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Kill, kill, kill.
That's the motto he has had since that day. The day he lost everything.
First, was his friend Emil. A sacrifice, for reaching the shadowlord. A wound that maybe he would never recover from, that will never heal.
Second, his companion, his friend, a father figure, Weiss. Another sacrifice was to make sure that he would win. Even if that stated the end of all humanity.
Third, it was the person he loves the most, Kainé. Succumbed by the shade she has in her. Without any other option than to kill her. His lance on her chest. The first - and last - kiss they share. And then, a cold emptiness.
And last, his sister, Yonah. She died peacefully, almost a year after everything. He buried her in the yard of his house, in a silent ceremony, without any witnesses.
And then, he started to travel again. To kill every shade, that had taken everything away from him.
Kill, kill, kill.
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I know that you could with that, idiot.
It was a surprise that a wolf shade was again in the desert. And it doesn't take long to kill it. It wasn't the same strength as the one he fought before, the one that killed Fyra.
Oh, King, now I understand you so well.
He ripped the skin, as a trophy. A new piece for his clothes.
That day, the desert merely whispers something like an echo, something like a reality. The voice of his friends on his back, remembering good times that they will never exist again.
When he finished his job, he could only walk in silence. With the whispers of her behind.
Come on! You are so fucking slow already!
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When he returns home - well, what was his home - is when he notices it.
In that box of weapons, that iron pipe. He remembers something like a dream, and he fights shades with it. Moreover, now he thinks that they are memories of the shadowlord. like all the dreams he had, all the feelings. He tried so hard to save his sister, just like him. For nothing.
Nier took the weapon, taking a look while he was thinking of all he had done. Then, he added it to his back.
A remember, what he had done, and his true origin.
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You don't have to stay here, lad. The hussy always disliked this place.
But it is the only place where I feel peace.
Nier closed his eyes, while the fire somehow made him warm. He started to live in Kainé's house, perhaps to feel closer to her. Even if he had to kill her. He doesn't even care about his house anymore. Only memories torment him there.
Here too, you fucking idiot.
My memories of you are of pure light. Even in the dark that we live.
The white-haired man closed his eyes, maybe in a way to feel something. Something that he desires but will never have.
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Kill everyone, my body. Don't let any human live.
Blood. Blood.
His clothes stitch with blood. His face. His hands. Everything that Nier fights for, and loses, was in the blood. Shades blood. Even people's blood.
He started to even care for the replicants - the ones that considered humans before - anymore. He only fights to survive that hunger for blood.
Kill, kill, kill.
A burst of laughter evolved the place, where many shades and replicants were on the ground. He killed them with his hands.
I'm proud of you, Nier. Now you're me.
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Brother…
I'm sorry, Yonah. Your brother will never be good anymore.
Silence. Maybe that's why he chose that place.
In his free time, he started gardening lunar tears. Only for her memory. Only to have something that made him remember her. All the days in his life were.
Lad… Let us go.
Nier… We're worried about you.
I can't.
Nier started to cry, in that place where the light of the lunar tears made him a little better.
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Ha! I never thought that you were like this. Maybe I was wrong with you.
Shut up.
Nier recovered his breath when he did the last stroke at the thief that attempted to steal him. He threw the body into the sea. He was very close to seafront. He could see the lighthouse.
You are a little cunt, aren't you?
Shut up.
He is a monster now. Or you aren't?
He made me like this. He stole my…
You made the choice. You chose to fuck him.
No. I only did it for Yonah.
That little Yonah that is dead?
The white-haired man threw his lance to nowhere.
Don't listen to them. They are only a butch of motherfuckers. You haven't any choice. That isn't your fault.
He wanted to believe so.
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Do you choose to kill us for this?
I didn't want to. You were in the way. Like everything.
And now, what is your purpose?
Kill every shade.
And when it was done?
Die
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Nier
The young man opened his eyes. He was in a very bad condition, indeed. Maybe going for the tough ones wasn't a very good idea. But there he was. Screwed.
You have to run, idiot.
I know.
Why do you want so much to die?
Nier grunted while he took his lance to make some kind of support, moving through the esplanade. In direction to the Aerie.
When he arrives, he can't support himself anymore, falling onto the ground. The vision of a lunar tear made him happy.
Because this world doesn't have any chances if you aren't with me.
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Please, brother. Stop this.
I can't, Yonah. Not anymore.
Lad…
I'm tired, Weiss. So tired…
Then why did you make this? Kill all the shades? I don't understand…
They took everything from me, everything. They didn't deserve to live.
But they were humans, like me and Weiss.
They haven't conscience anymore.
Brother…
Lad, we can't stop you. Not anymore.
And then he stopped to hear them.
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When he started with the cough, he knew. He finally has the black scrawl.
He finally understands what kind of pain his sister had. He still travels, but not at the same rhythm as before.
His fingers started to get black. His body sometimes had black runes.
He was dying. Finally, he can go where he had to. He doesn't believe that he would go where his friends and his sister were. He deserves all the ruin that he has done.
It was one day, in bed, that he senses. He had a short time.
And the first time he sees her in years of suffering. Along with everyone behind her.
He only makes a little smile, one that he has never done in a long time. Then, he closed his eyes.
His existence perished in that cruel world where he doesn't want to live.