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the years passed, never close the Boiling isles, the months advanced until they simply gave up.
they had to start from scratch, in that dimension that now became their home and when he least expected it, Luz was already 18 years old.
that morning had started with heavy rains and a heavy fog, it was almost time for breakfast and this time Amity and her partner decided to get up to take care of the food, some pancakes seemed like a good idea, until Luz in the middle of preparing a hot chocolate, he was called by the fuchsia-haired witch.
“Luz, I found this letter in the entrance of the house” Amity said.
her voice was devoid of curiosity, devoid of surprise, there was only sorrow and sadness. Anything to keep from bursting into tears.
"If it's about my college entrance I'll read it after breakfast." Luz said quietly as he placed his cup of hot chocolate on the kitchen table.
Amity swallowed sharply.
"It's not…from your Collage…it's from Hunter," she explained.
"What?” Luz questioned arching his eyebrow “But he said he would only go outside for a while to watch the sunrise."
"Luz…" Amity murmured hurt and opened that letter.
when Amity was in distress… Luz knew something wasn't wrong either, his thighs tensed and his heart ached.
With his eyes, he was able to indicate to Amity to please read said letter to him.
Luz, my partner and faithful friend, you know perfectly well that I have a genuine love and esteem for you, at the beginning I never knew how to say it but now over the years I have done everything I could to prove it and I am really sorry that I did not show it in the right way before you went to sleep,if I had known it would be the last time, I would have taken advantage of it.
I come to ask you for forgiveness, I know I am a coward for having the audacity to say goodbye in this way without looking you in the eyes, but I know that if I do it in front of you, you would do everything possible to stop me when that is the least I want.
I regret leaving my fight here, I always tried to listen to you, I always had you in my mind as a motivation to keep going but I can't take it anymore. I can no longer go on living another day knowing that only he is in my reflection, no matter how many razors go through my hair, no matter how much I no longer dress as one of them no matter how much I say my name is Hunter, no matter how much I now have this life on earth with you and the rest of the boys, Belos is still in my shadow, in my head and in my dreams, reminding me that I am nothing more than a copy of his whose destiny was to harm others, I can´’t stop to think about how my hands were able to hurt innocent witches.
wherever I close my eyes or wherever I see myself, Belos is my reflection, reminding me that this is my destiny, that what they said about me turns out to be true and no new life will be able to erase it:
I am a monster, The darkness in me finally came to life, I was made to harm others, I was made to shed the blood of witches, I was created to end all light and hope.
The years go by, but the thoughts in my head don’t stop tormenting me, they don’t let me breathe, no matter how much I convince myself otherwise, there is not a single day where I feel that I do not deserve to continue here, being happy, having a pleasant life and fun, with Willow, Amity, Vee, Gus and of course: You. While my old world was probably destroyed by my insolence and services to my creator, the guilt became too heavy for me and I know it sounds selfish but I don't want to be with it anymore, no matter how much I try to remove it, it always comes back and thank you to the human literature that you humans have, I found this way to finally break free
I thank you for giving me a second chance, I thank you for never giving up on me and letting me be part of your world and your family... but you don't deserve this, you don't deserve me and I must tell you: you don't deserve my love.
I have no choice, by taking my life I can get rid of this torment that follows me for a very long time, but if they gave me that choice, I would stand up and exclaim: “It's true, Belos. I’ll never belong to you, because I am not your puppet so you can enjoy your tricks, as if I were going to givw my friends and my family to join your party of destruction, I am the one who decides who I am and I have decided to serve who you want you swear to disappear”.
but I can't…not to my own being…not to my reflection.
so this is goodbye.
I love you Luz, I hope one day I can see you too.
-Hunter.
As Amity lifted her head to meet her mate, her heart lurched violently as she found a Static Luz.
the young Noceda was not there, his face paled and his brown eyes stared at the floor, threatening to come out of their sockets, he only expressed astonishment and genuine suffering, still trying to assimilate what he had heard.
“A young boy was found dead in the street after a brutal accident with
bicycle” The first thing that came up in the news on his phone.
He lost her balance and hit one of the walls sharply, recharging his body against it, his chest began to rise and fall, he wanted to say something, but he could only cry silently.
And unfortunately, that's where a sleepy Willow and a disheveled Gus arrived and found Luz in such a devastating state.
"Luz?" Amity asked anxiously.
“...” Nothing was heard, his body began to tremble.
"Is everything okay?" Willow asked.
and with a disturbed and extremely hurt voice, in the darkness of that kitchen, Luz finally answered:
“I have so much work to do”