last evening, when she had watched an incredibly sweet show about a queer couple. She reconciled the feeling when she watched them be happy. The dread when she realized again that she could not have that. She would not have anyone to share the rest of her life with. But why was it bothering her all of the sudden? She knew she didn"t want to date anyone. Also, wasn"t she supposed to be over all this? It had been several months since she told her friends that she was aroace. So why now? She sighed. This was useless. Georgia packed up her stuff and thought to herself that she could try again tomorrow. Maybe her brain would cooperate after a good night"s sleep.
She got home, but wasn"t in a better mood when she shouted, "I"m back," into the hallway of the house. She heard a muffled answer that probably came from Jason in his room.
Minutes later, she was in her room, scrolling through insta a cup of tea on the desk in front of her. She liked a picture of Rooney and Pip they had posted yesterday, and the dreading feeling came back. She threw her phone onto her bed. Why was her head so incredibly annoying, telling her over and over that she would not be happy without a relationship. She had her friends and loved them a lot, so why was she feeling so lonely and frustrated? She groaned in annoyance. She tried watching YouTube next. But she stumbled over a cute couple building a home together, and that finally broke her. Why couldn"t she just be normal and fall in love like everybody else? Tears started flowing down her face. And although she let herself cry, it did not help. It even intensified the pain in her stomach. The emptiness of her stomach because there were no butterflies flying around.
She would have liked to talk to Rooney or Pip. But both of her closest friends were on a date somewhere. And she knew it wasn"t right or fair to them, but she felt abandoned by the two. Jason was really busy with assignments, and she could hear the muffled sounds of Sunil practicing on their cello.
So she laid down on her bed, hugging her favorite fluffy blanket and staring at the wall. This was so silly. She didn"t want a relationship and she had been fairly proud of her aroace identity in the last few weeks.
But now...
She thought about how happy her friends made her feel and how thankful she was about the fact that they lived together. But of course her brain couldn"t let her have even one positive thought. They would leave eventually. They all would move to another city for their jobs, and then Georgia would be alone. And yes, Rooney would not forget about her, as she promised. But maybe Rooney would get a job somewhere else than Georgia, and they would be separated. Also, the last thing Georgia wanted was for her best friend to give up her goals or even her relationship with Pip just to stay by her side. That would be really unfair to Rooney. The tears started coming again, and they didn"t stop for a while.
Then a knock on the door startled her.
It knocked again, and Georgia muffled something similar to a come in.
It was Sunil.
"Hey. Do you want to get something to eat? I thought... Oh. Are you okay?"
Sunil"s tone changed from happy to worried.
Georgia didn"t answer.
"Do you want to talk?"
She thought about it and then slowly nodded.
They sat down next to her on the bed and laid a hand on Georgia"s shoulder.
"I just... I don"t know what"s wrong with me today. I tried to do an assignment for uni but I couldn"t concentrate. I just randomly started dreading that I am aromantic and that I will never have someone who is going to spend the rest of my life with me. And that I will be alone as soon as we are all finished with uni here. And... I don"t know where this comes from all of a sudden."
Sunil just nodded, and their hand was stroking her shoulder.
"I get it," he said.
"Really?"
Georgia looked at them with a bit of surprise.
"Yeah. You know, sometimes I"m afraid that no one will ever date me because I am ace. And the fact that I am nonbinary doesn"t make it easier." They chuckled dryly.
"But you will find someone. You are incredibly kind, funny, and caring."
"Yes, I know. But that doesn"t keep me from thinking like that sometimes... And it"s the same with you. We won"t forget about you! Even if we don"t end up in the same house once we move, you will make new friends and roommates. You are really loyal and really good with surprises. Who doesn"t like that?!" they explained.
Georgia nodded while thinking about it.
"Although they wouldn"t be as cool as we are!" they added with a smirk on their face. Georgia laughed.
"Thank you!"
"No problem. And next time, feel free to talk to me earlier about this. Or to someone else. We don"t want you to feel lonely."
Georgia nodded again and wiped the tears from her face.
"Hug?" she asked them and promptly got embraced wholeheartedly. They stayed like that for a moment until Sunil broke the silence.
"So what about getting some pizza and watching some fun movies? We can ask Jason, if he wants to join as well."
"Sounds great. But no romance movie, please."
"Don"t worry, we"ll find something without cheesy couples," they answered with a smile.
Georgia started grinning, and a warm feeling finally got rid of the rest of the loneliness that had remained after the talk with Sunil.
She loved her friends so much and she was excited for the time they would spend together!